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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JVo41srRl
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhjaKnV3Ya
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWUiT1pTx1
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX3HuYfygv
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJwy0HOxfV
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPA5HTKpjS7
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cj2Z92DC1
One day, I will be killed by myself
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4LUXNlYCuThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhjaKnV3Ya
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWUiT1pTx1
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX3HuYfygv
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJwy0HOxfV
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPA5HTKpjS7
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cj2Z92DC1
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cPQUo7Cr3
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M7nwmORsK
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXMEJgtVqB
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD6eIxzMFS
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkqxzFUiLR
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxxV7R2ej2
However, if I really wanted to252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6AZUiEqSy
I can answer those ramblings252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVRpPF09L4
As easy as conducting an experiment252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAYY0UIyHC
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAq2AkBAQQ
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsHWm68fL6
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7byTfkG9WmForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M7nwmORsK
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXMEJgtVqB
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD6eIxzMFS
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkqxzFUiLR
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxxV7R2ej2
However, if I really wanted to252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6AZUiEqSy
I can answer those ramblings252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVRpPF09L4
As easy as conducting an experiment252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAYY0UIyHC
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAq2AkBAQQ
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsHWm68fL6
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUf8HUeXpUr
"This is all my fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUuwgPuQ9K
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNl4Fo0AOv
I have already gone crazy and mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQLF2WWpae
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGzhcKBSxC
"It is alright"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMbT9k0CKK
And it became alright for me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqWgHIKOIO
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXgfWWCfPt
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLLrYbM9Vt
Though, does it matter anymore ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkxJ4HOzrb
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP89jED8aq
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5yFQQ3Sdn
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Am I the weird one here? 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8mN7paGYB
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04KPyhTlLp
Am I the wrong one here?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlZ3s642BH
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSYMusgMES
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0doFIQtejy
I have already lost it all
252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZJ85YLwIK"This is all my fault"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUuwgPuQ9K
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNl4Fo0AOv
I have already gone crazy and mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQLF2WWpae
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGzhcKBSxC
"It is alright"252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMbT9k0CKK
And it became alright for me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqWgHIKOIO
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXgfWWCfPt
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLLrYbM9Vt
Though, does it matter anymore ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkxJ4HOzrb
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpP89jED8aq
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5yFQQ3Sdn
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Am I the weird one here? 252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8mN7paGYB
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04KPyhTlLp
Am I the wrong one here?252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlZ3s642BH
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSYMusgMES
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0doFIQtejy
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGADIZRaiB
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe03b7NP1f
Days without worry and doubts252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRCCyhzVgu
Times that are as pure as crystal clear252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZNXNoxK9V
I was happy before252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZIMWdvuYe
And on that day, when the light went off252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwSpoe3XYw
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvK5B9TYI3
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuMd9f81BS
There was someone who love me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH6Szt5QA0
Taught me unconditional love252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS10nk9xu7q
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe03b7NP1f
Days without worry and doubts252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRCCyhzVgu
Times that are as pure as crystal clear252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZNXNoxK9V
I was happy before252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZIMWdvuYe
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And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93oEopBven
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvK5B9TYI3
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuMd9f81BS
There was someone who love me252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH6Szt5QA0
Taught me unconditional love252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS10nk9xu7q
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning252Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdB4DODdi2
