我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。731Please respect copyright.PENANAcv1LLxqajV
731Please respect copyright.PENANAijAWVA7qaQ
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAHiALWyurvd
731Please respect copyright.PENANAmfDpZnuU6l
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。731Please respect copyright.PENANAruY6fPzJIs
731Please respect copyright.PENANA5GknNER1Ia
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。731Please respect copyright.PENANAOTMfdPSnjU
731Please respect copyright.PENANAqLPVz3RZEs
走進了屋邨商場。731Please respect copyright.PENANAU0ZmkdHc2A
731Please respect copyright.PENANAVnD3DsUvLY
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。731Please respect copyright.PENANAxYTLtjNSO9
731Please respect copyright.PENANATkUCeYR0Xq
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。731Please respect copyright.PENANAKcsXj5Z7AU
731Please respect copyright.PENANAG621Q3FszW
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。731Please respect copyright.PENANAiYzREtcO5l
731Please respect copyright.PENANANQAFqDtHf9
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。731Please respect copyright.PENANANAadSIAm9q
731Please respect copyright.PENANA8YaOiA6jDr
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。731Please respect copyright.PENANAzxW9vc3Pa0
731Please respect copyright.PENANAuc83asxKca
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。731Please respect copyright.PENANAMBzVMjj78f
731Please respect copyright.PENANAG6zWqA8CX2
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。731Please respect copyright.PENANAgKSKI9mSm5
731Please respect copyright.PENANAx6pwv80eN4
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。731Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8cWQDLUum
731Please respect copyright.PENANAa3ebX2V5Sz
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。731Please respect copyright.PENANAGIMPZoGRqg
731Please respect copyright.PENANA9nebXN00t6
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。731Please respect copyright.PENANAzjSr9iqp1F
731Please respect copyright.PENANAg1ygv4Ozk6
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——731Please respect copyright.PENANAetHtlBaql3
731Please respect copyright.PENANAtGN22xb3Eh
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。731Please respect copyright.PENANAOPw93kuPg3
731Please respect copyright.PENANAB5D6zjMlbA
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。731Please respect copyright.PENANAsBOMOyXADi
731Please respect copyright.PENANAVPJzjNTaoJ
腳步還是能動。731Please respect copyright.PENANA1bko5S1nxp
731Please respect copyright.PENANA9lwQ3yfn25
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。731Please respect copyright.PENANAIobCnEUYpo
731Please respect copyright.PENANA5sM3HM7iVU
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……731Please respect copyright.PENANAOlYhXClQTf
731Please respect copyright.PENANAOo9JbDVWi8
腳步才轉向離去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAh8c5trFpCy
731Please respect copyright.PENANA9JC09ybLd8
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。731Please respect copyright.PENANAhkImpN7S0g
731Please respect copyright.PENANAHM2DzzG72t
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。731Please respect copyright.PENANArNMqKKnB8p
731Please respect copyright.PENANACtjHueOspz
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。731Please respect copyright.PENANAkn0PetEQLi
731Please respect copyright.PENANA0V2IBHoFWg
但是已經不再重要。731Please respect copyright.PENANAPob2ose3lr
731Please respect copyright.PENANAD1ABq4dtrI
她騙了我。731Please respect copyright.PENANAY4ibYXFuxN
731Please respect copyright.PENANAlbTYXZvdIe
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。731Please respect copyright.PENANA6a17j4EgLT
731Please respect copyright.PENANAYUgeVQBdO4
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。731Please respect copyright.PENANALc0Z70ldxW
731Please respect copyright.PENANAVXr9nRMegR
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。731Please respect copyright.PENANAXncKloUM0c
731Please respect copyright.PENANAtP9a1RhqV8
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。731Please respect copyright.PENANA7IO2qYjyqt
731Please respect copyright.PENANAEWeOeQnFUg
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。731Please respect copyright.PENANAA3TdcKCnwe
731Please respect copyright.PENANAzfjn7B9voO
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。731Please respect copyright.PENANAnEJJ1EQfDb
731Please respect copyright.PENANAkaItPjOo6i
但我錯了。731Please respect copyright.PENANA36sjRjkaER
731Please respect copyright.PENANArySzFFtE19
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。731Please respect copyright.PENANArM8NXzqzYD
731Please respect copyright.PENANAfjT6XJljWU
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。731Please respect copyright.PENANAT3tBCnSY7h
731Please respect copyright.PENANAg8qp6qsNfQ
眼下——731Please respect copyright.PENANANJw44m5V2u
731Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1xxWEw2zf
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。731Please respect copyright.PENANAQErC4iCewM
731Please respect copyright.PENANAv6vIIL1bri
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。731Please respect copyright.PENANAmz2qxTuFSs
