Taylor’s POV
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“We can pick up Ross on route” Matthew says softly as he joins the highway. He glances down at my high cut leotard and my hips and gulps. Pushing his curls back he sighs slightly and grins through the windshield.
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"Awesome" I comment glad that they've been talking to each other normally again.
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“I can’t wait to find out how far along we are so that we can tell what month baby will come in” I say to him.
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“I reckon August” I say imagining a summer baby, we will be able to have BBQ’s and summer parties.
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“Do you really” he smiles looking down at bump before he turns onto Ross’ road.
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Matthew indicates onto Ross’ drive and I listen to the familiar crunch of the gravel as he parks next to Ross’ Harley Davidson.
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“I’ll grab him it’s cold” he says to me, I hold my bunny ears in my hand and wait for them to return. Moments later Ross gets in the back and I turn to smile at him.
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"Wow Tay" he says clearing his throat.
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"A bunny right ?" He says keeping his eyes on my face. He eyes the black bunny ears in my hand and chuckles.
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"Yes me and Rach are coordinating" I tell him laughing, as Matthew sits in next to me and starts up the 4x4.
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"I see you guys are dressed as... ugh yourselves?" I tease them looking between the both of them.
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"Guys don't do dress up right, Matty?" Ross laughs.
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“Not at all” Matthew laughs indicating back onto the highway, on route to Ryan’s. I swat him and he catches my hand kissing it as I smirk.
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“How have you been Ross” I ask him, although it has only been one night I have worried about him.
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“Thanks to you guys I’ve been great, thanks for my clean clothes Taylor” he smiles and I nod at him pleased that I could help. Really if I had my way he would have somebody looking after him rather than him being alone after the accident.
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Driving up the long drive to Ryan’s house I scan the cars and notice Jays straight away. Looking away as Matthew parks I brace myself to ignore Jay, although having cried down the phone to him last night I can only assume he will not want to be around me at all.
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“Here” Matthew says helping me out of the car. Ross eyes me absolutely stunned and I smirk slightly when he doesn’t know where to put his eyes. They both walk me up to the marble steps and we walk through the foyer. The door to Ryan’s is never locked.
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“Another bunny” Ryan says walking from the bar to the parlour, he eyes me and sighs.
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“Taylor that’s an incredible look” he says and I blush.
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Knowing that the party is in full swing in the kitchen we walk together through the grande hall towards the bar which overlooks the large kitchen. Students line the halls enjoying the extravagance of Ryan’s large home, with its sweeping marble staircases and chandeliers. The parlour is full of freshers dancing and enjoying the music.
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Matthew grasps my hand as he guides me through the kitchen and into the bar. I clock the annoying blonde girl from Matthew’s media class, and stem my annoyance. Reminding myself to calm down as I'm literally having his babies. No need for jealousy, I tell himself holding onto his hand eagerly as she eyes me, and looks away. I steal a glance over her normal outfit that consists of a floral dress and wonder if she raided her mom’s closet.
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We sit Ross down, his leg is playing up and he sinks into the velvet sofa. I promise to make him the best virgin cocktail he’s ever tasted, and bless him he tries but he doesn’t quite manage to not stare at my cleavage.
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Matthew laughs holding me by my waist as he guides me into the kitchen.
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“You’re undeniably the hottest sexiest thing he has or ever will see, I don’t blame him” he whispers and I feel his hand caress my waist just briefly.
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Matthew starts instantly mixing up the virgin cocktails and I smile up at him seated on a bar stool as he rolls his sleeves up and I admire the view. I hear Rachel giggle stumbling into the kitchen and turn to see her supported by Brad. She hugs me and asks Brad to take our picture as we are matching. He obliges and she stands, doing several poses beside me as he snaps away.
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"Dancing later, my fellow bunny" she laughs already well oiled from the drinks she has already consumed.
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"Sure" I say laughing at her drunkenness as she stumbles into Brad.
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"Stiffy is here somewhere" Brad says to me.
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"He said he has his guitar if you want to play" Brad adds and I smile widely looking up at Matthew. He chuckles and produces a virgin pina colada.
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"Oh I'd love that" I tell him smiling, Brad nods guiding Rachel back over to the party with a top up of her Prosecco.
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"No truth or dare?" I say to Matthew as he runs his fingers through my hair.
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"Definitely not" he says pulling me into him and fixing my bunny ears so that they are straight. A wry smile on his lips before he kisses me softly. The music booms in the kitchen and I smile up at him, moving my hips. The bar is completely empty and he holds onto my hips entranced looking helplessly into my eyes.
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"You don't even need alcohol to dance" he says softly.
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“Oh how I would like to keep you in here all night but I know that would be totally overly protective and suffocating” he laughs. I laugh as he guides me back to the kitchen where just beyond the worktops sits a collection of sofas and a log open fire. The playlist that Ryan has delivered is geared for dancing and I smile over at him happily.
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"There's non-alcoholic beer too" I tell Ross, brushing his arm.
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"Next maybe?" I ask him and he laughs moving over so that I can take a seat.
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"This is nice thank you" he smiles genuinely.
