White sheets stained red in a hotel bed208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUQ18H27se
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrN8Dutk0Z
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9kE5C316A
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvnUMUrdsS
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8Tuv6kIWJ
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKXiCQFGRS
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ3CxQEQnt
Vivid visions invading my rest 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMQIyrpkX4
I can't sleep because all I see is death208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWXcwUYYsB
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbGlj8UJ4B
Thinking about death at such an early age208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqbg06x8NW
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpX9EE6duV
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7OoB2IL53
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8eRYoLBb4
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2AamlzDBy
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiza2a6g0G
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rC4sXN0dL
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHTNdjIDX7
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFUpbIbaWI
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjygmynJkB3
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcajhuX65m6
Nobody actually cares until you're dead208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJa5bUEnEU
Until you're another headline in the news208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxd209d42q
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv243pButew
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2u9MvmKvZ
"I miss you today" 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAMqAo4jQg
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVPPFdYCcn
But they care now, 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU2ABBqB6z
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzagDJYT9Rr
Mixed signals is all they send208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EBgdAKMy7
One day I matter to them 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ6lZXG1s4
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHB372gHlP
A few months ago, I felt like flying 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWTh6OZHbD
A few months ago, I truly felt alive208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSSJDpDGta
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjXdYJIXZ9
It's hard to explain with words,208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxWLEEnv2v
How the silence kills 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡom5ZuGdRKE
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLttCCalHIJ
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeqo2nLE4p
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LiEdfBrw5
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptcqx34Tou
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaPy5kTknU
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuq3KB0ufCQ
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizL1aSYgHT
The little voice in my head, it screams it208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yEmPkwkOX
"This was their choice"208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMqGBJ2tZz
And to be lonely all the time is mine208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF21EcmUKdQ
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8vrAEqNjJ
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIrPpijZGR
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqQdjxZtZZ
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvhw94oFfG
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBzNQkiBrV
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK3BmgIFYA
I wish somebody would call208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBj3zGnXv
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuN9oRgdHE
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIbRfYkJjF
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjyZfuwlWD
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWz1oU8pWs
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfwR6huMDe
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 208Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYr3lH6MdIc
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
