Taylor's POV
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The next two days go by relatively quickly. The sun returns, it’s weak and by no means warm but it still shines on us every morning. The leaves are almost fully fallen marking autumn. Matthew and I get ourselves into a routine with university. I continue sitting with Ross and Jay, in psychology. It seems everybody is sticking to the seats they've already chosen. I don't want to make a big deal out of everything either. Jays behaviour has changed towards me almost entirely, but I’m not going to sit around and pick apart every single interaction we have with one another yet he is certainly less cold. He greats me with a hello Taylor, every time I sit down next to him in psych class.
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Ross continues to walk me to dance every day, like he’s a stand in for Matthew. At least he's not turning up at practice. We haven’t mentioned Jen once, I consider the conversation closed. Instead we talk about books, and his English literature observations. He's testing the boundaries trying to see if I will tell him to leave me alone. I won't, I can't seem to. I tell myself it's just walking around campus, it's not like I’m promising him anything.
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We descend from the lane with the pretty trees towards the parking lot and head into the refectory together. Noticing the others in our usual spot, including Jen, Ross and I decide to grab salads before heading over.
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“A salad” Rachel squeaks looking up at me, sitting in Jay’s lap. I am guessing that they are on again. Ross sits next to Matthew as Jay eyes up my boots and tweed skirt. I remove my trench and set my bag down.
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“It’s a chicken ceaser judgey” I laugh and she smiles over at me as I take a seat between Matthew and Ross.
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Ryan has been going on about freshers for the past twenty minutes or so, as I fork at my salad. Jay watching me conspicuously.
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"There's a show before hand by the way" he winks at Jay. I've realised they're actually really good mates, just like Ross and Matty are. Except Ryan is thoroughly decent and Jay is well, Jay.
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"What kind of show" Rach asks interested.
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I flush bright red eyeing Matthew, I'm involved in said show. Kim, Matthew’s sister, is a third year at another university and they are hosting a Victoria's Secret type show. With hopefully a few more clothes, although that's not promised. Kraig is playing in his band. And I'm walking, as in actually modelling. I'm totally nervous. But Matty and Kim have given me lots of reassurances.
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"It's a fashion one, like a Victoria’s secret type" Ryan says sipping his daily espresso. Jay and Brad celebrate, much to Jen and Pippa's distaste.
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"It's my sister’s fashion show, Taylor’s the main model walking in it" Matty pipes up stroking my waist. Jay burns a whole in me with his stare.
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“You kept that quiet” Ryan laughs and I nod forking salad into my mouth.
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“Yes I was hoping on backing out or getting mysteriously ill” I laugh.
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“No I’m kidding I couldn’t do that to Kim she’s designed and hand sewn my outfit. It’s beautiful. Tailor made” I tell the others. Jen looks at me and scowls, we put up with one another. Usually she sits as far away from me as possible and that is just fine by me.
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"Hey erm Rach if you're interested I could ask Kim if she needs more models?" I ask her, looking up at Jay briefly.
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“Pippa?” I venture deliberately leaving out the witch, call me catty but I will not walk the same runway as Jen. Besides I like Rachel, it would give Jay somebody to look at other than me. She needs a confidence boost. I eye Rachel in her tank and jeans and decide she would be perfect.
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"You get a full makeup look and hair. And obviously clothes or lack of" I laugh eyeing Pippa.
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Matty scoffs holding onto me, He's not that happy about the costumes. Kim told him to shut up and grow up. That's what you get when you have a model for a girlfriend she told him.
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"Thanks Tay I'd love too it's just whether I would have the confidence..." she begins softly but I defend her. Jay watching me closely.
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"Don't be silly, you’re beautiful. If I'm honest I'm nervous but having someone I know do it with me might help" I tell her smiling.
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"Okay sure" she says genuinely smiling at me.
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"What's your costume, Tay" Pippa asks genuinely interested.
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"I’m the main angel" I say honestly.
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"I've seen it" Matty says grinning holding onto my thigh.
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"Not sure Im going to let you wear it in front of anybody other than me" he adds smirking and kissing me.
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"It’s not up to you" I tease him ruffling his hair.
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"Yeah let the girl walk around in whatever she wants...please" Jay says smirking as Ryan laughs along.
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Matthew smirks along with them, he's playing it cool with the whole Jay and Ross thing. He doesn't ever let them know they are getting to him. And he hasn't even mentioned the love bomb to Ross.
