清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtWGXs3Ti1
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又做了這個夢？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFGIZDNPnT
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy41soKIJXX
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAoDGYm6EV
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ADOE0vSp0
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFbDB75ihX
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0OVgSPgDz
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKYXRhZtyf
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSYaEJ4D08
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYaIhqImWJ
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIU4wvuRZ4M
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K0Lbk0T5C
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yJNPxrz8w
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrJXExKzyX
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１９９８年１１月２７日：465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DLc4TNykT
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG58m276s6C
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThYSFLsZn9
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxrgKayYvK
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYnmDZVraU
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這個過程的目的是？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys3FURFB0K
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0huTgNPPYe
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFmaD4Enrn
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１９９８年１２月２４日：465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdYV7PGIn6
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuq0SRS9Uo
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXnsa5pFGT
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只是為了生存！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEInqSSDJAG
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG76J0UABvI
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IE6oqgiAN
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bgdWrmhhZ
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFp7341vKIf
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTTvg38FeF
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E363hIkXA
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IseTFj4RB
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhh5RO3FZ9K
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1E8RA29YM
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxwJpY9gmL
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZQ7ZANvHl
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAhhvovUIW
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZUvanAgFT
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwqSubdJL5
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSi6PRGFfD
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「喔？為何呢？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPpXyAbMEM
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7DaYEtugT
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想起了雙親．．．．．．465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqo2s4FZyp
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseKfNfIQuj
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfd8ul2VXwu
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PFYUIZyjM
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynNUFCg27F
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRD5gbKmY91
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Kb0t7Ji0j
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvRhzpXntL
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「你感覺到了什麼？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUKgUKC72d
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09uaHJvngn
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHc0LxQyBs
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我仍是搖頭。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97KeJtvmIP
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAbCWe4ism
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboi4vnSZeC
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93yLI7RJfa
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgIMofENLy
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「．．．．．．．」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3aRVRB20a
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ73CLYmmFM
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfBgRlld3F
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「是這樣子嗎？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbRQnCeHKh
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2PuJ75C70
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ER8WsphzT
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bRa18CqxQ
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QAPf6zqxh
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwr40d2SXJh
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtNgmEGyxc
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNysIB6vJCd
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「我、我的水彩？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCL1EmnU0N
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Uh4J3MIkK
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyugRPgPy5e
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o0Lg8j2vF
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNhEq2HjaJ
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqivi1tUlny
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuzXEdWSSZ
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnyJQEM9j4
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yXicNxdWs
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英國；465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M2EY2KFv2
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１９９８年１２月２４日；465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyODZippDL
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKoYUMMiJ8
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRpOCd95lB
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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