我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。748Please respect copyright.PENANApZe8gd4qLI
748Please respect copyright.PENANAleoVHSY7Is
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAJrBctIKkdg
748Please respect copyright.PENANAJynMHaFlmW
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkOMcziK5vG
748Please respect copyright.PENANAePp75UgGQo
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。748Please respect copyright.PENANAlIuocyCV19
748Please respect copyright.PENANAWWNr8aKCu9
走進了屋邨商場。748Please respect copyright.PENANAWw4Icad0qv
748Please respect copyright.PENANA3vDIFBV3BJ
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。748Please respect copyright.PENANAQk75XHcRKR
748Please respect copyright.PENANA70YIeIxj77
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。748Please respect copyright.PENANAjfHjjzIuf1
748Please respect copyright.PENANARrpry1KNt9
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。748Please respect copyright.PENANAigdP94h6si
748Please respect copyright.PENANAhOFflLX0NY
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。748Please respect copyright.PENANAmI0ocL8pJP
748Please respect copyright.PENANAhEh3kr7lzB
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。748Please respect copyright.PENANAJOWXmXfJYD
748Please respect copyright.PENANA7YSoz94yvU
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。748Please respect copyright.PENANAEbn4heoHa1
748Please respect copyright.PENANAiREXusIdP6
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。748Please respect copyright.PENANA2sqX51D9No
748Please respect copyright.PENANAf6nzD4bUqm
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。748Please respect copyright.PENANAWheNLVRqQB
748Please respect copyright.PENANAwvgE461bfH
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。748Please respect copyright.PENANAStJiAkFJR5
748Please respect copyright.PENANA3whWwo6pLr
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。748Please respect copyright.PENANAOU91P91rDJ
748Please respect copyright.PENANA9AnssCuUyt
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——748Please respect copyright.PENANAmXbpEAeUNN
748Please respect copyright.PENANAzpYocNJrjo
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。748Please respect copyright.PENANAIoyxNlDcLU
748Please respect copyright.PENANAIIO3K4NXKV
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。748Please respect copyright.PENANAbLDXISBKJ6
748Please respect copyright.PENANAw3OZO95A7m
腳步還是能動。748Please respect copyright.PENANALJkUhfbwLP
748Please respect copyright.PENANAlkQMWw8BTt
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。748Please respect copyright.PENANApwObWAoVsr
748Please respect copyright.PENANAuTCXStyA8z
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……748Please respect copyright.PENANAVA10hZidAV
748Please respect copyright.PENANA9psaH4guo9
腳步才轉向離去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAO4eUpKJ909
748Please respect copyright.PENANACZXN6CeiQ0
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。748Please respect copyright.PENANAxBOc7Q3299
748Please respect copyright.PENANATFwaxR7qQK
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。748Please respect copyright.PENANAd6GGPaE6GR
748Please respect copyright.PENANAhfPvnXUZ5o
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。748Please respect copyright.PENANAjA98RRg7Fq
748Please respect copyright.PENANANbZTL1V3Bl
但是已經不再重要。748Please respect copyright.PENANAy8mvhiuoAJ
748Please respect copyright.PENANAPI4tdPkYPZ
她騙了我。748Please respect copyright.PENANAYzzKpISpxP
748Please respect copyright.PENANAXKwxMZREKh
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。748Please respect copyright.PENANAGyX2knyJOF
748Please respect copyright.PENANA769HLZp5ww
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。748Please respect copyright.PENANAwHIbF0z3Zd
748Please respect copyright.PENANAmA4Vcdu1jJ
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。748Please respect copyright.PENANA9igal9trqp
748Please respect copyright.PENANA7s2nyvGLIp
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。748Please respect copyright.PENANAu9VjWjhVxT
748Please respect copyright.PENANA90VUPcVTSu
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。748Please respect copyright.PENANAwv4i65PZEf
748Please respect copyright.PENANAIrhjK4gOsl
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。748Please respect copyright.PENANAR4LEmBCpm1
748Please respect copyright.PENANAYkpSmE1eNH
但我錯了。748Please respect copyright.PENANA6srU5AA7Pa
748Please respect copyright.PENANAfboY0iwnmD
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。748Please respect copyright.PENANAyoKJEsaxPS
748Please respect copyright.PENANAepyOYDSZTn
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkd21g1HkxA
748Please respect copyright.PENANAAT4pESUI7S
眼下——748Please respect copyright.PENANAzOgg7RDCom
748Please respect copyright.PENANAzNDkrZrHjX
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。748Please respect copyright.PENANAhryI3Xg2YM
748Please respect copyright.PENANA3LZp6aluPi
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkrI6UARNAX
748Please respect copyright.PENANAU5G9v2dF57
