Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtuctPJ6Q4
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfddiALge8C
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2MzQvXBfo
It's been four months since that day.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UGy92ClOy
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLB0ecFvEA
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZukuveUBi
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIBJH1nVMX
Only loneliness.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ehL3ENlk1
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKMbnUoJ23
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaO5kogrMW5
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLL5CqDpqbF
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebiwfm6Mjp
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZF5LFvdpz
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvR1XqKW6HK
They remind me of home. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw5Bxoexs0
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBCbXyzoJB
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYt0FUAc4M
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QGTINRbRY
I don't want to be here. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVvP954jpm
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDhf3gZMkc
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA0B9Q0zaq
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UqRinMdfg
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGSvQhaRuy
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSzM981el7
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYb9T0tVQD
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvltRZ5elGN
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwkvsFQRrR
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqHyDFLPrC
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1QztnC3EP
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwX5mF4aFj
I want it to make sense.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6FOr7o6mp
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUZ8MnFU4O
The PaperGarden.749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzETl4EOskS
To be Continued...749Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RGDd4MQaJ
