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開春後，街市逐漸恢復了以往的車水馬龍，轂轆隨著馬蹄，混出馬車特有的聲響，最終停在黎家門前。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDgQ104xP7
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等待已久的黎絳洵上前將車中的父母扶下車。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlz3nySdAk
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自那日以後未曾再與黎絳洵說過話的言曇岫早已張羅好洗塵宴，餐桌上母親說著旅途中的見聞，言曇岫配合著母親誇張的說詞，即便只有他們兩人在對話，仍是歡聲笑語不絕。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcN8unKVlQe
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「不過，洵兒都沒說話，是不是有什麼事情想說啊？」母親關切地探問著。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqC0u8dlqnV
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黎絳洵闔上書，一個眨眼過後，他才說：「娘，我想明……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiFLAJbP62
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言曇岫忽然一陣咳嗽，甚至手肘碰掉了杯盞，破碎的聲音淹在茶湯裡。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKB3kDwUM8
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「是不是染上風寒了？最近乍暖還寒，要是病了，你也別勉強，要請大夫來看啊。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7omKsBLKd
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「謝謝夫人。」言曇岫摀著嘴點頭，剛離開椅子，黎絳洵便走過來，拉住他的手腕，不讓他蹲下。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOVNtxSGoa
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言曇岫維持著原本的動作，黎絳洵換上笑臉後說：「娘，我想先送曇岫回房好了，你也知道，他沒人盯著的話，根本不會好好休息。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCXImZIkYe
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得到母親首肯後，黎絳洵扣著言曇岫的手腕，邁出門檻，沒多久就走到了燈火無法照亮的陰影中，言曇岫停下後冷冷說：「可以了，鬆手。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdFIXa5mOb
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「你……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn03UgvWHMs
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言曇岫定了定神，而黎絳洵只是放開手，卻沒有回頭的打算。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASi4whIVvu
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呼吸在驟冷的空氣裡變得吃力，且刺耳。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF9IKHtbCU
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言曇岫盡可能讓自己完全面無表情，「我明明跟你說過了，不要做讓你會後悔的事。即便你真的放心讓我照顧父母，你又打算怎麼向他們解釋？無論你用什麼理由，他們都不會信你會在父母在的情況下出門太長的時間。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GbU74P1o0
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「但我還是要走。」黎絳洵微微側頭，即便眼角餘光、也瞥不見言曇岫衣角。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryQbWuY3ZP
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言曇岫忍著胸口不適，強迫自己說：「你要為了這件事情，擔不孝罵名嗎？原就是沒有必要的事，何況你根本不擅長瞞你父母。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIOAJXuUQg
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黎絳洵收回原本就什麼也看不見的目光，「你不明白……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGsyPxpMSK
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言曇岫打斷他，質問道：「你覺得我不明白什麼？你分明最清楚，你遠行的理由，無論是避開我，或者尋人，都不能真正解決問題。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM8cCZcQhE
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黎絳洵的聲音像從喉頭硬生生壓出來一樣：「你知道那無法說服我。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxqAJVvtGX
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「就如同我看得出你說謊時的小動作，你的父母，真的看不出來嗎？」言曇岫伸手扯住黎絳洵的袖子，苦澀道：「算我求你，別離開，我不會再踰矩。你不是想知道我許了什麼願望嗎？我只求上天讓你得償所願。絳洵哥哥，別離開。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9d9xkDHgeP
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黎絳洵沉默了很久，才說：「那樣做，你會很痛苦。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ365bqYFSvG
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「無論你如何做，我都會痛苦。」言曇岫的鼻子一陣發酸，用乾啞的嗓音說：「人總是作繭自縛，可解鈴還須繫鈴人，只有我能讓自己出去，而不是你。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftn98wzKdR
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言曇岫知道對方的緘默是動搖了，於是他鬆了手，「你早些休息。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2b3mZSU6m
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在所有人都應當深眠的時辰，言曇岫睜開毫無睡意的眼，濃重的夜色讓視力失去作用，他翻身面牆，縮著身子，好沒容易才緩過呼吸，哽咽過了許久才成為語句：「是我貪求。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWXE5sbmkK
