I feel like loneliness will never let me go.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRWPPUDY4G
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n7rLQcDM3
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOOtnNePqc
people I can turn to—any time—49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAmmrxcn5t
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNcgMPTLsb
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesO8bAkUYg
someone who chooses them,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEtj8oa8p9
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoW2okzswfO
I don’t have siblings,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHabIBZl18e
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytMGfjXZQL
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvaVbnru6V
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckmEV5D7n5
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QJdkg7xS1
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UwNXgQssr
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzSXiKS2hY
but maybe it’s worse.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbWle3l9AV
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOykze65CT
I can’t.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXembmhCpL
Because if I go,49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMsf6DfnUF
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4loEoak1ep
I would support him, and he would support me.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ645Z5GwBRx
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZyyhAaQTo
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7GHeyNdN6
when it was my turn to enter adult life—49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDeys94YjY
I was alone.
