I was right. I knew him well after all.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMifa4fhj19
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxGZAxHI0X
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5d1EZST9gv
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7Rch5nFtl
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9EDQJlW3Y
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCcwLt7rcj
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7gFqSME37
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUWTWacqB0
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7UYE0JNR9
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXq5EHqOpU
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeNaLbKVAV
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nOUEpSokV
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYqCwojZ1G
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmtGZP0yL2
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UkAVJPx4A
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA4Zyze7vi
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIPd67HayF
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTScGWbAUCW
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2OLRrgT8o
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXNygdulCO
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreXe3r6wRY
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoogwueWDcx
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFnDOLrFqg
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibfoPHss55
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJmyLUyLhf
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRv1leg8Ai
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“Damn,” he whispered.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqQDm6Xayr
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25MwGMj8vg
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1Ug464S3A
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSWqgctbet
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39OvLAwGvF
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5NNk6FTAM
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzrV67q84h
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRC5UssgM7
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtN8r22boFg
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXTAkYKVLb
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B3e1kzTAx
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbE0apoZV9
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmK0sj4nYkq
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHB1wvjZrF
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLHmODkPmc
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjW1uBVf7t
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQNPse3O98
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RTVKyw8NV
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGbwX2slgd
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tSrMhqPbv
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5Xs1mHWCu
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7ZWZVK3pj
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyAvhaoZ0G
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o1PgUMHpl
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqMbwzs6ZC
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D0N3U7qVl
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunvXm7vvpl
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLLFVZhbQ2
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZZZqvP7oR
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn1uNlH5ve
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3bYyv6DuW
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCuwWVN6yR
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMP9B80ZvFw
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseqdp03CMk
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1B3J5qlRQU
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23CZh15vMe
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfDum9Kz4Q
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9tJRnqmPB
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfHU1WjgOG
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡem6TfLVbBi
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ61YuycSX
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡah3IZWVCpi
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEuJ2jVYrS
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAciulY3H0T
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XsEl5cyJx
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMl73GOL6j
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtx7szbz11d
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpKeIMlQMH
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdyd4jNJg8
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteg3BmRiSH
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZHe4VonOv
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2Els923CU
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He opened the door and left.422Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWS0qffrGf
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