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAXaQ4eD3WRp
748Please respect copyright.PENANAO4NOvZtEo9
我能夠再承受一次嗎?748Please respect copyright.PENANAwXzvPTLKjU
748Please respect copyright.PENANAhD04AfVfrd
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。748Please respect copyright.PENANA6haURyQe9N
748Please respect copyright.PENANAEaUg5BnABE
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。748Please respect copyright.PENANAS9nfhztnOr
748Please respect copyright.PENANAV38MD2fGMg
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。748Please respect copyright.PENANAzsDNSkF0zU
748Please respect copyright.PENANAODY1OEIX8C
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。748Please respect copyright.PENANAu0WqGVGHft
748Please respect copyright.PENANAI7b4waEzKU
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。748Please respect copyright.PENANA8mBO8NjBEF
748Please respect copyright.PENANAnv1Qdj3M2f
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。748Please respect copyright.PENANAW1XWW517ro
748Please respect copyright.PENANAHel4ABisAx
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkHwYH9FHdx
748Please respect copyright.PENANAxca6bXPOcs
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。748Please respect copyright.PENANAdUbBVqP0Q5
748Please respect copyright.PENANA8YJYFOHPQB
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。748Please respect copyright.PENANAzR7ryehB31
748Please respect copyright.PENANACiydyodI9p
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……748Please respect copyright.PENANAAItH7bJDXN
748Please respect copyright.PENANAB5oREdCcgi
我樂意代勞的。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkTk4V62reo
748Please respect copyright.PENANAHWqxYBo8w8
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。748Please respect copyright.PENANAFmZztgaMFA
748Please respect copyright.PENANAkBVea4Bql3
我馬上看看後座的乘客——748Please respect copyright.PENANASZBGRMREcZ
748Please respect copyright.PENANA3vL0vQzppo
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。748Please respect copyright.PENANAaWSvdyVb9F
748Please respect copyright.PENANAuasiqGeV6N
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?748Please respect copyright.PENANAEklwY9pgqa
748Please respect copyright.PENANAXi5rXlRDVi
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。748Please respect copyright.PENANANkdZEFlx1U
748Please respect copyright.PENANAv6WezNLKu6
在下午等待至日落——748Please respect copyright.PENANAiy44QeBVOY
748Please respect copyright.PENANAQbh3TLU7lY
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。748Please respect copyright.PENANAbj8irBpInL
748Please respect copyright.PENANAI6y6PnYW06
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。748Please respect copyright.PENANAqiyQvwwJs7
748Please respect copyright.PENANAy9yvQkfeZ9
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」748Please respect copyright.PENANAzT4cAiZR8Z
748Please respect copyright.PENANAz0Xy2JEype
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。748Please respect copyright.PENANAM1drunen4T
748Please respect copyright.PENANAuZ7hu8zM3E
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。748Please respect copyright.PENANA4EI30xCIIz
748Please respect copyright.PENANAWdsyQCdzdM
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。748Please respect copyright.PENANABmkcWsfv6o
748Please respect copyright.PENANAgqlMAheBpd
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。748Please respect copyright.PENANAnoLDjs84ix
748Please respect copyright.PENANA1DCZk7r86t
「嘭——」也是不進。748Please respect copyright.PENANA1uEcZwfW6b
748Please respect copyright.PENANAisK6RTrYuz
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。748Please respect copyright.PENANADecjPYc8Jw
748Please respect copyright.PENANABZF1WS2PbE
漸漸出現晚霞。748Please respect copyright.PENANAQwSUEabQYx
748Please respect copyright.PENANABhifcxeHIb
回去吧。748Please respect copyright.PENANA8PZ1Uh5dff
748Please respect copyright.PENANAkWEYsoQzfe
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。748Please respect copyright.PENANAjmudGAceN3
748Please respect copyright.PENANA6NRrT2PIV8
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。748Please respect copyright.PENANApruHg4Xg2E
748Please respect copyright.PENANA8tTHAuEYXN
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAvLSuObS6yK
748Please respect copyright.PENANAT3nVdaYmRo
背著書包,累然站起——748Please respect copyright.PENANAWOKKvk3EOe
748Please respect copyright.PENANA5E39UFZYTA
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」748Please respect copyright.PENANAi0nbHNLgaY
748Please respect copyright.PENANAz13yHYxZ1x
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。748Please respect copyright.PENANAkzKGyo2N5L
748Please respect copyright.PENANAISJhTntSAx
最後,舉起手。748Please respect copyright.PENANA7QmPmvRk75
748Please respect copyright.PENANAtavA94lcFN
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。748Please respect copyright.PENANAGlFCJx2UA2
748Please respect copyright.PENANAeczIzQdXmW
* * *748Please respect copyright.PENANAbXyI4GQR3w
748Please respect copyright.PENANALWVs2dRIw8
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。748Please respect copyright.PENANA5byKsbEEFE
