I feel like loneliness will never let me go.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMY2QpGjCF
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1fy2E2rXC
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHVUclbsD1d
people I can turn to—any time—109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRyFSAC21F
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeo9atcrdwU
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8XuL1S4SM
someone who chooses them,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGf5ygJTBH
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbf1Rg4EtF
I don’t have siblings,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZlXpsrAW8
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85b1NktOQx
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmefXIXrXQf
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXG9m9jdJf
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8lcjU4ge3
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBx0CWp6ojG
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8cje7MrVm
but maybe it’s worse.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqlMxARw0c
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7p1QraW45a
I can’t.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLFJPCVFeD
Because if I go,109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HlVEMx4Rt
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC75Ym4q2v6
I would support him, and he would support me.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8f67KIHUc5
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmv7T5HQXH
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47KiBd8ZkB
when it was my turn to enter adult life—109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeapJDi0DuR
I was alone.