731Please respect copyright.PENANAkst530Mm8c
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAziIooApyQ2
731Please respect copyright.PENANAL6twt3PeA3
我能夠再承受一次嗎?731Please respect copyright.PENANAsHAdQKCIVe
731Please respect copyright.PENANAFYDWJxs8zC
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。731Please respect copyright.PENANAfbCv9LYZZC
731Please respect copyright.PENANACxyxhAduas
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。731Please respect copyright.PENANA4yzdVDzdbP
731Please respect copyright.PENANAGMPlL5hweH
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。731Please respect copyright.PENANAsj5fKQ6con
731Please respect copyright.PENANACMycQyjmbZ
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。731Please respect copyright.PENANAgwJxsvZRJS
731Please respect copyright.PENANA47aAmavVIS
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。731Please respect copyright.PENANAIZYTTShJUp
731Please respect copyright.PENANAp2QR0n4jzQ
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。731Please respect copyright.PENANAUHipV55xiz
731Please respect copyright.PENANAwY6T5oCkat
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。731Please respect copyright.PENANAr1lpJrrpZo
731Please respect copyright.PENANAs4GhOd1syB
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。731Please respect copyright.PENANAvQy34QCXWn
731Please respect copyright.PENANAhpIGlOpJuL
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。731Please respect copyright.PENANA1cBPVhiM1S
731Please respect copyright.PENANAKhfmQuRm7f
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……731Please respect copyright.PENANADz3PXwltze
731Please respect copyright.PENANAZPj0d6dGqd
我樂意代勞的。731Please respect copyright.PENANADvPiqArHjW
731Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6BO4ooluw
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。731Please respect copyright.PENANA0M9KC9g62X
731Please respect copyright.PENANA6hcinMo4i4
我馬上看看後座的乘客——731Please respect copyright.PENANAz3rEQHrP9g
731Please respect copyright.PENANAE8HESAFmfb
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。731Please respect copyright.PENANAujUeX8jU29
731Please respect copyright.PENANAvmNj85wf8Q
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?731Please respect copyright.PENANA1faDZDOzbn
731Please respect copyright.PENANA6RXrelCyrY
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。731Please respect copyright.PENANAISJWHWnPCC
731Please respect copyright.PENANATBIaDuziet
在下午等待至日落——731Please respect copyright.PENANAkwQd8mxbjg
731Please respect copyright.PENANA12Si5O2P8k
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。731Please respect copyright.PENANAFRRT4gfe4J
731Please respect copyright.PENANArwy9tBJQQU
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。731Please respect copyright.PENANAAduTykgbmX
731Please respect copyright.PENANAK1THuMwL7T
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」731Please respect copyright.PENANAZYm8StOcYo
731Please respect copyright.PENANAS1PJhzirio
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。731Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7xFTSSSVS
731Please respect copyright.PENANAFZ3YbvX7bL
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAWuetXr73f1
731Please respect copyright.PENANAh1kpJ1bzYR
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。731Please respect copyright.PENANA2EF3345eOX
731Please respect copyright.PENANAwAz9IAOMEO
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。731Please respect copyright.PENANAGqYlTFiUtv
731Please respect copyright.PENANAF28GwbEMqR
「嘭——」也是不進。731Please respect copyright.PENANA3JYDbKWnOS
731Please respect copyright.PENANAoYyjwoBd8f
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。731Please respect copyright.PENANAFvX5X2vbrW
731Please respect copyright.PENANAdP3StStkLU
漸漸出現晚霞。731Please respect copyright.PENANALVOZaejXDI
731Please respect copyright.PENANAiWDcAynLpN
回去吧。731Please respect copyright.PENANAhL51LVA5E1
731Please respect copyright.PENANAeRvvDMpP7k
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。731Please respect copyright.PENANAClI5fkKnYC
731Please respect copyright.PENANAEzLiOnIxVb
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。731Please respect copyright.PENANAu97LdWyE9o
731Please respect copyright.PENANA4hNbj6wgHK
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAb5Ftm8gzKC
731Please respect copyright.PENANA0rsp61IQui
背著書包,累然站起——731Please respect copyright.PENANASusYTmK98g
731Please respect copyright.PENANARr9Xzhb175
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」731Please respect copyright.PENANAtGGApgBIcD
731Please respect copyright.PENANAj3QbH4k9uj
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。731Please respect copyright.PENANAslMrsUwIIo
731Please respect copyright.PENANAcgOc6XOT4X
最後,舉起手。731Please respect copyright.PENANAcuqSL53zdg
731Please respect copyright.PENANAuURuYoVsBy
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。731Please respect copyright.PENANAX9qi6wGGLr
731Please respect copyright.PENANAVTQwuQLAgY
* * *731Please respect copyright.PENANA1m1E0820X3
731Please respect copyright.PENANAzbaZr8GV5a
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。731Please respect copyright.PENANAB5leiZmImp
