清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUz4Citi2k1
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又做了這個夢？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwto1JiigU
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zYDq7i4R0
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5T3jghVgZj
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzAewurScc
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Fo7MuDm7Q
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3O0JA0p1H
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1iX82nivQ
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrw3MpppdOG
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXkeaIolkQ
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopDVZXNcg5
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5asDqooqR
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2rqVPbuOQ
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsas76DLs0l
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１９９８年１１月２７日：388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7pTPe6PyM
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWNbKeMQRa
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAusJS7becm
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTUkGEg7la
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaef7554rkF
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這個過程的目的是？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqQKfwAdLL
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡim4oFZu3NI
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p5OpNW0As
死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHr901ZHpX
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１９９８年１２月２４日：388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE9QdmpgPA
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8sL7Ilxv5
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFH1QkEQUBN
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只是為了生存！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwBmywtqfI
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9zVizEE1G
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMQBLSpEeF
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEbvPOULSQ
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyHdACldpu
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8UXeAk8PC
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89uHCe4rZs
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4gCapTkXH
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRRsNT7zHN
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mhQ1r4Cjc
「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AW8asSjhb
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZ4Jpl9EOD
「真是個深奧的問題呢！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tPpjdgH6A
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA96s2dkYhB
聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZa3fxjZO4
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0y5hoE70uT
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4HrkWyHGL
「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBh1DFJ1l6L
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFHGYvjJ5A
老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluCA9BjvkH
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JBaASGCZc
「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5WHUQtU9n
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDYzubCIBl
「喔？為何呢？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwvsXg5hUd
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3V2IAbiMrM
「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYB2NmLbKr
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdsUFOWYYz
想起了雙親．．．．．．388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PggumvUQV
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9WT7EIXr4
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1zmEn7tks
想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMF7jWurIzT
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vue9FktCd
「男孩子不可以哭唷！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ34iAGZPDM
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaRGP18RK7
老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlS6wsi1Oka
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ83NUSQ9jh
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLJwJYamBk
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwvBMI9kTf
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「你感覺到了什麼？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVadKD7NAJK
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0884wt7W9
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAq5FILfed
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我仍是搖頭。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFB2Q4kfdX9
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNfcpK9bAr
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD8MVv0PDL
「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC9Bfl3JNK
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavTR0QoXTD
「你真的是這樣想嗎？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMPSbg5pES
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3Hq8bLYP8
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「．．．．．．．」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbzQYUM5Yd
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUpT0hZCVG
「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5XOeFCktW
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYp0cNIADe
「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRcbV3f8pZ
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBapcimLh8
「是這樣子嗎？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzT6hJK5Ro
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kk3gvBv9c
「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOTMF9mpxT
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTskrEHakF0
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrt93OAHDu9
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqagWPI7lB
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtczBVMLQc6
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnydZl89Df
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5Azw0Gqw1
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「我、我的水彩？」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEn8rN1CSCF
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILhm6BM1l3
我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCJF8xWjqh
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrwjLpU4Yx
「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KIhWcjCnJ
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6apzF8znwG
我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCxYXkPXvA
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lP5gi1b86
「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ydPMVzegF
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwlXqw522S
老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhZzVFvNfN
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyMLzEAzh0
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvJe4TAf3T
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOj3r0ZYVYb
這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcESf8cEAYf
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英國；388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ua9YdjpZz
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１９９８年１２月２４日；388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3qJOYT56p
388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzusjcQa7D
寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j19Ut54D1
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！388Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbvis1RvIb
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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