我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。676Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6nLtDaQhB
676Please respect copyright.PENANA4F2byHhXwt
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAoSjsYobbVb
676Please respect copyright.PENANAWLrvBuN6yF
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。676Please respect copyright.PENANArtdagP3JtI
676Please respect copyright.PENANAazV9hzIKNB
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。676Please respect copyright.PENANAwgo6P3KQSv
676Please respect copyright.PENANAIkXFGVef8z
走進了屋邨商場。676Please respect copyright.PENANAdCeTUHrwy2
676Please respect copyright.PENANAK7eSzQnpye
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。676Please respect copyright.PENANAw9qzmkOV31
676Please respect copyright.PENANATaYVsD6P74
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。676Please respect copyright.PENANA7TmyQ6AJmO
676Please respect copyright.PENANADH1w4MOtz9
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。676Please respect copyright.PENANAnwP00FZypf
676Please respect copyright.PENANAgjY28KVXq3
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。676Please respect copyright.PENANAy90NbK70hm
676Please respect copyright.PENANAeq5LSQVHvy
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。676Please respect copyright.PENANAvpZXWtHO3I
676Please respect copyright.PENANAtdcGdjpui8
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。676Please respect copyright.PENANAJM9GOOXcLK
676Please respect copyright.PENANAixmPcneAK1
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。676Please respect copyright.PENANAdXClSwzNcS
676Please respect copyright.PENANAMZj3W9tu3v
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。676Please respect copyright.PENANAmLmVodeNAS
676Please respect copyright.PENANAIGDQienjBn
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。676Please respect copyright.PENANAZfI77rEjZZ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAvN6U6EHf30
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。676Please respect copyright.PENANAfrWtg3M5cY
676Please respect copyright.PENANAae232tiizH
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——676Please respect copyright.PENANAbJbJ5iSQib
676Please respect copyright.PENANAlhJjPmF7Dc
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。676Please respect copyright.PENANAv7Bg5nhkUN
676Please respect copyright.PENANAtT0mAXfUcr
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。676Please respect copyright.PENANA3zbFKif882
676Please respect copyright.PENANAFFY7C07FYO
腳步還是能動。676Please respect copyright.PENANAvnBcVrSZPH
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。676Please respect copyright.PENANA9G7TBbTXPR
676Please respect copyright.PENANAUhMAyuvFzz
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……676Please respect copyright.PENANAEjF42W12WD
676Please respect copyright.PENANAFDZE6y4Pzx
腳步才轉向離去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAVIcCw4UzYZ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAbEcQ69M76l
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。676Please respect copyright.PENANAr2WZQZ28Zp
676Please respect copyright.PENANA5nOlJLUbxf
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。676Please respect copyright.PENANAGLqBzSA138
676Please respect copyright.PENANASAzq4TEhqp
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。676Please respect copyright.PENANA1meFDRI5TD
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但是已經不再重要。676Please respect copyright.PENANAkXM9rQSIvp
676Please respect copyright.PENANAIYmZG4XkY0
她騙了我。676Please respect copyright.PENANA1TJrHw1PY9
676Please respect copyright.PENANApfpP4rHyaZ
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。676Please respect copyright.PENANAjfNuURjFVV
676Please respect copyright.PENANAwD88nHzNeX
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。676Please respect copyright.PENANAuGtuwtn7df
676Please respect copyright.PENANAnKpqfAstUS
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。676Please respect copyright.PENANA3EhgExofa5
676Please respect copyright.PENANA1bov0B0CsW
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。676Please respect copyright.PENANACwqo2XgPms
676Please respect copyright.PENANANHp9Hkn4KE
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。676Please respect copyright.PENANABTlxxb0A92
676Please respect copyright.PENANAyJ2oEzxvgz
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。676Please respect copyright.PENANAXiFBneykTV
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但我錯了。676Please respect copyright.PENANA4nfe6WOEgq
676Please respect copyright.PENANAq7BqUZWG9u
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。676Please respect copyright.PENANAR1ZnWleGWk
676Please respect copyright.PENANAUknm9kKeKh
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。676Please respect copyright.PENANARf7cYEDJxv
676Please respect copyright.PENANAX9O50qPVdw
眼下——676Please respect copyright.PENANAgX1S3xGruf
676Please respect copyright.PENANALypRibQchk
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。676Please respect copyright.PENANATmv6zAMKDx
676Please respect copyright.PENANAIFl1XduLBx
