我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。686Please respect copyright.PENANAZoTjYMzr7P
686Please respect copyright.PENANAaf47opGvuX
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAsHwMIESb9P
686Please respect copyright.PENANA5QJs3aQ8co
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。686Please respect copyright.PENANAemkC9pTW3V
686Please respect copyright.PENANAD7DwVoip4X
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。686Please respect copyright.PENANA2KzmkP8mBp
686Please respect copyright.PENANACOTNlDWZVp
走進了屋邨商場。686Please respect copyright.PENANAkWr1R1NMdZ
686Please respect copyright.PENANAu6uycatUaV
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。686Please respect copyright.PENANACnoa2ex4aC
686Please respect copyright.PENANAV4fXXHdeXH
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。686Please respect copyright.PENANAADHKyCPmHl
686Please respect copyright.PENANATuXsXZVh0X
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。686Please respect copyright.PENANAf1rn1HqlnS
686Please respect copyright.PENANAvByKj5yKbD
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。686Please respect copyright.PENANAHDoHIz1fUF
686Please respect copyright.PENANAMa1ns7p3kj
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。686Please respect copyright.PENANA2kq655CEAQ
686Please respect copyright.PENANAfYqPC0yVIO
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。686Please respect copyright.PENANASX5ms3KAhE
686Please respect copyright.PENANA1vSs4KkBnv
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。686Please respect copyright.PENANAyABjLejqQu
686Please respect copyright.PENANAXOhI1GGFHm
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。686Please respect copyright.PENANAQT9RCEUORW
686Please respect copyright.PENANAbcdjnCAAIt
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。686Please respect copyright.PENANAUffG0ZzBYy
686Please respect copyright.PENANA162I7K9IR8
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。686Please respect copyright.PENANAsgKccdy99S
686Please respect copyright.PENANAtt37qaz0nf
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——686Please respect copyright.PENANA0qGYCIZ0G2
686Please respect copyright.PENANAaVYpU6axxo
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。686Please respect copyright.PENANAqANqq6UREP
686Please respect copyright.PENANA6HRcVAtxZD
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。686Please respect copyright.PENANAziumpgAdHo
686Please respect copyright.PENANAHUbUdAEu4e
腳步還是能動。686Please respect copyright.PENANAWaWH5TpCTx
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。686Please respect copyright.PENANA0GazMlOWD6
686Please respect copyright.PENANAFMd9E1mH1o
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……686Please respect copyright.PENANAkUS3VtUENk
686Please respect copyright.PENANAoUHnkdmyMX
腳步才轉向離去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAmX9tUB1Xc2
686Please respect copyright.PENANAceKEgdBMiB
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。686Please respect copyright.PENANA4wTIGJTObY
686Please respect copyright.PENANAiZ4vqtaFXY
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAmyTxV8LRce
686Please respect copyright.PENANAQOAbeeLRJb
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。686Please respect copyright.PENANAxrEQL3WYZi
686Please respect copyright.PENANAy1dfyODgvg
但是已經不再重要。686Please respect copyright.PENANAL0Ay7wM1SW
686Please respect copyright.PENANAyDdR28AXQ2
她騙了我。686Please respect copyright.PENANAApZQoXYtsC
686Please respect copyright.PENANAeIvoZ3YE0x
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。686Please respect copyright.PENANABI9Dz3pzay
686Please respect copyright.PENANAa57m0oWNyN
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。686Please respect copyright.PENANAI0TRVcSX04
686Please respect copyright.PENANARMeKHfHURu
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。686Please respect copyright.PENANACSw2DpySDL
686Please respect copyright.PENANAY9luZYH4Ye
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。686Please respect copyright.PENANARPzznVyoWO
686Please respect copyright.PENANAV9cCveiiSk
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。686Please respect copyright.PENANAi7wVLQpZx8
686Please respect copyright.PENANABz5E6iUQaW
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。686Please respect copyright.PENANAnC969lLeyY
686Please respect copyright.PENANAU9WaBSiCDn
但我錯了。686Please respect copyright.PENANA25ZSU7vhpS
686Please respect copyright.PENANAKUvcSzS7s5
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。686Please respect copyright.PENANAcE9lruoM3h
686Please respect copyright.PENANATVRxQ4tATh
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。686Please respect copyright.PENANAQWW5SPsiEh
686Please respect copyright.PENANAZDYnYzGdj8
眼下——686Please respect copyright.PENANAPX1zdRWpWP
686Please respect copyright.PENANAYv4qg2EMzs
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。686Please respect copyright.PENANAvJ29MAsaB8
686Please respect copyright.PENANAPGYEnmbGaf
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。686Please respect copyright.PENANAsgvQjudFuy
686Please respect copyright.PENANABJjyc0YjKn
