這算什麼?638Please respect copyright.PENANAE4t2UAKOKb
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。638Please respect copyright.PENANAjFag9tUeMb
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。638Please respect copyright.PENANAYtRuoWuYZg
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。638Please respect copyright.PENANAkTC2IuZZWu
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。638Please respect copyright.PENANAngFFJmA4vU
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。638Please respect copyright.PENANABQPTBoSPgX
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。638Please respect copyright.PENANAq1nxovS6mM
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。638Please respect copyright.PENANAZTQhxtJtKk
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然後便準備下山了。638Please respect copyright.PENANAAeRDTgcBtX
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。638Please respect copyright.PENANAp6l1DHS0US
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。638Please respect copyright.PENANA89LIfZTfTq
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAAhA05eBa7A
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。638Please respect copyright.PENANA4dRDn0FbGd
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。638Please respect copyright.PENANAUtAovCcGsz
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。638Please respect copyright.PENANAlo3Y2uinkS
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。638Please respect copyright.PENANA6BtDlx9QGc
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。638Please respect copyright.PENANAa0JbHYxAyd
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」638Please respect copyright.PENANA0AT5epyDZQ
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不會告訴我,又一天了。638Please respect copyright.PENANADjOVRatS0T
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。638Please respect copyright.PENANAbvrADo69nR
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。638Please respect copyright.PENANAHeiWTRiKHK
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。638Please respect copyright.PENANAKZ0ddGibAf
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。638Please respect copyright.PENANAZwGKXc61ul
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。638Please respect copyright.PENANAEbhY43lWfL
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」638Please respect copyright.PENANArxR33qMmSm
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。638Please respect copyright.PENANARsFTECAbf6
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。638Please respect copyright.PENANALMq0D9ZCpL
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怎麼說呢?638Please respect copyright.PENANAAK4DMBSL1p
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。638Please respect copyright.PENANAC4fuU67E5h
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。638Please respect copyright.PENANAVahSWBOe8a
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。638Please respect copyright.PENANAcpwJtCzl8q
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。638Please respect copyright.PENANAQFq9LXlgkG
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。638Please respect copyright.PENANAfCJ8jLHQ5T
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。638Please respect copyright.PENANAk66ZDGQqxP
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我再點頭。638Please respect copyright.PENANAo11esnKGU6
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。638Please respect copyright.PENANArQtIyCGk7w
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。638Please respect copyright.PENANA6wszqWCUkS
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我馬上看第二天。638Please respect copyright.PENANAECLSyWzYVi
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。638Please respect copyright.PENANAexRmFTOhbl
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。638Please respect copyright.PENANAzDH32NvZ9J
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……638Please respect copyright.PENANAscVshFZNXV
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。638Please respect copyright.PENANA8ES6U3HVON
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」638Please respect copyright.PENANAhiZ00DOzCj
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」638Please respect copyright.PENANASzi6ALWswG
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第二天「END」出現。638Please respect copyright.PENANABpbdGeCrcp
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我蓋上了練習簿。638Please respect copyright.PENANAeA6GT9OB1T
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。638Please respect copyright.PENANArGkpu35MMh
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?638Please respect copyright.PENANAgEoXPX7SnA
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。638Please respect copyright.PENANAAAlo3dXS31
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。638Please respect copyright.PENANA3vztoAAAiY
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAuX9oX0fxPU
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。638Please respect copyright.PENANAtW1rSJm7P0
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。638Please respect copyright.PENANATB1JzVX0A5
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?638Please respect copyright.PENANAMfgQdG7dwN
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。638Please respect copyright.PENANAK4YBBxX6d5
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。638Please respect copyright.PENANA63H9xu5UH2
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAHP7VdskAmo
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。638Please respect copyright.PENANAlHZ536msyC
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAcKPK5ARll3
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。638Please respect copyright.PENANA4cUGqdPGU9
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。638Please respect copyright.PENANAqZSbJVqZUp
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。638Please respect copyright.PENANA91sHF9atzc
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然後再次坐好。638Please respect copyright.PENANA9wX3nlscZz
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「陸……傾兒。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAUK7q2Qhyh0
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。638Please respect copyright.PENANAz70Fd2cYoK
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。638Please respect copyright.PENANA1rPMQZhQMt
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。638Please respect copyright.PENANAfgreWYEm6v
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。638Please respect copyright.PENANArTeefBVfRu
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。638Please respect copyright.PENANA4vxu3nE9l2
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?638Please respect copyright.PENANAxyeaS5aS49
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。638Please respect copyright.PENANAuygvcJZJnT
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。638Please respect copyright.PENANA4L3UVZ5y0p
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。638Please respect copyright.PENANAlE2D7HwZr1
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。638Please respect copyright.PENANAzGRMRcgP1f
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。638Please respect copyright.PENANABijVIr4Mnc
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。638Please respect copyright.PENANAhRAwrAFYWC
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。638Please respect copyright.PENANAtqn16GJcXF
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。638Please respect copyright.PENANA1hK417Ap1U
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。638Please respect copyright.PENANAB7uVy8pBEL
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那麼,我呢?638Please respect copyright.PENANAIGDAZhASiI
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?638Please respect copyright.PENANAhHsW8pXd1y
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAOolCRCcP9H
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。638Please respect copyright.PENANAGPFUxyDI0x
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAcQRn2Ukc2H
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。638Please respect copyright.PENANAKTZ7RNDZ7H
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。638Please respect copyright.PENANAd2ya2UYLff
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 638Please respect copyright.PENANAhGcsQpTEy8
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 638Please respect copyright.PENANAF64xqOFhZA
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。638Please respect copyright.PENANADYHWAReL6D
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAIubKC3MnvP
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAGL7xFL6gaw
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」638Please respect copyright.PENANARR1SEJMrUQ
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAHEL6184s1E
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。638Please respect copyright.PENANAiEKIfOmJ3u
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」638Please respect copyright.PENANApEEIhTrYml
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。638Please respect copyright.PENANAbSPLQp6g5h
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。638Please respect copyright.PENANAKTtgfl8GrE
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。638Please respect copyright.PENANA1QMQzfY4mg
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。638Please respect copyright.PENANA8uZDeFaylB
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?638Please respect copyright.PENANA6RTAa88Ds3
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我期待著。638Please respect copyright.PENANAKPvrKBbvNU
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。638Please respect copyright.PENANAfsrwKE9Kyo
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。638Please respect copyright.PENANAvt9l7HJMAc
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。638Please respect copyright.PENANASXBnJg2R3g
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」638Please respect copyright.PENANANJWdrLA1dU
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAc3xEuAlQkh
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAyagHDcjsBv
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。638Please respect copyright.PENANA5ItYnXLvnP
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。638Please respect copyright.PENANAMf1znFjXrE
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傾耳以待——638Please respect copyright.PENANAvR6KB8jKlJ
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAq66ZJGi8wp
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。638Please respect copyright.PENANAdURkfrCDTq
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。638Please respect copyright.PENANAAVuy9EDwmB
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。638Please respect copyright.PENANACViPqfdd1F
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAJyhmjrUmlQ
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身體傾後,躺了下來。638Please respect copyright.PENANAGRMgy7PE1H
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「係諗住攤。」638Please respect copyright.PENANAvy1QhRFHt9
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。638Please respect copyright.PENANA0BvWxTEslO
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。638Please respect copyright.PENANAOMwTay9nsx
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。638Please respect copyright.PENANABQVn7Uue4u
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露出鼻尖和微笑。638Please respect copyright.PENANABhKHo2s67c
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。638Please respect copyright.PENANAyJBqg537dw