I put my palm against my chest and frowned lightly. The pain wasn’t strong, but it was there. My parents had arrived at the hospital soon after I’d called them. Alex told them everything he knew, as I overheard while they were talking outside the room.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVR0BceG2uq
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Apparently I needed to stay in the hospital so they could monitor me; make sure that this wouldn’t end up with me having a heart attack or at least until my new doctor came back from her vacation. She was going to have the last call on when I would be going home.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDFJozfYf2
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A knock on the door made my parents and me turn towards the door. I managed to send Alex home to get some sleep just two hours ago so I didn’t expect anyone else.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHoIMb6yz1
I didn’t want to call Max because I felt embarrassed therefore I didn’t expect him to show up at the hospital.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQImBZ30e6E
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I couldn’t see who it was but I saw my mom smiling and getting up from her seat. That’s when Max and Cleo came into view. I sighed and leaned back against my pillow. I would have to explain why all these was happening.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmaNwq8owQ
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“We’re going to the cafeteria. Want me to bring you something?” my mom asked and pulled my oblivious looking dad from his hand.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwYPFXyT6p
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“A juice,” I smiled “And a cake,” I said with a smug smile “Can I eat cake?” I frowned suddenly.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yoZfFPyCl
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“I’ll ask,” she smiled and left. The twins smiled at my parents as they walked past them.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC1n1xLogc
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“So?” Max looked at me and sat down at the foot of the bed. Cleo didn’t move.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlGVfx8TOM
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“What?” I asked, frowning; avoiding the subject.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqwf9N6ZlG
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“What’s going on? My mom didn’t say much,” he explained.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGIRBWNqNH
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“Well, I had chest pains and they thought it would be better for me to stay in,” I smiled uneasily. Max blinked and tried to speak again but failed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsedPUaBfg
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“Why?” Cleo spoke for the first time; her voice kind of startled me. I haven’t talked to her for so long and I missed her so bad. I stared at my hands, my sight blurring, and the machine started to pace up. I noticed the twins turning towards it.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVHIJQRry4
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“I don’t wanna talk about it,” I mumbled “Not yet at least.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbheHLoBaz3
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“When are you checking out?” Max asked another question.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0bf5TaHnR
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“When my doctor comes back from her vacation,” I replied “Tomorrow I think,” I winced and Max frowned “Yeah, I know bad timing,” I chuckled. Cleo looked more relaxed after my small joke and a small smile formed on her lips.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVwhmGBXRZ
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“I got you these,” she said and opened her bag, taking out three magazines. She moved closer and gave them to me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vHGL5lW80
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“Music too huh?” I grinned as I saw my favorite music magazine among the fashion magazines she preferred.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkpPT33qaN
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“Well, it’s not the time to be a bully,” she chuckled. I noticed Max gazing at the magazines, as if looking for something and then winced when it didn’t found it. I guess he was looking either for a car, a football player or a semi-naked woman. I smiled lightly and turned towards Cleo again.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGIWzoWfqJ
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“So,” I took a deep breath after a moment of silence “Tell me about the project,” I smiled at Cleo “What is it about?”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZBcjftKjb
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“Um,” she breathed “Need to have a portfolio of ten summer outfits and sew one of them,” she explained.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QzK3dBX7o
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“Random summer outfits?” I asked while she sat down on the chair where my mom was seating earlier.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4P6Dgkjq5z
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“Sort of, I need to show a work outfit, a party outfit, a brunch blah blah, you get the picture,” she chuckled lightly.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJwx8zfWRb
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“How close to the end are you?” I made an effort to smirk.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXqA2ci73P
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“Surprising, she’s almost done,” Max mocked. I grinned at him and turned to Cleo again as she spoke.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbjGRJnDGW
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“I’m actually drawing the last one but I can’t stop thinking about the previous I’ve done, so I’m gonna sew that one,” she said.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKkKNBgVrG
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“Cool,” I smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkr1Kehwf1
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I tried my best to ignore the fact that although she knew that Damien left, she only contacted me the first day. But as I couldn’t afford anymore drama these days, I turned to Max for a while, asking about Lexie. I understood that he didn’t want to say much maybe because he didn’t want to remind me Damien’s departure. Not that I have forgot about it at all.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRfHchVSHb
