White sheets stained red in a hotel bed254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRmdeymAKl
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelbVMbY8FD
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjXVgiNOCX
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzuViv1yW1
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSNb2IAM3q
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EqZNtj0ts
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxrLf8mfs5
Vivid visions invading my rest 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTquPch9CsA
I can't sleep because all I see is death254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XOUTyxtJW
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLTErtlQw8
Thinking about death at such an early age254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbWFwj7oKZ
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTpqc4XtUt
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTR0hOHH4I
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuozEiy47AE
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaFqpCMgEL
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Dj38RFqmL
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYJMkCoxc5
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bHv5esbMJ
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFjCFvH4vY
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWy5oOg3ws
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JvNZcbbq3
Nobody actually cares until you're dead254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iOXXHdBh5
Until you're another headline in the news254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaSZL5moxa
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhy4hXXup9
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEvXzxLwLc
"I miss you today" 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38r5Jbg5xB
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEKxkmiOD0
But they care now, 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eTZEj6n5j
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJW3yREBBd
Mixed signals is all they send254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlSS0HbiiT
One day I matter to them 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKFP2hn31i
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjJVVaWS1f
A few months ago, I felt like flying 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1qXJgo69k
A few months ago, I truly felt alive254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE3DmmJEVw
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCBFQZ0LIe
It's hard to explain with words,254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1toHZKk6Ow
How the silence kills 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTV9swzqVw
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT43OCwz472
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71wg8tPqBg
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmT4WVNSH4
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcliWX2Wor
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uMuxbQ49l
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSMqBc3xhK
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEBqLYrZy2
The little voice in my head, it screams it254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskUVjvhFwJ
"This was their choice"254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM1fQi5VX4
And to be lonely all the time is mine254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KAgbEnanI
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSksHz2bfV
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZUq8hTAy5
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4p21wbhVW
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7hKDMeMZL
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFqLAEeLWV
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O07BCM5S1
I wish somebody would call254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUVaX2wMIB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvBUk4fbh9
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzbj4T7pnC
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdIWbtCylb
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvM7wZR8Bu
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9EGhg2n7O
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 254Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlCHLwz7ma
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
