我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。733Please respect copyright.PENANAUiNfhVPth0
733Please respect copyright.PENANAaFdmgPCwrr
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。733Please respect copyright.PENANANLKUORjZBW
733Please respect copyright.PENANAWNpvLoUiEa
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。733Please respect copyright.PENANAtA4yy2YMnA
733Please respect copyright.PENANAtSE13nh2Dw
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。733Please respect copyright.PENANALs71dmmVPN
733Please respect copyright.PENANA9okDn7tsJF
走進了屋邨商場。733Please respect copyright.PENANAhQmh8LjZUT
733Please respect copyright.PENANAYKLfSorqQb
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。733Please respect copyright.PENANAyAk1ma0Nsz
733Please respect copyright.PENANAaRWgOSR13w
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。733Please respect copyright.PENANAoqmN3NynJQ
733Please respect copyright.PENANALKxk509XVu
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。733Please respect copyright.PENANABE5Tkc1vmn
733Please respect copyright.PENANAXLzu0FhlAn
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。733Please respect copyright.PENANAZmK8D6hAWu
733Please respect copyright.PENANAaAzEaghSnM
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。733Please respect copyright.PENANAyxshQGmUQj
733Please respect copyright.PENANAu6mDwgSkKx
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。733Please respect copyright.PENANAEpneRTfM8W
733Please respect copyright.PENANA3oxzc6K6wB
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。733Please respect copyright.PENANAO0g37X07a4
733Please respect copyright.PENANAFgnEvlLvBN
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。733Please respect copyright.PENANA38yEGmEsgh
733Please respect copyright.PENANAGgqz9bSnId
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。733Please respect copyright.PENANAlDCo3Y3eIx
733Please respect copyright.PENANAW4DJyxN77X
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。733Please respect copyright.PENANA3XOqSbylQ7
733Please respect copyright.PENANAocsLO9Dqk5
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——733Please respect copyright.PENANAl7s5tvjGXO
733Please respect copyright.PENANAHJK9xUr2Du
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。733Please respect copyright.PENANAs8nBxOdDvj
733Please respect copyright.PENANAws9AH2JhbO
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。733Please respect copyright.PENANAysjcQubtop
733Please respect copyright.PENANAHb6GTW3BIA
腳步還是能動。733Please respect copyright.PENANAuUgNE7hGhc
733Please respect copyright.PENANAgRaF6zbAfh
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。733Please respect copyright.PENANAyYdje4hf07
733Please respect copyright.PENANAhufA3499vG
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……733Please respect copyright.PENANAtr6UTpgqSf
733Please respect copyright.PENANAqQtfK81bws
腳步才轉向離去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAPZo1c4zfLF
733Please respect copyright.PENANA3xIsjWOd3M
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。733Please respect copyright.PENANAGUNWlIFPbc
733Please respect copyright.PENANAizdvCaUozs
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。733Please respect copyright.PENANAGmph3qxhGT
733Please respect copyright.PENANA5d0N05Mh3Z
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。733Please respect copyright.PENANANwE0u3lUTz
733Please respect copyright.PENANAgFfVJiIrMX
但是已經不再重要。733Please respect copyright.PENANALsJkFP7Inf
733Please respect copyright.PENANAMHR40pFdfT
她騙了我。733Please respect copyright.PENANAyYZGapllke
733Please respect copyright.PENANAX9BmT4G9wI
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。733Please respect copyright.PENANAG8SQuJys7F
733Please respect copyright.PENANAMnYx52c377
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。733Please respect copyright.PENANAxjh39rMHj5
733Please respect copyright.PENANANgqqLt4ok0
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。733Please respect copyright.PENANAYoVYZSZPtB
733Please respect copyright.PENANAmdh2so1M4S
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。733Please respect copyright.PENANAtJwIcmPXSf
733Please respect copyright.PENANATnIOACxPk5
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。733Please respect copyright.PENANACmMhQO0x88
733Please respect copyright.PENANAORbIyCwVQL
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。733Please respect copyright.PENANAx6umuFbXZn
733Please respect copyright.PENANApUPPgB9XFU
但我錯了。733Please respect copyright.PENANA9TQ8y4304o
733Please respect copyright.PENANAYkzwqS0PHF
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。733Please respect copyright.PENANAUevCzPYdgL
733Please respect copyright.PENANA5BqSHOC9AU
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。733Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jw0G0yjn4
733Please respect copyright.PENANA7PQybDqord
眼下——733Please respect copyright.PENANAAOMOj1dGrB
733Please respect copyright.PENANAHMCz0Wh0Gx
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。733Please respect copyright.PENANAkjw0FYz1zO
733Please respect copyright.PENANAHrClXB2WFW
