他並非生氣,只是某種有如一頭困獸般的疲乏。172Please respect copyright.PENANALtl7ZxFBK4
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不是受挫,也不是心理防線崩潰,只是壓抑著不算高漲的情緒。172Please respect copyright.PENANA1OgCeNIt6Y
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那份異常似乎不針對誰。或許是煩躁,或許只是剛好心情糟糕。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAnlNkB3VJEJ
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向菱垂下眸子,轉開視線。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAfhZ3Jx2cnX
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她覺得,祁澈實在是一個很矛盾的人。172Please respect copyright.PENANAAQQkZ1anfX
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——對他來說,世界上的人似乎只分為兩種。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAYff76xiard
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在乎的人,以及無關的人。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAsgTzH9NjLH
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他脾氣極壞,但那些脾氣是可控的,並且似乎只針對不在意的人發作。172Please respect copyright.PENANATmGe9NCKOF
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對於不在乎的人們,他甚至可以直接把那些人按著揍,而他並不會對任何受害者感到抱歉。172Please respect copyright.PENANANCYoqWeIUQ
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但是,祁澈真正在乎的那些少數人,別人休想動他們一下。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAWYLs5Stc6S
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因為一旦被盯上了,就會立刻被反咬、報復。172Please respect copyright.PENANArwOEFKQwvH
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他可能,就是這樣的人。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAr93wFS3TWk
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……172Please respect copyright.PENANAWOtxxwwPVm
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夜色籠罩下的男生宿舍裡。172Please respect copyright.PENANA2u7OqIACmn
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短暫沉默後,少女清脆的說話聲忽然響起。172Please respect copyright.PENANAvE4bOjw71z
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「我問你,如果把世界切成兩半,」她慢慢說道,「一邊站的是你在乎的人,其他人站到另一邊去。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAgGAoVOFxsa
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「嗯?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAyZkqPXALiG
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「那你會把自己放在哪裡?」她輕聲說完,用力嚥了下口水。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAGiuI1uFXyh
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「不在乎的那一邊。」172Please respect copyright.PENANA668VqH655o
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今夜漫長,月色黯然,月球悄然無聲被雲彩遮住大半。172Please respect copyright.PENANAPWtMAGmVZJ
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那一晚,她離開後,少年做了個詭異的夢。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAjwXDjIY1Uw
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四周一片漆黑,壓力環伺,恍若被什麼可懼的東西盯上。172Please respect copyright.PENANAO8fHIEEf2q
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——野獸的目光。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAuJFPhwb5RA
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看不見,耳裡聽到的聲音既混亂又雜亂無章,毫無規律可言。172Please respect copyright.PENANAUzeHhf2nMj
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出口的話成了碾碎的片段,光怪陸離的閃光浮現又一閃而逝。172Please respect copyright.PENANAX3yMjWTX0z
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世界在傾倒,同時也在下墜。172Please respect copyright.PENANALlaMqRbIad
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傷疤被毫不留情地揭開,猙獰的傷口完全暴露在空氣中,凝血彷彿失常,暗紅血液汩汩流淌。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAvHNbDJkkNl
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麻木似的,做夢沒有痛覺。172Please respect copyright.PENANATk4ylgSRjb
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持續墜落的踩空感覺在夢境中分外真實。172Please respect copyright.PENANA4kQnRoS0Sv
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突然腳跟像是觸碰到什麼冰涼的東西,冰冷的觸感從末梢神經擴散到全身,緊接著是近乎窒息的冷意。172Please respect copyright.PENANAhVHUA9xuei
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——落海。172Please respect copyright.PENANAHdNTjqHzru
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如她所說的那樣,也如同實際遭遇過的那樣。172Please respect copyright.PENANAvdxyMGvBkS
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清晰的知道自己在噩夢裡,卻醒不來。祁澈感覺得到海水又冷又鹹,分不清是回憶倒放還是夢境。 172Please respect copyright.PENANA0NoeEif8Gl
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完全沒有預警,無所謂,反正他從來就不在乎任何。172Please respect copyright.PENANAf8iKqig4nb
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如果自己消失的話,那些人會過上更舒服的日子吧。172Please respect copyright.PENANAJMNzgjtTsd
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類似的嘲諷念頭劃過腦海。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAzEpVfpvoFm
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這大概是從什麼八點檔裡抄來的惱人劇情——念頭冒出來的時候,他諷刺自己一句。172Please respect copyright.PENANA2OHnQym7Jj
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事發的時候,究竟是多少年前,別人大概記得比他自己更清楚。172Please respect copyright.PENANAlu2ufoWp6P
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明明好像也沒過多久。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAa9OmXbpbaP
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那夜的南雨鎮,也在下雨。 172Please respect copyright.PENANADYCwrJGMyn
