White sheets stained red in a hotel bed312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyS6K4w1HN
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNx3PVcFbg
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43FB4KxBXp
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eRjXh503a
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDi3i3awhT
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyWSAynBVS
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0cDPrE2xp
Vivid visions invading my rest 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS5ddGmfJt
I can't sleep because all I see is death312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnGVERdOXm
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MMxR9b0L4
Thinking about death at such an early age312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxVBvkHUcY
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUAgGZPA4l
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx52HqJuKU
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvd01PGBG
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTkCc5YH2o
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHF1UNE4ku
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxGhmHlHmm
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95gMyjVdmf
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEuNe7q40l
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhFKXyhvlt
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7J4rWsNu8h
Nobody actually cares until you're dead312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjfuL5Hy48
Until you're another headline in the news312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi15JYqRoNa
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdp84mfvCh
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQTZtCLkSr
"I miss you today" 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjL8mDucVaB
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3GuSKDpoP
But they care now, 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1depOmsGwK
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQr4DCo60r
Mixed signals is all they send312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubjXxZ8Q4e
One day I matter to them 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PhvLbS24q
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUC6SedcqH
A few months ago, I felt like flying 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPA2jPM2hl
A few months ago, I truly felt alive312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzW8lD7I3Rw
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKKCM00xNn
It's hard to explain with words,312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6LbBuUujh
How the silence kills 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1ay0HYjEL
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2awBm13QQK
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMf6baUvDWO
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdQWhU9HQW
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkO09nc7A1
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDD7g4GNJS
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUQ1TGBDY5
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKOmJXcKsy
The little voice in my head, it screams it312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUifT0yjam
"This was their choice"312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplakLZDazb
And to be lonely all the time is mine312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTjtn3msd3
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4Mq1g96mG
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCsHI7aMWH
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11FXzjVsbD
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmgeeNg01p
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPd3qq6AbUr
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBWo2du6xV
I wish somebody would call312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QELdwYYbF
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvj62YurBJH
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgljqwn3shZ
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZe4HJCsLK
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jpTiPYqPU
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrqf1jpdqG
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 312Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEK4XUAqLF7
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
