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Some of my colleagues 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkwPscPZYj
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LEIDNH4vA
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAzxOZl3KL
suggestion or hypnosis.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iHWR3SEZz
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4lQ4v9rM9
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNzUhzH2je
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvZi5ywFkM
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbKzaQlzQl
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8pkFWUivr
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsASCgaBtCB
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBId2Qjj7Xr
capabilities.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3hSDvHQq7
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsbqQv6RY0
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David awakened. Not 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCADJPYcLJT
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqIHsPx49R
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLDYqF9q7I
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhuwwimlh9
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKsD2dmjhS
undamaged.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6StSmskK4N
"Only your physical body592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGvXMf5rEC
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewuWQ0vsPi
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrX3rl49Ey
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoPMC3Zg2n
A shadowy form appeared.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSe7EnhwSke
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGJWWsL5bN
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Yp5cgLmFZ
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMtowTdOZw
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGuZyBUuE6
"Am I in the...ether 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1jM3nUis0
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfGb6Nzm62
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YkRZNcHUT
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa1UqoYbfN
David was tired, too 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSS7LrWvYd
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2fupwhRWX
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkxCCUjf2g
The shadowy hood cocked 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4N1IG4NLu
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtJBGAchmV
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d3AsQjETs
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0qPceTOq6
more grateful."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HmXCwwBkF
"I..."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fNC2kL3Mt
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Md2rUH6k8
David groaned in 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyojw4BqEX1
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mQtkr30Zx
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0bTFhL3fL
falling point, that'd be fly."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EBA2xKSzJ
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo69sDlnOKU
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAphJTzfADO
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDnwaQl0Um
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0AZHyPWTM
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcNlLxPVIv
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy0mhGEoge
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2o2ciJhRR
David shouted and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YuZXKBdA4
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6jH0ZmVwV
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQioYMCFuaS
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVA5O2CbG4u
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR9M5D02AQ
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy18avXTFE
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI14JJ3yrZE
mist.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lzdFQGrZU
Jester's voice came from592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuG7SIy0RA
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNmccyG14I
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8QL3nYlYe
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbx4hFBLCf
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoVgThPLkW
creating a circle around Jester and David.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFkfzqdjM8
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNyLRJ9Kx5
"Shut up!" David 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupDmmb8e0E
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1KJInnY9J
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtubxQ9XhJ
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m7Fe3jQPw
Jester gave another 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IunoHSqPJ
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDINuUtCUk
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0v2dumKjc1
afraid of the truth?" 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfipFWLsBB
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6RzKYr0xY
"You're what? A 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyjQnsxIdx
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPkYgcU6Kx
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNC94WQjMIO
you've done not matter." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXzfb4JZBZ
The shadows completely 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvq7Vn333v
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFgJQHh77i
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yI4BBwrli
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XbUCI9GDL
eye and shadows swallowed him.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetgJiQHJKo
Shadows parting, David 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1cdoSmj0K
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBEMXsdOS9
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57FQPdhQVV
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNyX5aD2as
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCt3lOYdbv
mother592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnvqT3ezME
"This is my memory." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz8qqDvKaV
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsejGPGaPhD
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDnRU3Y2y1
David didn't reply to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrfvs2AKks
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZKImfXM7y
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJFe5ma4y5
Unaware of what was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8Xi2oKmOG
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTHd8mPd4k
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIamvknNwh
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VQYLNAIop
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSl9xjTIWq
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OVmO2T8sD
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct5O2IKAw1
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1KbYPVwDE
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhcm9wKRyD
Finally the screams of 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cIILlml6a
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOb4Neblyp
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWIGKWMSud
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlrjfLPOSZ
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwLDYroV4z
the baby's throat and squeezed.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qWJ9XQ7oo
David could feel his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQXdRXDfm5
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk42uoWLUEe
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGrlxn5sYC
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTNOEGGfwt
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDG8QhjLYh
stopped.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wIXgsj43b
"Oh, nonononono." The 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI1KxBA6Y5
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVPMpB68eh
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUMvJD5b2t
"You who were supposed 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVpqyLR46P
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuG0yD5D0E
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF2uVhqpOk
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqlVsiIHTi
Coughing David stood up 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgn4msyPsX0
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4WK2fJDTv
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIv7avf07oA
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWJu54lSru
"No, it was a small 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzcjUClsak
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oYsCrQoYi
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKssmEnJFM
He was staring at the 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8sz45sfto
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyDkrsoy93
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONYxEBanAM
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvUMJ8mB1k
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2Pw72fRgh
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPRppebUAU
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrm32walRKH
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGobemEQDl
"I will!" Came a squeaky592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0SDEb0JP0
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmLaZlR5RP
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSlk9TKU31
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnjVWrtm57
was an adult.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5LwewZ1lz
A knock came from a door592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwWp6U3Ak1
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQKIcRn14W
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8njpJpqjO0
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPPQUNTM2f
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLEu2iL71x
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2azZlFQ93O
being a bad boy.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwt7XULGDM
That's why he didn't 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38kpwIzWeh
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOeT0BF6Iq
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGrFVrEMmi
"D..david" the answer 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6LjIil0WV
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjkUPR1mdV
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVDfaQyrPz
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFPuugN3HH
The man put his hands on592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLjnf2lOLe
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiLh8ElTVI
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTMsaNa29A
David meekly shook his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxK9iRNYTe
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJWDpYwJA9
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGEnJabhbL
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGBNe1F5FR
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYreguXNFCM
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTK9DKcIvX
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrmnMCh7CK
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtODFSpmqr
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga4dlLvR98
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5aKcR1qAz
Davids body.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNNSE1Zs3D
