There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0FvW8W3FN
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Bgl67MHrB
Not love. Not promises.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQIg3235S7
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfll5NnzGtw
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AiY7PfOzS
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JPVuMllRg
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrzNyuMhVG
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOmeEV09m2
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0Mpzl2LJn
The confession.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3usADqE8x
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8kGel3oKd
Over WhatsApp.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4DXai6uV8
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ORX6YFIQe
Of course I did.
It would be a no—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OVFqya427
In the present,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkq2RohG6dX
In the past,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tb1oUNmw6
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL5sGztXGh
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3zlEOKlEg
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZHP3z8oS5
I replied 49/51.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8sLHEWLuR
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdrSbSQS4h
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFFsshfDy9
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL35ajOAi3
cause It and I knew from a long time.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiKFAmmZND
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The externals started.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLX59l4A4k
The rush came back flying.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkau5qQvzt
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While I was in a war with thoughts.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQmcokwAwB
And as the days went on.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgBqnBX3B5
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One random night, while I waited in silence,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfbGJqW0Zo
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoG2Wpqh3U
I was waiting for Seren to name her.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1R1yyJ05G
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40qmhtNNrj
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HXseFmed3
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVynTTAVdJ
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzEvpBHISA
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioZZwV20gU
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Z7JqfTYEw
No one could.
And I was left—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxRxQRSWX0
Bloody.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4p6PVXEjE1
Bitten.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK3uG3nzwF
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9I3FWSvaq
Some you could see.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLr6rF4ho4
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvWX9veng2
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoe46fUWreM
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKjRYwTOGP
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskjZpBf007
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf4B8ZPkly
The mind says go.
One believes.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjgTs5EusK
One doubts.
One clings.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEpM1RTXpj
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeKS8NjFGo
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfdXke5QKT
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuu5gluiYQM
Attended the exam.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyhGxZaWZK
Laughed with friends.34Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jdlT4fQ1K
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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