「咁你呢，又點呀？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpV8Rm4W9q
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstTo3C45Mf
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2NebqEWZn
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyob0KBHmf
「托賴，幾好吖。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDOZwxR3el
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZO7XObZZg
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGECg75yzi
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSguit8ErUP
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vCu4M1wIy
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRY2kF9Ry4
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47OnUUOlBM
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwo0WXLAvC
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESQc40zMiY
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXE5kOdHQP
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETVLwAgg85
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNj6TzaL8G
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPz99yXWMS6
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BzfxqKUOA
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdXhTksKEw
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ8PhfSEEo
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBfhZKZuqf
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLK5lfuD1Wr
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtWJ2sKLHR
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8k9hy6iEG7
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLddXMYhz5
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWAKzsKhmT
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEwb8q6QXK
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpfj8NdThn
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn5C7rgBf8
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjchhNlxQ8
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwp9SqMa1f
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXczV0OFGOD
每天都不想做任何事。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvA1LqZShLN
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRvFtsrTk2
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK21RwwHWj
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblaMfvemxH
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIxZQZnpDG
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgLwfyArn7
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimx4883BLV
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61EqILXLZG
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRXmU4MBjL
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkOLFIl3HV
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWUjKCIJSV
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeEMPIftKm
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzCFW4Nc19
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox3sFVZei5
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefP05jLFvK
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyEPsYdgAs
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBF1r0dnPF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc72t3GOQ9
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfklCPLg0NX
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpuvcttFsj
何況，他們如此親厚。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1bJWbMP6b
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKnJ9UkWBu
阿樂問：「去邊？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsicmorHgz3
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZFr90CEnW
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZl3AM4Ey3
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZplxlGfzSr
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrBz7jIljq
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvQLsUnni2
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonw2mBDXkX
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnJmCF1gvV
Sean回答：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcSGBNXKSc
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0nFgQuDIc
「係。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz9K4rN624
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXFVEevNx5
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzwaEwUkox
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWot9sXCRYi
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2or2vh6SQX
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU9EiFwfAH
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVugvOdUeH
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbVaEp5Ir6
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jpCMEdzN0
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcVssEsmgW
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZJLjltSl9
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xzSTekcZP
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRNBP71v8v
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTFX39oQjL
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLgoJMI0hf
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpR52qwdtMa
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEYt6WlH5F
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNa9BAGctA
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi61WNWSieF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAEM5Nbgc9
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDxtZbw4fF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKo1MJV7uw
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymjpBKpp4l
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKtCnWwIFp
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20NzkF3mdG
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqFwgwZvDx
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpEa3XzMlf
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaV0uq5xJH
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadIgcKHzqQ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmLIVpYd2m
阿樂質疑：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u1D2s6Y3A
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ23SpSRfwY
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTtMfuDwWZ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU3am2nEwD
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yPiyH2utX
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvH2MTrnkw
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D4mdwuEcW
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PR86tRfD2
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanLdKeFQAA
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUkzIFsFM2
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNUDGXovBg
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2zyrV7Wyu
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIM1K0UQ4H
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayYaJ5gO77
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkBFzK6Jfx
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNygSxIXuo0
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35NqZHot5l
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHubZ7PEAU
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM94XZB0VCq
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMm4AvstkP
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7QIr7rDIW
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDb2WuAmog
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR1XuxmJ1z
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoTTFDQ495
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyknNQDP59v
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHq9fb9Vsu1
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5r3zXW6Yo
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lPZIyq5B7
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLz5FCsV7lp
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk80qtNSbG
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK58tLQVvTO
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtDBwVI9WX
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lk2obwlLF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlnvJxAM0I
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Za4F9S8G0
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp34zfWVPiw
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvsnQ0VZZH
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRlWWjc62F
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSgOeSHQdn
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8wno4siCM
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdc8bNB0X0
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3qoGA2G2H
她發現自己有些恐懼。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGysYLCZ6a
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vCzJFeGKn
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gpEwZgli3
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubaveqrbMP
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDl9klLMRAw
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCttGbUkYoO
最後，Matt離開。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aBF2fr0rd
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiWIfEteIx
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJDyX6DDCg
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ya4pbGkMl
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFmHMVeucg
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2onaxW8g4q
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9holyfvU5
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5U3kDAH6m
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzDP6sPCEw
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtc3wlg2J80
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBcBGLDM8L
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRdbbnaBQ7
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4aCzj9Uv0
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSb7fG6gM47
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3V49qVg7h
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7REGbtklbZ
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9bJn4yxJ3
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugSw0BXj0Z
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxViKqILz6O
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOh0A6mww4
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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