Who am I?387Please respect copyright.PENANANfOZ6fjP93
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.387Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q1hTLgY1w
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.387Please respect copyright.PENANAz0VjvGmyIa
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.387Please respect copyright.PENANALT8xc2vbQf
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.387Please respect copyright.PENANAMxFZznh0Jb
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,387Please respect copyright.PENANABtTL6nahRj
but I feel like I’m stuck.387Please respect copyright.PENANA7e3Yp4gIQv
I don’t know what I want.387Please respect copyright.PENANA2gJtQ4UI3B
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...387Please respect copyright.PENANApiU6tlz9XR
I want to have a dream.387Please respect copyright.PENANAqu4HWpTWhP
Have a goal.387Please respect copyright.PENANAqksBQ87lRE
Try to achieve it...387Please respect copyright.PENANAshyzshFuyL
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.387Please respect copyright.PENANAvIGxqGkHa0
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,387Please respect copyright.PENANAO1NKx191Ch
I’m alone, trying to dream,387Please respect copyright.PENANALdBGGIX0jL
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,387Please respect copyright.PENANAfYlz6qtymz
after a long journey,387Please respect copyright.PENANAIQEVKPtqXd
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...387Please respect copyright.PENANAa0IS0OSbef