I'm a horrible person.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3P5KDrx7x
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHg769mouk
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVLNcLbAlI
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLs2B4EoKT4
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5ShDNsVdo
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQqlHYGpUA
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO6xzaXhq0
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF85M3Kf6TB
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEO2CTRdsI
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwGVWc4v6s
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGWS3NYO6B
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDprenwWtR
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrcMzbDb3E
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLzmT9ntfy
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8cweH49e0
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yiuYnZwd9
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ1njZxptN
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxTNYEEYS5
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1vgPUUJ3d
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ4cEdtE6k
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdJ0ScPfEl
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRnnhFGCNI
Of being lonely.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROW2ME9FMc
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYLm5jrmc3
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So I take comfort in my own world.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5vCnoSX6G
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdgnEw1Ktx
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XqfcCCB7e
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaShtbKmNl
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9RefR4QKL
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGz6mzBLIg
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXZL0jd3Ep
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydGTP7jzlQ
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfFbqBT0Hp
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gUsTalNri
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrJP0Eapd1
I shouldn't even have been born.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJokZ5MJXRx
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.369Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaYy8GNlfE
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