——你好,我想買這套電影明天場次的票。對,想要這時間跟……這兩個位置,麻煩你。478Please respect copyright.PENANAYz9Yrevbj5
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自己還需要準備些什麼呢? 現在女性都喜歡對方為自己做什麼呢?478Please respect copyright.PENANAO2U4oBx3Cs
478Please respect copyright.PENANAvbpjdOZpjZ
他年紀上雖說已開始步入中年,可是外貌看起來仍然像只是三十出頭的男士。許俊赫手拿著因機器印刷而帶微溫的戲票,對明天的約會充滿期待﹔因為那位不容易靠近,亦不容許他人走到心裡的金秀亞,昨天答覆自己可以跟他明天來場約會。478Please respect copyright.PENANA14U7JNAFoJ
478Please respect copyright.PENANAdpPm9f2T6I
俊赫小心放戲票收進了錢包裡,同時在思索自己還能做些什麼,不令對方覺得自己無趣。因為他真的好些年沒約會了,已經不太清楚時下異性都在關注什麼。478Please respect copyright.PENANAb7L1WNk2bM
478Please respect copyright.PENANAIlT34SsUCG
該買花嗎? 不……她就算收下的那刻很喜歡,大概之後就會覺得處理它很麻煩吧?478Please respect copyright.PENANAVOrBW1sMGA
478Please respect copyright.PENANAXW0Tmz4PLl
他回去的路上,每經過一家店就在想裡頭會有適合她的東西嗎?478Please respect copyright.PENANAXAu6Q1aKKg
478Please respect copyright.PENANACcvZRreufq
最後他走進了一家時裝店,買了一條可以配搭任何服飾的絲巾。478Please respect copyright.PENANAOx4NiRJVPr
478Please respect copyright.PENANAmcQbxkFkKc
我得想辦法,親手把它戴在她的脖子上——478Please respect copyright.PENANA7Z7lREUKz0
478Please respect copyright.PENANAjvntLUls3G
那應該會是件很浪漫的事吧?478Please respect copyright.PENANA2DBktHijBD
478Please respect copyright.PENANAlCv9musx66
「光是想像都令人覺得很不好意思。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAUGjfGLeHWr
478Please respect copyright.PENANAfvBzlzwf4I
俊赫愉快揪著裝絲巾的紙袋回到所住的公寓,卻看到有些傢俱被搬運工人暫時放在大堂,準備運走:「嗯? 有新住戶搬進來嗎?」他細聲地對自己如此說,可是他很快就注意到那些傢俱,自己見過,就在秀亞的家裡。478Please respect copyright.PENANAxrAJMsvQIh
478Please respect copyright.PENANAMjJJdqrLLb
這意味什麼,俊赫很清楚:「怎麼會……」478Please respect copyright.PENANAL3329zkr3X
478Please respect copyright.PENANAxVAQk4oSng
對啊,怎麼會呢? 她答應了明天會跟自己約會的啊?478Please respect copyright.PENANAC6ohq0ItUh
478Please respect copyright.PENANAEg38Q6AAZf
他愕然跟那些搬運工人乘升降機,工人沾滿牆壁石粉的手指按下了「6」。478Please respect copyright.PENANAXpfXZ1tkN1
478Please respect copyright.PENANAPD5Xk4FVVp
那是秀亞所住的樓層。俊赫慌忙眨動著眼睛,他的心跳隨著工人按下那按鈕漏了一拍。478Please respect copyright.PENANAQg2PtpR7KD
478Please respect copyright.PENANASdWejhshV8
當升降機門打開,他跟隨著搬運工人們來到熟悉的走廊。478Please respect copyright.PENANAiBY1Y5i0tb
478Please respect copyright.PENANA8u4FbtVg2o
眼前的事實,直接讓他心碎。478Please respect copyright.PENANAvFiaYUqeUM
478Please respect copyright.PENANAU63TzFvX2t
「俊赫,你又上來找那位小姐嗎?」認識的鄰居看到他如此問。478Please respect copyright.PENANAuk3mWl9HwY
478Please respect copyright.PENANAsoDw2V1M8t
