White sheets stained red in a hotel bed302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhcyoXw0s5
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLV4yQ66v6
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOhbe00QjP
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytqvlI32hz
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty41PkE6eY
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sFE3aPP2s
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMo3WJhkyY
Vivid visions invading my rest 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXAsEcbjXI
I can't sleep because all I see is death302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AyD9htf0N
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IDjatkMm4
Thinking about death at such an early age302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYEgB00rrE
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOwgk4YMlT
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡax4ziI27NG
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfR1jdGKnnl
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9B0e7IlFG6
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aAnm2FQjv
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3alpDlNwR
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsClH1q0zFa
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SC1Q2FyhL
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYszIHUOgI
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lOBQ4s2YA
Nobody actually cares until you're dead302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbZOyVRQld
Until you're another headline in the news302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNiAfKHWZt
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasxOZaDTP5
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5y5YGk6cf
"I miss you today" 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwva8etWF3F
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBYpkflnkw
But they care now, 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf4jtadNjV
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiErmydvuA
Mixed signals is all they send302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalxnFpKAMH
One day I matter to them 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMwuWtbxsJ
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQirJLj4exz
A few months ago, I felt like flying 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIIIGaDC7V
A few months ago, I truly felt alive302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIIT4gkRoP
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPN2Lmud6A
It's hard to explain with words,302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeHZ3Q7D4e
How the silence kills 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHJp3PUuXB
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1htgp7V4pP
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEhAFHDr0M
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡau0RRC19Nq
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvYqhiY5YV
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtlg4XBf4V
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPJkR3PcSd
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxLBZPOgmI
The little voice in my head, it screams it302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmo1TR30dMq
"This was their choice"302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkFsPbnnse
And to be lonely all the time is mine302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhNrwY0KV5
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnYsK6hqx9
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOkp5bHwRh
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg4kUqes8Z
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0je2lWq8F
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMLzTYUuXF
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcqOC1o106
I wish somebody would call302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuMI1Wg9hA
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOGpemwSIg
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBz5P8ThZzd
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxCtx4kwhR
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlRBMh35AN
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInbtDRkDgC
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 302Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSbXRI6FS1
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
