White sheets stained red in a hotel bed302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6Yn1AJWyz
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3BzXFTSl1
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYzhLHhRw5
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPSNHux190
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1w02b37bH
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunNC6jGzZC
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzhpKorOHd
Vivid visions invading my rest 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46X2O6vLZn
I can't sleep because all I see is death302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCPSWSATB7
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdXzZvRGlj
Thinking about death at such an early age302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENjYZg2t0m
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWfvYjqpI2
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLCftzDMPQ
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppfH7XIjNg
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfXITrBuq9
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSPpipG1ni
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNILocWORjE
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhenc752qlt
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBUGLMpwnJ
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYdEudzCvr
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n49Hv4Znz
Nobody actually cares until you're dead302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLgwSPKjGH
Until you're another headline in the news302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxmhu3ngUV
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdjJ5LvAkb
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcs1qqigsF
"I miss you today" 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOtYgwyn72
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2vJDwKcJV
But they care now, 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCTtsCkZXT
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6YeSi9K4P
Mixed signals is all they send302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSRbEhaQrGK
One day I matter to them 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwsYTZmER9
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREv6LvQl8C
A few months ago, I felt like flying 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb2sdkxZBI
A few months ago, I truly felt alive302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBTq828JBM
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQTINEF5y8
It's hard to explain with words,302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRdVceEaXq
How the silence kills 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6K1C4rPUw
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQqiDwG5I5
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijSm6ln8Yn
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNRngpJ583
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1vgq8YmhJ
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvftqb7KfK
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwR8sO8SyoK
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyr98RELdL
The little voice in my head, it screams it302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsOc0sgb1C
"This was their choice"302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymIvWUPgkB
And to be lonely all the time is mine302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNKZf0JVpO
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7qpkp41AY
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB8FbN2LVe
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxC904Tgp3
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk0h9ZZhJ0
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAALTfsGqe3
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwC96RQgzdC
I wish somebody would call302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF1QebXSgB
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO41Hld0Cf4
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dtX9cYj59
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjLznTk1QV
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GEgHZYMom
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNFoYklop0
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwwS5xceF9
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
