夜色如墨，家家戶戶紛紛點起懸掛於外牆的水漣燈，水漣燈的光如清透水光，明亮了沁涼如水的恬靜夜晚。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vTeoDoakI
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悄然來訪的綿綿細雨，在水面上掀起一波波微小漣漪，雨打荷葉的輕響幽微而空靈，於朦朧的江南煙雨天聽來格外清晰。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqB2X25277e
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這場雨已經連續下了七天七夜，對我們這些水生水長的連方鎮居民而言，可是身心舒暢的好日子，不少鎮民都會待在自家水閣裡賞荷聽雨，怡然自得。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27C5z2oXdI
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「漪洀，許久不見了，快坐下吧。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBFNNzZEkW
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXo7dzlfme
在青門客棧的水閣內烹茶的清漣，姿態端雅地如同被雨水清洗的蓮花，他看見我的到來，便熱情地笑著招呼我。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBSTJTcVUJ
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我默默地頷首致意，坐在他對面的座位上。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4IdQmBPK9
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石桌上的茶水正被炭爐煮得暖熱，飄散出氤氳茶香，與被雨水洗得清透的淡淡蓮香，融混成更加悠遠清洌的芬芳。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVZWnii3ZS
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「來到這了，先喝杯茶暖暖身吧。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0PJWz2tcC
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWnazAdXGF
清漣在我的青竹茶盞裡注入茶水，澄清的碧綠茶湯上浮盪著一枚淡粉蓮瓣，更顯雅致清趣。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQbm1t4nnr
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我沒有理由拒絕，清冽茶水滑入我口中的剎那，喉舌間便凝聚了一股頗具深韻的苦澀，但細嚐到底後，舒展開來的是滲入心脾的清透甘甜。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbVsj2AE3W
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGNtOWiBxl
「你煮的蓮心清露，已經跟清波姨的不相上下了呢。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEdd5a36QJ
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聽見我的感嘆之語，清漣的唇角勾起欣慰卻又些許苦澀的笑，說道：「娘親已經不在了，若我不能煮出來的話，這味道就要失傳了……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmPrL26KBP
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語畢，沉默在我和清漣周遭悄悄蔓延，淅瀝瀝的雨聲在默然中迴響著。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8bdeqfkBd
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三年前，清漣和涓兒成親後，我就搬離了青門客棧，不再當客棧的夥計。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoIK95svXl
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIn2oGSUs7
我選擇在連方鎮偏僻的某處定居，成為舟夫替外來客擺渡以餬口，避免與清漣有過多接觸。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5QOB2gflr
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清漣似乎看出我對他的刻意迴避，他沒有向我深究原因，把心思都放在青門客棧和妻子身上，我和清漣也愈漸疏離。過去十幾年親密無間的情誼，被歲月的匆匆流逝給輕易沖淡。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXwMRHV0sV
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這幾年來，即使無法化解的苦悶於胸口不斷積累沉澱，這樣的距離卻讓我獲得了心靈的寧靜，我可以學著慢慢放下這段情思，讓將來的自己能笑著說，對清漣的這份情愛只是年少輕狂的誤解罷了。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMvIGXIv7T
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRADWRqYMlL
但是今夜，清漣主動邀我到青門客棧品茶敘舊，不尋常的邀約讓我心底湧起強烈的不安，但隱然生出一絲的期盼，卻又讓我前來赴約……473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoOmwWPxgd
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「漪洀，如今你過得好嗎？舟夫的工作應該很操勞吧。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXe61wARXR
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRWN1GeMvQ
清漣首先打破靜默，而我則輕啜一口茶，淡淡地道：「還好，工作再辛勞，習慣了便沒什麼，反正日子總得過下去……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwiawpDTWk7
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雖然這些年不是沒跟清漣見過面，但像這樣坐下來好好說話卻是少見，我偷偷覷看清漣幾眼，他的眉眼已擺脫年少時期的青澀稚嫩，多了幾分成熟穩重的韻味，舉手投足間展現內在本質的清俊秀雅，讓我的目光依依不捨地在他身上流連徘徊。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtvqg0F4dM
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1Ds6lUOKW
此時我才驚覺，我對清漣的情意不但沒有消退，反而蘊積得更加深重，在看見他時一股腦傾瀉而出。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCJJQdZMJd
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvkVsNIY6x
