Maybe it was jealousy.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyswJMXWvrZ
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI40w99lNd
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX8G0hWu5E
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI16Bl75WW8
It wasn’t that.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4DUqdy7jM
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMy7pr3i5e
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GyjRq8gJP
Terrified, actually.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZ0NETobCc
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcIlwHBaR7
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpYuF2mcnI
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYYEcT4U2a
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZP80GmwS5F
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMBTdp2SGH
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMi1J7dEep
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDShHuQvVB
Because love is blind,100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHtCXcqVGo
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Q3TVC24K9
Not love.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EO4yGKiYA
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOl5wxfQUc6
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO21VoOFaK
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UWOsQUe3F
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZXjeGUn1t
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTnvZurWHd
not gripped tight.
You see,100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJYwKN1u4I
I wasn’t jealous.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF35ydCG9eb
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDU0mhEiZ1
The us we created in tiny moments —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBxSgMKi35
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny7InLiMvC
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGZmNHY1ZN
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6DM9VZ7nQ
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzotQSeQSK
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fQ92W2bxF
Me. And you.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7olXjRUaRX
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKc2PCbR69
Letting go, not because someone better came along…100Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcEyshQhZ6
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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