「咁你呢，又點呀？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPr389HL0J
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiG8eya61Eq
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「托賴，幾好吖。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcT8Cfek8x
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpzaCmFsox
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInMU7iqu2Q
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pS1WgiIvL
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXLwfojQhn
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs54mX086XF
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yUsnyo5IH
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMDMKdXQtT
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiWLyarWyF
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8lURXFhB0
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5qhCz6pvN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ONHToJZ93
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseI2TYdU17
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPQtq2a0fx
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vJQvtUEA3
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XF6uMEAj4
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaLNBGxTzK
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGy55Sj1Loa
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE3rGEq0ex
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEgQZpvdEx
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSGMpIqVM0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T7u4JFDLc
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QyQOgyqiu
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbxTlvytQD
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHd52PuOcSE
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBmWorlx0T
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWHguO0txo
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每天都不想做任何事。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LdpfAClXp
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKNneXe0Tq
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDkOW0HYTn
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qqinkSTMF
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡof9HxD857e
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJrdPb5pxJ
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfflk5sCFIs
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMA0EbYDri
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeaEQvfZFd
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiUJcuhhW0
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK33bmWNukr
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgSIUtrdtU
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqnnOX0gnG
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gw4F7UlaG
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsrgqTTNvo
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmMQF9LOXZ
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoP0bP4Ls2b
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4JsMVsFH4
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv0fKrHqX9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrdGgwZDFP
何況，他們如此親厚。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMjhbESFP4
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxGWjENjuF
阿樂問：「去邊？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7nb4YIvAU
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJUpql4qNw
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrfKsg2JDq
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWF6V134ML
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRJmB5ju6X
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qobGqzbPb
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbET4seRtH
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Sean回答：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v4QgkijCt
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「係。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncsSK83aRc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE93Mu0U12Y
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvicfvuMAG
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隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVoNtda30f
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYg1vh8k2J
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnXeM9AtMz
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHluvwATRYh
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBnmsyTX7W
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0M2avTrpI8
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsHjoYoUiM
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBSQAefZo0
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXzmiBWqne
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBehwbLVj5B
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgBggHOCSc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYHDuZRUFX
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eflCIfggl
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsIWWIdu2Z
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3oZMAeKw7
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimloUAu46N
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7QTsz7boG
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJewpd3TPk
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqGB4oORp5
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSbDhJ4yF9
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70EmAuBNka
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkS6f5VTim
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMxTmTVQV3
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBROYFyFfDO
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrrsjZIohZ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBnBRlQQpG
阿樂質疑：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGWqLWo0uA
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VzdLcavmL
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUwupPjDPW
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTIert3vmD
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pciinWVtD
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcbeHU9P2i
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU37BFJs3l0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcorSkCKSr
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYhQJE8TBN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0t5GFRopt9
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhMVksYxSl
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRttkbBJBo5
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UzEG13kPq
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjcn4eKOMy
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRldm3GfFw
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUPi9RNWJd
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9Ec3dF9SZ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHWury7jQ2
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB1FyrKq07
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8m3bvbD28Q
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF12s7qJKW
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDKBk2evVN
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSAbNk1Eh9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZAMMtuQhs
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdG3ICZbe0
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoqtsQuyW2
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsxNYCWwC3
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pZrMRqXhN
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetUcZyZYFN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrBu2YrtdK
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesjwCJTgHn
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLMsHRKh1j
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUjHWI2lEc
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlUU9bS3Xk
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlRLTz13dP
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD31HJGygrz
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3sgnR9Qe1
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB4rL2IDau
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQHHct4hEV
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhats2OILXa
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgbcEBJcvo
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CBf8gg3JI
她發現自己有些恐懼。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsvXHwqb5X
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMd53g9ju6
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLe6rqxQ5U
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTOMO6lVUw
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnd7t2UcFe
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi76vZKrCr
最後，Matt離開。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIj9yxEPVy4
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh1l4iy9xp
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMZylIe55V
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybTYgRNZDl
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pN4TLI7kz
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0DCo43l9o
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZJSHOPIaq
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmOo3rKqcJ
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3Mnk4OJQq
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7d36TFFOE
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEzdGtnpMq
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefcrTQoVG6
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYzGtjS4lF
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LCbdHLRK8
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNa1X41MRR
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此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mrSgfr1aJ
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik4zvRBaTg
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgOIxMD2U9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBatH6q0yN
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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