731Please respect copyright.PENANA52LxM5JVdy
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。731Please respect copyright.PENANAkTe6FPbhmW
731Please respect copyright.PENANAKJQ2OKLNKm
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。731Please respect copyright.PENANAwrGXbsKTOl
731Please respect copyright.PENANAcmC3Rzk21R
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。731Please respect copyright.PENANAiTEh69jPgv
731Please respect copyright.PENANAk4cctak6kj
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。731Please respect copyright.PENANAskttAWRQBD
731Please respect copyright.PENANAuhYeMT8x3w
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。731Please respect copyright.PENANAIzeuzKXbN6
731Please respect copyright.PENANA6SjiBSvDwC
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。731Please respect copyright.PENANAuV0IqGTHiM
731Please respect copyright.PENANA8QONOh6Ejq
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。731Please respect copyright.PENANAIba86j47l1
731Please respect copyright.PENANADuEj5DOy4D
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。731Please respect copyright.PENANAHqb2Qs5O73
731Please respect copyright.PENANA6avm6aijmj
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。731Please respect copyright.PENANAiFO1HsCsMt
731Please respect copyright.PENANAf15FEL41IN
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。731Please respect copyright.PENANAeiExp9nJt6
731Please respect copyright.PENANAYkvx8Sj04r
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAskx0qobibT
731Please respect copyright.PENANAshqa9vPaeI
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。731Please respect copyright.PENANAvpNrEuUEVr
731Please respect copyright.PENANAFIbVQHecPV
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。731Please respect copyright.PENANAKvS7zp3gB6
731Please respect copyright.PENANAucuwc4d2jS
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAVE87UzrPqH
731Please respect copyright.PENANA5GrSKc48Hk
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。731Please respect copyright.PENANA5EakYwa56C
731Please respect copyright.PENANAfIzKqZqibN
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。731Please respect copyright.PENANAnL6VvJ9EbS
731Please respect copyright.PENANAkMsfLpNr94
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。731Please respect copyright.PENANATzxLhcFjRJ
731Please respect copyright.PENANAoHHet3qyXm
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。731Please respect copyright.PENANASQn1rVarhg
731Please respect copyright.PENANABYQiZxPTyT
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……731Please respect copyright.PENANAvrAkzdjU9E
731Please respect copyright.PENANAs5gpBIaRE4
——放大瞳孔。731Please respect copyright.PENANATKgJ5yMHXf
731Please respect copyright.PENANAJmK0dSdebZ
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。731Please respect copyright.PENANA6arFqh3SC5
731Please respect copyright.PENANAS3T9K9gIe4
手機就在我的褲袋。731Please respect copyright.PENANALHeidP7bTG
731Please respect copyright.PENANAXxLk7LxGdd
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。731Please respect copyright.PENANA5D2Sg94IQK
731Please respect copyright.PENANAzjl06lvbtg
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。731Please respect copyright.PENANA4HNnOOid29
731Please respect copyright.PENANAYWvD5IxzEn
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。731Please respect copyright.PENANAuJpPCGH1b0
731Please respect copyright.PENANAk7c0cINQDT
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。731Please respect copyright.PENANAi7nNRwNOVl
731Please respect copyright.PENANAGtYLSr8Z82
那麼,打嗎?731Please respect copyright.PENANASroW8sIt1A
731Please respect copyright.PENANAMpSxJ1ngFJ
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。731Please respect copyright.PENANAbsCSvOWoZu
731Please respect copyright.PENANAYKTP1SIged
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?731Please respect copyright.PENANAk2Paq1gtQJ
731Please respect copyright.PENANAQK17TiKviZ
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?731Please respect copyright.PENANAf2T2NZSaSK
731Please respect copyright.PENANA8MbOMsy8QN
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。731Please respect copyright.PENANAdQbVLdk0wv
731Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0cs1uJrWG
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。731Please respect copyright.PENANA7zGeiJ3NR0
731Please respect copyright.PENANA6cwVfYmTpQ
幾度拿出手機的我——731Please respect copyright.PENANAuhfhJPWlAQ
731Please respect copyright.PENANAWlNPvuZPqu
算吧。731Please respect copyright.PENANAJOdUWozRvS
731Please respect copyright.PENANAvnyOCwas4E
把手機放回褲袋。731Please respect copyright.PENANAnLeTZdH0uB
731Please respect copyright.PENANAEmJmbbnaxn
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。731Please respect copyright.PENANAUgwpO3lkec
731Please respect copyright.PENANAl78jLDjaS8
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。731Please respect copyright.PENANA0wXuXOvJdy
731Please respect copyright.PENANANMbSMtpm5y
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。731Please respect copyright.PENANAtv0ravBUrT
731Please respect copyright.PENANA9gKKGLnDag