我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。685Please respect copyright.PENANA45QxEepg9h
685Please respect copyright.PENANAuni4DmXzUH
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAIZh4J5pwYG
685Please respect copyright.PENANApJNm484vCq
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。685Please respect copyright.PENANAhkQUIiMEdc
685Please respect copyright.PENANA0pvfljGzk8
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。685Please respect copyright.PENANAFd7DyD6kMp
685Please respect copyright.PENANAQh9BMLVnp3
走進了屋邨商場。685Please respect copyright.PENANAgejmvckkTT
685Please respect copyright.PENANAUuxeCrWT4K
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。685Please respect copyright.PENANAWrbFB6TOTi
685Please respect copyright.PENANAcAiOCadpFQ
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。685Please respect copyright.PENANAR6OttuRM6T
685Please respect copyright.PENANAGfm8a3UCzJ
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。685Please respect copyright.PENANAZFZN0iOYWH
685Please respect copyright.PENANA2lL6p9avkj
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。685Please respect copyright.PENANAWm09LLAk2P
685Please respect copyright.PENANAUrzM8BqTDy
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。685Please respect copyright.PENANA79STRz4v6W
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。685Please respect copyright.PENANA9CJjpgm1k4
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。685Please respect copyright.PENANAgEpNmjBgHe
685Please respect copyright.PENANA4VuhDGqY9j
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。685Please respect copyright.PENANAugWEebwHAM
685Please respect copyright.PENANAulu4hwbffp
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。685Please respect copyright.PENANAjxMN6Bpfgp
685Please respect copyright.PENANAIQCn16LRXb
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。685Please respect copyright.PENANAVUyooKqL9x
685Please respect copyright.PENANAKKv5skxU6k
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——685Please respect copyright.PENANApLaRn8aq61
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。685Please respect copyright.PENANAIIpkzBEHtn
685Please respect copyright.PENANAjEV9ef2VPI
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。685Please respect copyright.PENANACKmlMo6wWw
685Please respect copyright.PENANAdsWLo7KVrS
腳步還是能動。685Please respect copyright.PENANACC7K37Oyyc
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。685Please respect copyright.PENANA9mDF11nbZ8
685Please respect copyright.PENANAp09Nwk476D
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……685Please respect copyright.PENANAQAVuBWbvRo
685Please respect copyright.PENANAiqL3l96Eie
腳步才轉向離去。685Please respect copyright.PENANA4SBNC9uqI0
685Please respect copyright.PENANAv49SI6s9Lw
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。685Please respect copyright.PENANAcKiJmNkAFY
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。685Please respect copyright.PENANAImnhXbUoXu
685Please respect copyright.PENANAW83pQEfyAc
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。685Please respect copyright.PENANAIChrXZkwWb
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但是已經不再重要。685Please respect copyright.PENANAW4KNX86akq
685Please respect copyright.PENANA4z8u1fa1e1
她騙了我。685Please respect copyright.PENANA2kL541SNBo
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。685Please respect copyright.PENANAvs83NlcAai
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。685Please respect copyright.PENANAEKiOk33pNn
685Please respect copyright.PENANAxkinjlQmDF
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。685Please respect copyright.PENANAEgqeHXaxk4
685Please respect copyright.PENANAi475IrgRlT
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。685Please respect copyright.PENANAg2XSSAPJ9S
685Please respect copyright.PENANA91husEoCJC
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。685Please respect copyright.PENANAcNDFKjlgtp
685Please respect copyright.PENANA5p6GgYI9oC
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。685Please respect copyright.PENANAwPJkd8bro3
685Please respect copyright.PENANAS8NswisJ1c
但我錯了。685Please respect copyright.PENANAMnUo6g0MAQ
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。685Please respect copyright.PENANAHiPcCNJJcD
685Please respect copyright.PENANANVj2WrwOfl
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。685Please respect copyright.PENANAqu42vg6qO2
685Please respect copyright.PENANAwzEpPwxBOD
眼下——685Please respect copyright.PENANA9AmlKRySYR
685Please respect copyright.PENANA3DgrPGr3SC
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。685Please respect copyright.PENANAwqHDPzOO0r
685Please respect copyright.PENANA3za4wXifak
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。685Please respect copyright.PENANAjdGgvD0QWq
