好幾年時間入面，我都好糾結一個問題。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8S1WRmxGy
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係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走，定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHo6Tre1OBa
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分手未夠兩個星期，就有條新仔，仲要一早就無取消張機票，兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCFJD3EMLF
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點解一開始要呃我取消咗？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodEYdmLSqd
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可能因為唔想被人罰錢，所以留住張機票先，但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知，直至話取消咗等我死一條心。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWgBPcGx3E
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點知分手之後好快搵到另一個，咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKUWqflKmN
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAa6vLlMEp
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行，所以無取消張機票呢？801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0TBj4l6il
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好多我無辦法確定嘅答案，令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMZE5F0LGU
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyP0ucWlyZ
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢，就係喺機票依個問題上，芯玥呃咗我。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sENmlx3Eg
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個，日喊夜喊，搞到喉嚨勁痛。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztBJ004x1t
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生，淨係求其買啲喉糖食，舒服少少又喊過。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5vLmMsXtX
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2dwrC9DEm
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞，話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲，其實就係我嚟。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmHBVWXYZQ
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喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗，都無乜為意，聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好，點知就無再好過。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL9iLeIeoq
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嗰次分手，驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟，阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSh526cDFw4
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我去食煙，聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgcP8uf8h9
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4GZAJpUgo
我去飲酒，酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊，點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLZmAkCgd5
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我去隊草，但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心，喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強，見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔，一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrw4VhKvGA
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後來每個朋友都話，嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITt4EWAjMr
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但唯獨自殺我無做到，可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚，諗返起都覺得醜，不過每個人都安慰我。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjzrICHTT8
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雖然安慰係無補於事，但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMxeNWvxiE
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽，分手嗰陣都講晒，之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRBfnsJSxI
801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ7qtUG3Zp
蠔哥話：「留有用之軀，無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先？唔會吖嘛，咁你死嚟做乜先？」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhDaoc7oUq
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或者係逃避痛苦。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQvt4XbVOM
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雞腎話：「痛苦總有一日會過，到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到，原來個世界仲係咁靚。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui9fxLBeLT
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蘿蔔話：「計我話，快啲搵個第二個啦。」801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98SbFAAZ5V
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結果我頹廢咗好耐，每日都想死但又要控制自己，先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvjiMGthWw
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所以你問我有無自殺？我係每日都想死持續咗一年半，但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。801Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfgRVhhWaP
