我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BsSaDIHia
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo8vpfSEQM
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「咬下——」明白了。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsv0YGdhHB
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpJghbixoE
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgg17vx7Wt
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmSpg2UfES
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1ZjIb1u9A
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神是不是故意的？663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFecw2r2hZ
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsYwXTfrLG
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIRh1VZNKt
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMIfqImhPq
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwvBHMPOKt
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCse704Owk
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjBdEMnPuf
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEiMmglvhy
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1JGHd3vs3
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzN81IsHn08
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjUBnMLXQa
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP757xSlj2h
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然後我沒有再阻止她。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVEysHfDsR
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMDZJ10g6P
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpP9F4vCxh
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqa0B4N1YS
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7Ypn26sN6
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdQsQjIxCf
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgoEiDoSS5
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdff3GGr4e
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEKRFFAQY6
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWlLiqnMj1
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdc60tugJn
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8XQllKSHu
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJo0uu70acg
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我也正在難過。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAya8DFSCgL
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSVwtV30xU
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxMSzFHuwd
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdfoQmibCs
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「點解？」她問。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedIvCF3tSi
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4ZOhFrZUL
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVFXhKaizL
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同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XP577qyCb
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5eaodbIot
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BcdqOCIDu
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvGnJkWJXU
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLFcudfNZN
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RekTNMUk7
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這是……什麼爛方法？663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3p1992Kf3
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyjLHBvDZw
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk63dX5SA24
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsicyHht7q
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「咩條件？」她問。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡju6d14CiZY
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee4gY0speN
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQc0OaUrMNR
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeY7Q66jD8o
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ydhlSNw0S
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5m56TUrtGH
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRFT0uY5Lx
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVFOm7mQXG
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3neMWH9zYZ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJDieBTTYL
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「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dHFEEx4jF
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5i922Lnnv
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAyHbaphhv
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「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4P0zO3Az4z
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7nYfswDpt
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也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3fvn7EtSC
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8b6Yxw4xe
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTk5zJYEQ5M
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDaWoCpWY9
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說完，她聽完。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrsfIHfyZr
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzrayXPTJT
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGagm1hvh6
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMPzPW6ah3
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtES7PPINkb
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「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA06c4nbRH
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPIubDIFYt
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4zurQgYRh
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86SiEA7CeH
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「陸傾兒……」我說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVtXacJzdu
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5FwtqL7IE
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「揀咩都得？」我問。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSBVcRus3y
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZkf4CnfMN
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMO5YQs8cg
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4tpmqKd30
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而我不懂回答。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1Lg9Gg7kH
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1zKz0DfHD
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lJEVtFR3c
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6xCOuF3oq
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQur61ZDN0r
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGylz0i7Dy
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5llpi2ofD
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNa9iJDna4
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hy3FOgHP6
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtkE8Zc92A
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI10KTqiY5U
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYkwxG2xww
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgpbYl7n1Q
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSewOYBiQ0B
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjs6DNpD0dI
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過後——663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJkC6dajIC
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5WhO7k2qM
663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPV3UdPj1m
屁股坐下。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ6iENWsed
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。663Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ioDEG7SYA
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