Maybe it was jealousy.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASRqrn9Kt0
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOc5jiJzT9C
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf6NRnOJpG
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtFVFHDW6S
It wasn’t that.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4b0W18R0Gj
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM68xEhxCJ6
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy8iT6O7YG
Terrified, actually.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgALPPbH9fy
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL39exUAoWT
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0w4jccu5AY
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gp1vQ4pRy
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0otmQLdzy
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFVQYDbSEf
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AWWGJ3Dv1
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxT5ieZBJcZ
Because love is blind,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnfD3nxTjD
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AUfrW4S8T
Not love.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJIdRwBkGC
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXkHVoKIb6
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4wY0HN4I6
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTB9fcjBvla
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HyizL1GoD
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidJREXro6s
not gripped tight.
You see,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbBZBlEidP
I wasn’t jealous.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3QljXJ8en
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwa0Ok9yPc
The us we created in tiny moments —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9mbz2DnLr
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeizxSKBZH
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9lKlttTdl
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1zieJZYee
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7pI3ejed4
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RbWOHO3Zg
Me. And you.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLB5916m3U9
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC2tJ7w5Ir
Letting go, not because someone better came along…109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEQb0j0ZvB
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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