我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。709Please respect copyright.PENANAf8t7N2PaAu
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看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAiTrZURYZA8
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背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。709Please respect copyright.PENANAossI5smZlk
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奈何,心頭一樣沉重。709Please respect copyright.PENANArcu9hzYpKD
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走進了屋邨商場。709Please respect copyright.PENANAdruwFB8yq2
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。709Please respect copyright.PENANA3IIBPT1wwx
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。709Please respect copyright.PENANANtN3iDiQqt
709Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZqMaL92Ln
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。709Please respect copyright.PENANACGGYfEHMMH
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我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。709Please respect copyright.PENANA7cZkQzofYY
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曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。709Please respect copyright.PENANAeWC2mIFrD9
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。709Please respect copyright.PENANA5pX2ydfuB5
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。709Please respect copyright.PENANAIenDFjdcpb
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。709Please respect copyright.PENANA6US0njbWHW
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。709Please respect copyright.PENANAIaWY7PfNL3
709Please respect copyright.PENANA6NyclKrNqc
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。709Please respect copyright.PENANAsJA3i4FpG3
709Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8mHQ6IWjs
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——709Please respect copyright.PENANAPdvaW6DHzE
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。709Please respect copyright.PENANASTWVaqqelB
709Please respect copyright.PENANAz9LsBLi8eH
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。709Please respect copyright.PENANADV59ESY9Kc
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腳步還是能動。709Please respect copyright.PENANATI3N2FBnD4
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。709Please respect copyright.PENANAIT6aJY1tuE
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直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……709Please respect copyright.PENANAi4bZkOKdN0
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腳步才轉向離去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAJFsxXjDxXX
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。709Please respect copyright.PENANAzIuAfnE3Hw
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。709Please respect copyright.PENANAmDbD7piSFV
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。709Please respect copyright.PENANArkDuWMNaqw
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但是已經不再重要。709Please respect copyright.PENANAi6oihW9wNN
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她騙了我。709Please respect copyright.PENANAXZ3V4BdB4Z
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。709Please respect copyright.PENANABMAi2XwwaR
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。709Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9zKuDzPE2
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。709Please respect copyright.PENANAC0IBmCQqYp
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。709Please respect copyright.PENANAFX14eTgoHS
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。709Please respect copyright.PENANAwEQnTR9GfK
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。709Please respect copyright.PENANArOUrwoYdnm
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但我錯了。709Please respect copyright.PENANAvLT2p6SI3w
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。709Please respect copyright.PENANA5byoQausAt
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。709Please respect copyright.PENANAFRlz41G9ja
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眼下——709Please respect copyright.PENANA5ERgQYSCSF
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。709Please respect copyright.PENANA3BjrXJRezD
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。709Please respect copyright.PENANAWj1JNsE2Yz
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。709Please respect copyright.PENANA3c7GIvE8yG
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?709Please respect copyright.PENANA4TDD8cHEz2
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。709Please respect copyright.PENANAW11tYQq7H8
709Please respect copyright.PENANAO1gBnanr07
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。709Please respect copyright.PENANAj0Oj94Yms6
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。709Please respect copyright.PENANA6VE71IzHPC
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。709Please respect copyright.PENANA7YDXyofHH9
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。709Please respect copyright.PENANAfoFZMeTskZ
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。709Please respect copyright.PENANAU7QI4spw6m
709Please respect copyright.PENANA3gW4Y37eXZ
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。709Please respect copyright.PENANACthXXZGtlb
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。709Please respect copyright.PENANA8mKWPtdDxM
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。709Please respect copyright.PENANAdXQtjnSVd2
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神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……709Please respect copyright.PENANAk2kepb7MZq
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我樂意代勞的。709Please respect copyright.PENANA9Vns6oFEPs
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。709Please respect copyright.PENANAViCxWVbPHc
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——709Please respect copyright.PENANAsU9gYJBF0Y
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。709Please respect copyright.PENANA93R4SKdvYz
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?709Please respect copyright.PENANALqbsuO9Fdb
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坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。709Please respect copyright.PENANAvecm9sh9QO