Please don't. Came adult David's voice592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4zet9IpNc
Young David was scared; 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr5xpTzzoY
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dwWc6oqay
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcfAfz1sxm
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxT22lIhUW
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyz6eUQlqUk
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qxcKOx236
"Mummy, mummy!" David 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEZtHNPu2l
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEx0BuC58V
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyG451oXb6T
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpfkdwvWqP
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04iLhdGyOL
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YsMcF5QSk
David didn't even know 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovawRQ1gkD
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKly2o2U8AL
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOIzb6d8A0
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOkVgTmwil
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER6lYJlAfq
David could barely hear 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrPgDMFByw
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VjTFvWZob
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXv7ztpMVx
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbYvIAjzYj
anger. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4FaZH0bKh
"There are more 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVXKHuVaIx
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6ZeA2Qt7y
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTr8MEQtTDX
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxeakkRESm
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJnce3AxYP
"What else is there to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxFhSQHIUn
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xzAosW8vn
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOU9gM1wVZ
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFUy0nb6o1
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBvm86ffrD
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWd7o7hykI
floor. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSIH6prlPC
Even the pain didn't 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaspOpMxPvw
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAXG9op2Vk
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPe1YUk1Pz
everything would be gone.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V6qHvaMES
~Just like that, give up592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7Y3QNQyjr
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bPS2bEJ0G
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3GJLkxKSQ
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfD87jHPzG
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7yJUhwKDE
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd0fnDk8lp
than this."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGd1JU42jvq
~STOP! ~ David dropped 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIeRDM3GAo
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ilQqCtfW9
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70l6HIO2T9
survive. Survive and live.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaJpiVgmqE
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aZrJzf1sv
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrdGycfyPw
"Indeed." Jester 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyWgqmkGjd
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhm2XaUp6W
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yoRo0mHTb
like his own did.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCL4FecrSJ5
"Why did you try 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsIJOdmdBB
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8E64yBbgv
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVbAPew2rs
process the influx of memories.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfQUDikdcs
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE4wv5kyt5
"You expect me to believe that?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhV8BDzBzw
"Believe what you want."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsNle1fgrT
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wFnLlJZa1
Jester chuckled. "All of592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyKtNRwcRH
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrg1p0eq1jK
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwUYzVAgbz
"That just 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhduDncxoEg
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2xvQsijSI
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnNbDtH4aC
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n4Z88VdXH
David nodded. "Do it."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLenbJ06EDU
Everything shifted. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrsRTjUI4h
David was cleaning his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvk61JpymPu
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3tZYEPF5L
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhhdJbHLwi
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSXrtGKfZn
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQOTXWWKxj
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaNopdQSKT
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLeNtwomcH
His last one was just 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeafxYYhYIv
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPnwHDggwK
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwU0dsrs6d
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJB0YgD2L7F
Undamaged goods she loved to say.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUbHnp6Tvo
Right on cue, David 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSjXi4GbVN
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOdIyVeynz
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRnWfnh3hC
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oJn7pNtNo
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagfh8RZmIK
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ4IGTjy09
Why was this his life? 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbdklU14yu
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuMp9slVho
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9M7t7dyUL
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn4WUM1YSf
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDuXfI4k6N
vein trying to get his eyes. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvFVhp67aG
~Enough David.~ A voice 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAO8F5yqARy
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRz60Yyy1K
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeE2J8UBvBH
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazXnL4rLrH
and met resistance.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAITxaJfLAR
The scratching and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NanUsgUev
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHpFmelgjH
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzeAruqwUo
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLFIhOHgdp
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvg6mkp4ThX
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ30ow1iEPNe
Oh god what did he do? 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnfW3DpdRa
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiSf0C3tAZ
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwJ9DvlHtA
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkqkthjkc2
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HA1cl23bJ
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHw0pNGqe8j
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGmRsh3Qpy
blood.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡced3SSfFnV
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyz0qVvZK1U
There was a pause and everything quieted down.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZSjzmLdbo
A boy named David just 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoTuAOLf6z
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYAQZHTcjT
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XV6duvI5q
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D81do362O
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVodOduCsF7
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hYGee3LPX
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXs7ezdjHu
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfjJhkCJTc
silly of him.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCchRpOxCN
Remembering his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96Z2BFj4m6
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojCzlmDM5M
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12mQBrmVVJ
table preparing a meal. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMdbpFNxRZ
"There you are David!" 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqrekxgKHD
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkDllK5fpY
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66Mf9MHaR7
This isn't the truth.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VhqMnQs6Y
David obligingly sat 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaBfjBhcBF
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqp4tOPbMh
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfAiDFNTcI
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAWaqejpYl
A dream, nothing else.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fwrR4RVDD
They all thanked the 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xrIIqA5dV
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wqVDjLGkW
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydKIPZu0dK
this lie.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhHcKMENee
A lie that has to end.592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG7UaWA8eS
David was standing at 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOhtzENmd2
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjHSCj2m0d
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrvzSQrfVl
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDytZBtw4xe
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1VsLgbQti
Either way David hated 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5imak8Eb4
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOnZuxNTuj
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYvNQwSO3W
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8awAILBJp8
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASTx4Y49qm
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZNIu4uAud
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds4tSiBpxk
life this happy blissful life?592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuoRRDEZFd
The answer was so simple592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3uemKG6Ml
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5khYYl6fL
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEvIZPMzOb
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOsaQiEiIq
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMwVEZ1sg3
David decided to start 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTygowrSdw
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9q7YFPIgv
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJcdaKzhZT
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArsIjJpOKp
mother. "No more mercy."592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nb56MEcvx
With the last stab 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPx91vjNeP
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyEW1BanDb
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast592Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡedFapBZVN6
emptiness.
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