I wish I could understand why I feel this way212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UqiDgTgWn
Why flying doesn't feel the same 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlo6zGDvOFj
And the lows don't seem to fade212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8c6PQUWCE
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcKTLy4xr9
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC6QRh7YF5
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjY7EzIaX0
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡit2DudqlXQ
I'll convert this pain into something that works 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbR5cmiK3m
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBhjEIunyf
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5rILpDkrT
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWClTWUvek
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDlI05ppyN
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbr2YbfQ9v
The breathing turns to drowning 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoU22q4y6r
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczHqgrdaJX
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlXIZP1RmN
But no one welcomes me with open arms212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvNurYOhF1
Their love is fictitious 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUehEH7YXb
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzYowJwOxt
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIPpsC4MnB
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwD2g7ZErR
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kCtaH1crf
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHaQL1dLis
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkglFVutnt
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnGGRmw0l7
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7L3yA5H3F
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlcI4z1Ofh
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2xjXAu1fa
They get their way, nothing remains the same212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQh73Ovdv2
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJIgttMMbb
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwovyKDett
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCG3UaD6OH
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgETTE3vaU
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8ntZGqHa3
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPd1JmU5bnC
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPx4gv9HRj
But full of myself and always on time 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6kwjasr7L
I admit that the crime is mine 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJDunE6FDb
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37S6IQcXT9
The devil will lose his incentive 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QFXRn81eN
The weak little girl, poisoned 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODMli9p4ct
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdGm4bAVPb
Brick by brick 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShJv3Av6Y5
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrX9L8DeAho
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05iaqq3pCi
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GQDElrbuP
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ3zcsA7EJ
It's still right there 212Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtP4ozTM7P
The devil on my shoulder
