星野莉奈知道糸師冴現在住在哪裡,但她沒有要去那裡找他。37Please respect copyright.PENANAAaEh6KxAVv
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依照他平常的習慣,不管有沒有去俱樂部踢球,肯定都在訓練。雖然完全不知道他現在在哪裡訓練,RE·AL又安排了什麼給他?37Please respect copyright.PENANARhvNGco90z
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聽說他這次回日本,是為了轉型與短期休整。37Please respect copyright.PENANAAdfzi5axKI
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RE·AL在郊區設置了一處日方合作的訓練據點,位置低調,前身是一間廢校改建的封閉式設施。雖然規模不大,但設備精密,除了技術場地,還配有守門員教練、運動治療師與心理追蹤人員——據說這是RE·AL首次嘗試以「靜地訓練」為核心理念,結合當地俱樂部與大學資源,作為遠東地區的試點基地。37Please respect copyright.PENANACQ4ZtxpYsD
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RE·AL給了他兩個選項——一是入住配合的長期旅館,二是直接搬回老家住。37Please respect copyright.PENANAkyKiondmcE
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糸師冴當然會選擇,前者。37Please respect copyright.PENANAUSLLEWYOQq
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不是因為那間旅館有多高級,而是因為他不想回去。37Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZOhhbYWAi
不是現在。37Please respect copyright.PENANA0ism7Ntjey
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他什麼都沒說,但她大概能理解。37Please respect copyright.PENANAuviIrlFx7G
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她不知道他的心情變了多少,但她知道,有些距離是他自己劃下的。不是為了別人,是為了撐住自己。37Please respect copyright.PENANA2Udb1M0uQL
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她打開地圖,點開那座少有人記得的舊球場。37Please respect copyright.PENANAshSjYiQV45
那不是他們最常練球的地方,場地不大,也沒有燈,但他們國小時特別喜歡偷偷跑去那裡——因為沒什麼人知道,就沒人來搶,沒人來管。37Please respect copyright.PENANA1TTt6IYM7r
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雖然練習場早拆了,改成開放式公園,但她記得——那塊靠近樹叢的空地,應該還在。37Please respect copyright.PENANAcfm4woH2Dx
那是他們以前沒處去時的「備用基地」,特別適合那種,不想回家、又非得踢球不可的傍晚。37Please respect copyright.PENANAxZvycsFFKK
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她沒有先傳訊息問他要不要去,也沒有確認他人在哪裡。37Please respect copyright.PENANAf1PGst3oH5
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她只是想——如果有一點點可能,他會在那裡,那她想去看看。37Please respect copyright.PENANA8Nxlb2lENS
不是真的覺得他會在那裡,只是她需要試一次,才不會覺得自己什麼都沒做。37Please respect copyright.PENANAQ75rArnoMA
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星野莉奈繞過車站的天橋,買了一瓶熱奶茶。路過便利商店時停了一下,想起什麼似的,轉身進去買了兩包暖暖包,一包塞進口袋,一包握在手裡。37Please respect copyright.PENANACDJqH9bsDy
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等她走進那片空地的時候,果然空無一人。37Please respect copyright.PENANAuzvniEItPP
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也沒太失望,反而覺得——37Please respect copyright.PENANAkdaBJ9dRv0
這樣也好,至少自己是真的走過來了。37Please respect copyright.PENANAxWLApjZQFa
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星野莉奈站在原地,讓風吹亂頭髮,讓雪落在睫毛上。37Please respect copyright.PENANAgTSrUojrI3
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她知道,他們早就不是那種會約在秘密基地碰頭的小孩了。這裡,也早就不是躲起來就沒事的地方了。37Please respect copyright.PENANA5cJd2LWiRW
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時間被冰封,但也有什麼正在一點一滴地融化。37Please respect copyright.PENANAV7NSzWL5mI
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手機震動——有訊息傳來。37Please respect copyright.PENANAQHZvO5Bti6
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『我聽說小冴回來了,要不要找一天請糸師一家來家裡吃個飯?』是媽媽。37Please respect copyright.PENANAunWN9rl2Nu
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『媽,我覺得現階段不太好⋯⋯他們兄弟昨天還吵架,很兇的那種。』這句話後,手指頓了一下。37Please respect copyright.PENANAiqBnGUKwxm
