I feel like loneliness will never let me go.107Please respect copyright.PENANAUw3zVLiz7U
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?107Please respect copyright.PENANAoyfhdcQAYI
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,107Please respect copyright.PENANAFcz2yS5YLD
people I can turn to—any time—107Please respect copyright.PENANAyIMieSThfH
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,107Please respect copyright.PENANApkOtZYEmMr
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,107Please respect copyright.PENANAO5dk9oQFG6
someone who chooses them,107Please respect copyright.PENANAFhTCrfQ6pb
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.107Please respect copyright.PENANAy5WccsVp3Z
I don’t have siblings,107Please respect copyright.PENANAsl9efwaPKO
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.107Please respect copyright.PENANA9IxxxydIG8
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,107Please respect copyright.PENANA1u7dAfjZjK
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.107Please respect copyright.PENANACYBIkLWxCi
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,107Please respect copyright.PENANACXVxfA1Rdq
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,107Please respect copyright.PENANAPaCMCcec9e
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—107Please respect copyright.PENANA8Xn2rLDdun
but maybe it’s worse.107Please respect copyright.PENANARqaO69f5fV
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,107Please respect copyright.PENANAv47XZ5RqVc
I can’t.107Please respect copyright.PENANAG0cQCTGNvd
Because if I go,107Please respect copyright.PENANAgwsArAZiMr
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.107Please respect copyright.PENANANKzzCVQMI4
I would support him, and he would support me.107Please respect copyright.PENANA7u39x4Gotk
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.107Please respect copyright.PENANALfrW3fMsCb
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—107Please respect copyright.PENANApg2HHu4CpV
when it was my turn to enter adult life—107Please respect copyright.PENANAwuv8eJMqEY
I was alone.