難以抑止的情思滿漲於胸口，這般糾纏著我的冤孽魔障，如同無底泥沼，終究令我陷溺而向下沉淪，此生無法脫離了嗎……？473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO3UXLXVPN
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縱使內心是千頭萬緒的洶湧澎湃，我卻將其壓抑在平靜淡漠的表情之下，不讓清漣察覺到我的糾結心思。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6mbtnF2Y4
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6zuwwJ3Ld
「是嗎，你覺得好就好了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTak549nJPM
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XtBxZnXdE
對於我故作淡漠的回應，清漣露出釋懷似的神情，將目光投向水閣外的雨幕濛濛。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbdwwi9irB
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「以前你剛來這的時候，還老是懊惱自己學不會渡舟，但過沒多久，你的渡舟仙法就使得比我還行了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ySY1i0IHw
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHtC8yziHh
「那時你總是晃悠悠地渡著蓮舟，而我就坐在你的蓮舟上頭，天南地北地說著各種故事軼聞，一同行遍連方鎮裡的每條水路。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaKTtq2u3z
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「然後等到天完全黑了，我們就點著水漣燈回家，回到家後娘親都會叨唸我們一番，卻又已經煮好了夜宵給我們，就怕我們餓著了……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWN4nb9SOOl
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgSw1JlJjf
清漣低啞的聲音滿溢懷思，宛若悠悠流水，溯回遙遠歲月的彼岸473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH0WZSG2KT
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「那些，已是好久好久以前的往事了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbOJPqeD39
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpAN5swynf
我淡然地提醒清漣，那段無憂無慮的日子，是我們已然回不去的往昔。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp4czNsCN1
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「是啊，你說得對。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIVeHgwMSD
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清漣從我的話裡明白了，他的心緒從記憶彼端回到當下，那一雙清明澈亮的瞳眸正對著我。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BbxvbmWmm
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那一刻，一道細微漣漪，在我死寂已久的心湖悄悄擴大。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ800hN5CJbD
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgH5a0AFYIc
「漪洀，我有件事想拜託你。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8qGvzAlQa
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnZOOYxAjb
「什麼事，先說吧。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0yFq2ilgc
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXyFfjZNEX
我沒有直接答應清漣，因為清漣的態度誠懇而嚴肅，卻隱然透著一股訣別的堅決，讓我心裡生出一絲憂慮。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJgUdMqNkr
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FXOuD28n7
「我想拜託你，在我離開這裡之後，替我照顧涓兒。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8vcmnMoym
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWkI8bnwu7
如同一道猛雷直劈我的腦袋，我愣了半晌說不出話。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARBItA0YtQ
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPQEKHROLn
過了許久，我發出近乎嘶啞的聲音：「你要去哪裡？你找我來，就只是為了說這個嗎？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhNuNwJLtF
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNCIVZIK65
「漪洀，你現在還不知道吧，我們黃朝與西方異族的戰爭，已經蔓延到武陵山南方來了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiq1jSBflnS
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O3O5g9GF3
「這是前幾日投宿在我們客棧的京城商人帶來的消息，據說前方戰事吃緊，黃朝軍節節敗退，死傷慘重。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRv6H5M0Lo
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtiwcyYCr8
清廉語重心長地說道，神情無比凝重，我已經隱約察覺到這番話背後所代表的含意……473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zl0U9UgCx
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YzsIcZd4G
「再過不久，朝廷就要徵召新的兵源了，之前我們連方鎮因地處偏遠，所以沒有受到徵召，但我想這次徵兵令就會來到我們這了。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJu2mzF9wWY
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEi3WrEu1B
「連方鎮裡所有入籍的男丁應該會被徵召入伍，但漪洀你不同，你是從外地來的孤兒，籍冊上不會有你的名字，你也不會被徵召。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaC0xMHfal
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Tu4bLKVod