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星野莉奈低頭看著手機的對話框,安靜了一會兒。37Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZSSDCUsuK
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⋯⋯小凜現在還好嗎?昨晚他回家後,有沒有跟誰說話?有沒有冷到感冒?37Please respect copyright.PENANAKj2d7bgOSO
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『小冴跟小凜吵架?好難相信他們會吵架?我是有聽他們媽媽說,小冴現在沒有住家裡⋯⋯』37Please respect copyright.PENANAtmMt9hVnJn
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『對呀,所以,之後再說吧。晚上我不回家吃喔。』37Please respect copyright.PENANAbxRtMxqEcw
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她收起手機,屏幕的光影閃了一下,落入傍晚的雪色裡,然後慢慢沉寂。37Please respect copyright.PENANAR09mKd6pSV
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星野莉奈沒有馬上把手機放回口袋,而是靜靜地握著,眼神落在眼前這片空地。37Please respect copyright.PENANAWSXT9VyRWF
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她想起有一次冬天下課後,冴穿著球衣不肯回家,她氣得去便利商店買罐裝的味噌湯,一邊碎念一邊遞過去,說:「你不喝就不准再凍到發抖。」37Please respect copyright.PENANA6m3WLjTD5E
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當時他沒說話,默默接過去喝完,然後擦著嘴角說:「很鹹。」37Please respect copyright.PENANAtPX1RXmnXM
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她氣得追著他跑了三圈,最後笑到摔進雪堆裡。37Please respect copyright.PENANAp7kTSmGI5v
那時候小凜也在,手上握著她塞過去的熱牛奶。37Please respect copyright.PENANA2AsWIeDEKV
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他年紀還小,個子小小一隻,穿著比他大兩號的羽絨外套,拉鍊都快拉到嘴巴,睜著大大的眼睛看著他們在雪地裡打鬧,像一顆睜眼的飯糰。37Please respect copyright.PENANAJb0HdARPSq
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她笑著叫他一起來,小凜卻只是搖搖頭,悄悄把手裡的糖果往她口袋塞,然後用幾乎聽不見的聲音說:37Please respect copyright.PENANA34hbOtLbTY
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「⋯⋯妳不要感冒。」37Please respect copyright.PENANA90dkwrEL6F
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當時的小凜還不太會說話,講話有點漏風。卻總是默默在一旁,蹲著、看著,安安靜靜地,像隻小動物似的跟著他們——可愛得讓人心軟。37Please respect copyright.PENANAV0jWxy0Wc7
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她記得他那天也被他哥哥連累,雪黏了滿褲子,回家還不肯換衣服,說要跟哥哥一樣。37Please respect copyright.PENANA5TfoHcp5lB
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那年冬天好冷,卻因為有他們兩個在身邊,變得很好笑,很溫暖。37Please respect copyright.PENANAjQr8fhIi8N
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她一想起,就覺得心裡某個位置也跟著被那罐味噌湯燙了一下。37Please respect copyright.PENANAxViXXx3ptS
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後來冴去西班牙、她忙著模特工作,這塊空地也慢慢地被荒草蓋過,再沒人來練球。最後變成了民眾閒暇泡茶下棋的公園——她甚至懷疑他早就忘了這個地方。37Please respect copyright.PENANA6wBKLXU5a0
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可她還記得——冴以前每次不想回家,又不知道去哪裡時,總會出現在這裡。37Please respect copyright.PENANADQOXyjll7n
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所以今天,她才會走來。37Please respect copyright.PENANAWcz6iahxCn
星野莉奈的視線再次落在這片空曠的地,把暖暖包握得更緊了一點。37Please respect copyright.PENANAk85Ulj0hfX
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冬天的傍晚比想像中還快變暗。37Please respect copyright.PENANASyWq7hBQXt
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然後,她聽見了腳步聲。37Please respect copyright.PENANAEg1rj7HV0x
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不是急促的奔跑,而是極輕微的,那種走在積雪上、小心翼翼不想驚動什麼的腳步聲。37Please respect copyright.PENANA85T9NB2koi
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她回過頭。37Please respect copyright.PENANASU6iHdXy7U