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當言曇岫將黎絳洵在這段期間打點好的行囊卸下時，黎絳洵沒有開口阻攔，自此而後，他們之間隔著一汪無法越過的涼水，沒有人再提起這件事，只是也無法回到原本的位置。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVw28q6P3Zc
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就這麼渾渾噩噩地過著，也許一生……就能毫無波瀾地結束了。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNdnvlrQUJ
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言曇岫臥病在床時，一直緊抓這句話不放。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90BX0OxePf
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黎家長輩憐他怎麼忽然就病倒了，言談岫卻慶幸如此，因為他已經失眠太久，寧可就這樣一直昏睡下去。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRLtivPQIf
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都說大難不死，必有後福，或許此番重病後，他能看淡，或有不同際遇。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnS4XAfShx
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再能清醒時，言曇岫第一眼就望見黎絳洵趴在床邊的睡臉。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIBgeKVSUT
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儘管想伸手觸碰，言曇岫還是壓抑下來，只有目光始終貪婪，無法撤離。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpNxpmf80X
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朝陽的光點點墜落在黎絳洵身上，言曇岫聽見他夢囈著：「別再走丟了……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PE0etLBQn
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──願你得償所願。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzwIHooWKC
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言曇岫默禱著。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49H9yN6SyK
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病癒後的日子，和過去並沒有多少不同，會在寒涼的夜裡壓上被衾的貓也許久未曾進房，成年後的言曇岫不再每次拒絕有花娘相伴的應酬，只有接待他的清倌知道，言曇岫在秦樓楚館也不過是在等待天明，踏著濃重的霧氣，走過清寂的街。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyPk8ggBaU
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時而他會前往頗負盛名的寺廟求神明保佑黎絳洵實現心願，時而他只是在香火繚繞中愣神。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8SZMUXWVo
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黎絳洵那邊，似乎也與往常無異，尋覓多年的人始終沒有線索。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhbQGIgXz0
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轉眼已是夏末秋初，言曇岫去給義塾送一些生活物資，請夫子在秋分前代為轉交給孤苦無依的學童後，正在門前告別，驚馬掠塵，他沒多想，才將反應不及的孩子扯開，不料塵煙中，有馬車追至，言曇岫在失重中，受了點輕傷。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2WkAIf4FU
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他從甫因護他而摔倒的人懷中起身，還沒從漫漫塵沙中辨認出面容，已先聽見熟悉的聲音，緊摟著他的懷抱陌生，他卻捨不得掙開。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOOIYfy51L
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「你怎麼這麼難讓人放心？」黎絳洵無奈地說，忽然定住不動。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa97kPPGftZ
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言曇岫原本打算站好後再問黎絳洵為何在這裡，黎絳洵卻沒鬆手讓他起身。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyPuPinQiN
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為了佯裝沒事，省去尷尬，言曇岫勉強自己開口說：「你救了我很多次，我能做的只是希望，將你的善意延續下去，或許這世間緣法千萬，也能讓你在找的人得到溫柔對待。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb0XNJMYD2
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不知為何，黎絳洵一直沒有說話，言曇岫本想確認黎絳洵是否受傷，卻被叫住。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkf4c0r5BNE
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言曇岫抬眸，原先相熟只是前段時間被贖身嫁人的花娘朝他走來，擔憂地問：「言公子，你還好嗎？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uZ9lsogD3
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言曇岫定了定神，正要接受對方的好意，隔著手帕藉她身過來的手起身，手腕霎時被制住，言曇岫困惑地沿著看過去，黎絳洵已拉著他起身，並把他掩在身後。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNS2aJmF1r
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「這位是……」言曇岫正欲介紹，黎絳洵用力一握，言曇岫低頭望自己被勒紅的手腕。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrUuDEQjje
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黎絳洵和那位姑娘客套幾句，也沒讓言曇岫開口，就拽著人上了來時的馬車。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnoE3DwsUH
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言曇岫幾次偷覷黎絳洵，黎絳洵彷若未覺，直到將至黎家，言曇岫推窗望向逐漸熟悉的街景，黎絳洵突兀地開口問：「那是你心上人嗎？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlN3UNTkdTm
