When I come to think about how things with Damien started it felt a little bit hasty. I was still with Alex when Damien kissed me for the first time. And then I was getting over Alex when I kissed him the night we got together.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0OyUlEVAa
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But then again, my feelings for Damien were always there. It wasn’t something new. He wasn’t just a rebound guy. I was always in love with him. My thoughts were interrupted by a set of lips brushing against my neck.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OlWrPni3S
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“Jeez!” I jumped up. I was standing in the kitchen, making a pile of plates as I unloaded the washing machine.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJIRdVS9jS
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“Scared you?” Damien chuckled. I nodded and turned around. He leaned down and kissed me; his lips cupping my own.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0S2jxkINrC
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“Third person in the room!” Max said as he walked passed us. I pulled back and blushed.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVmzSKAZtJ
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“We’re leaving anyway,” Damien told him. Cleo walked in the kitchen at the same time.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfNNwrzYOW
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“Wait a little longer, I haven’t finished here,” I told Damien.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4citVM1IH
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“I’ll finish up,” Cleo said “There’s nothing left in the living room.” Her voice was all wrong.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKB6vMsezv
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“Are you sure? You sound tired,” I winced. Maybe she was indeed tired.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUXTriw4BV
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“Yes. I’ll unload the washing machine and go to bed. Eliza, the cleaning lady, is coming over tomorrow,” she assured me. “Oh, I got your stuff,” she smiled; it seemed a little bit forced.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJQiBnTTzz
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“Thanks,” I smiled back and turned towards the dining table that she motioned me towards. “What’s that envelope?” I frowned as I looked over the A4 white envelope that was sitting over my jacket. Damien towered over me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNh1Odm2182
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“Your gift,” she grinned “Open it.” That smile was legitimate and made me feel better.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBDnqsarMO
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“What is it?” I frowned and opened the envelope. Max was there in a second. “Will you back up? Jeez,” I frowned at the Simmons brothers. I teared open the envelope and pulled out a magazine; ELLE magazine. A paper came with it. I burst out laughing and turned to look at her, but both Damien and Max were blocking my view in order to read the paper. “Move away!” I pushed them and almost run to Cleo. I threw my arms around her and hugged her. “You bossy little freak!”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEYHGEJ9m8
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“I have to put some sense of fashion into you! Your initiation is great, but you needed this!” she chuckled for the twenty-four months subscription she bought me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1MEfQ6nAN
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“Can we go now?” Damien asked sounding bored and impatient as I pulled away from Cleo.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6EM1tqISU
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“Don’t push your luck,” I warned him and turned to Cleo again “Thank you,” I smiled at her.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZQRvoOVLE
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“Weird gift,” Max mumbled and made me chuckle.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU471i7Ym7f
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Damien did not waste time once we got inside my renovated garage. As soon as I turned on the air-conditioning and removed my jacket he walked up to me and cupped my cheeks; a sweet smile on his full lips.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eXMPTdeRs
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“Had fun tonight?” I asked; enjoying his touch.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IlvZ1lFqN
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“Yes,” he nodded smiling and leaned down and kissed me. His hands squished my butt but I stopped him.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIwoyLHEdH
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“I’m not having sex with you,” I mumbled against his lips. He didn’t seem to believe it and kissed me again. This time I pulled away from him. “Going to take a shower before lying down,” I said indifferently.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83jLUUSxef
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“We’ll see about that,” I heard him mumbling as I took off my heels. I walked into the bathroom and let the water running before pulling down my leggings.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZoojKr6pS
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“For now, see me closing the door to your face,” I mocked and closed the bathroom door before locking it. I wasn’t really mad at him and I knew that if he came in the shower with me I wouldn’t be able to stop him.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHfA5MY4nC
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He took a shower after me as I wore clean knickers and an oversized jumper that left my right shoulder uncovered. I was sitting on the sofa, surfing the internet when he joined me. He sat on my right side and kissed my shoulder as he put his hand on my thigh; no sign of lust in his moves.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgvP3fhGNG
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“So, how do you feel?” I smirked mockingly.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLrFUKbW7K
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“What do you mean?”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpunfh10DT
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“You’re twenty-five,” I replied; retaining the smirk on my lips. Damien chuckled. “You’re old,” I mocked and he lunched himself at me causing me to laugh. I always enjoyed fighting with him; especially after we got together.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjYnQxhy2Q
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“Crazy people never get old, ladybug,” he smirked as he pinned me against the sofa cushions. He gripped my wrists and I tried to free myself with no success. He bit his lip as he positioned himself between my legs.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X2MHOsbDL