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狂風暴雨的架式,像是要把人捲進大海裡。毫無預兆的那種,彷彿有人給你一個驚喜。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAlVcaO8qetu
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時間宛如倒流,夢境的場景回到不知多久以前,那夜除夕的海岸邊。172Please respect copyright.PENANAsDoA9htwAD
172Please respect copyright.PENANAs50PAAsRvQ
浪忽地驟強,海嘯警報從鎮上的廣播喇叭喇傾瀉而出。器材老舊,音質顯得沙啞。172Please respect copyright.PENANAejKJJpTHhA
172Please respect copyright.PENANAT9XXifdvCs
潮水一波波湧上,浪潮漸高,伴隨著強烈海嘯,小鎮似乎被黑夜及狂雨籠罩。172Please respect copyright.PENANAoxUvaRUyMe
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少年獨自站在海邊崖上,自虐式的,就只是怔怔的乾站著。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAvn5JOWW22b
172Please respect copyright.PENANAHznE9xYBHW
——其實他從來就沒想過跳下去,也從來沒有那種打算。172Please respect copyright.PENANAVSa0mHxuP9
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海浪挾帶著一種把人捲下去的氣勢。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAVLjW1L3YkJ
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浪太大,他站得太近,一切事件的發生連貫得理所當然。172Please respect copyright.PENANAB5zwIVTqu7
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不過,當浪真的把自己席捲下去時,他腦子裡閃過的念頭有些過於隨便——好像,也無所謂。 172Please respect copyright.PENANACAl9ooc9n7
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那一夜很冷。除此之外,相關的記憶幾乎等於零。172Please respect copyright.PENANAmJlu3wVX2H
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破碎的廣播音,短暫的失神。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAmhJWaEmz5S
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雨幕是殺死夜的嫌疑犯,雨停了,天也跟著濛濛亮了。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAPvNl7cfqnE
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海水並不會因為朝陽升起就乾涸。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAlmOKsv0e27
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沒人發現落海的孩子,他獨自掙扎著浮起來呼吸,他命大,那塊海岸的水又深,沒摔出什麼大傷。 172Please respect copyright.PENANARp1BUEkG1T
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意識仍然恍恍惚惚,一絲模糊的念頭從精神的縫隙竄了出來。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAt0bLfySJ0D
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完了,昨晚沒給祁小波留晚飯。172Please respect copyright.PENANApT9I5WUY0l
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…… 172Please respect copyright.PENANAd200tCUkkd
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後來,他是自己攀著石頭回岸邊的,然後一個人拖著腳步走掉。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAPQe5oTmo9y
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身上都是攀著礁石擦出來的傷,渾身濕透又難受,刺痛到令人煩躁。172Please respect copyright.PENANATLlH9L9prL
172Please respect copyright.PENANAgcOw0eZRv9
回去的路上,他特意抄進常年無人經過的窄巷子。可沈中奕卻突然冒出來,逼問他前一夜消失不歸的緣由。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAM1cZRCufjw
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「掉海裡?」沈中奕的眼睛瞬間瞪大。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAdwNlAotr7A
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「所以你那是什麼,自殺?」 172Please respect copyright.PENANAH7qpVCukOV
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不可置信的眼神。172Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3CRZSJku9
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沈中奕是典型「話多反應大」的性格,他看到祁澈滿身狼狽的樣子,又聯想到那段時間他生活有多困難,於是,直覺認定對方是去尋死了。172Please respect copyright.PENANAZvZdwohgQH
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「……你他媽是在找死嗎?搞什麼,這樣你妹妹要怎麼辦?」 172Please respect copyright.PENANAVv7UMAUOwN
172Please respect copyright.PENANAfEybLJifpQ
祁澈沒怎麼認真聽他說話,又根本沒聽進對方那一長串的譴責,便直接把那些話給敷衍了過去。172Please respect copyright.PENANAbcgP12LRFi
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那天,是大年初一。172Please respect copyright.PENANAPAUIEQqSCJ
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沈中奕大概把他的反應當成了默認,還真的以為這是一場自我了斷。172Please respect copyright.PENANAotNOahnspp
172Please respect copyright.PENANAwMtoscQuCC
於是,沈中奕每年春節都打電話過來。明面上是恭喜新年,實際上他的用意太明顯,祁澈早就看透,只是沒有說而已。172Please respect copyright.PENANApMBuiq7X4j
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——他甚至沒有辯解,其實是那天南雨的風浪太大,其實他只是單純的失足落水罷了。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAptDghK8F7z
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再後來,沒什麼好說的。他斷斷續續高燒了幾天,只覺得愈加煩躁,眼前陷入一片漆黑。 172Please respect copyright.PENANA4VohEUS0st
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之後的事太無趣,所以夢境就在這裡停了。 172Please respect copyright.PENANADrlaLFeDnj
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有時候,睡夢和回憶只有一線之隔。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAVA0unaPwup
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剎那,夢醒。172Please respect copyright.PENANAKOz2tIn0xs
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稱不上是回憶的往事影像跟著消失,空蕩的房間由模糊變得清晰。172Please respect copyright.PENANAXmqwnja1hm
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祁澈幾乎是埋在書桌的桌面上睡著的。天還沒亮,手機的螢幕亮起,顯示出從剛才到現在,只過去了三個半小時。172Please respect copyright.PENANAHOT3Js9ays
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有時候時間的確過得很快,但大部分時候,它走得很慢很慢。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAmu3zy0OVIY
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祁小波在雙層床的上鋪呼呼大睡,大概要再六、七個鐘頭才能叫她起來。172Please respect copyright.PENANAC0imCVLbo1
