我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnn0egXeFB
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrYagRyFSI
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuxuEoyF8f
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd89ztlaaBC
「咬下——」明白了。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02NBxMyNFJ
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeyLCHYIu8
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64oX56jOal
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ARWw3aQ1p
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf39YloNRHk
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3T4yEyZOBs
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NOCsHtd81
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5Ve7DEWHu
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrNjUgvCZK
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkreYqWzj2Y
神是不是故意的？763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2R7i8JSaC
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN8IfPHDmf
竟然……安排這種測試給我。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20U3g3JGTc
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jBQqmz2oa
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB7h9RaxZ7
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mluzWBVEz
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEWSi3mHdJ
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkx9qfWykG
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUA0nFh4Nxh
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJjyR3A2TD
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpfNbool3b
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp2tOlc47p
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2gMHIAufA
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡareSWlxFpt
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwp14ZLRvQp
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGC6NCRRru
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyHYHfPt3D
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpJ67USnq4
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFVYy2Ougl
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBSrzHAtzG
「唔好再講喇。」我說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iEbOtPXXo
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3bUpJOIGj
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62awRZ7of3
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXTEhncfdD
然後我沒有再阻止她。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHbYg4DgRa
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGExQebobv
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCicvqGktrH
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OauLL0TLy
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBXvn0Tz2s
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujEFYueTqH
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Imy6Fizia
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKe7QbCyoR
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkg8cIOORsL
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIxWgA46tv
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVCIvHtwbM
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtn2CW6I4b
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FniBjFmQG
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2Aamc4A2g
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRisZBSh4a
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK2XMrYKMC
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4X5fdYzCN
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37wRYjq8Ft
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzDBsiYH02
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtmy4BGqCk
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQ3PbPRZd9
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4HHkUHsLV
我也正在難過。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvnlXGreyf
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIHMWs9CUb
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSTVHpyNJG
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2zZjlVrji
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0y2UoE1gY
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48LToiTZct
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUbxzm8b0z
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQFTc8jDv4
「點解？」她問。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfkDbqmYjs
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5zkD6uqxq
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQgZapKLn8
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHTfUFG1ZU
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyZBPiBaKB
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6CMvpruMo
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXgXq2T8R5
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpHU0qSnOv
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKHmH7NBx9
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsMWxmUSyc
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4nSe0SrcO
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wysnd09p6
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEm9blgcmH
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RrPAytC1b
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA46ceBEQmJ
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYBItrh0lu
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfwh27jCok
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRDKmwtfvs
這是……什麼爛方法？763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8gMOK79hE
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEvPo2npM2
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8I12p4BSy0
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsseTXmWScf
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynUB82dtui
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jP7z3Z6Am
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfzdowGYkf
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49azvoefle
「咩條件？」她問。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GOnZ2CXuE
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAA6iedM86
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjcGnFEnLO
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEi6WIKNZi
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNx1s4345x
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDl4xPiOi2
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSotsYyfyc0
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeMIg4zPFd
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1THeaso92t
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D8IncLiwe
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeskJitz9gp
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsUWei6661
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvzK88LDRx
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGhqqhNrqn
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0mZRurMeY
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrCF1xitFs
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUg1kQwQ0Uq
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTM37tare6
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUx9lQRttmY
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2cw0Rq9D8
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa73WS0zcDy
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpvioxqN6E
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡati45VBN4C
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlztJrphryC
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9pmjhzsgO
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy62Wm0MC4n
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF7qaaIvqg
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPKbvxyLcW
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1FvGjK6wK
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1Qxs5XRiE
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYqnUYEGia
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs89eRtV8E
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNZ3VkgxjN
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNtw3xQ2nl
說完，她聽完。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FYbN3N3lo
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCif4Sn8Ajq
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoJfwnx6dE
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRStC9EsyDF
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqumVYO2V2
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54L2gM3EeJ
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadqsoyaY5j
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKvEs64zU7
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE83egG3ZXX
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNMKaoH0Ry
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWhRxDAcst
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00of9BreYv
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtKnk3FG1z
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoR7VgVX3mO
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYHEXmlxT1
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvQJJHtT5z
「陸傾兒……」我說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4AV99byfY
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76R41Nl6io
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3lA13krej
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaIkb5i7U2
「揀咩都得？」我問。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eaxiWLWIw
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z67tjczAa
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqNZE7Jl89
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKweXiulhm
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgCxdZNa2D
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVakPYT3SS
而我不懂回答。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJ1VO0BPJt
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRqUAKXgKD
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceWbeUgxxh
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42r1QQje6I
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrPKqtCoFh
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANi1bo8rS4
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsqjpx2PVB
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDeKobCnnn
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg519ZFMpSZ
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3n8L4ZTq5
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCakXk0f9R
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoierDbWeb
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYcsEdIX2D
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmdMtRqS8U
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk4UakItAu
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVIqcDlvsT
過後——763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ni9lA585e
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7EDaItIRN
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4y92TUgBw
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUG6iDqlqW
屁股坐下。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkos88Yij1e
763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxf0MrjVqds
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。763Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CQ0Rs1vnn
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