I was right. I knew him well after all.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJVKINiLnh
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwJb7snrPs
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdugtDx3yuj
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHS9qRtIqM
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdz0ZX3rNc
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtx9N9SRV3V
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkGJbswe53
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEPePj0bQY
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXtN3qeu4z
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8WzjPrxwN
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBOFQVlAu9
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eLNRJRKP3
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfrSuVJhwp
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDS822OTgV
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbi1wB4HIY7
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18sIro0yq4
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblLVhFyOJw
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuNcjvL67C
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww9E28q6ly
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7lJr3gyfS
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkGFmYGqYN
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5JKdO8Yn1
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrfNqiXSI1
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3O9YKPXAf
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI7NcFNwPZ
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOGPpLSIJf
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“Damn,” he whispered.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJ7xfddsAU
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2Tn3R3PmK
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TzNwfoETF
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN7JhxBrNk
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxNUN6ZT0g
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5qdJ7NmMu
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimY2ECLDZz
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdX6jzkkLX
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YsOxWBFvE
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AzjyCNZIS
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1725r5LW1K
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuRRjHLJFP
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ciVn0AsSn
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNX6SeS55S
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgq73pvAHc0
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspf5nAYYGF
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3oO35dh9m
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbefdDj98rQ
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfFRc8Vnqq
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvj2tvR4Npy
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYu6CFvnU9
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUySTp6ri1
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciOCeLLfdP
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsySzpLZtc
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZ05xyoQzD
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXUibW5wnA
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVca7peLg0
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5wcKDRhvp
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rnVY5HcQ8
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FAWt7BjXz
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGBCuSLYnp
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRY97gNvVf
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMzoB6YaUw
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXJpDzg5gJ
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsomEDRZN4L
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEBYYOuPuC
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuEZSlCAiZ
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dHhiNcVo7
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgX4VOEqLA
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdxKCSLUw3
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTDmBZ32eR
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRKjp2pyuB
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPkIDgoPqH
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kVjGlNeAF
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NxiWf5poi
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSO1auYlyHx
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50g1JfniUX
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLInIjnS4p
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhk3ehR7Dpv
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkaN0dgStn
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5sk3M8DrP
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEia05ZBm5
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He opened the door and left.423Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXPLIuGIXx
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