「嗯……哦。她說漏了東西在這裡,讓我過來幫她收起,晚點交給她。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAXlbhXa07JJ
478Please respect copyright.PENANAce1yEucJin
「關係真好呢?」478Please respect copyright.PENANA3REIpWq7uN
478Please respect copyright.PENANArgmrtVtKTf
他笑了笑,想盡辦法給自己開脫:「說起來我忘檢查信箱了。我跟你一起下去吧?」478Please respect copyright.PENANAYTk3nSW8Zk
478Please respect copyright.PENANAGNqnLJGRJT
不知什麼時候開始,這公寓的信箱就成了二人的定情之處。478Please respect copyright.PENANAzFsTMs0hkT
478Please respect copyright.PENANAfouR5V2gt9
那空間小小的信箱,是他們無法見面時所用的溝通渠道﹔秀亞離開了,而俊赫的信箱裡不存在她寫給他的字條:「怎麼會……這樣子呢?」他顫抖的手輕輕關上信箱,人閉上雙眼,努力讓自己因心痛而冒起的眼淚返回它原來的地方。478Please respect copyright.PENANA98euGZnlYu
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『這樣看來,能得到金秀亞關注的我,還真的是三生有幸啊?』478Please respect copyright.PENANAKTvObM9oVb
478Please respect copyright.PENANAbhfRezZbSz
『這些隨便你怎麼想吧? 我不容易跟人們建立關係,也刻意跟他們保持距離,那是因為……我隨時都會離開他們的生活。因此沒有必要建立太多的情感。』478Please respect copyright.PENANASTabAnMers
478Please respect copyright.PENANAuXqmwXRZZl
『你這番話,我聽不懂呢?』478Please respect copyright.PENANAz7mZujSGCe
478Please respect copyright.PENANA7NXkANDzEk
『許俊赫,你早晚會懂的。』478Please respect copyright.PENANAfYQaWfdcNW
478Please respect copyright.PENANAaYEYMDmVX8
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是的,俊赫知道秀亞早晚會在他的生活中消失。為了他的安全,她必須離開。478Please respect copyright.PENANAKyGvElQFej
478Please respect copyright.PENANArju8iiuKDe
回到家卸下西裝外套,攤坐在門後的他無聲飲泣。478Please respect copyright.PENANAi08WKwPDVI
478Please respect copyright.PENANArtzTEVPQPU
是因為自己之前替她擋刀子的傷口在痛嗎?478Please respect copyright.PENANAgQAFgtSBex
478Please respect copyright.PENANAz162NWWdQJ
是因為知道她明天不會應約,而心裡難受嗎?478Please respect copyright.PENANA1eC8W7gg2Z
478Please respect copyright.PENANAzpKthNpuse
還是純粹,她能看見自己,自己卻無法找到她而痛苦呢——478Please respect copyright.PENANAV1dVnZX7iD
478Please respect copyright.PENANALPGmsyXGzt
俊赫抬頭看著自己冷清的房子,手拿起被他放在一旁的絲巾袋子啜泣起來。478Please respect copyright.PENANA2r9JyySlT6
478Please respect copyright.PENANAOAb8FtRB4C
「我真的,很想替你戴上的啊。」478Please respect copyright.PENANABYPvHbobyL
478Please respect copyright.PENANAopR6WvdTNH
戰勝不了悲傷的夜478Please respect copyright.PENANAP7Jge4q8Vw
又撐過睡不著的夜晚478Please respect copyright.PENANAiMM4M6sL91
與我的絕望無關478Please respect copyright.PENANAKKBNEj7yhm
早晨又無心把我叫醒478Please respect copyright.PENANA4QZ5MrBZyf
478Please respect copyright.PENANAukQrEhO7b2
「先生,需要我為您帶位嗎?」478Please respect copyright.PENANArcXU4rMqy6
