Maybe it was jealousy.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7AO7zOHoZ
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTssZDlHFW
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbknEYES01Q
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrl74t49cb
It wasn’t that.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAEPw0DMig
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLfHYc65Nt
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ATTQunUn7
Terrified, actually.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nmKwkT7aS
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTRPesOADw
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmvm98TgKP
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9e5Ijrdn4
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nMb7C4QdB
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxb0IpQXezf
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiB5msNKp4N
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMkwYqrsVj
Because love is blind,98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujoRLwKDJz
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4iIMZOrS4
Not love.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnaxwh8LWy
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPli7J02Tp
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uu4Zlbnoo
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB4ely3asn
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCiEmLMV0W
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRqDxAaxpe
not gripped tight.
You see,98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3w9nIdUa8V
I wasn’t jealous.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9Z54e6mRa
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOafjzQaKK
The us we created in tiny moments —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOFs3udiWQ
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXMZYS5vKQ
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnbizH3ZrW
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJ6gVd4aHb
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXRbq0kSt1
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspVXvIAiNo
Me. And you.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoXzweICOM
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6QSZ2H5kH
Letting go, not because someone better came along…98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4RLk6eGY1
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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