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"So we're all going then" Ryan asks the entire group, he’s like our leader I’ve decided. Always ready to direct us into fun things and events.
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"I hear there's a band playing, Tay?" Stiffy asks me.
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"Yes Kim’s boyfriend’s band" I inform him.
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"Me and Brad are in" Jen says, I glance at her for once and see that her hair has changed colour again. It’s fluorescent pink this time and cut short.
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"Yeah we're in and hopefully Rach and I will also be modelling" Pippa says smiling at me. I shoot Rach an encouraging smile.
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"Yeah I'm in" Ross nods.
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"Fuck it, i'll come and see you Tay" Jay says jovially and I sigh. He laughs out loud and I smirk at him.
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"Yeah fuck it I might come and see you too" Matty laughs tickling me. He then pulls me in and kisses me passionately. Ross averts his eyes.
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We descend upon the main building, as a group. Ross shares his cigarette with me. Jay is following behind us with Ryan and Rach. Matty has gone off to the archives to research for his media project.
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"So you're gonna be a model too huh?" Ross asks me briefly smiling.
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"A dancer, singer, model and a psychologist" he laughs, placing his arms around my back.
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"Oh shh. I am not going to be any of those at this rate I've got to pass yet. And I'm only doing the show because Kim begged me" I tell him handing him his cigarette.
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"You'll be great" he says looking at me, blue eyes shining as he watches me.
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"How are you Ross?" I ask him staring straight ahead. I have to admit I do value our little chats.
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"I'm excited to see you walking a runway. Highlight of my week." He says chuckling.
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"No seriously" I ask him again, we haven’t had a check in since our last talk after my dance practice where he told me he loved me.
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"Alright yeah I'm okay Tay. How's you" he asks as we're approaching the lecture theatre. I just smile back at him. He looks at me, as if he's going to say something and then he stops himself and carries on walking.
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"What's up?" I ask him as we walk up the steps, Jay behind us.
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"I ugh cut off Jen" he says softly.
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"Ah right are you okay?" I ask him briefly holding onto his hand as we walk.
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"Yeah I'm actually great, like I said it wasn't a thing, so it's not even a breakup but I just thought why the hell am I doing this?" He says softly and I hear Jay scoff behind us. We both roll our eyes at his constant intrusions.
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We both sit down in our seats as Jay stands at the end of our row looking down at us as if we’re in the way.
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“Well you knew to expect me why did you get all comfortable” he jokes as we stand again so that he can slot into his seat. He shimmies past me and I look directly into his chest before he collapses in the chair next to me. Jay scrambles out his notes and a pen. He pushes his hair back rolls his sleeves back and then glances at me. I realise I've been staring at him and although I'm embarrassed I laugh all the same.
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"What?" He sighs exasperated.
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"You were the one watching me for once, so don't even go there. I'm not having Matty pin me down again" he scoffs at me.
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"Can you even read your notes?" I ask him. Although his writing is neat, it’s completely cursive and fancy. Like it’s his own secret code.
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"Yes can you not?" He says sarcastically passing me his book.
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"Hell no. You're a mess" I tell him laughing.
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"Cheeky bitch" he smiles back at me.
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Carter begins his talk and Ross instinctively looks down at me and smiles. It's as if he's checking I haven't run off. I smile at him reassuringly. Although I played it down I'm completely over the moon that he is not with Jen anymore in any capacity.
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Shrugging off my coat, I bend over and place it on top of my bag, sitting back and fanning my hair over my shoulder. Ross is busy writing something down and I look back over at Jay.
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"Why do you always do that like ten minutes in" Jay whispers to me.
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"So bloody annoying. Just take it off before you sit down like a normal person" he adds smirking.
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"Why does it bother you?" I whisper back, fascinated by his little remarks.
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"Because I get distracted. I forget what Carter is going on about and then I end up sitting here thinking about whether you're wearing a bra or not" he whispers back.
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"You're so lucky you said that here and not in a place where I can slap you" I tell him.
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"Don't worry you can slap me all you want later babe" he chuckles, eyeing my leotard. It’s black today, cut into v at the front and at the back. A delicate gold chain around my neck that Jay eyes curiously. I cross my leg over and he looks at my stiletto boots.
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“More louboutins” he whispers.
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“Another Armani shirt” I smirk at him eyeing up his chest. My eyes returning to his, he gives me a look I haven’t seen on him before.
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“I like your style” he says softly watching my eyes before turning away from me and looking at Carter.
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