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“Go away, I’m still mad at you,” I mumbled; frowning.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHBoS9WwMD
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“Can’t do that,” he raised his eyebrows and without a warning he crashed his lips to mine. I parted my lips from the surprise and he found the opportunity to brush my tongue with his. I couldn’t help but kiss him back eagerly. I could feel him growing between my legs and the moisture ruining my clean underwear. I moaned into the kiss and tried to push him back. I was suffocating in that jumper.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzK4zGX44V
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“It’s hot,” I mumbled and he relaxed a bit. “Do something useful while you’re there,” I mocked as he sat up on his knees. I pulled the jumper up to my breasts and he helped me remove it.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuYnpkzt3i
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“I thought you said you won’t be having sex with me,” he smirked. I sat up quickly and got up.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaw6PZXk46
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“I won’t,” I confirmed and got into my bed. He chuckled and followed me. I didn’t resist as he lightly pushed me back to the mattress and climbed on top of me. “And I’m not helping you with that either,” I raised my eyebrows referring to his erection.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKEEDtIBsz
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“Baby, we will have sex,” he said; a dangerous smile on his lips. I narrowed my eyes and pushed him away. I tried to avoid looking at his eyes. Those grey orbs were dangerous; I could lose myself in there. Not that kissing him was easier. That’s why when he leaned down and kissed me, forcing his tongue into my mouth, I kissed him back. I couldn’t help it. And he knew it.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRFyPiwcEi
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He pinned my hands against the mattress over my head with one hand and moved down to my neck. I moaned lightly at his every touch.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4OlDygdQU
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“Go away,” I mumbled but it was muffled by a moan as he sucked in my nipple. My body ached for him.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Hz1YNTF6O
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“I love how responsive you are,” he said. His voice wasn’t the typical hoarse tone; I could hear his lust into every word. I knew I was hopeless as he pushed my underwear to the side and brushed his fingers over my wetness.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnvWmZJURB
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“It’s the hormones,” I explained flatly “I won’t have sex-” but as two long digits entered my wet folds I gasped and forgot how to speak.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkBuowTfM2
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“You know you want me,” he smirked as his fingers moved in and out of me causing me to moan. He moved up to my ear, his fingers never stop moving. “Admit it Erica,” he whispered against my ear “You want me inside of you.”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyo5Fi1HN8
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“Oh God,” I moaned as his fingers moved to my clit. I couldn’t say no to him. But I would. This game was fun. “Go away,” I breathed firmly, my eyes snapping open.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlk6daxguh
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“No,” he said and we stared each other for a moment. He removed his hand from my wrists and cupped my jaw; forcing his lips to mine. He then moved to my ear for a second; his retrieving his fingers from between my legs. “If you really want me to stop, say something irrelevant and -” he said; his voice soft and gentle.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmELMu44JMz
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“I’m fine baby,” I assured him and he kissed my temple before pulling back. He took advantage of the little pause to grab a condom from the drawer and removed both of our underwear. I was putting all my strength to my thighs trying to keep my legs closed as he put the condom on.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nb06KRJAY
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“One and half week, damn it!” I groaned. Damien chuckled. He knew he had won this already. He managed to part my legs and positioned himself between them.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjNQnbjZd1
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“You know,” he mumbled and kissed my lower stomach “You want me,” he said as he kissed my belly and moved up to my lips. Before I ever had time to think, he pushed inside of me. I released a loud moan, my fingers clutching his back as his long and thick erection filled and stretched my depths.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGIgepBn2M
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He grabbed my hands and pinned them against the mattress before he drove into me again and rocked my body with each pounding thrust, and my grunts and gasps chorused the slicksounds our bodies made sliding against each other.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIFfDhFRt7
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“Yes, Damien,” I mumbled.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRmQp703Hc
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“I told you, you wanted me,” he said between moans. My fingers were clutching thin air as he held them down. I wanted to wrap them tightly around him. I arched my back, colliding my body to his and he released my hands, putting his against my sides; his grip tight.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHC4bhw6uZ
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As I felt him throb and pulse and begin to explode inside of me, I squished his back, pulling him towards me. His body swayed and his groans seared my mind. It added fuel to my fire and my sweaty body suddenly shuddered and convulsed. My vision went white and I came hard, clinging to him with every muscle in my body, I trembled and spasmed hard in his arms.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3IS0fwuJi
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I was gasping for air, my body and mind dizzy and not quite back to myself as he collapsed on top of me. It took me a few moments of lying there, breathing and assessing tender places, to gather my strength enough to collect my thoughts.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9cTInrfRa
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“Damn it,” I mumbled “I hate you,” I groaned. Damien chuckled against my chest; vibrating my body as well. “I can’t stay mad at you,” I complained.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jO8p46Ln5
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“You can’t stay mad at anyone baby,” he laughed and pulled his head up to look at me; his grey eyes were darker around the edges.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlCwE461RU