478Please respect copyright.PENANA87mgdmoU8v
「謝謝你。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAI2Z89IPZFI
478Please respect copyright.PENANAoFDIhA03Xz
俊赫坐進買好的影院座位。478Please respect copyright.PENANAWL1RDoS78D
478Please respect copyright.PENANAhuJ49brVzD
他別頭看了一眼自己身旁無人的位置,再把目光投在螢幕上。478Please respect copyright.PENANA2BBF7lm9cP
478Please respect copyright.PENANAgFnVYw2dx1
傷口比想像中的灼痛478Please respect copyright.PENANAoyByG9WNbx
痛苦比想像中更深478Please respect copyright.PENANAs0nbUaSq6u
無數個埋怨你的晚上478Please respect copyright.PENANADieVACuINV
就像地獄478Please respect copyright.PENANA0bM1VMhkRJ
478Please respect copyright.PENANACdBBJOefxn
「俊赫,你來了啊!」478Please respect copyright.PENANAPRkgb047EV
478Please respect copyright.PENANA7wNB6eeCrl
「對。大嬸,給我一份五花肉跟泡菜。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAYSFiMO42ZT
478Please respect copyright.PENANAA6IE4nex2y
「一份就夠了嗎? 你現在應該不用一個人吃飯了不是嗎?」478Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8rLZKuPxq
478Please respect copyright.PENANAiWH4IFCHqV
他笑著搖頭:「才沒這回事,給我各來一份就好。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAKWTpQcVs8y
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「好。」
478Please respect copyright.PENANAffhrDvVzXy
請留在我身邊478Please respect copyright.PENANATupJvF10ZC
請停留在我的身邊478Please respect copyright.PENANA4jP5ZDmc98
請不要放開抓著你手的我
478Please respect copyright.PENANA3YFMR3Llrn
他待在店裡等待大嬸替自己準備外賣的時候,隱約覺得有人在哪裡凝視著他。俊赫探頭望向店外的街道,街上只有忙著回家休息的路人,並不存在自己期盼的她那身影。478Please respect copyright.PENANAo0KRI5tY3f
478Please respect copyright.PENANA1i5lwK1CLh
俊赫為自己愚昧的盼望感到可笑。478Please respect copyright.PENANAvrcezvW7io
478Please respect copyright.PENANAMxmPYc9GVz
「哎,原來你在這裡啊?」他蹲下來跟店家養的柴犬玩起來。478Please respect copyright.PENANAQrnlqgsiPe
478Please respect copyright.PENANAIevwrbF58h
要是你走遠了一步478Please respect copyright.PENANAWM5ubmk50Z
我向你走一步478Please respect copyright.PENANA4K1NkJo67Y
那不就行了嗎478Please respect copyright.PENANAB8MWpAq8HE
478Please respect copyright.PENANAnJOdlmcWYg
你是漂亮的人……478Please respect copyright.PENANAcDbuh5eySk
你是漂亮的人478Please respect copyright.PENANAcWeaZHMJ3P
拜託不要對我這樣478Please respect copyright.PENANAMkwOOizODF
你很了解我不是嗎?478Please respect copyright.PENANAOkDFlav4ii
478Please respect copyright.PENANAayNkIS17Nz
「請問是許俊赫先生嗎?」478Please respect copyright.PENANAZAkaf2yFeB
478Please respect copyright.PENANA6lz4RoULbU
