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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2L6EawahDd
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqE0av6LrPh
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOaAcCSua3
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq2kNZ0LSB
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWla2vbQSLD
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV010OnqYQ
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPLK63ms4d
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxmABEg3rc
One day, I will be killed by myself
181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3OBpYKaSDThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOaAcCSua3
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq2kNZ0LSB
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWla2vbQSLD
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV010OnqYQ
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPLK63ms4d
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxmABEg3rc
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4S6ZIj10Dy
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82uinEYZsY
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbwBSvare2
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaAFoiX5c0
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIImWVqkqeI
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfzW7oiwsG
However, if I really wanted to181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4WcVVm1LL
I can answer those ramblings181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscr0KFCopK
As easy as conducting an experiment181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEfuuEakfe
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xbOtUKkEf
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VGsMToYVU
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gis30WYwsForget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82uinEYZsY
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbwBSvare2
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaAFoiX5c0
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIImWVqkqeI
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfzW7oiwsG
However, if I really wanted to181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4WcVVm1LL
I can answer those ramblings181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscr0KFCopK
As easy as conducting an experiment181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEfuuEakfe
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xbOtUKkEf
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VGsMToYVU
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhlVmc01Qc
"This is all my fault"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb29DEKkxVN
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyWcijl3OG
I have already gone crazy and mad181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjnOH6k9sY
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmZvm2EFiK
"It is alright"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTYO5LcUXZ
And it became alright for me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbDBYgVM7Z
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH2nPxA23i
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtst0obgVKd
Though, does it matter anymore ?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqaa058LV7
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigQXFqrSnd
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdNJrJaXpm
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Am I the weird one here? 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoGaZDCtP6
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Am I the wrong one here?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY0hexaEJG
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMiJKV98x0
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb3RobC0Wn
I have already lost it all
181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kWUqCp16l"This is all my fault"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb29DEKkxVN
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyWcijl3OG
I have already gone crazy and mad181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjnOH6k9sY
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmZvm2EFiK
"It is alright"181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTYO5LcUXZ
And it became alright for me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbDBYgVM7Z
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGH2nPxA23i
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtst0obgVKd
Though, does it matter anymore ?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqaa058LV7
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigQXFqrSnd
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdNJrJaXpm
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Am I the weird one here? 181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoGaZDCtP6
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ626GbEOqvE
Am I the wrong one here?181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY0hexaEJG
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMiJKV98x0
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnb3RobC0Wn
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRCZajyIfb
Days without worry and doubts181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn0BaLac7o
Times that are as pure as crystal clear181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovJ4H7SVLL
I was happy before181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SfMSJf0LS
And on that day, when the light went off181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8xFhPj7hb
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAfbi5TCeR
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I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH23XFiLKz1
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There was someone who love me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhK9vg4b8bL
Taught me unconditional love181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX0Gpp8VzZ
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRCZajyIfb
Days without worry and doubts181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFn0BaLac7o
Times that are as pure as crystal clear181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovJ4H7SVLL
I was happy before181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SfMSJf0LS
And on that day, when the light went off181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8xFhPj7hb
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAfbi5TCeR
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVm9RakbaAc
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH23XFiLKz1
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnHAObj85Z
There was someone who love me181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhK9vg4b8bL
Taught me unconditional love181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX0Gpp8VzZ
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVkBZyxBOE
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning181Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGn4XLwMrG
