我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG3HioyWKu
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExOWn7azjH
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtphfwqFnN
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Zu8bBOeqQ
「咬下——」明白了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsdMErB8A6
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJb96XFhHwY
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6yuqAVQlb
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXY0t0y3154
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKiq27YfMx
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8tjSFHcwV
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9jiMzfYrv
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfCmL9phIi
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrd2kRqPCXc
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqnuCUhPrB
神是不是故意的？706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8Trx97FT2
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyRK34lgM9
竟然……安排這種測試給我。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVKyd3PNso
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXsyjrfMeI
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VrDgEn0Gk
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72w1kiO51R
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexbds8Te3n
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIbVjO8VBq
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw993JL2Er
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRfEhmPpgt
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4rtOxT83R
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3jwSLhxFv
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiu5GkizDo
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy1lNyI0x4
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJrqwaZVkL
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehewgtCNvE
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoPgvETa4T
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdhVuPGuwm
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAgLLwElgM
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASYDSAmYyF
「唔好再講喇。」我說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbOTzkkwOc
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhNLyuO9W8
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou8ZzhnSB8
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwvOXGwHzJ
然後我沒有再阻止她。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3SMrdxelk
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8gnLH4emR
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WxWwL7Qmd
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMsvbqJeQn
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjHCAIey5V
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI7hbDcnM0
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ050LPXNC
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyVRoAEm34
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDH9PbZRHFM
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCAA16dkMj
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWb8D07Wppd
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABylXuGXhi
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQbZhjtkpR
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKMTF2w5cp
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfG0DtDYlc5
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkwz3qAFPY
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvpVyFPrTB
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8Hx6MjEAg
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzCERp3biN
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaoZDVJWsn
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFy3FAB18N
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYkMDhWVwA
我也正在難過。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V5TsLXYeG
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0XrloqpjP
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXb9RTz1Exc
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkBwD1AaZw
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyoAs3KbPG
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGBvgL9koI
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeZU6V3PJk
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZamTv4ESgy
「點解？」她問。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS8pLUA2xP
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hHNbIlGmy
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbBfHU2Vtf
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLpRELYE29
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡts31M9nfAk
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxB57P2Zo8
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCu6QkwQRuy
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJTZZZ8VFV
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE51nzej8q
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOKUG1FH9F
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgV2uGoFAk
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxgzitzxU4
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeT63h6Ivy
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFRZy7kcYJ
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1DlS1NnwM
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kIxHK8RBH
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkf1SxL0HjU
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5L3BgWFN4o
這是……什麼爛方法？706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsrgEOfb27
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOAuHPZK7g
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OatFyifQc
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5lsaZGReO
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTdv6FTE8y
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzL0DUFTiJ
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQrqYRMmR4
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEukYh6nzE
「咩條件？」她問。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLP9vAvsPFx
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSe4Rk44HT
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4gYDzYk7H
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdre5N9TIH
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonr0HeHqjv
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0AtmBuPKE
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XyxrTkkeO
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRReh0IiaMc
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUlcZEwA3W
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHhAFVfQll
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv4sFDOuWq
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHTS7nB6KJ
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1iKUf19uh
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXbhai7qrC
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAbk5Z59PB
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVSv7pmSu2
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfPbpfzl8S
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡat0lHcIQH8
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtRQibw77Q
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSNDjK9Sgn
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwr1N4ZEFuf
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfe2rydnzu
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYlYkzJ4Q2
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCvFYfDx8W
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARCAwTRfQ7
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBsD3w9qkN
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRcbuUyiTG
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvU89CKdhju
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7mPYcHbBm
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTybAxFvs1
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEm8dFEh5MX
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7seZhEinR
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2t0RlFRjD
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DJrlxJcmE
說完，她聽完。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40PSwEcdh4
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzkRMrwLgX
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSYi6fZ1kF
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8np6g4hGj
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7cd7KkLCY
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaD0Z9z164
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn02L3BAZ8
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEeNnKXe8p
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwaVydwHi6
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0vBCe2hrh
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzTFnulJQP
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OrFubRVpN
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvUvFmWbvf
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkMz2qYf53
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlEcfz28z7
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetJ3S3rG9K
「陸傾兒……」我說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT71t2EHfnW
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq099QvQruK
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59UG4V7d6K
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9B6hcIkMlx
「揀咩都得？」我問。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrO8CtTkCms
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD20H13HXx7
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdtSx95ALi
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsLmL2QBI0
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuk65Ovh36
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdS5a1JRAWo
而我不懂回答。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7iL8snMdV
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YiGlGCq5M
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhQ3ppdL72
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ef9jYJM2E
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIJRBxA8Wb
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yDEhx2GSF
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpyaTNTabi
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5x26vgmQj
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEGbMHfiKl
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnMQnVJiT3
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeQOlH2fCp
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWniRoruRj
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85Psb1Hvrs
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxszNAetdWu
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fJiIGLM6a
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOJ3hH8hHf
過後——706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0R6drNNQI9
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRYUmK4vuz
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5sHf5EeFN
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3EtVBeaY2
屁股坐下。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBQDlaSPyc
706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJdaPWzyaR
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。706Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYCC4gmie0
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