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Max had to go outside to answer his phone a little while later and that’s when Cleo came and sat at his spot.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVTmuT52hk
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“Um,” she begun and exhaled deeply “I’m really sorry that I haven’t contacted you since you came back or since you left actually,” she frowned. “I was mad at first because I didn’t want you to get hurt and then…” I swallowed hard figuring out for where this was going and I felt being dragged down under by a black hole. As my sight blurred I averted my eyes from her.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIkPpqizq2
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“Please don’t,” I interrupted “I’m not ready to talk about that yet,” I mumbled; my hands curling up into fists.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4l02vYYhy0
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“Damn,” she breathed out as she studied me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnmgE2uNzG
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“Yeah, I know.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhHPkLT0Rk
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Thankfully, the very next day the new doctor came by my room; a young woman of medium height and slim figure with curly blonde hair. I was suspicious that Alex had something to do with the fact that I was her first patient; especially since she was stunning. But then she informed me that she was a psychologist; she couldn’t have many patients actually staying in the hospital.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnJAKmeYaU
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“Can you please leave us for a moment?” she asked my parents. As soon as we heard the door closing, the doctor sat on the foot of my bed. Popural spot.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN9QgjIfLN
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“As your pathologist may have told you, right now there’s nothing wrong with your body, it’ s just reacting to emotional pain,” she explained “So, we need to work on that,” she smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5B5AkDpW3
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“Okay,” I nodded. “So, when I’m getting out of here?” I grinned. Mrs. Abbott chuckled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHOSOGMSVx
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“I’ll come by in two hours, for a session and we’ll see,” she smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zwjebnMab
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“But I’m fine,” I winced.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15485ZGRcU
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“We’ll talk about it later,” she smiled and nodded me for a goodbye.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4mmiyrBWX
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She must have informed my parents herself because they didn’t ask me anything when they returned to the room. They left soon afterwards, leaving me to read a book I asked from my mom. I would probably have to study for my exams but I didn’t felt ready and just the thought of it made me anxious.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVCeIP5qUG
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Samantha Abbott, my psychologist, was sitting on the chair across from me; a notebook on her lap. I was getting impatient. I wanted to go home and hide under the covers of my own bed. I felt oppressed in the hospital as I had to suppress every feeling I had; unless I wanted everyone to witness my weakness.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpuhYclQwn
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“Is this really necessary?” I mumbled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPFWzZMWnd
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“How are you feeling today?” the blonde doctor asked me; ignoring my question.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXiXtknTFY
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“Fine.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnvLWGFO42
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“Fine is not a feeling Erica,” she noted.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO33ZlvyAPF
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I breathed through my nose. I wasn’t anywhere near fine. I couldn’t understand why Damien left. It killed me even more that I knew it was a matter of time that he’d do it. I just hoped he would prove me wrong.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHzgCZw8sR
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“Okay then,” I exhaled “I feel ridiculous about this,” I motioned around me “People get dumped all the time,” I said and my eyes stared on my lap “So I don’t get it why I have to do this.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUWxpv8Pnk
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“Because we want to make sure that you’re healthy enough to go home,” she smiled. I looked at her. I guess this could be done two ways; the easy way or the hard way.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpZ3GytePm
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“Yeah, still… I mean, people get dumped all the time but I ended up in the hospital. Always full of drama,” I rolled my eyes.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDCdcXmQGA
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“It’s not your fault you’re here,” she said “When things bottle up inside they’re bound to overflow at some point.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIiIyy3Vs5
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“I know,” I nodded. A deep sigh escaped my lungs as I curled my knees in front of me. “I feel it’s beyond me,” I confessed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYsPtGPvrF
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“What is?”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdtwlVKGjr
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“How much I love him. I can’t handle it,” I paused “And obviously he couldn’t either,” I raised my eyebrows “I knew it was a matter of time before he’d leave me,” I confessed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HbMcpoKz7
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“Why do you believe he would leave you?” she asked. The tone surprised me. I always thought that psychologists ask blank questions, just to get into your head. I blinked and then scoffed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHq0uG83ec