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“Kiss me,” I mumbled and cupped his unshaved cheeks. He leaned over me; touching his lips softly to mine. I tightened my walls around him and he groaned against my mouth. He pulled back after a moment and he left the bed to go to the bathroom.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpQYu7u7jc
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He reentered the room and went to the coffee table. I saw his naked figure leaning there and taking something. He lid up a cigarette and came to bed. I couldn’t help but smile as he walked back to me. He was gorgeous; wide shoulders and muscles flexed as he moved. We’ve been together for a month and I still couldn’t believe that we’re finally together; that I have him to myself.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49TYHZp2Ie
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“What?” he grinned; the cigarette hanging from his lips. I’m going to die.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCJyHZsMsn
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“Sometimes I wish you would stop smoking,” I smiled as he sat down on the bed. I shifted and turned to my side “But then you look so ridiculously hot with that death stick between your lips,” I sighed. Damien chuckled and pulled me into his arms. I curled up to him, my head against the crook of his neck. My fingers were tracing the scanty hair on his chest while he turned his face the other way everytime he breathed out the smoke. I was almost asleep when I heard him speak.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiyMMqwhPM
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“You guys weren’t five,” he said.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyKHmG7q0I
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“Hmm?” I mumbled confused.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoXm6UesbT
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“I was eleven years old,” he said thoughtfully “So that makes you four,” he continued and I was listening still confused “Max just discovered how to torture you. Every time I was pulling you away from him, you would hug me and call me your superman,” he said and I chuckled now understanding what he was talking about. “And once, when you were five,” he chuckled “you told me not to grow up so that you could marry me,” he said and I could hear his grin.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBp9yrJd1Q
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“You were always my superman,” I mumbled and kissed his chest. “Though superman wasn’t torturing the people he saved,” I frowned.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDIdS0mg59
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“It was fun,” he chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead. “It still is,” he smiled against my skin. The memory he shared send a warm feeling to my heart and I wanted to talk to him so bad. But how? How do you start talking about something like this? What if he felt suffocated?538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2Sdu3wbM8
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“Hey, are you okay?” he asked when I didn’t comment back on his joke and I could hear the concern in his voice.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo48tp2TI7Q
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“Yeah,” I breathed out.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFtx0bQDID
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“Come on, you can’t lie to me,” he said and pushed me away lightly so he could see my face. I pulled back from his arms and covered my torso with the covers as I laid on my stomach; leaving just the edge of the sheet over him. Damien sat up against the headboard of the bed; waiting for me to talk. I can do this. But my mouth wasn’t cooperating with my brain.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSuAoyXzpN
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“Ah,” I groaned and threw my head down to my hands “I can’t do this,” I mumbled, my pulse increasing. He put out the cigarette and turned back to me again.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXepAecfrtB
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“Erica, what’s wrong?” he whispered and reached out for my hands. He pulled them away from my face and searched for my eyes.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDo6UAq1PC
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“I’m scared,” I breathed. It was the only thought I could voice.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvXppTBK1t
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“Of what?” he breathed. He winced as if he thought I was being irrational.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYp1kyjBYG
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“Shit, you’re already losing patience with me,” I winced and turned to the side. I wanted to be alone. He was losing patience and he would leave me. I knew it was a matter of time. I had already turned my back on him and was ready to get up from the bed when he grabbed my wrist.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX55XepscZK
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“Don’t move,” he said; that intimidating tone on his voice. It was enough to bring me back from my breakdown. He shifted and pulled me backwards until my bare back was touching his naked chest as he sat me between his legs. “Talk to me, don’t walk away,” he whispered to my ear as he put his arms around me. Tears threatened to run down my cheeks. He covered our bodies with the blankets and held me there tightly against his body; his fingers laced with mine as he had his palm over my hand.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6g3Zck19Mb
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“I want to,” I mumbled “But I’m scared.”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPf235qNcgs
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“But why?” he asked softly “It’s me,” he said and stroked my hand “You have nothing to fear,” he whispered and with one hand he pushed my hair away from my neck and brushed his lips against my skin.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNAXi4ciB6
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“I’m scared of how you’ll react; of what will happen next,” I rumbled.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbooD4q8p28
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“Erica, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again,” he said squished my body to his “I’m not going anywhere,” he assured me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrPLJnea4Z
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“Is just,” I began and had to swallow the lump in my throat “Things happened too quickly between us,” I mumbled and I heard him exhaling. It almost sounded as relief but I wasn’t sure.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjPuvpZggl
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“Is that all you’re worrying about?” I guess he didn’t understand my concern.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11Ly7HGUif
