這算什麼?689Please respect copyright.PENANAEXI0qxTmmT
689Please respect copyright.PENANAYpyJoWbxRQ
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。689Please respect copyright.PENANAMlzVVi58ac
689Please respect copyright.PENANAUWoUPn18Al
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。689Please respect copyright.PENANAaf7ERM0FET
689Please respect copyright.PENANAbxbIcSBfYs
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。689Please respect copyright.PENANAUKr7TFLWXU
689Please respect copyright.PENANAmxFGLXL9pY
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。689Please respect copyright.PENANAaKBiXfswIp
689Please respect copyright.PENANAd4wSvIliMe
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。689Please respect copyright.PENANA6KS3WWxwkQ
689Please respect copyright.PENANAqG8wmEkWa5
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。689Please respect copyright.PENANAlZPUzcxcgs
689Please respect copyright.PENANAi2ygg9A0lk
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。689Please respect copyright.PENANAjuJmS0QVX0
689Please respect copyright.PENANAT8JpFIHZ5R
然後便準備下山了。689Please respect copyright.PENANAyT2xdsKU33
689Please respect copyright.PENANA76T7qpQX9P
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。689Please respect copyright.PENANAEDUxeCoBlf
689Please respect copyright.PENANADS4UT7d36r
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAgFB698r9wZ
689Please respect copyright.PENANA9IN403N9QQ
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」689Please respect copyright.PENANA9np1TU0Exv
689Please respect copyright.PENANAhtHLikm4tU
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。689Please respect copyright.PENANAEllMOr4pHd
689Please respect copyright.PENANAFBVuOjXYA9
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。689Please respect copyright.PENANAQptwUZ2sQi
689Please respect copyright.PENANA08n11ZaWq6
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。689Please respect copyright.PENANAPekhTQammI
689Please respect copyright.PENANAgYjy3MEyrh
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。689Please respect copyright.PENANA9nJXK2iSYU
689Please respect copyright.PENANAU8boKGSw2R
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。689Please respect copyright.PENANA5PzKtC2rHa
689Please respect copyright.PENANAKbKaGLbIcO
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」689Please respect copyright.PENANAQvvKxyxZWJ
689Please respect copyright.PENANAqmpSmaRSCW
不會告訴我,又一天了。689Please respect copyright.PENANA76YcjqvjNT
689Please respect copyright.PENANAlBgnpcPRAf
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。689Please respect copyright.PENANAm5ydyg0GX0
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZV3MbH98sy
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。689Please respect copyright.PENANAZalUQXI1OB
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZQnxKexdf9
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。689Please respect copyright.PENANAKaBdw1BoST
689Please respect copyright.PENANAGO7dKqDh3d
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。689Please respect copyright.PENANAQMVn4oc1yt
689Please respect copyright.PENANA4mlVjGtpR1
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。689Please respect copyright.PENANAhGxNz8LGUR
689Please respect copyright.PENANAvmQn0qJyK2
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAZyHUwgTsCp
689Please respect copyright.PENANAbsiHrTnQw6
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。689Please respect copyright.PENANA8YgQGoh2P3
689Please respect copyright.PENANAYg4dYoxl1K
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。689Please respect copyright.PENANAukQNSDumcH
689Please respect copyright.PENANAy8kd5yehJW
怎麼說呢?689Please respect copyright.PENANAhQk6yeQaqt
689Please respect copyright.PENANASsJSteitro
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。689Please respect copyright.PENANA2rmtpj08so
689Please respect copyright.PENANAVJqZCjJDWI
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。689Please respect copyright.PENANALOatfPLCOt
689Please respect copyright.PENANA5jJrdC7nLP
翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。689Please respect copyright.PENANAqSvraTP3lZ
689Please respect copyright.PENANAo1rxSFj7uI
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。689Please respect copyright.PENANAv8rRrU9hq7
689Please respect copyright.PENANAnnZqsACL1B
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。689Please respect copyright.PENANAfBsUpf1vUU
689Please respect copyright.PENANAx5K0RUSZEV
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。689Please respect copyright.PENANA8yHm2e0yfu
689Please respect copyright.PENANApfY9Pi1hea
我再點頭。689Please respect copyright.PENANAzygTqqLsqY
689Please respect copyright.PENANABFNPDfBWs2
「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。689Please respect copyright.PENANAgpPYqxt8wp
689Please respect copyright.PENANA6I5uN7V8L0
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。689Please respect copyright.PENANAL16eTHCNZM
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我馬上看第二天。689Please respect copyright.PENANAV7WifFQ8jy
689Please respect copyright.PENANA7dJZS1EVXJ
中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。689Please respect copyright.PENANANDU0Mp1ZQd
689Please respect copyright.PENANAMYe6mzhNMz
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。689Please respect copyright.PENANAVwe1LINLsj
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……689Please respect copyright.PENANAQXSk3bTEF6