685Please respect copyright.PENANAmxYiFMl0cL
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAkk5TmvHebz
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?685Please respect copyright.PENANAbbfN8uY3gS
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。685Please respect copyright.PENANAeP0l5V9SKx
685Please respect copyright.PENANAW7oPaAIik8
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。685Please respect copyright.PENANAxpq2xssZHk
685Please respect copyright.PENANAGUIQhRtho8
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。685Please respect copyright.PENANApc1MzTqNWb
685Please respect copyright.PENANAnCD8aga2jt
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。685Please respect copyright.PENANAhrSEg0B7bS
685Please respect copyright.PENANAkpsazNN9hi
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。685Please respect copyright.PENANAlP21tyx4nM
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。685Please respect copyright.PENANAqHUTjJomhH
685Please respect copyright.PENANAIkUfGSZ75b
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。685Please respect copyright.PENANAnnWwxF5SZI
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。685Please respect copyright.PENANAA6aKr3UDzc
685Please respect copyright.PENANApeD5NYfXWr
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。685Please respect copyright.PENANArojjK2Z7lu
685Please respect copyright.PENANAP4YMky5hiD
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……685Please respect copyright.PENANAjVF3zq8cxS
685Please respect copyright.PENANAag5uOTOf4i
我樂意代勞的。685Please respect copyright.PENANAZXYjjWqgS4
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。685Please respect copyright.PENANASJpVFuvsSS
685Please respect copyright.PENANAb0uOeX16JL
我馬上看看後座的乘客——685Please respect copyright.PENANAmfyc7d138O
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。685Please respect copyright.PENANAy3M13tQUJO
685Please respect copyright.PENANADrdp3VzWup
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?685Please respect copyright.PENANAjrQGtxR2cB
685Please respect copyright.PENANAwHwzxJLEio
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。685Please respect copyright.PENANAYiykz8vIyp
685Please respect copyright.PENANA8qJmYFuYAy
在下午等待至日落——685Please respect copyright.PENANACMN94oGAMP
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。685Please respect copyright.PENANAAdez0fxcXS
685Please respect copyright.PENANAW0kucpVpVF
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。685Please respect copyright.PENANAFQtmqRuP8z
685Please respect copyright.PENANAF0Np1BtqtF
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」685Please respect copyright.PENANAxdD40xa6g0
685Please respect copyright.PENANAKlwe6CfocW
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。685Please respect copyright.PENANAtMrPplBu6R
685Please respect copyright.PENANA0rXtzpCQ6N
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAAV9EOyR79b
685Please respect copyright.PENANAdDOA85X2nV
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。685Please respect copyright.PENANACcCnRazWOA
685Please respect copyright.PENANAuWqg0xJbDN
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。685Please respect copyright.PENANAYcLCjmLDjd
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「嘭——」也是不進。685Please respect copyright.PENANApUGJpPxNB1
685Please respect copyright.PENANAR2gUzTh8Pf
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。685Please respect copyright.PENANAD9IA0GkYXu
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漸漸出現晚霞。685Please respect copyright.PENANATAkQFJFdOZ
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回去吧。685Please respect copyright.PENANAhhSAMY8Nlm
685Please respect copyright.PENANAv9bKU8jcNF
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。685Please respect copyright.PENANAmwkeCs7iY2
685Please respect copyright.PENANAg2qzK4XXs4
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。685Please respect copyright.PENANAsL3LC3OTuK
685Please respect copyright.PENANAglJyGWpKpw
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。685Please respect copyright.PENANATnuSK9DqI0
685Please respect copyright.PENANA45WJJQylMh
背著書包,累然站起——685Please respect copyright.PENANATLSkVkBcpq
685Please respect copyright.PENANAFbpRb2ylz8
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」685Please respect copyright.PENANADH2nsYEwSA
685Please respect copyright.PENANAUNXsnJUQ46
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。685Please respect copyright.PENANAKpMs7qtmPT
685Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4rk6Yv8lU
最後,舉起手。685Please respect copyright.PENANA44Sp8DnsfC
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。685Please respect copyright.PENANAYwcsoMjZQ7
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* * *685Please respect copyright.PENANAW8Ye9VA0Rg
