I wish I could understand why I feel this way211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbtA1wnuP4
Why flying doesn't feel the same 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7vT4QSe0X
And the lows don't seem to fade211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6T1J5RJrK
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjS5ur5iJR
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0moD4Dcww
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8k2MZOuWH
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFoPTU9b8e
I'll convert this pain into something that works 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiywWCYipJ
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fsGr0ejwb
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xk9at5RrA
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbo4JUK2qW
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUyHWFIpOq
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHogickJRoW
The breathing turns to drowning 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAF83aV0QT
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGGUWNbZHD
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzdv0dUTpB
But no one welcomes me with open arms211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11mlaqZc0W
Their love is fictitious 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ddg60jgI7
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TsBGVwS3i
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfIKQmXHUY
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxJ3xwU9pr
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt3OkZOD6l
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7I5FM45mW
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvSAeMpYD3
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TyYU61Sqq
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CvGin2ayC
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiR3HGyEy1m
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTME2DJI9t
They get their way, nothing remains the same211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJor5Fa8PU
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwvhhKUSaH
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzOw6vzhZY
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjT6802ITv
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhK3E3U7F2
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6GPusUDeB
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkOnoZNnqp
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEf88jRbdvh
But full of myself and always on time 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAkgueb6vJ
I admit that the crime is mine 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuEbQgLQHV
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLGF7QcTcI
The devil will lose his incentive 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5wh7rI41e
The weak little girl, poisoned 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CnxirwQc2
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVanRSYKE5s
Brick by brick 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM96UWkmkgG
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ600fz2DyeQ
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6ipXz2jmZ
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFDEapT1In
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXo6vAqZom
It's still right there 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMmLqsADfx
The devil on my shoulder
