I wish I could understand why I feel this way313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2h2e2bYBy
Why flying doesn't feel the same 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsC8mJUMfSh
And the lows don't seem to fade313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwDff7GQYw
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonCpI0RxLz
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDM5JlS9FB
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiMMBNcFJ1
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2oV7su3tP
I'll convert this pain into something that works 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSZftMUkA7
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyXAj7QtWT
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vwmHL4DQv
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ126kINRU14
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6lfnkNgrz
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQBPGB1G8L
The breathing turns to drowning 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6vo2MZsmq
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOPcJJ0F7y
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKtYueYiNu
But no one welcomes me with open arms313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLDGkLmBMb
Their love is fictitious 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVitAjYV8bO
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZbWQMjPxM
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl57n6VVd5m
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa314jRnYz
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTCk4RkiCP
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm4gUIoz8g
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4R6TXQBzJY
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dbA3zSBq0
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnEexhzxpR
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetx5Jj8prq
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TjF4CBMMW
They get their way, nothing remains the same313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyI4ZGWeUxR
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWPqLgkCHG
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrBS6rNSFP
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5aWOqnXrz
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTkChGnCpz
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iAU81owuN
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBt34gLfLt
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2Svt1P7YO
But full of myself and always on time 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeQbizNZU5
I admit that the crime is mine 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wdPy2DtlZ
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fUzKkcZ2V
The devil will lose his incentive 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTVFYwg4og
The weak little girl, poisoned 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d1Jr0N4LG
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdJwOLIlIB
Brick by brick 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDYvoUihQh
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwiO9JzrS5
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiLDztvF8r
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0l5n03n9Py
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmubcJqf9v
It's still right there 313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5DHVmnfVd
The devil on my shoulder