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"It's pretty fruity" I laugh as I sip mine too.
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I glance up finally at everybody, I mean Jay. Ive felt his stare on me since we arrived but I haven’t had the guts to take a look back at him. He has pulled out all the stops with his suit tonight I notice, somehow it’s just apparent when a man’s suit has been tailored to their body. Made with the finest materials and complementary to his skin tone, I can imagine that Jane feels like she has won the lottery. That is until he reveals his true non committing attitude to her.
Plain Jane isn't dressed up, she's just wearing a simple white dress which actually washes her out. She's on his knee, what a surprise. Jay’s arms are around her hips. He kisses her occasionally and she smiles at him.
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"Matthew I’m going to find the guitar" I tell him and he smiles at me. Ross engages him in conversation as I kiss him happily before leaving and heading in the direction of the parlour.
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Creaking the door to the parlour open and glancing around I realise there are no guitars or cases lying around, just students dancing. Climbing the stairs in my heels I realise is far easier sober, however I do pay attention to where I am placing my feet. Peeping into the bedrooms upstairs I finally find Stiffy but he's with a girl. I laugh apologising, although they seem pretty unfazed lying on the large bed. I look away after he gives me a thumbs up when I ask him for his beautiful black acoustic guitar.
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Happy with my acquisition I strut over to the large staircase, reminding myself of Jay carrying me down them before I fainted last time. Shocked by how much the mere memory stirs up emotions inside of me, I set off down stairs concentrating on taking the guitar down with me. I spot his blonde hair and blue eyes at the bottom of the stairs, he’s rather hard to miss. He glances up at me briefly before walking up and I resolutely concentrate on the steps, and only the steps. Of course plain Jane walks up behind him obediently. He eyes me and my current luggage.
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"Want some help Taylor" he asks me.
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"No" I say looking down and concentrating on just getting down the remaining steps.
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"What's her problem?" I hear plain Jane ask and she shoots me a glare.
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Ignoring her I place the guitar strap over my body and laugh at myself for not doing that before. Looking up finally and directly at her she flinches slightly and I didn’t realise I was so intimidating.
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"Did you know that it's rude to talk about people in their presence to other people and not directly to them" I say, it comes out as a jumble but I know what I mean.
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"You know my name" I laugh.
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“I’m not a she” I say and she swallows.
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"Are you okay?" Jay asks me eyeing my lips and chest briefly.
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"Why are you still standing there" I say to him and laugh. Jane is bemused and I am one hundred percent positive that Jane and I will not end up becoming friends.
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Jay closes the distance between us walking over to me and leaving her behind. She eyes the gesture curiously.
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"Jane give us a minute babe" he says eyeing me. She walks upstairs and I roll my eyes.
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"What's up?" He asks me directly and I will not cry in front of him again. My best line of action here is to be argumentative and cold.
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"You're a stupid idiot Jay" I tell him.
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"You broke it off with me" He says softly.
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"Oh don't get bitter, we weren't even a thing" I say mocking him.
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"We weren't though right? You thought we were going to be what?" He says arguing back.
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"Oh fuck off" I say growing tired of his arguing and leaving him behind. I step past him and he touches my hand and holds onto it.
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"Don't touch me, go up there to Jane" I say to him.
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"Jay and Jane" I laugh, his steely eyes watch me and he’s curious wondering what has got me so worked up. It’s the baby I tell myself, the hormones. I yank my hand away from him and look down at Stiffy's guitar deciding that's enough talking to Jay in the stairwell.
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"I gave you the options you didn't want any of them" he says eyeing my legs and then pulling his eyes away from me.
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"For weeks I told you that you could have anything. You could have literally had me by now and moved on, or you could have I don’t know converted me into the third member of Tay's boyfriend’s gang" he laughs.
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"Like that was going to happen" he laughs at me, the anger swells inside of me. How he could joke about me like that to my face after everything, after helping me find Ross and saving me from bears and hearing about my dreams.
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Not sure what possesses me but I push him. He's shocked. I stare into his eyes after I shove him, and pathetically it didn't do anything but shock him. He didn't even move, like he just absorbed my hit.
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"You're unbelievable. I don't want to talk to you anymore ever again" I say and my anger is strong as I glare at him wiping away my tears, convinced that my hormones are contributing to my surge in emotion yet unable to control myself.
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"Yes you do" he says shocked, watching me.
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"No I don't, I'm done. We're not even friends" I say to him angrily.
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“All of that stupid crap right about always caring no matter what, about wanting me in your life as a friend. No matter what. Fuck it right. Clearly I’m just some uncaring insensitive bitch that you don’t want to know anymore. So there you have it. Goodbye Jay, Mr southern whatever you’re dead to me” I tell him angrily telling myself that I will not cry and failing.
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"I'm sorry" he says softly watching me and deliberating.
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"I don't care" I tell him back.
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He just stands there looking at me shocked as I walk off, with my guitar. I think of him comforting me after Ross' accident, massaging my shoulder and making me feel so calm. I think of my stupid dreams which were most likely brought on by hormones from being pregnant and I feel sick. I hate him. I hate myself for being so naive and thinking he was going to be my friend.
