Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2IE4ijkX6
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYFImVwzbR
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBC2P1Ne2P
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWInWz6f5el
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7apZ9JVgK0
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2FkgNSaM2
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQEOKBGyLy
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVkDkB5LFM
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdOXxQvPpQ
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMPE6ibg9O
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaadJILmd9H
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4Sn3wGNSC
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnclriorFhD
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPH7FshmU3c
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp3tMyyic5
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6xhScQils
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxorMFMKUP
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztSuDb7X9a
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mCWujErYy
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOGHYYiSh5
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkNuYWWVLK
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FBwBxk6gN
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKum0GN7NGR
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWq76DtuYg
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eggzBnMYW
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKA66IgHg5
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZJmTRUNYv
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQT9g1xrGK
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"It won't be painful—"929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5xswE9KNi
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIfznhfwn5
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICsje5a5UG
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN527cAqh4
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd7PbEozhx
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFng8MU1eXj
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGrtAXGYEI
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vOHkEREzP
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUcjPHUnwL
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This is it.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBgCG5xhoi
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF42dGJT4ku
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XhTtDAAVS
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbHRSJjNt0
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYJfgCTVog
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I freeze.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVCrLGyqmS
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Then I breathe.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClC7wxlueg
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9b9PyILdB
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7B8yC6Rim
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3IWMJ5UUt
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA7XBqVIO1
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyF84WOMKc
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Something isn't right.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvZzGmMdEq
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABV7uLni0C
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWv5vUfkOeb
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dPHg4GZzi
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94TcSFaIN1
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZrPzvRiUy
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His lips twitch. 929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypCEmngMRC
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUQQFv3sWS
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmfhmfUd67
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"Okay so what do I have?"929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UNn1NmccE
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."929Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUmgRJqXGW
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