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。685Please respect copyright.PENANA6JSSgW4aBr
685Please respect copyright.PENANAbe7kdzdJF7
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。685Please respect copyright.PENANA1nxjML1gTp
685Please respect copyright.PENANAfm2iAdC5Ej
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。685Please respect copyright.PENANA0YMNLdD3hT
685Please respect copyright.PENANA1QZO7mePaw
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。685Please respect copyright.PENANAdE2QyhaOuR
685Please respect copyright.PENANAR27G1K2F1n
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。685Please respect copyright.PENANAcBXONJgQNx
685Please respect copyright.PENANAh8jQKMVRoU
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。685Please respect copyright.PENANADdEFQcj9op
685Please respect copyright.PENANAEf3rocBGto
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。685Please respect copyright.PENANASx5k2iK9Lj
685Please respect copyright.PENANAtKpsJ6pXoS
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。685Please respect copyright.PENANAijCrbQcWu4
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。685Please respect copyright.PENANADiKbVdFzB7
685Please respect copyright.PENANAqUM4wnibGV
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。685Please respect copyright.PENANA5KVUaB4wKs
685Please respect copyright.PENANAeqkvB7i0BB
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。685Please respect copyright.PENANArotvTYGbsU
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAf1ogAqNVF3
685Please respect copyright.PENANA3SffpviP1M
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。685Please respect copyright.PENANA0MIp5mqM1y
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。685Please respect copyright.PENANAXKlK0tkdnJ
685Please respect copyright.PENANAJH0y8LRV0k
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAHBYIf3JHvY
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。685Please respect copyright.PENANAACA5PX3IPy
685Please respect copyright.PENANAtCluT0iiuK
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。685Please respect copyright.PENANAUXBPQgTwYi
685Please respect copyright.PENANAWTrWFesOFo
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。685Please respect copyright.PENANALOQrjLz0bE
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。685Please respect copyright.PENANAkSpB4vNHA8
685Please respect copyright.PENANAGA28rHUiPP
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……685Please respect copyright.PENANAoUfOI17R2H
685Please respect copyright.PENANAteAqqb0BjW
——放大瞳孔。685Please respect copyright.PENANAX6ggdTUf8f
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。685Please respect copyright.PENANAdont2rN5SB
685Please respect copyright.PENANAF2zzlErz0Y
手機就在我的褲袋。685Please respect copyright.PENANA10aAbtJIZt
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。685Please respect copyright.PENANAfrBU2gEe2W
685Please respect copyright.PENANA9b9AhvB5wM
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。685Please respect copyright.PENANAlR6vvhrPm9
685Please respect copyright.PENANAwggUwOOQwd
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。685Please respect copyright.PENANAVoNN7OLwlB
685Please respect copyright.PENANAqC9h6ANxHY
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。685Please respect copyright.PENANAvQ6JkHhq5w
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那麼,打嗎?685Please respect copyright.PENANAr7UhEZCldA
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。685Please respect copyright.PENANAPvgoIc5rC1
685Please respect copyright.PENANAnl0FibJu1W
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?685Please respect copyright.PENANAKyeMQdmVWg
685Please respect copyright.PENANAKppdGaJ5nk
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?685Please respect copyright.PENANAythWCp2Rm2
685Please respect copyright.PENANAAeN7Nsfi1m
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。685Please respect copyright.PENANAt7FrN42hu6
685Please respect copyright.PENANAmirKa3xdPR
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。685Please respect copyright.PENANAgrUFmGS11J
685Please respect copyright.PENANAkcKO1PLpgY
幾度拿出手機的我——685Please respect copyright.PENANAD02T9xRF0P
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算吧。685Please respect copyright.PENANAmSxMqRkHsT
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把手機放回褲袋。685Please respect copyright.PENANA7QRcTHDClV
685Please respect copyright.PENANAbiriXUmCTC
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。685Please respect copyright.PENANAEe3boycwVE
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。685Please respect copyright.PENANAVE2aiyDKN3
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。685Please respect copyright.PENANAKC1kzLUYwm
685Please respect copyright.PENANAsKshEmrybF