晚安了，媽媽224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzP2qZSc6w
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGAJHr1K7V
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwqvfZMa5W
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40AXtVBf01
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bZg9wkYDf
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvv6zciibe
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX1zF2f2tk
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KMakEzDW7
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9Xi4902yh
One day, I will be killed by myself
224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CbgqfbyUBThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40AXtVBf01
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bZg9wkYDf
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvv6zciibe
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX1zF2f2tk
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KMakEzDW7
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9Xi4902yh
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMaqeKHmPJ
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdyj0rjNTC
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSuNMsSgMK
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ676G7zn5uC
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygZRPoua32
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4Eh15Ctut
However, if I really wanted to224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhZGE70s1j
I can answer those ramblings224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OgHxd6ohU
As easy as conducting an experiment224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J1WV5nI0R
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdIrx0Sh9N
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzKtWdBwGe
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EYqJzYY86Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdyj0rjNTC
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSuNMsSgMK
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ676G7zn5uC
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygZRPoua32
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4Eh15Ctut
However, if I really wanted to224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhZGE70s1j
I can answer those ramblings224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OgHxd6ohU
As easy as conducting an experiment224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J1WV5nI0R
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdIrx0Sh9N
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzKtWdBwGe
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZArCse5xa
"This is all my fault"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKitbmF4Fl
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHjaxbwh9U
I have already gone crazy and mad224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZleZqGGKf
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN5rghDYwN
"It is alright"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujNLUe08dr
And it became alright for me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFoQ0fXLBp
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL29uKl3Szk
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRdpu3hqRB
Though, does it matter anymore ?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7gZN7ue5y
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40ZNOPowss
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWFoUP13Qe
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Am I the weird one here? 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXah8GklnG3
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Am I the wrong one here?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9yXQMgozz
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzsfJMoLXh
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYD2MJ3z2b
I have already lost it all
224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFOYQuHIs5"This is all my fault"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKitbmF4Fl
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHjaxbwh9U
I have already gone crazy and mad224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZleZqGGKf
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsN5rghDYwN
"It is alright"224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujNLUe08dr
And it became alright for me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFoQ0fXLBp
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL29uKl3Szk
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRdpu3hqRB
Though, does it matter anymore ?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7gZN7ue5y
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40ZNOPowss
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWFoUP13Qe
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Am I the weird one here? 224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXah8GklnG3
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Am I the wrong one here?224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9yXQMgozz
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzsfJMoLXh
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYD2MJ3z2b
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCswhNV06M
Days without worry and doubts224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52wCngaNRh
Times that are as pure as crystal clear224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2JT8dnQDz
I was happy before224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwM7sykpd5H
And on that day, when the light went off224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0K3CD809Pa
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiZiuCYL2C
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52wCngaNRh
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I was happy before224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwM7sykpd5H
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiZiuCYL2C
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7th1EJOu5u
There was someone who love me224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepnA1lWOVI
Taught me unconditional love224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEScJ2Fc56
She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning224Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZIFbs7NqK
