「咁你呢，又點呀？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBBs1KcuLy
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4WWjxZJsm
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSrxEIUQ6u
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKW38R93qd
「托賴，幾好吖。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYosvtbsso
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8spodXZe4
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmjesBhGUU
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gfLso42BR
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73KGFvqgaB
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYAuLFENx7
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4h3Po7kxD
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgm0HZyEhjA
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJcZ9zn4Ql
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EcYgVc9Zp
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWOMf1exdFL
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlX4VYW2al
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRg7ZS3zGe
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9POh4rNvVU
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3Wd0EJOIm
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2pg0Zr5Vs
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuNuYurF0w
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yTGp6DCXR
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAAKt4BBNo
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFGYTlYUCv
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoCFjBcMNQ
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKWJoBAvcl
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKXV5AnNvW
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07vfPsAsP4
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9P0KeZ1mgG
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjuz1w28Ek
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqD1TJQHSs
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcVuJPcGDc
每天都不想做任何事。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGnVq6bOIh
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfJySIqqY9
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaSrfK64HK
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXpdZxqLLC
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdK18sREfR
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpU4ujs0G0
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmm6dQOlgrf
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXa2bi4BxU
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpgRDEKftq
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNrsjg5Xia
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eiYWxgjRD
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkRqGGa0eS
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKKvitJprE
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1epssli7U
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBk5PSoX63
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35KlFA13mM
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqog2xeX1c
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteNJYwhmna
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o3zQRnxmZ
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3w9PQAizgb
何況，他們如此親厚。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSkS0UQNA8
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrkFzXZpw7
阿樂問：「去邊？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiDdj6qfMw
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxrepKbKya
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYHQDDJ5r4
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68UaaLr6DT
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXJDTjo6uI
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4akDoJ2At
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmgd1VS3l6
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSR3LBZLwB
Sean回答：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tWqktD941
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7r8Z1vqHP
「係。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6K9p4OfnG
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aAi6sdwny
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSteOxrAZp
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhMS2JOlCn
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjljLteRHg
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReulKbOYTr
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1vLfTare5
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Eyw1A91U1
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyoITHbuOO
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5hf9rLyxa
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbmCOPNPrW
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLREuO2qhzN
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsXLRIedcM
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUu3Di4w5p4
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwK4e6t1zx
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2LFgmqtlJ
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0w3txzARku
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ElcNteNNA
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6AfIHjbxf
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SnH5kZ30A
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMkWYws5YL
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmSjBMbcC8
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9172rlIBkX
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KSlECCktG
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZXSzPJ7Ku
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzGf6Q4c0F
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1anoSKcx7s
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJP3b46HMZx
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbVyVpp3BP
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidyWVw0V7V
阿樂質疑：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJ2uDmcnTR
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa3YktxApR
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkhDR6Lh3x
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxN2TAaF9fh
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAESn6tyQSo
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLACwxOHR4
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn07MSFo0KZ
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaORFsZf9W3
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxmraxTF6i
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lmPkvxgJF
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsFGEXJ5jn
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hA2NKuJ6b
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbj3frFBgZ
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqDjOv5Gom
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPLEIY6I8v
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbA414nrJT
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB7uI4AE00
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3ZVYerzSW
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT0ImhMiWn
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjXj8Be6FJ
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyUVwjom2g
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv5SZZQFlO
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lafybWphN
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj3uuOiDFX
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIU92I5jdD
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E2choTACQ
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oKFZLuV9f
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6uWhDKqD4
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ11tocvIyy
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcU7yuVvUe
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eozIy391X
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0r9nKeAijB
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiPfy4BgrL
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Pdq8OSkIq
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfTAVWIkFm
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0dDmQKyxo
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt9CsLMJRH
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzgMESmTR1
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF8h1yPzqp
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iTGwI0Tuq
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAphzw3kCs
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPw0gaM8He
她發現自己有些恐懼。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYepSD8wxC
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhyKYjBOFb
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoh0rHM70i
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1J68eVKwn
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxgeAwpOAi
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9amwYw41Oa
最後，Matt離開。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBDYinBDWp
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYf3p9GRtUe
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkrvXDdixA
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdP7rfxAmwh
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsi0B6T5pM
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgnuix9UEj
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLru4NGHTG8
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k2DwA7YLO
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnudx4YiBvy
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj6On2NVNs
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMesUBEJZVF
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBOkhIvgri
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGzkE2ShLh
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JwvOdJACw
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7V4ZGyRKL
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uaS7CVcWu
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZtIHRrPw5
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HjAmIzDMQ
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDaT25wJtT
708Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90HUtoaa2v
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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