清晨，我從溫暖的陽光中醒來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQ3uPQoviZ
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明明．．．．．．．已經好久沒有做過這個夢了。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK2S4mzMN4
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這個夢讓我想起了與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdeR6ramtJ
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他救贖了我，把我從黑暗的深淵拉了回來。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSEZO9Kmz1
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這一切的開端要從那一天開始說起；464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSSw8fglPD
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１９９８年的４月２１日．．．．．．是我滿六歲的生日。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YykjgnkHT
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也是在這一天，死神無情的奪走了我雙親的生命。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREb4kFj8ji
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一場意外．．．．．．在意外的現場，找到了一盒未拆封的水彩。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKh1QQM3Owp
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即使已經因為意外而變得殘破不堪，但是對我來說．．．．．．那是我的寶物，最後一次從雙親手上收的生日禮物。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyU0JFR2HD
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「姐、姐姐．．．．．．爹地、媽咪呢？我要．．．．．爹地、媽咪！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTeHApDgBv
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雙親的喪禮就在一間小教堂簡單的舉行了．．．．．．當時我不明白什麼是死亡，更不明白雙親們到哪裡去了？464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9T2azB4CF
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安娜姐姐一句話也沒說，只是緊緊得抱著我。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2ieBUVggt
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那一天．．．．．．是雨天。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBaAVFTxU7
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離雙親逝世已經超過了半年．．．．．．我似乎理解了什麼是死亡，死亡是惡魔！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlyv6UggWr
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死亡．．．．．．是神對生命的惡作劇！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1zKEM2Qsk
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我不明白；既然有生，為何又要有死？464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCe1u1R1hM2
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我不理解；既然都難逃一死，人類又為何要求生？464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKaTuRA6lJ
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這個過程的目的是？464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoUVhBchRp
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在我六歲的那一年裡，我一直在思考這樣的問題。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0JYl8mTzP
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死亡這個單字，對我所造成的衝擊太大了！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz6PpvGVtX
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１９９８年１２月２４日：464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIT8AstXA4
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這一天是平安夜，但是這是我第一次體會到沒有親人陪伴的聖誕夜。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5u2V3MO37
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為了生計，安娜姐姐從高中休學，而不停的打著零工。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEUCMz8Emc
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只是為了生存！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6zGnVfPi7
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可笑的是．．．．．．人遲早都會面臨死亡！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9fNU8qccd
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那一天我一個人帶著雙親遺留給我的水彩盒，來到了聖奧爾本斯教堂的附近徘徊。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bv4zzGRQH
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我看著這雄偉的教堂，這裡面供奉的是人們所信仰的神！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIx9DbY9sh
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「如果真的有神的話，就告訴我生命是什麼啊？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuvbioz9ii
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我忍不住朝著教堂大吼，想要發洩心中一切的怨氣。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzFOG8jPLp
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「小男孩，怎麼啦？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBMXiZLEkM
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一位正好路過，穿著有點凌亂的老人問著我。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1f18HuQkv
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我心想：這個人．．．．．．遲早也是會死的．．．．．．．464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9T1mwq6sb
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「我不懂既然神給予了我們生命，為何又要剝奪？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhlxJ1fdgH
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「真是個深奧的問題呢！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGIAhiq2OJ
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聽到我的問題 眼前的老人似乎有點吃驚，或許這真的是一個非常深奧的問題。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDF4xlJsBG
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老人一直用奇怪的眼神打量著我，讓我感覺到有點不自在。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Gqwl5W076
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「小男孩，你喜歡繪畫嗎？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgZyPBGl6Q
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老人的目光停留在我手上的水彩盒，然後柔聲的問道。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXbVyQBUXH
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「以前喜歡，現在不喜歡了！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl86wTDq7A
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「喔？為何呢？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KrG4P8fxy
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「因為所有的一切都是騙人的假象，一切都會消失！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO5pMmFVoz
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想起了雙親．．．．．．464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvRKWwK44u
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雖然我沒有看過事發的現場．．．．．．但是那鮮血染紅大地景像，卻日復一日的出現在我的夢裡。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaudNX1ya09
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想到這裡，我忍不住流出了淚水。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVrjU3HUYs
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「男孩子不可以哭唷！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15X1W8rWn8
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老人用他蒼老的大手抹去我臉頰上的淚水，他的手令人覺得溫暖、厚實。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBFuh4HWfq
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我．．．．．停止了哭泣。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjKbOynuHo
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「小男孩，你看這棵大樹。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTh1vkcL29
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我朝著老人手指的方向看了過去．．．．．．464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QcTkK9SZ8
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「你感覺到了什麼？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmhRlC6h5h
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我搖搖頭，因為那只是一棵普通的大樹而已！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXhOAfyY2T
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「你在看看地上這些枯葉，你能明白什麼嗎？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjHVGZpUOJ
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我仍是搖頭。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgdql6Jf1F
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「乖孩子，你記好！有形的事物終將有凋零的一天，即使強壯的大樹幹也好，或是不起的小樹葉也罷！都無法逃離這樣的循環。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgPcD9h8ml
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「可是．．．．．活著根本一點意義也沒有！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ddq17QVjy
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「你真的是這樣想嗎？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtbsHCH0q0
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老人很認真的注視著我，他的雙眼彷彿能看穿我的內心。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegYra4HsnE
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「．．．．．．．」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8okp1PQpt
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「每天都有很多的人死去，但是同時也有很多新的生命誕生！在這樣的無限循環中，你覺得你能些做什麼呢？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EP6fKhpFZ
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「這樣的循環，一點意義也沒有！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKqCHRzFnd
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「是這樣子嗎？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFMb93svcK
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「而且．．．．．我根本就什麼也做不到。」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdjaslG46w
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是的．．．．．．我什麼都做不到。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVMAVRfkpx
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我根本無法自己一個人生存．．．．．．如果有一天，安娜姐姐也離我而去的話．．．．．．那我又能做什麼？464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Xzxxeyovd
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「小男孩，你現在就有你能做到的事情。只是你沒有注意到而已！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgV3290NLRE
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「我能．．．．．．做到的事情？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyGWQLINWM
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「就是你手中的水彩啊！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWvczcWGlS
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老人笑了，笑的非常開懷。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTc1DbuSzf
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「我、我的水彩？」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVpcXN710d
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我看著手中緊緊握住的水彩盒，唯一的寶物。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAY9Cne1K5C
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「有形的事物雖然會凋零，但是思想卻是會傳承的！你不是會畫畫嗎？把你的思想畫在畫中傳達吧！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CyhHstc36
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我疑惑的問道：「畫畫．．．．．．」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4nFUYErB6
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「對！畫出你所想的、所見的、所聽的、所夢的。雖然你有一天仍必須將要直視死亡，但是你的精神卻會傳承下去！」464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TRPwI7OA4
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老人的這翻話，震憾了我．．．．．．．．464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXdVs0AMNv
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原來，人們並不只是無意義的活在這個世界上。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrnf12v1Ve
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我似乎能理解了．．．．．．人的價值。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvUs7hyiUB
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這就是我與布魯克斯伯伯的初遇。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h9QYlqvGZ
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英國；464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzBrF8wkP8
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１９９８年１２月２４日；464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIHgVKRHcU
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寒冷的聖誕節前夕．．．．．．我向手中的水彩盒立下了誓言，我要成為一名能傳達思想的畫家。464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaY45sSiy9
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用這盒充滿著對雙親回憶的水彩，畫下我曾經存在過的痕跡！464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCwJsKkwb4
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（註：這篇是以軒現有的思維去回想，當時的他並未能完全真正的明白布魯克斯的話中涵義。）
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