748Please respect copyright.PENANAgIV9HsyYAx
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。748Please respect copyright.PENANAIlzHd0fhe0
748Please respect copyright.PENANAeuA1B7jzid
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。748Please respect copyright.PENANANnlScFOyUH
748Please respect copyright.PENANAm5aKJzNKSc
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。748Please respect copyright.PENANAMI7U147Pq7
748Please respect copyright.PENANAXw8LbjNtuO
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。748Please respect copyright.PENANA41ziJp272a
748Please respect copyright.PENANAJu6ASi2Fbr
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。748Please respect copyright.PENANAWTCK7da8Ef
748Please respect copyright.PENANAJGkOkTrqoa
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。748Please respect copyright.PENANAqzNTRBaM6m
748Please respect copyright.PENANAlvU9XY6MIU
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。748Please respect copyright.PENANAizD9LP8104
748Please respect copyright.PENANA0YTo9LoDg6
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。748Please respect copyright.PENANAUDU2TF436Y
748Please respect copyright.PENANAYYDuuVTZbD
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。748Please respect copyright.PENANAe1qI9ZVP5Z
748Please respect copyright.PENANAhnYUEBFToS
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。748Please respect copyright.PENANArrwBF5qowf
748Please respect copyright.PENANAfOFvoLQd4v
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAeULmAWuQev
748Please respect copyright.PENANAo0nGrbEk3a
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。748Please respect copyright.PENANARUeLurhyTE
748Please respect copyright.PENANAotd7EBlfqP
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。748Please respect copyright.PENANAd6rOCbgB7D
748Please respect copyright.PENANArdaxb3C3RX
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。748Please respect copyright.PENANAdVr2p9GGVb
748Please respect copyright.PENANAILwqLpKbtt
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。748Please respect copyright.PENANAHPlVhSRmAJ
748Please respect copyright.PENANAK3jd4BJdIi
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。748Please respect copyright.PENANApRCHJNqt5N
748Please respect copyright.PENANACA5WYm1n3o
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。748Please respect copyright.PENANANpRzPzdgjZ
748Please respect copyright.PENANAwD37bsKSAm
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。748Please respect copyright.PENANAETOHPEM9Dw
748Please respect copyright.PENANAWpWWtgglPk
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……748Please respect copyright.PENANAUUEFOwhbHn
748Please respect copyright.PENANAHG8UCBKWkR
——放大瞳孔。748Please respect copyright.PENANAWOcLW3q9V4
748Please respect copyright.PENANAbWXrAbieh1
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。748Please respect copyright.PENANA0zNcadVPb0
748Please respect copyright.PENANAz9denCgSG5
手機就在我的褲袋。748Please respect copyright.PENANA9z6Wtb8892
748Please respect copyright.PENANAjCRLKbyHnG
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。748Please respect copyright.PENANAldb4CsosAi
748Please respect copyright.PENANANAC4NtIg7C
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。748Please respect copyright.PENANAJDGsWb7YtG
748Please respect copyright.PENANA06GlBYBuFo
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。748Please respect copyright.PENANAavPmCL7O3N
748Please respect copyright.PENANApMu2vzL4mR
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。748Please respect copyright.PENANANY6b2ocUUh
748Please respect copyright.PENANA0pKA9QiQ8G
那麼,打嗎?748Please respect copyright.PENANAfdQMPuYWAP
748Please respect copyright.PENANAHYtzASr9N6
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。748Please respect copyright.PENANAzk1OYI5iSF
748Please respect copyright.PENANAnpEv0D75Km
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?748Please respect copyright.PENANAPZF4JCFbE8
748Please respect copyright.PENANAbK1IFtRZmf
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?748Please respect copyright.PENANAVZp9QagExK
748Please respect copyright.PENANAyl8wcZwshd
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。748Please respect copyright.PENANAc796SaBB1d
748Please respect copyright.PENANAOZCHmjpDNH
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。748Please respect copyright.PENANAMvuqSI0KWg
748Please respect copyright.PENANAxdhkKtXL7D
幾度拿出手機的我——748Please respect copyright.PENANAFWdkgKuKt7
748Please respect copyright.PENANAnbDT78xjMl
算吧。748Please respect copyright.PENANAc8t42lDYjA
748Please respect copyright.PENANAVpB2AbfxNq
把手機放回褲袋。748Please respect copyright.PENANAxFLVHEvTuM
748Please respect copyright.PENANAbB4YqsXoj4
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。748Please respect copyright.PENANALRP5PvKzVZ
748Please respect copyright.PENANA13Kf8ORMk8
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。748Please respect copyright.PENANA3GM8rjBTqp
748Please respect copyright.PENANAikhqNuhnEy
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。748Please respect copyright.PENANA5MgugdAkD1
748Please respect copyright.PENANATHt7dOqSMy