I wish I could understand why I feel this way218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRS7rfO0Ge
Why flying doesn't feel the same 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQb5BIfdJ2T
And the lows don't seem to fade218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkBfBsIRuT
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5IA5Kk6xN
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFuwmhu7Db
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGx5FDsRat
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpUN6I7uzB
I'll convert this pain into something that works 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4jsYcvxTa
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3L9GtlMcL
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZZWVliVon
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUUbDm6HrH
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ2HBR68wm
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPfrqVy90S
The breathing turns to drowning 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc64JR1R3ux
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPD6FgQRi3Q
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKekUhMFPdU
But no one welcomes me with open arms218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGaKwwMLSz
Their love is fictitious 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkyWvpEsXa
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTOeNMcjAq
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkxWFUyfGw
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqO5QFNwe7
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLZoDyP3Is
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxND7Jo8Oy
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI29U36fwiQ
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKW5KTZJfH
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVeO9Uql0G9
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUWaNpsxxH
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJihND5dJ6Y
They get their way, nothing remains the same218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVBQFdN1Bl
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8FE869JXa
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IgREexK8U
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuuToHMXg0
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvoykBM0ir
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAdcsR5LJQ
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYuAYUHFN7
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQShiXD5fFs
But full of myself and always on time 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOJOF3ec7x
I admit that the crime is mine 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PcMA3W2pg
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUD1D0n62r
The devil will lose his incentive 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQCokINSzM
The weak little girl, poisoned 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1tqMY5k21
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgjsy7fFGr
Brick by brick 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpg0JEFJaU
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2hLisi7m0
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mh37TdlGk
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJnDqK0d6R
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdroz5FHP83
It's still right there 218Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOjA2qBr99
The devil on my shoulder
