星野莉奈知道糸師冴現在住在哪裡,但她沒有要去那裡找他。38Please respect copyright.PENANAytEzxWfPCJ
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依照他平常的習慣,不管有沒有去俱樂部踢球,肯定都在訓練。雖然完全不知道他現在在哪裡訓練,RE·AL又安排了什麼給他?38Please respect copyright.PENANAo4i2Wwx4bZ
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聽說他這次回日本,是為了轉型與短期休整。38Please respect copyright.PENANAoVx41fJmpQ
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RE·AL在郊區設置了一處日方合作的訓練據點,位置低調,前身是一間廢校改建的封閉式設施。雖然規模不大,但設備精密,除了技術場地,還配有守門員教練、運動治療師與心理追蹤人員——據說這是RE·AL首次嘗試以「靜地訓練」為核心理念,結合當地俱樂部與大學資源,作為遠東地區的試點基地。38Please respect copyright.PENANAplHlLNVM7y
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RE·AL給了他兩個選項——一是入住配合的長期旅館,二是直接搬回老家住。38Please respect copyright.PENANAuFEvkKnHh0
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糸師冴當然會選擇,前者。38Please respect copyright.PENANAizmpbUn334
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不是因為那間旅館有多高級,而是因為他不想回去。38Please respect copyright.PENANAWUBg8Zts7R
不是現在。38Please respect copyright.PENANAvq9yL7Yzqh
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他什麼都沒說,但她大概能理解。38Please respect copyright.PENANAi4ibzbhaLf
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她不知道他的心情變了多少,但她知道,有些距離是他自己劃下的。不是為了別人,是為了撐住自己。38Please respect copyright.PENANAofFwzS6ezw
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她打開地圖,點開那座少有人記得的舊球場。38Please respect copyright.PENANAtKw5PgS6Y1
那不是他們最常練球的地方,場地不大,也沒有燈,但他們國小時特別喜歡偷偷跑去那裡——因為沒什麼人知道,就沒人來搶,沒人來管。38Please respect copyright.PENANAxhAh6ZXLxC
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雖然練習場早拆了,改成開放式公園,但她記得——那塊靠近樹叢的空地,應該還在。38Please respect copyright.PENANAqnzCB6XeE8
那是他們以前沒處去時的「備用基地」,特別適合那種,不想回家、又非得踢球不可的傍晚。38Please respect copyright.PENANAM9ZdzxlMVI
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她沒有先傳訊息問他要不要去,也沒有確認他人在哪裡。38Please respect copyright.PENANA9oAzR6uu4n
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她只是想——如果有一點點可能,他會在那裡,那她想去看看。38Please respect copyright.PENANAgd7z2vW4wx
不是真的覺得他會在那裡,只是她需要試一次,才不會覺得自己什麼都沒做。38Please respect copyright.PENANAQAOJVTDd1X
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星野莉奈繞過車站的天橋,買了一瓶熱奶茶。路過便利商店時停了一下,想起什麼似的,轉身進去買了兩包暖暖包,一包塞進口袋,一包握在手裡。38Please respect copyright.PENANAGFiN6qnnpw
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等她走進那片空地的時候,果然空無一人。38Please respect copyright.PENANA9NkcRfg0UP
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也沒太失望,反而覺得——38Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ3CTEBNu4
這樣也好,至少自己是真的走過來了。38Please respect copyright.PENANAnfAtUrZsln
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星野莉奈站在原地,讓風吹亂頭髮,讓雪落在睫毛上。38Please respect copyright.PENANArmEqDCrEzA
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她知道,他們早就不是那種會約在秘密基地碰頭的小孩了。這裡,也早就不是躲起來就沒事的地方了。38Please respect copyright.PENANA1u1J1qfmpd
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時間被冰封,但也有什麼正在一點一滴地融化。38Please respect copyright.PENANA9j56KHNq8W
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手機震動——有訊息傳來。38Please respect copyright.PENANA6SkOFRCRR4
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『我聽說小冴回來了,要不要找一天請糸師一家來家裡吃個飯?』是媽媽。38Please respect copyright.PENANAOb76V8AIN5
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『媽,我覺得現階段不太好⋯⋯他們兄弟昨天還吵架,很兇的那種。』這句話後,手指頓了一下。38Please respect copyright.PENANALx3SnzS0m9
