White sheets stained red in a hotel bed301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXaedQoM6G
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rN6bsLlkk
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34o5Gq0Kq7
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKf6tJNt7Tz
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UM6KPjLRj
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajTyF2KfPG
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUla6JhWsna
Vivid visions invading my rest 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxaeG35Uvy
I can't sleep because all I see is death301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6I2AiqMxx
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUi92i8IoHd
Thinking about death at such an early age301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0laRQTYRlF
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcSAfV24Nk
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEzKT8qvDy
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtWpRnssX6
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF45Hz9mejv
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyN2hSCTKNf
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTKsvZJ1ra
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeCjmfa2G8
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bkh4m9hzi
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfCopnZ0Jug
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuJCwzTl4u
Nobody actually cares until you're dead301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKx8MpFagC
Until you're another headline in the news301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbH9UtYtpd
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0t6OaqQpUI
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGk2HzVNmj
"I miss you today" 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUVHGqF5tP
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZmZK7uCA4
But they care now, 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaKENTB7uh
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvliWzxnPwb
Mixed signals is all they send301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBONyqOarXh
One day I matter to them 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtHF9TWZJT
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwysA864Nk
A few months ago, I felt like flying 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMerkhX4xBh
A few months ago, I truly felt alive301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9euklVQVX
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzGN5wLC1L
It's hard to explain with words,301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMsAKOZlMw
How the silence kills 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz5g90r4kv
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgP0inHQtxw
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4k4n2M30ro
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHcIFwCBeF
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbLPRGtmbZ
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlM83Wcb8Q
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytWEWRhiZa
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqNziLHZ7F
The little voice in my head, it screams it301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLo6tBJ3pJ
"This was their choice"301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriP6HdQXW9
And to be lonely all the time is mine301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRSoeD1ODR
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡercMXkFlFT
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumYThensnS
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb43swQnUJp
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVMORKIz6d
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQVa6ddzlc
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyjfgiW2Wo
I wish somebody would call301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCkbNzvbbQ
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1b6Kwi8ib
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTWMPJVnPH
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW39eolWvuf
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWqSyDvpkA
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLGen2Eb3n
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 301Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58bSA47oIN
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