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“I’m scared that it will go away just as quickly,” I said my voice barely audible as I stared at the black and white stripes on the sheets.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZBdkvFFC0
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“I won’t let it if you don’t,” he whispered to me and stroked my skin. It wasn’t a promise like the usual promises that would terrify me. He was only saying that if I don’t let go of what we had, he wouldn’t either.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0towIh2GNO
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My breathing increased and I could barely keep my tears back. I hated talking about how I felt about him or in general talking about things I’ve kept bottled up. It always made me cry.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0TxuUBOnu
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I sat up, the covers fell back on the bed as I moved, and put my legs on either side of his waist and my arms around his shoulders to hug him. I kept him tightly against my body as he put his arms around me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFk8wwSIxN
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“I won’t,” I whispered to his ear and kissed his skin. “I thought I was ready to start talking, I have things to tell you, but I-” I mumbled but he interrupted me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g3Dgi6M9b
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“That’s okay, it’s late,” he whispered at me and made me lie down. “Get some sleep and words will find you,” he smiled as he leaned over me and kissed my lips.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODjJq1bL6p
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“Don’t be so good to me,” I whispered as I barely managed to control my voice.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9GTESb6UL
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“Go to sleep,” he said, completely ignoring me and kissed my forehead.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAwe7gJ501
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“Okay,” I smiled a small smile. Damien lied down behind me and put his strong arms around me; pulling me towards his body. “You’re my superman,” I giggled and he chuckled.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5CrOtDfH4
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I didn’t sleep well. However I didn’t toss and turn because I didn’t want to wake him up. I just lied in his arms enjoying the feeling. He was so beautiful. Damien was everything I ever dreamed of and I was ruining it all with my insecurities. I loved him so much my heart ached.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK5bgqqXjB
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Several times I caught myself opening my mouth and was about to tell him those three little words but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even say “I love you” to him while he was sleeping. I was terrified.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5VCjJSYYK
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How could I explain to him how I felt all those years when I couldn’t even voice it? It was pathetic. I was pathetic.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4gK2I6Toi
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I spend New Year’s Eve with my family and relatives and met with the twins and Damien later on to celebrate, like we did every year. Cleo was keeping her distance from Damien and me during the night. She was a little bit moody every now and then but nothing too serious; towards me at least. I never paid too much attention due to the large amount of vodka I had. But it was registered to my brain; Cleo had a problem with Damien and me being an item.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9hSxdDaY1
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Two days afterwards, I was sitting in my place with Max playing cards and watching television. He was the right person to ask about the weird situation. He would say the truth no matter what.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRh2E2nOjx
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“Dude, what’s up?” he frowned and threw the cards on the table “You’re very distracted.” I took a deep breath and released it.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoHb369nrN
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“What’s going on with Cleo?” I winced “I mean, she’s okay with me but she talks a bit weird at Damien,” I explained my question “And she’s also tensed when Damien is near me.”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0OsJjujO5
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“I thought she would come around by the time you would start worrying for real,” Max sighed and leaned back on the armchair.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUFeh5U25m
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“What do you mean?”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aflUC1y2r
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“You should talk to her about it,” Max winced a bit, feeling uncomfortable talking about it. So something was going on! And Max knew about it.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1ac9z6Obn
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“Oh yeah! Like we’ve talked about Damien and I when I confessed, right?” I scoffed “She’s ignoring the whole thing! It’s like the big elephant in the room!” I exclaimed. “So tell me what the fuck is going on and I will talk to Cleo, I assure you,” I told him.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtcHsqPrv6
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“She doesn’t talk to Damien,” Max breathed.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8zUGK40fR
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“What do you mean? They talk -” I frowned as the Christmas day came to my mind.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyLXFr8lSG
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“She only talks to him when she has to, like when you’re present,” he said. I was stunned.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPy2Fn46gw
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“Wait,” I put my palm in the air towards him “If something irrelevant to me happened, one of them would have talk to me about it. Since no one of them did, I’m guessing it has something to do with me,” I thought out loud. Max looked at me; a sympathetic look on his face.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNWCNGNLt5
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“I think it’s best if you talk to Cleo,” he suggested.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0LiNjQRgn
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“Yes,” I said and grabbed my phone. She wasn’t talking to her brother? But why? If she didn’t approve, then I guess she wouldn’t have talked to me either. Or she wouldn’t be talking to me at all!538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksyLKAqMKE