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。733Please respect copyright.PENANAfpAsgC8j13
733Please respect copyright.PENANAtLegyE29qM
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAvyz58e8O8H
733Please respect copyright.PENANAv4XFdT6q3W
我能夠再承受一次嗎?733Please respect copyright.PENANA8A8VgfPucJ
733Please respect copyright.PENANAlXyvRYxXam
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。733Please respect copyright.PENANA1R4nIicuXk
733Please respect copyright.PENANAyEfn5gzFqG
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。733Please respect copyright.PENANAg8FIYzQY0F
733Please respect copyright.PENANALVfX08bQER
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。733Please respect copyright.PENANABrC1aEVC6u
733Please respect copyright.PENANA1KEL0F8HQR
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。733Please respect copyright.PENANAVW0GQWNNm0
733Please respect copyright.PENANAO8DRWprjF3
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。733Please respect copyright.PENANAoEgvpj9GOb
733Please respect copyright.PENANADtTnbi3yxO
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。733Please respect copyright.PENANAYZwYhfKmZG
733Please respect copyright.PENANA8aZsPnumyb
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。733Please respect copyright.PENANAddbKPqUdNG
733Please respect copyright.PENANA5BvPTVYHB0
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。733Please respect copyright.PENANAYkxEzmgSGH
733Please respect copyright.PENANAwFKSSRlP6a
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。733Please respect copyright.PENANA1f5Bey6h1S
733Please respect copyright.PENANAbsCEsCeYRc
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……733Please respect copyright.PENANA1CfIcwtgtD
733Please respect copyright.PENANAYWpSjpFRLC
我樂意代勞的。733Please respect copyright.PENANAPgjCGN09rq
733Please respect copyright.PENANAA7Ih9HI4Xc
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。733Please respect copyright.PENANAvs2twGuDa0
733Please respect copyright.PENANAzUXggadukF
我馬上看看後座的乘客——733Please respect copyright.PENANAm1VtGprNqx
733Please respect copyright.PENANAHGsOKe6biT
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。733Please respect copyright.PENANAUaBGZkx4sJ
733Please respect copyright.PENANAm0qvyT7tNr
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?733Please respect copyright.PENANAPocz7s7Fve
733Please respect copyright.PENANAqWQnqBSmDs
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。733Please respect copyright.PENANARs81ycdYVS
733Please respect copyright.PENANAr8u1tO1Xcq
在下午等待至日落——733Please respect copyright.PENANA9HprPwIHqa
733Please respect copyright.PENANAuhwlIANR96
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。733Please respect copyright.PENANAuSwkf3yLAC
733Please respect copyright.PENANAUUVL5jz3vr
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。733Please respect copyright.PENANABv2We8R1gY
733Please respect copyright.PENANAi8NyMYvbUU
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」733Please respect copyright.PENANAzqLeyi2LHq
733Please respect copyright.PENANAeikjaBze9G
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。733Please respect copyright.PENANAytwAU50Hv6
733Please respect copyright.PENANACHgKyzVB0R
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7psi4J0WR
733Please respect copyright.PENANANwCAKucg4v
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。733Please respect copyright.PENANAmUf9nM3h8A
733Please respect copyright.PENANAnFqv35aLn7
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。733Please respect copyright.PENANAHJyJYeyZbF
733Please respect copyright.PENANALc7niecttk
「嘭——」也是不進。733Please respect copyright.PENANA4WjViWHcn4
733Please respect copyright.PENANAWhf5iUQIMI
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。733Please respect copyright.PENANALenT3ufBh3
733Please respect copyright.PENANASDEOj4CKnt
漸漸出現晚霞。733Please respect copyright.PENANAUAS85aaZgZ
733Please respect copyright.PENANA5QDp2z6p8C
回去吧。733Please respect copyright.PENANAo01WRvtEEu
733Please respect copyright.PENANAbqAEYf9SLD
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。733Please respect copyright.PENANA6gALJZi3y1
733Please respect copyright.PENANA3E5JCcNiW1
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。733Please respect copyright.PENANAcwYBNYQtxE
733Please respect copyright.PENANA9KsbImZ2Yj
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAsU2WFe8JF4
733Please respect copyright.PENANAcjGsCaC3wh
背著書包,累然站起——733Please respect copyright.PENANAgKWxAo25AS
733Please respect copyright.PENANAgtMFnM3LBm
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」733Please respect copyright.PENANAciFDVSm5jp
733Please respect copyright.PENANAZeuxROEKF9
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。733Please respect copyright.PENANALpGsZ1vKCv
733Please respect copyright.PENANAWGx5ezWGz1
最後,舉起手。733Please respect copyright.PENANAEknLJQQZhh
733Please respect copyright.PENANAsKhANfSj08
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。733Please respect copyright.PENANA1IIM4FB8A2
733Please respect copyright.PENANAJkWIffg4uq
* * *733Please respect copyright.PENANAcpn2KHY44V
733Please respect copyright.PENANAl98LKj7FEZ
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。733Please respect copyright.PENANAK64tt4rcUt