「嗯,我是。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAVXXuisvIZw
478Please respect copyright.PENANAwRc1AR2yy7
「這裡是您的快遞,請簽收。」478Please respect copyright.PENANAA9cmbtbMNU
478Please respect copyright.PENANAtQQolqg89n
他沒有印象自己有在網上購買了什麼東西。儘管如此,俊赫還是簽收了。478Please respect copyright.PENANAdhs8As5b49
478Please respect copyright.PENANAFLeCHRk9eo
他打開包裹,裡面放著一雙合他碼數的皮鞋,跟一盒過往俊赫有買過給她喝的流行養生品﹔除了這些,裡頭還有一張有她字跡的便利貼。478Please respect copyright.PENANAc68uLuTH1v
478Please respect copyright.PENANAwUe8INoNJX
上面寫著︰俊赫,要好好照顧自己,別讓自己太勞累了。秀亞478Please respect copyright.PENANAOQrEW0QbiW
478Please respect copyright.PENANAHKEe8Z2jlx
他望向自己放在玄關處的那雙舊皮鞋,哭笑不得地把新鞋從包裹的紙箱拿出來,把自己那雙舊皮鞋塞進去,打算第二天出門上班的時候處理掉它:「真是。」俊赫環視自己的客廳,無奈對著空氣嘆了口氣。478Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8gzKgErGY
478Please respect copyright.PENANAw9cDRHLgLI
我現在過得怎麼樣,你都知道。478Please respect copyright.PENANAK8wsGeU7zQ
478Please respect copyright.PENANAVId1GRRIqa
但我卻沒有辦法知道你現在過得如何。478Please respect copyright.PENANAsbGcffmGEn
478Please respect copyright.PENANAbjIe2oK6KK
這樣會不會太卑鄙了? 你不是也知道現在最令我感到疲憊的是什麼嗎?478Please respect copyright.PENANAh2ZqU7CD8q
478Please respect copyright.PENANAeVEJMwO5vo
俊赫打開冰箱,拿出一罐啤酒灌了起來。478Please respect copyright.PENANAm10RmLDZ2u
478Please respect copyright.PENANA0CctHDzWYc
酒力本來就不佳的他,喝下兩三罐啤酒後,在情感的薰陶下意識開始模糊。478Please respect copyright.PENANAfCVuYSrtYe
478Please respect copyright.PENANAHVVd2DFCJM
我對自己沒有自信478Please respect copyright.PENANAC5gaGfFNsD
沒有自信能熬過沒有你的一天478Please respect copyright.PENANAxtIYm6t10F
現在不知該要怎麼做478Please respect copyright.PENANATEdiAoYfoA
失去你的我478Please respect copyright.PENANA2Qy4woHKXa
478Please respect copyright.PENANAhDmamdcpVG
就這樣抱抱我吧478Please respect copyright.PENANAkhzhzfomV3
請擁抱我吧478Please respect copyright.PENANAgcdVKDfVHj
什麼話也不要說奔向我吧478Please respect copyright.PENANAnaJUzPGoCZ
孤獨且不安的心478Please respect copyright.PENANAQ02iBJxKqW
正在如此等待著你478Please respect copyright.PENANA4X5TgFbV6x
478Please respect copyright.PENANA4M9jm8LQHL
他人躺在沙發上,因為酒精的影響而睡得很熟,完全沒有注意到自己家的門,被某個人打開。俊赫一直等待著的那個人,那個她輕輕關上他的家門,也悄悄來到他的身旁。478Please respect copyright.PENANAPKvayrRBZq
478Please respect copyright.PENANAGO8hAEDp8u
這個男人不怎能喝酒,她是知道的。478Please respect copyright.PENANATJlBp0tZOU
478Please respect copyright.PENANAnE5r60kMtR
她更知道,這一晚他是為了什麼想要喝醉。秀亞輕柔撥開遮掩著他臉的頭髮,觀望著這個讓自己無法忽視,遺忘的男人那張睡臉:「那個時候我有鐵下心,不跟你有任何接觸,你就不會那麼累了吧?」478Please respect copyright.PENANAErTNmpzNMV