「所以我想拜託你，在我入伍後替我照顧涓兒，現在涓兒有了身孕，留下她一人在這，我始終放心不下啊。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTqPtsCj1i
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNGdg6gFhV
「這是我對你，最後的請求……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqTHb39Xc1
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清漣極為哀戚地低聲懇求，坦露出最真實的軟弱及無奈。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYXNLsSbXK
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我默默的聽他說完，然後面無表情地冷然道：「你以為我會像以前那般，答應你的任何要求嗎？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBWdn3BEbG
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清漣在那一瞬面露愕然，料想不到我會這般斬釘截鐵地拒絕他。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0otSP9Bnw
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG12MrAT7IY
「我知道我對你有所虧欠，但你忍心涓兒受苦嗎？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg916jKjfEU
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfJu3YoFvl
「這話什麼意思？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNrCJikQGR
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5UnlDXxRKx
我感到不太對勁，風雨欲來山滿樓的強烈不安充塞我的內心。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uavIM4J0u
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CXPBbQAHk
「我明白的，漪洀，其實你對涓兒，是有情的吧……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sZFPeucpC
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2izPsQrZt
伴隨這句話朝我襲來的洶湧激流，將我整個人徹底吞沒。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBPOZByfkN
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44qcNYPJ2Q
雖然清漣滿載哀愁的清俊面龐在我眼底無比清晰，但我的心裡卻是昏黑一片，無法多作思慮，只能用嘶啞低沉的聲音，從乾澀得發緊的喉間擠出沉重的疑問：「你為什麼……會如此想？」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbfj7owCnC
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWF6oOAWpX2
「其實很久以前，我就害怕涓兒會對你萌生情意，所以才會想先對涓兒表明心意。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJrRBJ1NXE
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhD2O9UXNF4
「但自從我和涓兒在一起後，你整個人就變得不太舒坦，抑鬱寡歡，像是不想看到我和涓兒走得太近。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj00wuHfPBW
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmq8eOj65Q7
「所以我就察覺到你對涓兒有情，但我卻選擇忽略你的感受，因為我是真心喜歡涓兒。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8o3m42P9l
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq6TWeebDT
「然而你卻因為顧慮我，一直隱忍下來，甚至在我和涓兒成親後，獨自搬離客棧。這一切都是我逼你的……我對不起你……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXRVxpT5x5
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKLC1gW8m4
清漣鏗鏘有力的音調，把他深藏多年的心聲說得真真切切，他的一字一句都在緊掐著我的心房。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QaoA9wJfv
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreen48oRhS
我的劇烈心跳是無聲的吶喊，我想叫清漣不要再說了，卻發現自己發不出一點聲音。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLYkR043rn
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ldBmiqvZ4
「你這一生都不會原諒我也沒關係，但如果你還對涓兒有一絲憐惜，在我走後，就請你替我……」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLazQ7TeOg
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJTZHtZ0oP
「不，清漣，你始終什麼都不明白。」473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dzeXswJds
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP82Ju7dtW
我冷冷吐出的這句話像猛然丟進水裡的小石子，在深靜清幽的雨夜，在清漣的雙眸中，掀起困惑驚疑的重重波紋。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTGBLPFUrv
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pXtfnpuof
我近乎偏執地凝視那滄桑俊雅的面容，一股油然而生的衝動，令我想對他宣洩蘊藏多年的深深情思，義無反顧地投身進那雙清澈如水的眼眸中，即使會就此溺斃也無所謂……473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEGllvde8N
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但，一切都只是空想。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2Mv2jQfTR
473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AQgHefzzk
我逕自起身踏出青門客棧的大門，將那杯還留有餘溫的蓮心清露，清漣的聲聲挽留，盡數拋在身後，只留下空寂的淅淅雨聲以及最後無言的道別。473Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVhXzTCcPE
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