733Please respect copyright.PENANAArJfliJiIr
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。733Please respect copyright.PENANANgt2xtNdm7
733Please respect copyright.PENANAKFoKOYUHjI
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。733Please respect copyright.PENANA64HrTCaakL
733Please respect copyright.PENANASKnrkDZFGW
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。733Please respect copyright.PENANAlR0Kb6f3RH
733Please respect copyright.PENANABFK3KGW1en
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。733Please respect copyright.PENANAEJpP892sbL
733Please respect copyright.PENANAXbXiDlYr29
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。733Please respect copyright.PENANANHcEhq0Nx9
733Please respect copyright.PENANAFLZi7lDwt1
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。733Please respect copyright.PENANAhQ5Nsu6epO
733Please respect copyright.PENANAXMQBHW3QDD
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。733Please respect copyright.PENANAWVR6A5t0Qa
733Please respect copyright.PENANAgYpHLGRkcb
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。733Please respect copyright.PENANApPmxfDz6nS
733Please respect copyright.PENANABH7vCFDnQO
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。733Please respect copyright.PENANAazZHRxoBhW
733Please respect copyright.PENANA80o7ne4OjC
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。733Please respect copyright.PENANAHxF3NDDvLA
733Please respect copyright.PENANAxWxF6rghIt
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAqGLjxrKMEk
733Please respect copyright.PENANAPMWfOMebVU
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。733Please respect copyright.PENANAAxX12j0HWJ
733Please respect copyright.PENANAxOmTAFe2Rk
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。733Please respect copyright.PENANAvQXAsc7pFb
733Please respect copyright.PENANALKzdexxDqz
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。733Please respect copyright.PENANAbkoepoZIz3
733Please respect copyright.PENANANfzKOHPTzv
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。733Please respect copyright.PENANAD2q69WFdeD
733Please respect copyright.PENANACjk6N2l2hB
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。733Please respect copyright.PENANAwnY1wC19Ok
733Please respect copyright.PENANAGOv8DOgaRN
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。733Please respect copyright.PENANAlc7bvnVXhG
733Please respect copyright.PENANAUE28Tmd7qE
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。733Please respect copyright.PENANAJGYQdSfFmN
733Please respect copyright.PENANAFFt7fydusK
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……733Please respect copyright.PENANAtQJGqSI3QT
733Please respect copyright.PENANA0tc5udylzy
——放大瞳孔。733Please respect copyright.PENANAqSuyRG0PgP
733Please respect copyright.PENANAymVasgberH
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。733Please respect copyright.PENANAVVKGf8LIof
733Please respect copyright.PENANA0a5i8bnDRi
手機就在我的褲袋。733Please respect copyright.PENANAV97qT8zk7y
733Please respect copyright.PENANATejYOyQ6Dt
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。733Please respect copyright.PENANAiKLc0dy4HU
733Please respect copyright.PENANAn3NdDPPm3k
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。733Please respect copyright.PENANA4jebVsZjL1
733Please respect copyright.PENANA9b3fhFMhjh
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。733Please respect copyright.PENANAf2tZ65pE3R
733Please respect copyright.PENANAj29O1AoW9O
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。733Please respect copyright.PENANAo1SjIII7pF
733Please respect copyright.PENANAYkEV131tzX
那麼,打嗎?733Please respect copyright.PENANAM4JdrM14bW
733Please respect copyright.PENANAQ54ou8IVmW
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。733Please respect copyright.PENANA9pUDFvrJ6I
733Please respect copyright.PENANA1fLW2lCJL7
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?733Please respect copyright.PENANAWHfPxUBYN0
733Please respect copyright.PENANA3dU80NbD0K
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?733Please respect copyright.PENANAfypumkMNvg
733Please respect copyright.PENANAGuxnNmflmz
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。733Please respect copyright.PENANAiINL88gg9a
733Please respect copyright.PENANAL5OKz2WUpv
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。733Please respect copyright.PENANAAre8qh1IQA
733Please respect copyright.PENANAO6ecsYhP0S
幾度拿出手機的我——733Please respect copyright.PENANAnP1Atzggl0
733Please respect copyright.PENANAEdxIkd7P6P
算吧。733Please respect copyright.PENANAIX8UPHBREM
733Please respect copyright.PENANA0VgbOPGXPs
把手機放回褲袋。733Please respect copyright.PENANANk1tCRI9jn
733Please respect copyright.PENANA252DmEQ6Lh
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。733Please respect copyright.PENANAutSPtUkAD6
733Please respect copyright.PENANAFtnUxbEl9l
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。733Please respect copyright.PENANAPRtf7KwBkg
733Please respect copyright.PENANAD6KtkMHq7t
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。733Please respect copyright.PENANA4oSLEXmDw4
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