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“Why wouldn’t he?” I smiled a bitter, small smile.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxggAreRD8
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“You should answer to that,” Samantha told me and saw her hand moving her pen on the notebook she was holding.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdW9JC3rvxW
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“Okay,” I exhaled. “I always loved him. That will never change. For the most part I was alone in this since he never knew and will never know how much I loved and will love him. I’ll just deal with being alone again,” I shrugged my shoulders “It’s not a big deal,” I smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5lVoMfu4P
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“Erica, I don’t think you realize how much of a big deal this is,” she looked at me “You’re body reacted to the emotional pain you pushed away. You need to deal with this before you’re body looses this battle. I’m not going to lie to you. You can give you’re self a heart attack,” she kept talking and the only think I could think of was “Fuck, he’ll actually be the death of me”.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICKTIzTgw1
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“Other people get headaches from stress and emotional pain, others get nausea, others all the above, others get heart attacks. Every organism deals with emotional pain differently. Yours is on the verge of giving you a heart attack. You’ve pushed yourself to the limits,” she said and I began fuming.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLPX25x7cy
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“So what the hell am I suppose to do? Make him love me so I’ll stop the pain?” I asked, my tone rising and my hands cutting the air in front of me. “You can’t make people love you! Hecan’t love me! I’m not…I don’t think…” I stopped to think the best way to say this “He’s too good for me anyway,” I whispered.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnASWqDwe2
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“You need to build up your confidence. You’re a beautiful, smart, young woman, Erica,” she said and I wanted to laugh.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOunvDUjCO
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“Well, I still didn’t worth his time,” I mumbled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43JoGaB37O
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“Have you talked to your friends about it?”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWL7v9p3Kl
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“Not completely,” I replied and rushed to explain “I think you run into them earlier; my friends. They are twins. It’s their older brother,” I sighed “So, it’s complicated,”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfnW6EagFK
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“Why is that?” she asked again. Her questions were starting to annoy me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJbdg2GsWT
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I explained all the reasons that made this so complicated for me. I figured that if I couldn’t get away from this, I might as well take advantage of the situation. Since I thought my best friends weren’t keen on listening what was going on inside my weird head, she was the only option.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOUMZstmZw
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She discharged me from the hospital the very next day. I went home with four different pills to take each day and an appointment every two days for the next ten days.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1angZXJrVe
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I had asked Cleo to wait for me until I was ready and felt comfortable to talk to her. She was supportive through those two weeks that it took me to actually feel human again and I was glad to have my best friend back. I could see, however, that she didn’t feel as comfortable, maybe because she was scared that something she would say or do would trigger me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4pJOH8kIW
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I didn’t even bother studying for my examinations using the hospital and the whole situation as an excuse. My parents of course were supportive about that, reminding me that what mattered what for me to be okay; an extra semester at the university wasn’t going to harm anyone.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz4DLfi1ZK
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The first month passed quietly and I managed to actually control my outbursts about Damien whenever I thought about him. Now, I would only cry during my sessions with Samantha, when I had to talk about him, or not even there. When Cleo couldn’t keep me company, Max would or when he wasn’t available Alex was there to keep me occupied.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRevt0iH7X
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“Are you okay so far?” I turned towards him from my seat as he stopped the car.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN4cjwTKrX
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“Yes,” Alex sighed. I smiled and got out of the car, the bouquet of flowers in my hands. We met at the front of the car and I gave him the bouquet. “Okay,” he straightened up and sighed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XbCBc9tHo
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I check his black tie with my fingers to see if it was straight and put my hands against his shoulders.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAR2fA2ilC
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“Ready?” I smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYUpNUXcWE
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“Yes,” he smiled back and led the way.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJiAPwMqxs
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We walked quietly for a while before he stopped in front of a beautiful white stone. I noticed the name “Elizabeth White” curved carefully against the stone and knew we were there.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcYM8REppv
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“It’s been two years,” he sighed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tl1lDwSZ6
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“That’s okay,” I told him “You’re here now. She knows you’re trying your best,” I smiled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGacXGDSZX
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He turned towards me and smiled too before he walked away from me and crouched down in front of the stone. He left the bouquet in front of the grave and stayed there for a minute.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohVRTmbf8X