478Please respect copyright.PENANAtjX1PbNm24
可是我卻自私,無法自拔想去擁有你——478Please respect copyright.PENANAUccKavZO2V
478Please respect copyright.PENANAGmRacylxmu
秀亞從自己的口袋裡拿出為他準備的手帶,小心翼翼把它戴到俊赫的手上。478Please respect copyright.PENANA0qHbVKJQBa
478Please respect copyright.PENANAJX9d4qSk9B
在這個時候俊赫的手抓住她,用帶著濃濃睡意的語調說:「不要走……」478Please respect copyright.PENANA3M9i7mMRlx
478Please respect copyright.PENANAy7BkrTCPZ7
請留在我身邊478Please respect copyright.PENANAsB0I4VorJC
請停留在我的身邊478Please respect copyright.PENANApMloyje3YV
請不要放開抓著你手的我
478Please respect copyright.PENANAGtr72tpa3m
478Please respect copyright.PENANAMowBM3hEyy
可是,她只能離開。478Please respect copyright.PENANAi7PeHfgMMu
478Please respect copyright.PENANA8MjmQhDgVQ
她沒有辦法看著這個男人,再因為自己再陷入危險之中﹔他為身邊的人犧牲太多了。478Please respect copyright.PENANAi3m1cxJAcC
478Please respect copyright.PENANAaRDuTVYHle
秀亞握住他的手,輕輕吻向他的額頭。478Please respect copyright.PENANA4gadpM3wJL
478Please respect copyright.PENANA2gAcGtOLKe
不管他能不能感受到這吻,這是她今晚可以為俊赫留下的唯一慰藉。
478Please respect copyright.PENANACaKMvSJ7GH
478Please respect copyright.PENANAawmxEPtDPz
要是你走遠了一步478Please respect copyright.PENANA8Q0plsPY9n
我向你走一步478Please respect copyright.PENANANaEhWQcm6w
不就行了嗎
478Please respect copyright.PENANAQvIoIFVR57
嗯——478Please respect copyright.PENANADhHeZvzowB
478Please respect copyright.PENANAbRgzgmliUS
俊赫睜開眼,習慣性地伸完懶腰隨性撥弄自己的頭髮,然後他注意到自己的手上多了隻手帶,而他從來沒見過的:「怎麼……」當他望向自己家裡那飯桌上,放著之前為秀亞買的絲巾﹔只是這絲巾並沒有照他記憶中那樣,裝在店家給的小紙袋,被他收在客廳那電視機下方的櫃子裡,就這樣四四方方摺好,擺在桌子上頭。
478Please respect copyright.PENANAJlaORGpl1k
我愛你——478Please respect copyright.PENANAvwUvGrvcJF
478Please respect copyright.PENANAxr2c6iqTzd
它的旁邊,放著她為自己留下的便條紙。478Please respect copyright.PENANA3rAlPOXtsV
478Please respect copyright.PENANAN1wzjX9zBj
真的很愛你——
478Please respect copyright.PENANA5T18BSb7TA
謝謝你為我挑的這款絲巾。478Please respect copyright.PENANA4cXrRdj5s8
我很喜歡,但是我決定不帶它走。478Please respect copyright.PENANAEWqy1aIOj8
我知道這樣會令你很難受,我仍然想請求你等待。478Please respect copyright.PENANAm1wYo6nfw7
等待我可以無慮來到你身邊,讓你為我繫上它的那天。478Please respect copyright.PENANAWe5Hdf06pf
秀亞478Please respect copyright.PENANAKcqHdJr22j
478Please respect copyright.PENANAiiOUpJj7tZ
俊赫站在桌邊靜靜讀完她的便條紙。478Please respect copyright.PENANAuD6tAvQBT3
478Please respect copyright.PENANApRprPNrbmx
他沒能發出聲音,亦未知自己該做出什麼反應。
478Please respect copyright.PENANAY5ZP3mETJ4