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「她嫁人了，我們只是認識而已。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXOHvX2pzC
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「你……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJaVwtQq79
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言曇岫沒聽見黎絳洵後面的話，正要回望黎絳洵，馬車已停。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkS0nY1ASMK
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言曇岫先下了馬車，將手伸向黎絳洵，直到言曇岫意識到黎絳洵可能並不樂意讓自己協助，正要收手，黎絳洵忽然緊攢言曇岫的手指。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvVM6OpP3u
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「絳……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9syVA1m0m
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黎絳洵下了馬車，逕自將言曇岫拉入自己房中。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKiOrVjgZ9
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言曇岫侷促不安地望著黎絳洵剛闔上門的背影，他們之間的空氣中有浮塵和著光。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlysQlUIL7
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「我一直在想，我很可能只是裝得太像常人，其實已經瘋了很久。可是你……你一直擾亂我的記憶，這讓我很混亂。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxabBwgAlh7
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「絳洵哥哥，你怎麼了嗎？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Uom4XGJEx
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黎絳洵轉身與他錯肩而過，取出藥箱後說：「衣服脫下來，我替你上藥。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesAmqlpoqU
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「我可以自己……」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0p7hmKLB9
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「你碰不到。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yyEw0mYXg
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言曇岫第一次看見黎絳洵露出這樣鄭重的表情，他只能遲疑地背過身，脫下塵土與裂痕遍布的衣衫，直到上半身的衣著盡數褪下，他將所有髮絲撩至肩前。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsri65A0vG9
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黎絳洵似乎一直沒有動，言曇岫轉頭瞥向傳來貓叫聲的窗，裸露在外的皮膚只有不歇的寒冷侵襲，雖然不曉得黎絳洵怎麼了，只是貓叫聲越來越響亮，言曇岫直接走過去開了窗，冷風拂面，迫不及待的貓立刻跳了進來。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsDxlpuhpq
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「你背後的、不是，你知道你身上有奇怪的傷疤嗎？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzKyv9gV97
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「傷疤應該很多，只是我看不見，也不曉得你說的是哪一個。不過娘親說背部靠近腰的位置，有一塊胎記，附近應該有一個像是言家家徽的疤。小時候，言小姐覺得胎記和印泥的顏色一樣，偷拿了家主的印信玩，少夫人說是我帶壞小姐，把印信過了火，按在那附近。」言曇岫說這些的時候，視線一直跟著貓，反應過來時，黎絳洵已經緘默很久了。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPGZ7uGniL
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言曇岫拿起原本的衣服說：「牠開始咬人了，應該又餓著了，我先去餵牠。」只是還沒將衣服穿上，冰涼的觸覺忽然在後腰暈開。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYM961Tz2SY
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原本下意識要躲開，想明白是黎絳洵在替他上藥，言曇秀才將衣服整理好、掛在手臂上。疼痛的感覺並不明顯，那種摔法，表皮的傷不會很重，如果傷到比較裡面的肌肉或骨頭，也是明天才會真的痛起來，言曇岫對痛楚原就十分習慣，反而是黎絳洵的手指更讓他在意，他只能專注在不斷咬著褲腳的貓，以免再次讓黎絳洵察覺他還沒完全走出來。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlLZ0NWuTb
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因為不能動的關係，言曇岫又忙著物資支援給義塾的事情，逐漸犯睏起來。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27hxuQ4BDM
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「你有心上人了嗎？」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJzPfAio5T
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言曇岫想假裝沒聽見黎絳洵的問題，歛眸任由倦怠感散往四肢，作勢打了呵欠。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8S9b4E0Aw
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也不曉得自己是真的無法思考，還是不願意思考，黎絳洵話後面的意思，對他來說始終很難懂。50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsKwoC1KgX
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「若你，有了想雙宿雙棲的對象，也不一定要留在這裡，」一次漫長的氣流過去，黎絳洵的聲音彷彿從很遙遠的地方傳來：「要是你想離開，這次，我不攔你。」50Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiysiwVNdA5
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