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“Do you want some privacy?” I asked quietly.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyScyZPddr
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“No, I’m okay,” he replied as he stared at his mother photograph; his fingers brushing her face.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKeTSAelaI
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Sometimes Alex confused me so much. Sometimes I wish he was like that before we broke up. Why did he have to show his soft side to me after all of this? If he did it before maybe we would still be together and maybe I wouldn’t be that hurt right now. But I treasured those forty days with Damien so much. They were some of the best days of my life and I felt guilty for even thinking that I would be better off.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hKCougZFH
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Alex got up and stood beside me again; bringing me back to the present. He took my hand in his and held it.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLulFbbjSA
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“Thank you,” he whispered and lightly squished my hand. I turned towards him and as our eyes met I smiled at him.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIPfbPtLTJ
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I turned my eyes forward again and sighed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JouPYAq6N
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The same week, Samantha informed me that she will cut down our sessions to once a week and I figured it was time to finally talk to Cleo. As far as I knew she had no idea how things with me and Damien were before he left.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjeQkiAh5o
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I invited Cleo over for dinner and left the option to invite Max up to her. I tried to keep it light, do what we did before everything happened; just order dinner and watch television next to the fireplace.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBSsXWd5BL
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She arrived alone so I figured she would like for us to talk like this. We sat down and decided what to order at first. When the food arrived and I returned into the living room with plates and as my mind was already spinning I couldn’t help myself anymore.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1Dg0CQ4Xz
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“I just wanted you to be okay with it,” I winced. Cleo sighed and left everything at the coffee table.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy7qNPqD7j
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“I’m sorry,” she mumbled “I just didn’t want you to get hurt Erica,” she frowned as she looked at me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AF0FMGy0O
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“I know,” I mumbled and sat down on the chair. “I left because I didn’t want to get between you two. I would never make him choose, even if he’s the love of my life,” I confessed, not realizing what I said.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwWvLyHd7G
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“You really love him?” she asked and a deep sigh escaped my lungs.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBe8Burs5Ul
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“Why do you think I’m in this mess?” I asked softly “Though he’ll never know,” a bitter small smile appeared on my lips.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVmejKkyDH
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“I had no idea,” she replied. Of course she didn’t, because she wouldn’t listen to me. “Were you okay before you left for the City?” she asked after a moment of silence.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqu6EmGLqUI
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“Yes. I actually made several attempts to talk to him, to tell him how I feel but the only thing I’ve managed to say was that I was scared,” I scoffed.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GPo9SIu9a
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I explained how he wanted to visit and talk to me, while I was away just to let her know that it wasn’t entirely into my head. Told her that he kept saying that he wasn’t going anywhere and that he wouldn’t leave me and that’s why it hurt so bad. Because he knew I didn’t want him to promise me things but he did it anyway. And then he broke those promises; and broke me into a million pieces.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4wZxo0bkQ
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Cleo wasn’t talking by this point. She would only make small questions to get the whole picture of the relationship I once had. Then I had to do the unavoidable; tell her the impact her words had. I tried to phrase it better though. I told her that I knew he was between relationships and that he never stayed with one girl for too long. I also knew right from the start that I’m not enough for him, that he wasn’t for me and I’ll never be enough for him.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpmC2Kd6kL
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“I’m sorry for saying or implying those things,” she sighed deeply.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SlCqx6Wma
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“I know you are. But it’s the facts,” I bit my lip. Before she said anything else I started talking again. “Before I even started getting back to normal, he told me he was going to Italy,” I said “So, I never really had the chance to talk to him again.” I explained.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdr2Zu5Ima7
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“If I knew it was serious, I wouldn’t be like this,” she frowned.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mpFKsfoHv
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“Don’t torment yourself. Obviously, you were right. I was right. It was only a matter of time before he left.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytBohz6LRm
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“But, I don’t get it,” she mumbled “If you guys were fine when he left the City, why he left for Italy earlier than planned and didn’t even say a word?”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTE4FizpwI
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“If you find out, I would love to know,” I told her and now that I got all of that out of my chest I decided to grab a bite from my food that was waiting on the coffee table in front of me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nomaoyvX4