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星野莉奈低頭看著手機的對話框,安靜了一會兒。38Please respect copyright.PENANAHrPEHWynJC
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⋯⋯小凜現在還好嗎?昨晚他回家後,有沒有跟誰說話?有沒有冷到感冒?38Please respect copyright.PENANAvXBWZa6wRR
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『小冴跟小凜吵架?好難相信他們會吵架?我是有聽他們媽媽說,小冴現在沒有住家裡⋯⋯』38Please respect copyright.PENANABNgP9RXuJl
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『對呀,所以,之後再說吧。晚上我不回家吃喔。』38Please respect copyright.PENANAMIwkGjWUb3
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她收起手機,屏幕的光影閃了一下,落入傍晚的雪色裡,然後慢慢沉寂。38Please respect copyright.PENANAFrO2OMinUT
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星野莉奈沒有馬上把手機放回口袋,而是靜靜地握著,眼神落在眼前這片空地。38Please respect copyright.PENANAlOOBmFr5cT
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她想起有一次冬天下課後,冴穿著球衣不肯回家,她氣得去便利商店買罐裝的味噌湯,一邊碎念一邊遞過去,說:「你不喝就不准再凍到發抖。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAV6P0eXYby4
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當時他沒說話,默默接過去喝完,然後擦著嘴角說:「很鹹。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAlUpeJvxXgB
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她氣得追著他跑了三圈,最後笑到摔進雪堆裡。38Please respect copyright.PENANAzyIqqAH39j
那時候小凜也在,手上握著她塞過去的熱牛奶。38Please respect copyright.PENANAAjKKct1Jaz
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他年紀還小,個子小小一隻,穿著比他大兩號的羽絨外套,拉鍊都快拉到嘴巴,睜著大大的眼睛看著他們在雪地裡打鬧,像一顆睜眼的飯糰。38Please respect copyright.PENANA6R2JAZLyft
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她笑著叫他一起來,小凜卻只是搖搖頭,悄悄把手裡的糖果往她口袋塞,然後用幾乎聽不見的聲音說:38Please respect copyright.PENANAhWxhip5cR7
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「⋯⋯妳不要感冒。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAK10wPrx740
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當時的小凜還不太會說話,講話有點漏風。卻總是默默在一旁,蹲著、看著,安安靜靜地,像隻小動物似的跟著他們——可愛得讓人心軟。38Please respect copyright.PENANAtksTRBivo7
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她記得他那天也被他哥哥連累,雪黏了滿褲子,回家還不肯換衣服,說要跟哥哥一樣。38Please respect copyright.PENANAnhinxfjXYW
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那年冬天好冷,卻因為有他們兩個在身邊,變得很好笑,很溫暖。38Please respect copyright.PENANAqsXf2NF4AZ
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她一想起,就覺得心裡某個位置也跟著被那罐味噌湯燙了一下。38Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ93UmlM4g
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後來冴去西班牙、她忙著模特工作,這塊空地也慢慢地被荒草蓋過,再沒人來練球。最後變成了民眾閒暇泡茶下棋的公園——她甚至懷疑他早就忘了這個地方。38Please respect copyright.PENANAawBRD1uQiH
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可她還記得——冴以前每次不想回家,又不知道去哪裡時,總會出現在這裡。38Please respect copyright.PENANAankmKvVI0S
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所以今天,她才會走來。38Please respect copyright.PENANA3Mo204JU8i
星野莉奈的視線再次落在這片空曠的地,把暖暖包握得更緊了一點。38Please respect copyright.PENANAvTDswc8xy8
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冬天的傍晚比想像中還快變暗。38Please respect copyright.PENANAso86Yr1xAf
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然後,她聽見了腳步聲。38Please respect copyright.PENANA5PWuaQhbAp
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不是急促的奔跑,而是極輕微的,那種走在積雪上、小心翼翼不想驚動什麼的腳步聲。38Please respect copyright.PENANALS2hbXU97G
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她回過頭。38Please respect copyright.PENANAClNJ6JsbtL