478Please respect copyright.PENANA6DaLiSFOag
在漫長的沉默中478Please respect copyright.PENANA36qHwKVZF2
我會大聲呼喊478Please respect copyright.PENANATZUCxRwGzm
478Please respect copyright.PENANAAgzc24qHHh
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他只能默默站在那裡,撫摸自己手腕上的手帶,並把它按壓在自己的胸口上。478Please respect copyright.PENANAYNBjs3qhHq
478Please respect copyright.PENANA3TJLI3wbDf
478Please respect copyright.PENANAfQOvNQWVQt
將我愚蠢又懦弱的心——
作者外音:478Please respect copyright.PENANALcE31BLhjY
其實短篇是我為《不能愛你嗎》準備的橋段,在構思的時候剛好發現被我當成男主藍本的演員,有在自己舉辦的活動裡演唱這首歌,而且唱得……很動人。478Please respect copyright.PENANAdMWkDlcAvl
(角色許俊赫的藍本是韓國演員金南佶,他活動當天翻唱了該歌手的這首歌。)
(原唱則是如題目那裡寫的一樣,是韓國歌手鄭俊日的《擁抱我(抱抱我)》。)
478Please respect copyright.PENANAHaZwLraMw8
我聽完金南佶唱的版本後,就打算會引用那首歌去寫故事的情節,然後自己有印象前陣子看到PENANA的這創挑,沒忍住就「跳步」編寫了這文。478Please respect copyright.PENANAYND0cnGOtk
就像是用來練手還是實驗,看看這樣文字演譯它行不行。478Please respect copyright.PENANAyXslAgqpML
以原文的進度來看……有可能是十二、三章後才會發生的情節(暫時未知,有可能更後)。478Please respect copyright.PENANAEg0xY4PKf2
所以嚴格來說我該用「《不能愛你嗎》-〈心裡的她〉」來定它名字。478Please respect copyright.PENANAN8rF0LSV9b
不過我很肯定當自己真的編寫到那個位置時,這邊的情節會保留,例如對白之類的,可是呈現的方式會不一樣,因為正文編寫的風格不是這樣的。(至少不完全是這樣。)478Please respect copyright.PENANAFPnivGT4Fb
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自己沒打算說把整個歌詞放在文章的尾,而是插入在文字當中。(所以不重覆安在文章後面了。)478Please respect copyright.PENANAMP1SK80mKe
得說為了達到故事效果,其實有部分歌詞的位置不是正確的,更省了一些詞段。478Please respect copyright.PENANAXMjm4VFIM8
所以有興趣了解整首歌的朋友,可以GOOGLE大神查找一下。478Please respect copyright.PENANAHMFNtqkvmI
個人參考的是這個網址:478Please respect copyright.PENANAVxkQ3CxPqZ
https://jameumak.wordpress.com/2016/07/02/%EC%95%88%EC%95%84%EC%A4%98-%EC%A0%95%EC%A4%80%EC%9D%BC/478Please respect copyright.PENANAwZzNbFeyvb
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自己很想自行替這首歌進行個人翻譯,很可惜我沒有學韓語。478Please respect copyright.PENANAJczpVDdYHA
唯一能看出的是歌名應該不是「抱抱我」而是「擁抱我」。478Please respect copyright.PENANAWOXoUHh0VY
(為了確認我也問了下在學韓語的友人。)478Please respect copyright.PENANAPtrfNQsJ9F
可是GOOGLE查到大多都那麼叫呢……478Please respect copyright.PENANAioFUrwQpy3
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我沒怎樣為自己的故事做宣傳。478Please respect copyright.PENANAYFZHYOwvLi
如果說這篇短文有意外令讀完它的人,好奇當中的許俊赫跟金秀亞兩個角色是怎相識,跟相戀,再相隔的話……歡迎去看本篇去了解它。478Please respect copyright.PENANAnsKh1uGPC5〔本來我該去忙著敲完正文「記憶(七) 愛的開關」,誰知道就打了這玩意……〕
怎說也好,打得挺長。478Please respect copyright.PENANAXqSOqo5i03
但願沒插傷各位眼睛。