「咁你呢，又點呀？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RNRA0IreB
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66bXbUpXsp
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「托賴，幾好吖。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV47nZwzgDB
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SAPvYclN2
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WVgNXuQfR
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMLJi8u4fF
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctJDegnHxZ
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxss33dQ9Rc
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXdXQeoF9I
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFQ3is3TK7
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1KCqwwAiv
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLffTKA7jJ
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdK3NGB34X
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMeEEznlu5
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRHvaJintU
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4drM7eVMXr
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAfG4OqbJw
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxQcdhOABo
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtgcKavcAg
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvPdwkdj8o
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGCuTkl9wC
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENwhVA1m6b
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1zpYSGB1o8
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojK8Oz1nmC
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8kGnj1LuC
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jVcajtO9B
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYpbr5cnjK
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每天都不想做任何事。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCD8Yyr611F
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUL7nHjhzE
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFkEYBWhiT
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwFsTvrzoX
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SWSnybKvK
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSigpCIW7k
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjKNj2eHd5
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21AkG047om
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「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8WHhCPY2s
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79AX4Sn4aQ
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtIrSAbRJx
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaezCnW4iS
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPpnmpRs2Q
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9i5xWSgd9
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhKElhApXg
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXaxSHHxSr5
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbaEdOUxRm
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2daFRHYBSw
何況，他們如此親厚。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EPVu22I4q
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9Qsdipmfo
阿樂問：「去邊？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPFWIxvdv1
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgavX5WZed
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAixkm5cwkc
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LEQsDBMW3
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9klzOQNrYY
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCGWClRfDY
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCZk2rpSxD
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAGhJuaCSw
Sean回答：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtXxErsYkB
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRoQYxrnFs
「係。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4KL1H9n1b
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4TEIsk6Ky
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzkXMndAbV
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YafCa13mj
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjKjoKorsn
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bpmwo5i16
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvzKUSuJee
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzdPslAP1F
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUL7SQUJnUi
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxPg6bUtKI
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9xV3QTZ3W
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRKG56PL4J
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9PWsCYWii
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVXAfN2ANW
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c5xoFVeWs
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45ALjvHFWp
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zws7HordE
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMV0aYWNq3U
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QD73njDeK
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7EyFbbKmA
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAYDCb9CnK
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEkbC37Nkk
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSnsgH5TtO
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW6S9FMN86
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYS8mcTcpb
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMxB8vZmT3
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGP4GkKLyW
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPkrEaUAvZ
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OW8aSANkB
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjxQnjQrb2
阿樂質疑：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaYUHS5Lym
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPxJeiZwVp
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73p9luFWpJ
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotKfoX4Czp
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd9tK6rxLp
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNT8puUg7V
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ksq284Ukx
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDsB88pa2m
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlAiOYnf4C
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpLOFCP0ft
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeJDrfpHbB
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjZwKoled6
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST7mpdjCnQ
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVZ7dQzmW8
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhV7bA8v0m
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDvWjIGXu5
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pTd3bQrLU
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagh2jOIV5M
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5dvUJ2DL1
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORhGnXKOWh
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVLOZ4kaV1
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9f5I2t308M
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFyclqXxdW
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZhNh2df6M
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JVC8ZBjzH
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGexM5gOId
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiwpnusYpk
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuAwXxXYGM
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANlGPwbuiS
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHImIyAgdyr
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjvmAYJWpS
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZyKxpKndz
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1BwQTM61L
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswCKAhbP5S
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA1mkwrzAa
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYR6xuNZsd
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Svuv9njOa
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DBfiquzMn
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuWl0J8vPN
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLsJT5Kw62
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7Za2eAvOH
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6FpofRUfM
她發現自己有些恐懼。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaiKIzsbo6
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMhk7UCuc4
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hTv4rQqwC
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18uXfq7Hql
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCIo4VYQvc
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06Qairs8dG
最後，Matt離開。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC0v0OZcUN
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHMIR5hBG8
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hPEglmfDa
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDre6rilHvu
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfm5cEPKbt
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIFrOipFBg
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVP0iZMqmhh
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCtm4Hkn5D
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ubmd0jHP4
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPOW6vLocB
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXEE7LO2DG
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ljypsS0Fg
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHF6epx1Qp
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsORk0gv5Od
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfCtPGnqNy
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldy4IDNihS
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDSg5UUPCQ
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivyfBzkcrb
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJaNaw59rt
771Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwoS475Jeg
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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