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糸師冴穿著白色羽絨外套,背著球袋。像不經意路過,又像早就知道她會在。沒有說話,也沒有驚訝。38Please respect copyright.PENANAhyZVMbxuBN
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他只是站住,在呼吸之間,默認了某種重逢。38Please respect copyright.PENANApq3Kz5Adg3
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她笑了一下,把手裡那包暖暖包舉起來。38Please respect copyright.PENANAyfu6bN8dkL
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「要嗎?」她問。38Please respect copyright.PENANAMugD6wvtpb
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他看著她,好一會兒。38Please respect copyright.PENANADeTahl1vNV
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還是什麼都沒說。她也沒催。38Please respect copyright.PENANA9FJDhJsCrM
因為她知道,有些話,是不需要急著說出口的。38Please respect copyright.PENANAEgBxems0UM
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就像糸師冴從未親口說過「我會找妳」。38Please respect copyright.PENANAcDDEtsftAS
但星野莉奈記得,他每次回頭、停留、重新出現的時刻——就已經是了。38Please respect copyright.PENANAw7YqrkJ0ZR
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像那次她被大雨困在舞蹈教室,他沒打電話,卻一個人撐傘站在門口,說了一句:「路上有積水。」38Please respect copyright.PENANAUutSvzeMX3
像他拿到RE・AL的邀請函,小凜和她都在慶祝。只有他等到所有人散了,才走過來站在她身邊。說:他要先為凜去探路。38Please respect copyright.PENANAuVpk0lLAzH
像她把拍好的照片拿給班導看,卻被說「拍來玩玩的吧」。她沒有去球場,躲到後門外那片小公園的滑梯底下。他找到她時沒說什麼,只坐下來,低頭問她:「今天拍了幾張?」38Please respect copyright.PENANAR9lsoRXWxD
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——他總會走來,以他的方式,再次出現。總會的。38Please respect copyright.PENANADcY3RuOdrm
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她一度把這當成默契。一種不言而喻的相逢規則,也是一種不需要承諾的習慣。38Please respect copyright.PENANABlmNRJ770y
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可她現在明白了——她已經不是那個,只要他回來就會安心的自己了。38Please respect copyright.PENANAbaKmrucssf
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因為再次出現,不一定是選擇靠近;默默站著,也不等於是留下。38Please respect copyright.PENANARh6fiQ1pKB
昨晚,冴跟小凜,就是這樣——一個再次出現、一個默默站著,卻把彼此推得更開。38Please respect copyright.PENANAttYBOoR5OB
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她想起那個畫面,心口還是隱隱有點悶。38Please respect copyright.PENANAcXDBAHc8a3
她不知道,那得要多少的折磨,才會讓曾密不可分的他們,劃出那麼深的一道線。38Please respect copyright.PENANA0lxpCQTQc5
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同樣地,昨晚她的靠近,已經夠小心了。可好像只要再多走一步,就會被他親手推進無底深淵。也正因為如此,星野莉奈更確定——她必須站在這裡。38Please respect copyright.PENANACqYqsGAy28
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但她不能再主動更靠近。38Please respect copyright.PENANAS0OQzWco51
因為冴身上,已經背著太多他自己的重擔;再多一點,就會變成負擔。38Please respect copyright.PENANATdDFsko0OD
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所以這一次,她把手伸出去,不是為了拉住他,而是想看見——他會不會真的,自己走過來。38Please respect copyright.PENANAHZXM5muEIz
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她沒動,站在原地,等著看他,會不會向她走來。38Please respect copyright.PENANAs7yNqohvPd
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一聲輕響,腳步落在雪地上。38Please respect copyright.PENANA69t7d1lDNZ
接著,是第二步。38Please respect copyright.PENANAscmlruwnPk
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糸師冴,終於走近,把暖暖包接了過去。38Please respect copyright.PENANAyhoVj4SWk7
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沒有碰到手,但她覺得手心一陣暖。38Please respect copyright.PENANAQakD380BP3
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好像有什麼,把冷空氣融化了一點點。