White sheets stained red in a hotel bed255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c5kvOH1mI
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z3pD6Z80i
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2KxA14o6z
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsElQi0BZ00
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9TS3Uufzz
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CwGbDNtGO
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RqbaPUC7M
Vivid visions invading my rest 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqni6Q00u6
I can't sleep because all I see is death255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJxQbxOCeh
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDoqEO3pem
Thinking about death at such an early age255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZv8kjmt5Z
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JeGqI7wfa
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEWNrNaMpR
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXUYf8Zue0
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MBZgDNOMf
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTJkNpboyg
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgpzJMylpN
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKiogepjUG
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5XbWnx6FC
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pKuVRUE2w
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nuOmminY8
Nobody actually cares until you're dead255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoXI9GoEsA
Until you're another headline in the news255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Udfp7308
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ69oOVADTa
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhJkrKw9UG
"I miss you today" 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNY2lihBmYn
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dRZbGIh8V
But they care now, 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y3YI2xiQt
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtVidzYR8J
Mixed signals is all they send255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE76iSc36LT
One day I matter to them 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRQxupllKJ
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohr6rPYVYp
A few months ago, I felt like flying 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u9D5DMBI6
A few months ago, I truly felt alive255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHkEEbsfeq
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9vsPJ3Xsv
It's hard to explain with words,255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVi5nanvvt
How the silence kills 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡma6Nu4vmjs
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamdhzefb7h
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPbivd5RQT
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwadiRkigzM
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq8VYKHBdY
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGKef9enFK
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexyK35WZxP
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlxMZWk43y
The little voice in my head, it screams it255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGFjG2W5GV
"This was their choice"255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkuC40luJd
And to be lonely all the time is mine255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMlXmnuZfB
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypgj4Gmqg6
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTJ0VhBz1D
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgK7TFK0WR3
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupGUMvAGBi
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4toIphFsW
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBEF2AC6ye
I wish somebody would call255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddoYPbuU74
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kqZRibpvz
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhe270dutS
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZ7AJbcExA
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sOidxCSQx
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWJ5YCAUYP
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9smvjsbpCF
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