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Max told me he was going to see Lexie and I knew Damien was at work, so I drove to Cleo’s house after I made sure she was home. She was waiting for me in her room. I thought it was best not to burst in there like wanting to kill someone. Therefore, when I arrived I called her, as I always did, to ask her if she wanted something to drink. I took two glasses of juice and walked up the stairs.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPSDXbtocw
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“Hello,” I smiled “Here,” I told her and gave her the juice.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldWXIDO2cx
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“Thanks,” she smiled back and took the glass “What’s up? I thought you were going to start revising your first class today,” she asked and pulled her sketches towards her to make me space to seat.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmTqIFmtib
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“No, no leave them, I’ll seat here,” I told her and sat on her desk chair. “I was,” I replied to her question “But I wanted to ask you something first,” I said and she looked at me sipping my juice. “What happened with Damien?” I asked and she drew a line on the pad she had on her lap. “You’re not talking to him.” It wasn’t a question.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPDF6l7yy5
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“Nothing happened,” she mumbled.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cYcLZFaRk
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“Yeah, okay!” I nodded mockingly “Cleo, it’s me, remember me? Your best friend?” I raised my eyebrows. She didn’t speak. “I’ve been ignoring the fact that you’re ignoring my relationship. I tried to give you time,” I spoke.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KY69fyV4q
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“Is something I have to solve with my brother,” she said, never looking at me.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpNDc2kIba
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“It has something to do with me though and I don’t like that you two are not talking because of me,” I explained. I hoped she would tell me so we would solve this.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIl9AiKt7t
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“You’re his girlfriend,” she said as she changed the pencil with a color pen.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBa9nzr0Oy
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“I was your friend first,” I mumbled “I am your friend,” I frowned.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡns1Rb0jYsO
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“Okay then! Since you put it that way! I’ll tell you!” she said and looked at me; her tone rose up slightly. I waited. “You’ll get hurt! He’s always between relationships. Never stayed with one girl for too long!” she rumbled on. I felt dizzy.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU7D32AchU
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“I know,” I whispered.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1qYyA7nTb
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“If you know, what are you doing with him?” she asked and I breathed through my nose trying to keep the tears back. “He’s not for you!” she breathed.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYNjQdrH32
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“He is not for me? Or I’m not for him?” I asked; my voice broke at the end. I didn’t want to give her time to respond to my question because I didn’t want to listen to the answer. I was afraid to. “I know I’m not enough for him,” I whispered and got up; the tears blurred my eyes “I’ll never be enough,” I shook my head and opened the door.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00VQKd1H8r
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I heard her calling my name but I didn’t stop. This is what I didn’t want. This is why I kept my feelings to myself for so long. Because I knew I wasn’t enough for him; so why really bother?538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nBuXyKesx
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I didn’t understand why she was talking to me and not to him. But it didn’t matter anymore. I didn’t want to be in the middle of them! No matter what the reason was, they were brother and sister; they should support each other.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALz28smW00
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I couldn’t be in the middle. I would never be the girl that made him choose his girlfriend over his sister. Ever! I couldn’t bear to do that. She is my best friend and I love her, I would never take her brother away from her. Even if it was her choice not to talk to him; I was the reason and I hated it.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkXQiMXwnw
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I entered my house and sat in my parent’s kitchen. James had left yesterday afternoon to go back to his apartment. Maybe I could visit him, just to be away from all of this for a while. And I knew that underneath it all, the only thing that made me want to run away was that my own best friend didn’t approve me for her brother.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAQJ0GULs4
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“Hey kid,” he greeted on the first ring.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvwMo4JtwF
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“Hi,” I breathed.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgcu7bguS6
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“What’s wrong?”538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4s7oAMCEc
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“Can I come over and stay for a while?” I asked.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXXxTeB4cw
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“Of course, but what happened?” I could hear his frown.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBpE6AClmT
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“I’ll tell you tonight,” I told him and got up to pack my things. He wasn’t staying too far away. His apartment was one and half hour away but it was too far for him to drive everyday to go to the university. I called mom to let her know that I was visiting James and she of course made me take four tuppers of food.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHswTZzLN5S
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I decided to call Damien as well; he had to know I was leaving. He didn’t believe I was fine when I told him. Reasonable since my voice had less color than a black and white film. He only asked me to wait an hour before leaving because he wanted to see me. At first I thought of saying no to him because I didn’t want him to see me like that but my ego didn’t let me decline.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1tVImIlCI
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I really wanted to see him. An hour wouldn’t hurt.538Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XB98WR3xQ
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