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糸師冴穿著白色羽絨外套,背著球袋。像不經意路過,又像早就知道她會在。沒有說話,也沒有驚訝。37Please respect copyright.PENANAIKVjBsNABS
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他只是站住,在呼吸之間,默認了某種重逢。37Please respect copyright.PENANAE41tdiiRxl
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她笑了一下,把手裡那包暖暖包舉起來。37Please respect copyright.PENANA7EjUpMcKDc
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「要嗎?」她問。37Please respect copyright.PENANAffFZ90FWFF
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他看著她,好一會兒。37Please respect copyright.PENANA8BepaORJnC
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還是什麼都沒說。她也沒催。37Please respect copyright.PENANA97Socys6V1
因為她知道,有些話,是不需要急著說出口的。37Please respect copyright.PENANAbpfkXbbd0E
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就像糸師冴從未親口說過「我會找妳」。37Please respect copyright.PENANAvA9MqeXP4D
但星野莉奈記得,他每次回頭、停留、重新出現的時刻——就已經是了。37Please respect copyright.PENANAvbXYfCSQ3F
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像那次她被大雨困在舞蹈教室,他沒打電話,卻一個人撐傘站在門口,說了一句:「路上有積水。」37Please respect copyright.PENANApbHRmlHpIs
像他拿到RE・AL的邀請函,小凜和她都在慶祝。只有他等到所有人散了,才走過來站在她身邊。說:他要先為凜去探路。37Please respect copyright.PENANAs2GimBk32z
像她把拍好的照片拿給班導看,卻被說「拍來玩玩的吧」。她沒有去球場,躲到後門外那片小公園的滑梯底下。他找到她時沒說什麼,只坐下來,低頭問她:「今天拍了幾張?」37Please respect copyright.PENANAmfaTMHDud2
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——他總會走來,以他的方式,再次出現。總會的。37Please respect copyright.PENANASgapHVEqlC
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她一度把這當成默契。一種不言而喻的相逢規則,也是一種不需要承諾的習慣。37Please respect copyright.PENANA7XVulA8EVk
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可她現在明白了——她已經不是那個,只要他回來就會安心的自己了。37Please respect copyright.PENANAXnE9VkuipR
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因為再次出現,不一定是選擇靠近;默默站著,也不等於是留下。37Please respect copyright.PENANAqrXRLREcfp
昨晚,冴跟小凜,就是這樣——一個再次出現、一個默默站著,卻把彼此推得更開。37Please respect copyright.PENANAq0BzhoukgU
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她想起那個畫面,心口還是隱隱有點悶。37Please respect copyright.PENANAbV01aWmaKd
她不知道,那得要多少的折磨,才會讓曾密不可分的他們,劃出那麼深的一道線。37Please respect copyright.PENANAiqWetwe2xv
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同樣地,昨晚她的靠近,已經夠小心了。可好像只要再多走一步,就會被他親手推進無底深淵。也正因為如此,星野莉奈更確定——她必須站在這裡。37Please respect copyright.PENANAKf6YYzHo6D
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但她不能再主動更靠近。37Please respect copyright.PENANAmWA3kSuZlJ
因為冴身上,已經背著太多他自己的重擔;再多一點,就會變成負擔。37Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZPuatW32H
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所以這一次,她把手伸出去,不是為了拉住他,而是想看見——他會不會真的,自己走過來。37Please respect copyright.PENANAx0kD77p68S
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她沒動,站在原地,等著看他,會不會向她走來。37Please respect copyright.PENANALmnO2E8Dw5
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一聲輕響,腳步落在雪地上。37Please respect copyright.PENANAT1jX1XQExR
接著,是第二步。37Please respect copyright.PENANAxannxiUJjA
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糸師冴,終於走近,把暖暖包接了過去。37Please respect copyright.PENANAdHeVQOe3EN
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沒有碰到手,但她覺得手心一陣暖。37Please respect copyright.PENANA0j0YZkJ3e4
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好像有什麼,把冷空氣融化了一點點。