I feel like loneliness will never let me go.109Please respect copyright.PENANAbTFWsFTeok
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?109Please respect copyright.PENANA0SFCCHAdDX
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,109Please respect copyright.PENANAONkd1EbW6r
people I can turn to—any time—109Please respect copyright.PENANAVgraV94bof
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,109Please respect copyright.PENANAwHEs57BP1Y
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,109Please respect copyright.PENANAmyUtgbiaCV
someone who chooses them,109Please respect copyright.PENANAVj9NZk2pOt
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.109Please respect copyright.PENANAqM5V4UfyZB
I don’t have siblings,109Please respect copyright.PENANANjHnlp2sdA
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.109Please respect copyright.PENANAGkHxPC3UDs
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,109Please respect copyright.PENANAIvIMpSNOJa
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.109Please respect copyright.PENANAuJKvIpca8S
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,109Please respect copyright.PENANAiQ3M1lv2c0
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,109Please respect copyright.PENANABRzMSwlRfE
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—109Please respect copyright.PENANAlTgoGVNJ4F
but maybe it’s worse.109Please respect copyright.PENANAgoSDPjw51b
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,109Please respect copyright.PENANAAf5fmaDJvY
I can’t.109Please respect copyright.PENANAjYgKOVTAWG
Because if I go,109Please respect copyright.PENANAKUGjUwp6uf
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.109Please respect copyright.PENANAVyE2Ki3YqK
I would support him, and he would support me.109Please respect copyright.PENANA1Mkj0a3XNy
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.109Please respect copyright.PENANABAxeoi5tmw
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—109Please respect copyright.PENANAvbQdMAdG78
when it was my turn to enter adult life—109Please respect copyright.PENANAPhQ3NHhrf5
I was alone.