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“I’m gonna call him,” she said; sounding determine.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuwOKUbvzz
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“Don’t,” I rapidly shook my head.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkrQo60QmV
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“If he wanted to say something, he would. He’s the kind of guy that stays quiet and you know that. So, I don’t wanna ambush him like that.”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJe1sVVkhn
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“Okay,” she nodded. “Do you want to tell me how it started? I hate it that I wasn’t near you when it all happened,” she smiled a shy smile.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqA1xNMw2J
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“Remember that night at the summerhouse when Mike visited?” I asked and she nodded. “Since he had nowhere to sleep and I was drunk, we slept together,” I said and her eyebrows rose.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVifxynsmxt
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“Not like that dude! Slept for real,” I explained and she chuckled “Anyway, the next day we stayed back at the house and Alex pissed me off, I had to calm down and I got into the swimming pool. That’s when he kissed me for the first time,” a smug expression on my face as I remembered my heart bouncing, butterflies attacking my body and his lips tasting like chlorine. I shook my head to push away the memory.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEw02cj4JZ3
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“He kissed me again after the renovation. We spent a lot of time together in the garage,” I said softly looking at the floor as the memories consumed me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwNPXTlVyX
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“Eat, your food is getting colder,” Cleo said out of the blue. I sighed and nodded.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpjUMrQmK9
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“When Alex left the first time, that’s when the chest pains begun,” I told her after a while.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCNOy6v8KN
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“You never said anything,” she frowned, when she swallowed her food.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7MOJ7xOnp
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“It only happened twice I think and once after he came back and he wanted to take me to the doctor but I convinced him I was okay,” I explained.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowF9NE66wD
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“Is that why he was at the hospital?” she asked.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmb3B7lJT9
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“I hope not,” I chuckled thinking she meant that he felt guilty for not taking me to the doctor back then “I run onto him my last night in the city actually and he was a mess,” I said and she looked bored; Bored of the over-dramatic Alex. “Seriously, from his half words I understood he almost killed himself or started doing drugs. He had no one else, so I made him talk to me,” I shrugged my shoulders.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wLMQFAReN
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“Good thing you run onto him, then”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAGMgancQI
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“It was,” I nodded “Anyway, when Damien left, he contacted me to see how I was, I lied at first. But you cannot lie to the master of lies,” I explained and she scoffed; agreeing with me. “He got me to tell him everything and as I talked the chest pain was there and he noticed. Only this time he dragged me to the hospital for a check-up. The next time it happened, two days later, I called him and the rest you know,” I explained.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOI0iDxKk9
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“Oh, that’s why he’s there,” she mumbled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJwNDNViEi
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“Yeah, I got him to go to the cemetery the other day, after two years,” I said; feeling proud of myself.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHuivOawdZ
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“Are you…” she trailed “Are you feeling anything for him?” she asked finally her voice small. I shook my head.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMP8JycxtZ
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“He’s only a friend now. He keeps my mind occupied and plus, I don’t want to be in a middle of a romance anytime soon,” I mumbled looking at my food before taking another bite. As that night came back to my mind, the second time Alex took to me the hospital, the reason came to my mind and a deep sigh escaped my lungs. I left my food on the table and leaned forward, touching my elbows on my knees.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMPDxqmHKW
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“What?” Cleo asked softly.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6YXI38fI9
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“The second time I went to the hospital, I had called Damien and he answered. For the first time he left, he had answered his phone,” my voice trembled.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHoJ54Wb4F
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“What, what did he say?”496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2cwKinhWp
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“I told him that I just needed to hear his voice and he replied with a «So what?» I hang up the phone then, because I didn’t want him to hear me crying,” I explained but tears filled my eyes and I sobbed hard. Cleo put down her food and came to sit beside me. She put her arms around me and hugged me.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nTzjNRQbt
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“You’re gonna be okay. I’m here now,” she mumbled. That gave me strength and calmed me down a bit. I sighed as the sobs stopped and I hugged her back.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJfi4T9hUv
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“Thank you,” I mumbled as she brushed my hair and kept me into her arms. I had missed my best friend so much. Now that she was here, everything seemed easier.496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4bGu40X5f
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