There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeV7KdlLCS
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw29kkuV4D
Not love. Not promises.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYBw9dxdVY
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2VO82u00U
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRmCvtRXcg
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95zuaFXNiw
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfLY77hT5e
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X1aSvfMuu
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7CqMW6KPX
The confession.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeKPUAhFrq
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKadp1Cpa5
Over WhatsApp.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMWmt0jw2R
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcil6lE2X3w
Of course I did.
It would be a no—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lovUz0jhY
In the present,29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmATeZwOedm
In the past,29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01C1yqM6sM
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSFmzrpsiI
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH3Z6PdWcr
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttQO14L6RD
I replied 49/51.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6565VHYmki
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVj3VzrTv6
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkn4XOBWUw4
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsnkEVLbrb
cause It and I knew from a long time.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXEkUyRT2J
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The externals started.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8KSDAJrYA
The rush came back flying.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYQrQ7D1kB
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While I was in a war with thoughts.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJkJSpqURB
And as the days went on.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpNBCSssR8
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One random night, while I waited in silence,29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlEFYhf46i
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCEk7aU8Fe
I was waiting for Seren to name her.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOz5YnxoWy
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QsAaLwgIw
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LlAWO6hqY
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrtGF6EtY3
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFmPk4FY3y
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93dPRO3cUG
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiEexSuTs8
No one could.
And I was left—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhNJ2Yjd3r
Bloody.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18rmV1BBbH
Bitten.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Uf0VOhRxs
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSpyOHYFu3
Some you could see.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43UR2yzA3V
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YSWVUVmSr
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5tSDPTwwP
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJc5FUMRwe
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e5Mg6jB86
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7ssj6r95B
The mind says go.
One believes.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOn2YhSSQX1
One doubts.
One clings.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnitZNZseIS
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjSZzyWyB5
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRI81Qlylr
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwpRjd72Nn
Attended the exam.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UYoRpczSD
Laughed with friends.29Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSW5S5Ty4l
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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