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。676Please respect copyright.PENANARf8FGOBjAV
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAatkW6XQs1v
676Please respect copyright.PENANAohgLYdvAhh
我能夠再承受一次嗎?676Please respect copyright.PENANA6JcbodJ1gf
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。676Please respect copyright.PENANAZBeGoqNAOq
676Please respect copyright.PENANABuPyXDTQkq
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。676Please respect copyright.PENANATe93g6gZhq
676Please respect copyright.PENANA69mZVQBKam
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。676Please respect copyright.PENANA4XUrK7aJdE
676Please respect copyright.PENANAwoc0fpoYV5
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。676Please respect copyright.PENANAXB5lMCzXcX
676Please respect copyright.PENANAv2h0J96PbL
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。676Please respect copyright.PENANAeuezWwhogJ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAoYZjBNWvDs
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。676Please respect copyright.PENANAFQKJhLqvgy
676Please respect copyright.PENANA3BqVDDrwWC
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。676Please respect copyright.PENANAghTxIxCmIi
676Please respect copyright.PENANAJxRf1DBTrx
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。676Please respect copyright.PENANAKvJw34JP6b
676Please respect copyright.PENANABiC8FHdXiH
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。676Please respect copyright.PENANA227pvlj6Kq
676Please respect copyright.PENANAm2OkOMVKQV
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……676Please respect copyright.PENANAJZvllX5atU
676Please respect copyright.PENANANiKXZUCQpx
我樂意代勞的。676Please respect copyright.PENANAQHTTJTgBTe
676Please respect copyright.PENANA1mTNFoAEe6
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。676Please respect copyright.PENANAsaYw7p7bjX
676Please respect copyright.PENANAS2iYNgYMKP
我馬上看看後座的乘客——676Please respect copyright.PENANAKDH2LyhZu2
676Please respect copyright.PENANA7ti3ZT0W9C
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。676Please respect copyright.PENANAa6jtpXm966
676Please respect copyright.PENANAcWzJW7qp4m
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?676Please respect copyright.PENANA0QlE1zVJCM
676Please respect copyright.PENANAFPih8KV2nn
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。676Please respect copyright.PENANAcnw0MnoUPw
676Please respect copyright.PENANAoYARnRvyUu
在下午等待至日落——676Please respect copyright.PENANAybCy1weMkR
676Please respect copyright.PENANAoJm7ejPEIE
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。676Please respect copyright.PENANAHJDrPY8cdb
676Please respect copyright.PENANA4lpz4m0Ihr
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。676Please respect copyright.PENANAzAzxCRTwIF
676Please respect copyright.PENANA234BnsSzEm
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」676Please respect copyright.PENANAFDEN6DK6vs
676Please respect copyright.PENANACndmnHrp9K
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。676Please respect copyright.PENANATYlqpQCbgg
676Please respect copyright.PENANAMhcJxKTqaz
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAHROHqe9wjn
676Please respect copyright.PENANA32M47mFmxM
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。676Please respect copyright.PENANA1AVx2CBtXm
676Please respect copyright.PENANAMCgZTi0mmr
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。676Please respect copyright.PENANAaZdIcsYZfh
676Please respect copyright.PENANAW31Bsdt2Wc
「嘭——」也是不進。676Please respect copyright.PENANAIHKeYvOMqQ
676Please respect copyright.PENANArzL6lirhgj
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。676Please respect copyright.PENANAsO9cOMj5ei
676Please respect copyright.PENANAmE7zbTA0lF
漸漸出現晚霞。676Please respect copyright.PENANA8svWhQuIYw
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回去吧。676Please respect copyright.PENANAgMRlhvWqc8
676Please respect copyright.PENANAzLe8laPmol
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。676Please respect copyright.PENANADq2z4Xqg3I
676Please respect copyright.PENANAJEHdjfXASq
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。676Please respect copyright.PENANADzdT5CMb0X
676Please respect copyright.PENANAueF4LndSmE
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。676Please respect copyright.PENANA5xAVniidoZ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAl2yHeCldcX
背著書包,累然站起——676Please respect copyright.PENANAyxRnkvehod
676Please respect copyright.PENANAnMvQSOeCIP
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」676Please respect copyright.PENANABD17tSWd6m
676Please respect copyright.PENANAdF3sbkrwQy
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。676Please respect copyright.PENANA0x6qSJ1LmJ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAFHoa6CD6C0
最後,舉起手。676Please respect copyright.PENANA8dZMrZE9jI
676Please respect copyright.PENANAtx5BXWhmF6
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。676Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8DEaYt3d5
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* * *676Please respect copyright.PENANAwUOyzZmhbv
