White sheets stained red in a hotel bed207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxZnP6mQle
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQZPUCKaZ6
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ134xQhkBbh
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RoqlPkCzD
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoXGw1MwPX
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhrsFZvqbR
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYnETmKTnM
Vivid visions invading my rest 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53QNf9PAjI
I can't sleep because all I see is death207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYrReKz5bC
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQlkOWtQjM
Thinking about death at such an early age207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2Q2jGkMnF
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZv6Y2wazJn
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsh5PCZ6rP
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaj9Asycmr
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF0IsRXgYS
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJJtFaOqps
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxImkexhUb
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoyR4WBhND
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPKzmD6x8S
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35rEBybwOm
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwaG141rjI
Nobody actually cares until you're dead207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uvLWEjrAl
Until you're another headline in the news207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5usdaUrypu
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoAOsxZWqb
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhV6xBeWJD
"I miss you today" 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8ldlJwP0x
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRdHoU0GMJ
But they care now, 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtFfs2VFYR
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjY31mMusZ
Mixed signals is all they send207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBpjbAk81a
One day I matter to them 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdK89MJbNTf
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8MCL7v0pD
A few months ago, I felt like flying 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzETN8BL2QE
A few months ago, I truly felt alive207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqaJSuxbah
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDtHzhFxFd
It's hard to explain with words,207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTmGqSIvyQ
How the silence kills 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKZq780dG2
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59KW2HTrMF
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBIelnYJoF
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAY11sEdbH
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2zd8IoSFR
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbr07XIt2g
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHIFl3cYkz
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenIGhXvf4X
The little voice in my head, it screams it207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5spYpKMQo6
"This was their choice"207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9a62J0QpD
And to be lonely all the time is mine207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPyH0FjCVW
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bJav49AbI
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcPqzOKtmB
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡps2sCZfXQj
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcppqkIvr4
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSIV3mwlD6
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡND63Fi0GTl
I wish somebody would call207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpV9HWmMZE
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjzHHT7cDv
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuE6Y2MTLOV
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7XWYHKP01
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5zGDiVhUJ
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqXJROM14d
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 207Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfrQLXoc4B
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