689Please respect copyright.PENANAWSVKVDuKNY
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。689Please respect copyright.PENANAGjRs0V1mA9
689Please respect copyright.PENANAkJell0t097
「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」689Please respect copyright.PENANALY0S04bl2K
689Please respect copyright.PENANAGhuj9HGCTc
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」689Please respect copyright.PENANALOIafgw1sU
689Please respect copyright.PENANAWcXgWfLVTn
第二天「END」出現。689Please respect copyright.PENANA5bO92ETswa
689Please respect copyright.PENANAi1tOKuuH6q
我蓋上了練習簿。689Please respect copyright.PENANA0RHCqhtPKr
689Please respect copyright.PENANAjXXc5t654W
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。689Please respect copyright.PENANAIogf0f95M0
689Please respect copyright.PENANAf1kczjNeKH
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?689Please respect copyright.PENANA5OzxtjtL2g
689Please respect copyright.PENANArE0GgdZ0oH
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。689Please respect copyright.PENANArgNNK0Looe
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAbenXsoZabW
689Please respect copyright.PENANAMIdGq0fAFK
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAftZuowVVWT
689Please respect copyright.PENANAMXLkfUR5Dg
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。689Please respect copyright.PENANADNyPb9JNeN
689Please respect copyright.PENANAQmc7xkydWU
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。689Please respect copyright.PENANAWgUl4hNKZv
689Please respect copyright.PENANAmj4MRHI7nY
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?689Please respect copyright.PENANAcZ7lAuw9mz
689Please respect copyright.PENANAFwNaPW2CrF
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。689Please respect copyright.PENANAQNakReJYjA
689Please respect copyright.PENANA0WfPz8KIUW
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。689Please respect copyright.PENANAYoM91TK8N2
689Please respect copyright.PENANAmmx2qHehAg
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAI1eZLXI7pv
689Please respect copyright.PENANAy9G7rbfrhQ
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。689Please respect copyright.PENANAFBPD1y7Xyr
689Please respect copyright.PENANAeeW5ChuhKG
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」689Please respect copyright.PENANABeYH6Fsqw1
689Please respect copyright.PENANAo8J3Jr8qMu
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。689Please respect copyright.PENANA8TmNMELeR1
689Please respect copyright.PENANABwl3u4V52M
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。689Please respect copyright.PENANAwLhqKlcCRE
689Please respect copyright.PENANAd04xaBrw9v
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。689Please respect copyright.PENANArMTpUtgquF
689Please respect copyright.PENANAIO9gnXx2Dp
然後再次坐好。689Please respect copyright.PENANALMJPmVwLWA
689Please respect copyright.PENANAwo58dSRmNL
「陸……傾兒。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAHZeVXh7cpJ
689Please respect copyright.PENANAR0M8tCJefH
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。689Please respect copyright.PENANATMXSdxkCBX
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3wa2GPcnQ
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。689Please respect copyright.PENANAkiaInUw89Q
689Please respect copyright.PENANAJOj5wHpjkP
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。689Please respect copyright.PENANADB1SlYqZaU
689Please respect copyright.PENANA1whJcAdNNE
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。689Please respect copyright.PENANABcCkVKzKFV
689Please respect copyright.PENANAhnRj7oesbN
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。689Please respect copyright.PENANAyDdK6whknd
689Please respect copyright.PENANA3t0VUcWGHL
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?689Please respect copyright.PENANANh6kdjzMcs
689Please respect copyright.PENANAlq70SXQbMo
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。689Please respect copyright.PENANAMjTyM5aWjQ
689Please respect copyright.PENANA5tpnmss9dW
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。689Please respect copyright.PENANAAGtR6M60pC
689Please respect copyright.PENANAnjaBPPDJ80
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。689Please respect copyright.PENANAL5NKjmz7bj
689Please respect copyright.PENANACu3w7f8303
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。689Please respect copyright.PENANAixbdRH3wAX
689Please respect copyright.PENANAsZqd0AiuzT
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。689Please respect copyright.PENANAUNdPSbR81m
689Please respect copyright.PENANAJm9Q2jhuOR
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。689Please respect copyright.PENANAUwWurlPWHk
689Please respect copyright.PENANA7OwtKxBXBr
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。689Please respect copyright.PENANAdLjgJImDEb
689Please respect copyright.PENANAykIsHU9Do1
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。689Please respect copyright.PENANA7TD7dnkQas
689Please respect copyright.PENANAogGiE3qjRi
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。689Please respect copyright.PENANAgNFyzOCKjY
689Please respect copyright.PENANA6Sb6SASOeW
那麼,我呢?689Please respect copyright.PENANAJaDVUEqXzy
689Please respect copyright.PENANAuzPyoLh3Hs
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?689Please respect copyright.PENANAQpRxd9yZl7