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。676Please respect copyright.PENANATSTbV9cL1J
676Please respect copyright.PENANAEe9nM8dn2Y
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。676Please respect copyright.PENANAKMG9LMWAzb
676Please respect copyright.PENANAboPrd7jUw0
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。676Please respect copyright.PENANALRVvcLjmQa
676Please respect copyright.PENANAW3vq9Psk0Q
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。676Please respect copyright.PENANAUPmPOtF2HH
676Please respect copyright.PENANA8z29aG1uCs
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。676Please respect copyright.PENANAW5qPXIBzAY
676Please respect copyright.PENANAqb9FKp8t62
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。676Please respect copyright.PENANA2lv4Q76KuI
676Please respect copyright.PENANABC61uh5vhi
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。676Please respect copyright.PENANAYuxDlcDWjF
676Please respect copyright.PENANA7vgQwSZ7q5
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。676Please respect copyright.PENANAAoswiF47dK
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。676Please respect copyright.PENANA1nhqaU78dH
676Please respect copyright.PENANASwhObWp6VU
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。676Please respect copyright.PENANARxt8dMHwAU
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。676Please respect copyright.PENANARX8Gn54LKD
676Please respect copyright.PENANAlXS1AnWL0Z
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAa1FV0PCh8z
676Please respect copyright.PENANAtmVsQoPR2u
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。676Please respect copyright.PENANA9imSQaXVY7
676Please respect copyright.PENANAQcEvGWl94i
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。676Please respect copyright.PENANA9YfWfQkurF
676Please respect copyright.PENANAgcAVJmi8fY
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。676Please respect copyright.PENANAymoHueVBMB
676Please respect copyright.PENANAlqkFQva1AM
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。676Please respect copyright.PENANACJeCe7wXA3
676Please respect copyright.PENANAiiplYtfrRT
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。676Please respect copyright.PENANAsUeE4aXoxc
676Please respect copyright.PENANAj6n7MyXP4t
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。676Please respect copyright.PENANAAivQUGvoub
676Please respect copyright.PENANAhtjo35M49Z
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。676Please respect copyright.PENANAk6QmmrRUiB
676Please respect copyright.PENANAO8j3BFYSDO
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……676Please respect copyright.PENANASZK1LII4FS
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——放大瞳孔。676Please respect copyright.PENANAVOJ9bElnZa
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。676Please respect copyright.PENANATtBvLXJB0N
676Please respect copyright.PENANA0J6qpuO4zU
手機就在我的褲袋。676Please respect copyright.PENANALZykv677uL
676Please respect copyright.PENANAOqVUMFnkyU
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。676Please respect copyright.PENANA9o1507FGvQ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAuFdkfbtygg
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。676Please respect copyright.PENANAGFMmFHSLpZ
676Please respect copyright.PENANAKHIj6Tkfm0
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。676Please respect copyright.PENANAcnhKokFUov
676Please respect copyright.PENANAiaCMc7hFb7
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。676Please respect copyright.PENANALXRI0zpk5B
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那麼,打嗎?676Please respect copyright.PENANAP0SqSYWCn8
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。676Please respect copyright.PENANA6DrR6C5KjR
676Please respect copyright.PENANABhI8vPNXYB
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?676Please respect copyright.PENANAWkPrnN8u8x
676Please respect copyright.PENANAaPc90kx8Xa
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?676Please respect copyright.PENANAWqg4OO3vqI
676Please respect copyright.PENANAevkcIUdr2F
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。676Please respect copyright.PENANAs8bYsbbgwy
676Please respect copyright.PENANAaHvaqXFLFY
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。676Please respect copyright.PENANAA7rS8pT1iF
676Please respect copyright.PENANApxFd1IzZku
幾度拿出手機的我——676Please respect copyright.PENANA8nUOkOftzV
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算吧。676Please respect copyright.PENANAHdW8GhUSta
676Please respect copyright.PENANAS6gzaHdXTf
把手機放回褲袋。676Please respect copyright.PENANA0JzRtxmPVs
676Please respect copyright.PENANAwUpUlKzJtC
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。676Please respect copyright.PENANAu0AbLdIwps
676Please respect copyright.PENANA5SdAa0ReSp
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。676Please respect copyright.PENANA8w38sY4co4
676Please respect copyright.PENANAAbBKGSG224
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。676Please respect copyright.PENANATPW58o3gdd
676Please respect copyright.PENANAHAmKFvUMEK