Who am I?168Please respect copyright.PENANAcINc2Dptqb
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.168Please respect copyright.PENANAQpygGnFRII
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.168Please respect copyright.PENANAQABBdqbMFa
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.168Please respect copyright.PENANAIPfK0bQWxK
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,168Please respect copyright.PENANAf7FXyAkoCO
but I feel like I’m stuck.168Please respect copyright.PENANASiIdp4HoJx
I don’t know what I want.168Please respect copyright.PENANA1z6RmpM3oy
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...168Please respect copyright.PENANA9mtTtDSV8M
I want to have a dream.168Please respect copyright.PENANAh2dLiVSCuv
Have a goal.168Please respect copyright.PENANAjsTCHeUG5b
Try to achieve it...168Please respect copyright.PENANAaXUnXJkEDU
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.168Please respect copyright.PENANAQNFdgf0YU6
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,168Please respect copyright.PENANAIDQs89xvuf
I’m alone, trying to dream,168Please respect copyright.PENANA6bJFrJJzb9
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,168Please respect copyright.PENANApsh72nHf41
after a long journey,168Please respect copyright.PENANAfZ1O3nAx2S
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...168Please respect copyright.PENANAmikn0UDSfD