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在下午等待至日落——709Please respect copyright.PENANAalzdj6eKIH
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。709Please respect copyright.PENANA06414DThY2
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。709Please respect copyright.PENANAj781yyjFKq
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「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」709Please respect copyright.PENANAuLrYChu7QG
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。709Please respect copyright.PENANAiovVvzFmlh
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「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAUiBO0m8Kth
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。709Please respect copyright.PENANAT3f0lCgVfd
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。709Please respect copyright.PENANAyp2mqzvdA5
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「嘭——」也是不進。709Please respect copyright.PENANACPDjTROJoH
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。709Please respect copyright.PENANAWRMHLLzbrH
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漸漸出現晚霞。709Please respect copyright.PENANAQfIazLok7U
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回去吧。709Please respect copyright.PENANAbprxdzWTvu
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。709Please respect copyright.PENANADikd8LA7XU
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。709Please respect copyright.PENANATfdkMTxZPd
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAhmemq903gC
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背著書包,累然站起——709Please respect copyright.PENANAJKRyS2PQ8U
709Please respect copyright.PENANAJNLSuM2LrA
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」709Please respect copyright.PENANAG3BrC7sDI4
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這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。709Please respect copyright.PENANA77z15zz5bf
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最後,舉起手。709Please respect copyright.PENANAf5ozqxYbVh
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。709Please respect copyright.PENANACtZ81smd8Q
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* * *709Please respect copyright.PENANAnMbQFjhioZ
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。709Please respect copyright.PENANAZhDpGygFxr
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。709Please respect copyright.PENANAToAdFhRr9i
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。709Please respect copyright.PENANAGAphNbJ5Sk
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。709Please respect copyright.PENANAy2ByTe5Bo9
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。709Please respect copyright.PENANARAbIBCJZpW
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。709Please respect copyright.PENANAsu6vNgAMsG
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。709Please respect copyright.PENANAh3BtleSuue
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。709Please respect copyright.PENANAKMmAiwkvGq
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。709Please respect copyright.PENANAprwF2EVUaU
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。709Please respect copyright.PENANAhfVE6Ddmgj
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。709Please respect copyright.PENANA8HMJoHweWF
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。709Please respect copyright.PENANApPnaCgLfQp
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。709Please respect copyright.PENANAfyB9Z8ubEp
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。709Please respect copyright.PENANAaE7WlVRkgT
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAlcuwga4QCe
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。709Please respect copyright.PENANAbRjWPfDbTT
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。709Please respect copyright.PENANA5Hc6cqjnUj
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。709Please respect copyright.PENANAYxXjaTTtag
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。709Please respect copyright.PENANAb4qJW7BANK
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……709Please respect copyright.PENANAioY8u57sG7
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——放大瞳孔。709Please respect copyright.PENANAMSqJBsibya
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。709Please respect copyright.PENANAD0VQDC7yup
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手機就在我的褲袋。709Please respect copyright.PENANAGUB2uNtKyz
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。709Please respect copyright.PENANAfBcRSJYVFu
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陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。709Please respect copyright.PENANAqYW7RmN18H
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。709Please respect copyright.PENANALOhtEQefjV
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。709Please respect copyright.PENANAHu1M6Rt75I
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那麼,打嗎?709Please respect copyright.PENANALaaw8VLDfg
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。709Please respect copyright.PENANA5oWwMrDMsQ
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?709Please respect copyright.PENANAEBNhrnMkwv
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?709Please respect copyright.PENANA6KpbSHvuWD
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我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。709Please respect copyright.PENANAxvnbJMVj7k
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。709Please respect copyright.PENANAVHmvTLDehT
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幾度拿出手機的我——709Please respect copyright.PENANATUA8kCWqYW
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算吧。709Please respect copyright.PENANAtMeiVUSvDS
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把手機放回褲袋。709Please respect copyright.PENANAUVV7VWrYwt
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。709Please respect copyright.PENANA7MHBvjNR2o
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。709Please respect copyright.PENANAXQTRkKozU1
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。709Please respect copyright.PENANAwgBtXLe8yH
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