我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQq56Dltbud
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCGevpIHFh
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「咬下——」明白了。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQx96D1AnVQ
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXD1m3fnHgT
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrR1GX3Bcm
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGrkDOelqr
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJt7StHFJF
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神是不是故意的？759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50yGLDFxpn
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP5lcwRdj1
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPBgDFs1Ft
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKtMC2Mazr
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggnft7k24y
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSwePAeGDL
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VidJT4g9h
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2rOoVi1ix
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmASVsSCrA8
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZKLdKcjl8
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8Ncm9oS2z
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDkGwaSZbf
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然後我沒有再阻止她。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdDF84tydx
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPm32VdEZz
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPfqSyI7H7
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOzy0Dp1DU
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhzFQPskOY
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3LOHj47BN
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6H6Vf1b4pr
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hZJa5jFPY
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzB92ldviH
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEkY8PKGoq
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcAAm36lYp
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbnMZh55rD
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbV250FM9a
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYz5NvBX82
我也正在難過。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AzMPr2uWy
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfmaUt3f9B
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3ZpWQR0iP
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Oz2kCEOqs
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「點解？」她問。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavMDnGni8w
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fgQrHdRHi
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsec8sVs6P
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5BdW9z4Dw
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQv9H8LY3U
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc4JDKCvl7
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7pSzTWl56
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBPYTKYtZE
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaNdN17Wkc
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這是……什麼爛方法？759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16GzhQo0BL
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZ7hblZbmR
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXOOZ7HUBH
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9svhUqTLpT
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「咩條件？」她問。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaZiXWcCMT
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNbTATNbBf
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVJ37zrrk0
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pZ3JiGFUb
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHZaHOItGl
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPSr9ttuc8
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXNo6PZvHk
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcBIA1rjx5
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「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MSgXo2r0J
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsly6hVKpjO
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACt43edgpN
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmdNitI9ex
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4O2iG9Lhi
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshbx4Cm7tf
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07PHQHdWOe
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTLsQxERlU
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4jSTfapvq
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNaavGToWZ
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq8e8yQ7hX
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9vwLAXpqn
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說完，她聽完。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3x2buy0JR
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft60xDXkKK
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGLdFcdHrB
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhzLQFQTbm
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lMlIw7afS
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdosyTyh42
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMRdpXdqRY
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyiY8gY0Qd
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「陸傾兒……」我說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJiIO2wIvE
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgnMNrZNbD
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkwFA0Svh8
「揀咩都得？」我問。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHU4MxkoSyy
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHifaHWHCDK
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sNsWk6zqJ
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdDXDcLt1R
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqeZLf1JYj
而我不懂回答。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOx0iPVLT8q
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHwH6uS4fY
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「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9XExaRKhJ
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUpYTsxSHc
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBtfdb02cu
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZtAro0nTx
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHU5NCPmjB
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8r1h31lBK
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡos3MLmodoN
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVdDfGDXTG
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7Kf40btWv
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4d7JIncLi
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwQfJ4u1hi
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過後——759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiRzg26pCc
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwV4OeYIBFG
759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVqufvzimA
屁股坐下。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYhuHScBMP
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。759Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlrbtnH70q
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