689Please respect copyright.PENANAwcWoyYfXL6
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAU8WZvxYcWU
689Please respect copyright.PENANAEELahIWkUc
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。689Please respect copyright.PENANATItWPmVzdK
689Please respect copyright.PENANA3kUTech3y8
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。689Please respect copyright.PENANARH7cNFO6sB
689Please respect copyright.PENANAaJw9dr2EWW
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。689Please respect copyright.PENANAsoEtFtRyeK
689Please respect copyright.PENANAYEQDLawHHL
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。689Please respect copyright.PENANAOIS5ma1kYf
689Please respect copyright.PENANAkHGYEIcudS
第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 689Please respect copyright.PENANAEOWLlCBbu3
689Please respect copyright.PENANAnDM1ZWsUBF
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 689Please respect copyright.PENANAkOCEsDkXtc
689Please respect copyright.PENANAkW8Ltwf5IJ
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。689Please respect copyright.PENANAmrGWJtzE5j
689Please respect copyright.PENANAOMkIohRZKK
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAAWll1tc2yt
689Please respect copyright.PENANAzARxU9TmEV
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」689Please respect copyright.PENANARURGhLIgQD
689Please respect copyright.PENANAQXfEXZTJuq
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAV3qejPM3Le
689Please respect copyright.PENANAMItuHjbVTv
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAqxZ8c4paWe
689Please respect copyright.PENANAybjJfqdo7Q
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。689Please respect copyright.PENANAg8YpCj54sk
689Please respect copyright.PENANAExwUA4Xj5l
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」689Please respect copyright.PENANACCXXAkota5
689Please respect copyright.PENANAraHoRf7CX9
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。689Please respect copyright.PENANAmc51AWz88R
689Please respect copyright.PENANACBpT5rEL4Q
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。689Please respect copyright.PENANADsCY6v4M0W
689Please respect copyright.PENANAkmYGF51TU6
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。689Please respect copyright.PENANA4zqfTQPCIL
689Please respect copyright.PENANAzmsF0U1PAj
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。689Please respect copyright.PENANABWtVqAeJCd
689Please respect copyright.PENANA5oj9iTtdFq
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?689Please respect copyright.PENANADnFJebNCqN
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我期待著。689Please respect copyright.PENANARIjHx2RsLH
689Please respect copyright.PENANAF9NZyuoj9v
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。689Please respect copyright.PENANAeUY91LuC8J
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZeANlGeIsh
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。689Please respect copyright.PENANAtn7kLLicp8
689Please respect copyright.PENANAQnHtsXkJz3
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。689Please respect copyright.PENANAXhXMeMdmE4
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZhVTH7gBuH
「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」689Please respect copyright.PENANAwpm887QJ1j
689Please respect copyright.PENANAfl8BdLiKB6
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAZQOaDU3n76
689Please respect copyright.PENANAVjaojTUO1B
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAHbGSOWxpCV
689Please respect copyright.PENANA4eM2Rxg6FF
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。689Please respect copyright.PENANArErCEPv44A
689Please respect copyright.PENANATdr0m04HsL
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。689Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0sIF4aXWa
689Please respect copyright.PENANAzDKIyynrq0
傾耳以待——689Please respect copyright.PENANAl0yzWKeyxW
689Please respect copyright.PENANA8eTWdYprK8
「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAL3pTZo1UJa
689Please respect copyright.PENANAHBs7hhWffC
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。689Please respect copyright.PENANAyphSU4fICO
689Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ0Z5lPYSZ
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。689Please respect copyright.PENANAiEXk6n9wi3
689Please respect copyright.PENANA675ANme7NK
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。689Please respect copyright.PENANAJpONiHoOGA
689Please respect copyright.PENANA3avVmAdXKD
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」689Please respect copyright.PENANAt8jCwuQWlq
689Please respect copyright.PENANA64rrUyvrpT
身體傾後,躺了下來。689Please respect copyright.PENANA9CypP6s5BH
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「係諗住攤。」689Please respect copyright.PENANA8puE6WfXIA
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。689Please respect copyright.PENANAcT4wSF4yTb
689Please respect copyright.PENANAlsnuerwLaI
神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。689Please respect copyright.PENANAHqoiK9nJJR
689Please respect copyright.PENANAZ9E9ewzjKy
在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。689Please respect copyright.PENANADJo5Yq2eZl
689Please respect copyright.PENANAnhDPR6lbUq
露出鼻尖和微笑。689Please respect copyright.PENANAzMQyy8xXz6
689Please respect copyright.PENANALjhrimplPr
像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。689Please respect copyright.PENANA4pXQs5k8F1