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAXTFce6eIS5
686Please respect copyright.PENANANqsd1JhgMt
我能夠再承受一次嗎?686Please respect copyright.PENANAombDnNgFOv
686Please respect copyright.PENANAl2MxNzVgb4
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。686Please respect copyright.PENANA4HYPg0clrf
686Please respect copyright.PENANA0sUYuUsPGf
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。686Please respect copyright.PENANAY1ebUFsKgW
686Please respect copyright.PENANAE3QTIf5P7y
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。686Please respect copyright.PENANA87w5cmatf7
686Please respect copyright.PENANAufOeJw83Oz
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。686Please respect copyright.PENANANqtNi9XFO1
686Please respect copyright.PENANAajThe4Y7gt
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。686Please respect copyright.PENANAmyJpMgSoAA
686Please respect copyright.PENANAkho1GIaJnB
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。686Please respect copyright.PENANAyeT6XGfHRz
686Please respect copyright.PENANAXNvzHq8hvl
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。686Please respect copyright.PENANA6BxzkxLQXW
686Please respect copyright.PENANAfCiMehYr1T
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。686Please respect copyright.PENANAkhCQ0behQ8
686Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5LR0rfnM9
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。686Please respect copyright.PENANA5QAkfU1aS1
686Please respect copyright.PENANAo0Digst9wC
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……686Please respect copyright.PENANAehTZRHKvZZ
686Please respect copyright.PENANAORsYAJTAjS
我樂意代勞的。686Please respect copyright.PENANAXs0PQqx4Jz
686Please respect copyright.PENANAofHoYbf7PO
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。686Please respect copyright.PENANAe6HEF2gXrB
686Please respect copyright.PENANAWZFaxfkmYz
我馬上看看後座的乘客——686Please respect copyright.PENANAGNBMfTufT8
686Please respect copyright.PENANANbK0TuuQk1
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。686Please respect copyright.PENANA829sZjsqeW
686Please respect copyright.PENANAxK1QSeRX9G
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?686Please respect copyright.PENANAIdz6VYX1ue
686Please respect copyright.PENANArter6MY3N0
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。686Please respect copyright.PENANA9MMPSD8mMB
686Please respect copyright.PENANApSTYbe317x
在下午等待至日落——686Please respect copyright.PENANAtlRHDhne28
686Please respect copyright.PENANAFGmdKVpPKM
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。686Please respect copyright.PENANAKLy6h2fZky
686Please respect copyright.PENANAaNBqoLabts
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。686Please respect copyright.PENANA7eJryINvGc
686Please respect copyright.PENANAJNQHMAt2kn
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」686Please respect copyright.PENANABP6ulSEbpL
686Please respect copyright.PENANAGVp55ThGFM
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。686Please respect copyright.PENANAsJKhASOpAK
686Please respect copyright.PENANAFoqFYtu5ZM
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAF7h7HjzWi2
686Please respect copyright.PENANAAiMnu4ElSY
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。686Please respect copyright.PENANAaha8dcLgES
686Please respect copyright.PENANA0GgBme6yvZ
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。686Please respect copyright.PENANADh2LcQJiXk
686Please respect copyright.PENANAFiMn1lj8HZ
「嘭——」也是不進。686Please respect copyright.PENANARtWuSL3Pa6
686Please respect copyright.PENANAn9eJ4H3mQp
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。686Please respect copyright.PENANA6d1cqVVvZJ
686Please respect copyright.PENANAsM2xLjEB14
漸漸出現晚霞。686Please respect copyright.PENANAssIidn2B0d
686Please respect copyright.PENANAF8E70lKMJT
回去吧。686Please respect copyright.PENANAih1ozJKzIs
686Please respect copyright.PENANAhdqCCO0Kls
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAPEc7tIbRR5
686Please respect copyright.PENANA6BQEuWV73Z
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。686Please respect copyright.PENANA4GSEzJmPC8
686Please respect copyright.PENANACaIFj4fSwH
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。686Please respect copyright.PENANA4OcfQf2QqD
686Please respect copyright.PENANA7R3Rpanfuz
背著書包,累然站起——686Please respect copyright.PENANAOJzkuilwFw
686Please respect copyright.PENANAQLL5bVGJ52
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」686Please respect copyright.PENANALnzxE5hNj6
686Please respect copyright.PENANAuRuNGg2mbz
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。686Please respect copyright.PENANAOyW5Ao4QE5
686Please respect copyright.PENANA07rbIBKI6D
最後,舉起手。686Please respect copyright.PENANA7e7bUaR5g1
686Please respect copyright.PENANApCsTglIwhP
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。686Please respect copyright.PENANApmqX7UiuoJ
686Please respect copyright.PENANA1O5WALJf1A
* * *686Please respect copyright.PENANA1Tu9h3MHj2
686Please respect copyright.PENANA5itNoZLcDY
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。686Please respect copyright.PENANACJr3qniEyp
686Please respect copyright.PENANAqszlnhLXQV
