I'm a horrible person.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnUFbxL3Jl
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBamJDOMtIC
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgJ274p8pQ
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13ZuPHOiRy
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M9kuQejnQ
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuwMkRXNnv
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNPFW0DGW7
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2McHUD1o3
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwmSPKJqWQ
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohomLnRwDc
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51zr1ECRGk
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqn0I2gI6
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJnAY1jyf6
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjinHCW4F3w
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXDpV3LRrf
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oPxDQUIds
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7dvGVNz7f
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJL0bPZxPP
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoqE6uBPHD
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgbL5b9oot
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VgpQpud9M
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdFe55idmJ
Of being lonely.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00RzrPvy1K
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNz443mIDT
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So I take comfort in my own world.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjyzxw1Wh4
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdziePkoMG
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3P09WbMsH
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGbimp4I77
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8coWbqUgl7
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3x2mliuzQ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfMeReCL3E
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsW5HauLkwZ
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx87dUm1YX2
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwENqqRa4Ve
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAy2L2UzPg
I shouldn't even have been born.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBV5MGaZ1N
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.375Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaIOlCTIAG
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