我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61Ax8Z4htB
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMhsxjhxaC
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「咬下——」明白了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZUukkL3ga
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbluwNkyX8
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JKcFHxx6W
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFMfY2lqVM
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApenDRGXPV
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神是不是故意的？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G6QtxVduN
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymlA9L6uK2
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3fYyunwkM
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3DeBwLUMK
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHAXJzKrQA
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHokRLrLXF
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgvVYkbb2Q
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkzDYFj7Su
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjduLs7VgV
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVCZnLMKUx
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXpylOpMV7
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwvh9A9iSo
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuE10a4Rvt
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZCst1FaNQ
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqGyZN2hUz
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然後我沒有再阻止她。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZifydYxWDT
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN2Eq9qSSJ
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ENEphiONu
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXEpDeV3t9
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8xRSWQQPV
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9pqZR2efG
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZsHnIJ5ZL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4CEowvl42
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Gj0A7v3gM
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEfHoztQVVr
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ634skFPdv3
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo36G0YFL2B
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqNicbKJb7
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzYzrTP3s6
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueGuXN6trf
我也正在難過。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2h85tIrYR
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnH8jHsVko
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPh5rKc49oK
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVpv7RYztz
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「點解？」她問。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhq5kLtN3qI
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvwmw0Rq5t
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7Z4dGcz8P
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPBNiqt5Mc
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oCryOvbLt
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJX054xkwT
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAFCq9apLQ
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhUHodcDcV
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3UGpM8ym7
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdcCRrCn5w
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZb9VyfFhR
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzmNzkXWeQ
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjDHUn9XXf
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這是……什麼爛方法？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp45O0QPcgC
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATgbsIMJb5
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gCJK1yxdn
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQtk9YceDr
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGr4Ec1FBr
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「咩條件？」她問。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKUUM60KgU
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSjXQNTNnZ
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEza5BqiuQg
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkN0yf4kT0
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2X3NWAXU7
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ482H9vGBv9
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQHIn8OhZw
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQLPT6rIki
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW7PQeJZds
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5ymgOLplQ
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcY53NEH8tp
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6CaKz9Caw
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJJk3Jbxuy
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz11tO4q0PQ
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSJTv5TgkG
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnU99CBKA9
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT4bCrolxq
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLWmlPWlwA
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW14LIL2oT
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWHXewfIlw
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yhX2c31cL
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGs2mfvtyp
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdir9BH3fZP
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFwzBbSkBh
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjA0rBCfO8
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvF5QujVxuq
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2m6gGinOJD
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhs8mIbqqT
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7hOts4yTD
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQgOj05lev
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrO75w6y3g
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWcSpX5Blg
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwI9K1txk1
說完，她聽完。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2Cgz13smO
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4LlJlLcXp
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMwu00VuQv
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGdimCGJxD
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0M60nkUkVj
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03g0gkCJCR
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgI806J1SX6
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutzpDbMbVG
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnLZH8vKxy
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MHJj9ZRpN
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODeIXgz4g4
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8UDg29yFR
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26kJzooCKk
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「陸傾兒……」我說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Vbs8vkagr
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「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1kdzkOClp
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPZd4yG3NP
「揀咩都得？」我問。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3DWCNmmVB
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfh6mvUVSFw
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO4alW0eFx
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoQxLYiAgY
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuM19OjzYzG
而我不懂回答。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVmKARumy6
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypfV9jxXx5
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPetli6st3O
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3s01VfZ6K
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx407j0CbLk
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKj8UIs9jUm
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTspCJtuWb
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NmHEYG3wp
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvj0gvWkh90
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFhLWMwj62
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡll0UazAs1l
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPtKdZdBBO
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIgJiTSPIA
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORPQQwwL8S
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過後——740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0Sv3SYo2N
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aqqObbcju
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnEYmBYfCk
屁股坐下。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQtc7C3yny
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3krodOCVao
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