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腦海被毫無意義的斷簡殘篇充斥著,混亂又聒噪。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAzXyulcIZBw
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少年慢吞吞闔眼,埋回自己彎起的肘間。 172Please respect copyright.PENANA15UYfPGqOa
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想法很亂,意識卻清醒得過分。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAW7N6CljWTJ
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不久之前,他推估也就三、四個小時前,房裡氣氛僵硬,少女自顧自扒完那碗關東煮,然後就提出要離開。172Please respect copyright.PENANAl7fJZRWknD
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他沒有阻攔。172Please respect copyright.PENANAymjSjAz8a6
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她離開的時候,甚至順手把那袋關東煮的垃圾留在門邊。172Please respect copyright.PENANArwuXYXU50Q
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…… 172Please respect copyright.PENANAooeLbRhzOM
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夜色闌珊,窗外山頭一片漆黑,沒開燈的宿舍房間映出深沉。172Please respect copyright.PENANAIfUOtM3aGO
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——那為什麼她不跟那袋垃圾一起留下啊。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAXBzEBjJ3Bp
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荒謬,他也沒挽留那袋垃圾啊。172Please respect copyright.PENANAi954uRW0Qx
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……172Please respect copyright.PENANAXj9MKFPxf0
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少年自嘲似的無聲笑了一下。172Please respect copyright.PENANAzabq8zHWio
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他覺得,自己可能腦子有病。172Please respect copyright.PENANAbNogtXUUge
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寒假那段期間,宿舍裡只有兩個人,其餘室友都不在。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAI2xyTYkcqb
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還是同一個日子,仍然是同一個夜裡。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAIUUKV4aZzW
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夜色很暗,男生宿舍,雙層床的上鋪裡,祁小波悄悄睜開了眼睛。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAltNsIeSfhR
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——六、七歲孩子的年紀雖小,但她其實很敏銳。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAZaG0h4cWqm
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祁小波有時候半夜醒來,會發現哥哥根本沒有在睡覺。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7Mixbjs4B
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她睜開眼睛,房間裡很安靜,哥哥就坐在書桌前,眼神很空,不知道在想什麼。172Please respect copyright.PENANArxneQXeV55
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祁小波不太理解「空洞」這個詞的意思,也還沒學會使用這種詞彙。172Please respect copyright.PENANALaiPBHlSrW
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但她就是能察覺到,哥哥看起來好像沒什麼精神,眼底沒有光亮,有時候,甚至像是在看一個不存在的地方。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAiIAV0p5dwB
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如果換作是平常,他的眼神必定是清醒的,帶有一種屬於少年的銳氣。172Please respect copyright.PENANAC1A12seSsk
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可是,在那種時候不一樣。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAdgrNDqfAiJ
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祁小波看不透她哥哥在想什麼。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAkdlKeSOYrO
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然後隔天早晨醒來之後,她會問一句:「哥哥,你昨天沒有睡覺嗎?」 172Please respect copyright.PENANABzKNAntDR6
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他會回答:「……睡了。」 172Please respect copyright.PENANAo4ExuoWhlk
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——但是她知道,哥哥那時候一定是在說謊。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAnh5oPtQ3W2
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祁小波的想法很單純,別人都以為她哥哥兇,但她知道並非那樣。 172Please respect copyright.PENANADT62UxxeuU
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她哥哥才不是真的兇呢,明明自己都沒錢,還是會偷偷給她買好吃的。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAVNdLU2A9dm
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他總是讓祁小波別亂跑、別吵鬧,但其實她一撒嬌,哥哥就會帶她去買糖吃。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAyfvTf1OXFL
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祁小波心裡的祁澈,或許是世界上最厲害最溫柔的一個人。172Please respect copyright.PENANAJWa3yHsWNS
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但是她覺得,有些時候,哥哥看起來很累。172Please respect copyright.PENANA7fFnVJoCka
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他的眼神會變得很淡、很靜,甚至有點「空」。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAdyiN5LE5HQ
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祁小波有點害怕他這樣。172Please respect copyright.PENANAW1zPL6SCJx
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那種時候,他會笑一下,但那只是一種「安撫小孩用的笑」,眼睛裡卻沒有真的笑意。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAacH4spB9jX
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這樣的笑,和平常完全不一樣,祁小波看得出來。172Please respect copyright.PENANAOz1nUEgf45
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她不一定能理解「累」這個字的全部含義,但她能察覺到哥哥不對勁,然後用自己的方式去理解。172Please respect copyright.PENANA61E4Ojph8C
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——哥哥每天都很累,但又不說。 172Please respect copyright.PENANAQSHCWJZZn9
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祁小波不是笨蛋,她能看出來。172Please respect copyright.PENANAWtJOZ7ORLv