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。686Please respect copyright.PENANAMqks83Utd2
686Please respect copyright.PENANAjnaLLEIVEv
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。686Please respect copyright.PENANAkQxvfkySYJ
686Please respect copyright.PENANAkBQPr9Spdw
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。686Please respect copyright.PENANAzwqNS3rwkU
686Please respect copyright.PENANA6k4KYkg7F1
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。686Please respect copyright.PENANAEyWLE15MiO
686Please respect copyright.PENANAFEmOMYZZOg
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。686Please respect copyright.PENANAFl5hyWkf08
686Please respect copyright.PENANAkoNBX4z9WQ
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。686Please respect copyright.PENANAddL7I0YkWq
686Please respect copyright.PENANApXWosFTeOr
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。686Please respect copyright.PENANA0IMGjxVoRa
686Please respect copyright.PENANAE6uWKjXzcs
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。686Please respect copyright.PENANADHlm5KUJHT
686Please respect copyright.PENANAj2IzAJ7Ojg
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。686Please respect copyright.PENANAup5VMpEICG
686Please respect copyright.PENANARRAiff1ehU
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。686Please respect copyright.PENANAxlITdiQFDe
686Please respect copyright.PENANAyD9z42J61N
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAuOIpuA9Nnx
686Please respect copyright.PENANAqBadzbejZ3
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。686Please respect copyright.PENANAXWo8qXkiCZ
686Please respect copyright.PENANA9w2NTE9G8H
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。686Please respect copyright.PENANAiE8IPXKJFz
686Please respect copyright.PENANAmjdY3yuapx
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。686Please respect copyright.PENANAFYFsGHSYy1
686Please respect copyright.PENANAijiI39dHjN
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。686Please respect copyright.PENANAFhxhBOOvxj
686Please respect copyright.PENANAYJig2VF3o9
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。686Please respect copyright.PENANAZCIyGbEZvv
686Please respect copyright.PENANAE6gZDh0gfs
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。686Please respect copyright.PENANAlxauxuKSKK
686Please respect copyright.PENANALPgLbF9RsM
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。686Please respect copyright.PENANAl6b5nVXNPa
686Please respect copyright.PENANAcW5oWHbz3u
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……686Please respect copyright.PENANAI2iHqGI3pB
686Please respect copyright.PENANABAAHlzuKk7
——放大瞳孔。686Please respect copyright.PENANAyjaWRHibVD
686Please respect copyright.PENANAOkFrREMF9P
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。686Please respect copyright.PENANAEKJ88ugoEO
686Please respect copyright.PENANAtNJZ1fy2yj
手機就在我的褲袋。686Please respect copyright.PENANAYshviV9egO
686Please respect copyright.PENANAMsZEH1ebGh
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。686Please respect copyright.PENANAGZiUFS6SLd
686Please respect copyright.PENANAMsq3cXuUdj
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。686Please respect copyright.PENANAalM9zyjwGk
686Please respect copyright.PENANAEPsdnrI2tI
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。686Please respect copyright.PENANAOKIhVyPLv1
686Please respect copyright.PENANA4Hc5oqgb6R
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。686Please respect copyright.PENANAE5kR5gnJaB
686Please respect copyright.PENANA2AdwzkArzE
那麼,打嗎?686Please respect copyright.PENANAejVqtCYuUL
686Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9m44YFpsY
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。686Please respect copyright.PENANAJgjBKNYep0
686Please respect copyright.PENANAePydx3l5lz
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?686Please respect copyright.PENANAa83WtJKv9a
686Please respect copyright.PENANA3gkrVlSnUa
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?686Please respect copyright.PENANATaDdnqjQUD
686Please respect copyright.PENANAsFAvC4NDf9
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。686Please respect copyright.PENANAFPHcHWWlu7
686Please respect copyright.PENANArcnl53GW0J
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。686Please respect copyright.PENANACtifky7QNy
686Please respect copyright.PENANAe0UNOWo4oa
幾度拿出手機的我——686Please respect copyright.PENANAWYv3lXQSgi
686Please respect copyright.PENANAQqccBjGaiI
算吧。686Please respect copyright.PENANAHWVZs0xTJ1
686Please respect copyright.PENANAY4VXzrfQKm
把手機放回褲袋。686Please respect copyright.PENANAanwg0N8Yjb
686Please respect copyright.PENANAOmhex2QgjZ
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。686Please respect copyright.PENANAJUpB1OZ6sY
686Please respect copyright.PENANA47MX0TV2tb
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。686Please respect copyright.PENANA8CkXSy29iH
686Please respect copyright.PENANAgHdOjbWIpc
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。686Please respect copyright.PENANA7B1ARojCRg
686Please respect copyright.PENANAw6jrSU6936