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Some of my colleagues 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlZ1277dhf
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5nCiCEfS6
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak2OdlobJu
suggestion or hypnosis.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMg5taSRqd
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17Ke9S7Xc8
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRN73hvUbq
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtsYSi7Y0Y
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqeUDoTjYr
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4zlR7koIF
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIpfZwDDau
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLNkE41ioJ
capabilities.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGG1lQxLZRB
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSHaI6J0hz
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David awakened. Not 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdORlTH1t1
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NtutDByOe
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0inGPIP0Y
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTQcUAoms9
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHFSSpNS5l
undamaged.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfeejbA7w5
"Only your physical body529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIJT41LpGb
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv51MuDNgH
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Xz1aZd22b
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8d7wPMvxn
A shadowy form appeared.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD5JgGKdq3
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWmYLITHgw
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfitE4zwuQ
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9pbkFcGvD
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGrLxfHL3U
"Am I in the...ether 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGYDdCa6fz
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDzCHTpVFm
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqKN2yC6XH
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEX0oRKlkQa
David was tired, too 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4JIo7eJxo
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fRuuWu4oo
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBaGBq1fZr
The shadowy hood cocked 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYGPxM2E1m
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2EBkkUiQwS
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRBbSsNmca
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOnVnE6lfH
more grateful."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIJYBVNRJ6
"I..."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJd356ROaJ1
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPdanBamD1
David groaned in 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlnehEe6ts
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOxgaea09I
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5BBeRIoOZ
falling point, that'd be fly."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGnI1aAg3l
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbONthUVbJZ
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLMIcBK4Vx
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eIWoUmXHD
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVY0jlxD6i
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXe2QThSIJ
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2EDcGvEBg
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwFtaZ2MQI
David shouted and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaN4MSWZWLF
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkx8VXU1FFV
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRhtu1sugk
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIzgMk1Niw
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiHKR42YDV
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbc5tSsodw
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDbUAeWsDZ
mist.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrxenT5h3Z
Jester's voice came from529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHHO25L67O
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8Y7k33TPX
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fdX2QESbO
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡij37wUM9fU
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrBxIrahHq
creating a circle around Jester and David.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROuyINsfgm
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQiPLnV8q1N
"Shut up!" David 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThu13EKueY
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhriDgFGCgh
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYT3Gn0tsj
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsnYY0DUmO
Jester gave another 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmE2BNZfzRq
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJZvpxlgXi
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNJrfKZcyU
afraid of the truth?" 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mqRrkxwLx
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmCt2ojiqF
"You're what? A 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhna0h3I7m
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbrFSLtsHt
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KoX5iD7oL
you've done not matter." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYqTKDX4I0
The shadows completely 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPy1ed35Tq
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChAha3KODH
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZjilyIJeS
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhe6vGES4iZ
eye and shadows swallowed him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJy6QwdcpE
Shadows parting, David 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr60HQdHKpR
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfXLXYmGuJ
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqg9bDQKBs
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW1SBn2OzS
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlDLbdUusg
mother529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovaRCdx5bb
"This is my memory." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmon6tXqQR
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4USQJBrbk
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QYvP4JFlM
David didn't reply to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GhiWg1sq6
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6WvZ5ZiVt
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7SPjy1XMC
Unaware of what was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwas6qHeXGY
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXtTytxwJJh
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswtjPSKb8Z
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjnKDgCMN8
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yYq1w0TTs
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNrmL8jv23
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZc0z3T94DE
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOOcw9s6ly
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpngS4LmmRZ
Finally the screams of 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkNDJwIhZs
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbTknaVNgt
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQOYCglwfg
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcSfnlvQCb
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAHzJJ2nOC
the baby's throat and squeezed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rSr1ITqKt
David could feel his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xChtcdLjn
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmoq8r5m7T
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tJBOfFcBj
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmT0mFkQz7
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NUDGQt34K
stopped.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp0khLZRoG
"Oh, nonononono." The 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iotXRizb0
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEXikDDWtW
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjprk1E9IkQ
"You who were supposed 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBGF1ilF9y
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5AXnxXGYR
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDBHxBA198
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqFUaJ8Zqt
Coughing David stood up 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeypWAxZnc
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWLUODZbYK
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPy0U7HsV1
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCRxPmfDWR
"No, it was a small 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKww25PU7v
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XNc6lMu7W
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptRMU042nc
He was staring at the 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5pXaGL748
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz6sTXfV7g
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7uoClHkCG
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsliihVMlC
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uebkqESdj
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU0X9gf8sZ
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPs6d1rsJz
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHv1xgE3x5j
"I will!" Came a squeaky529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga6KQRZ2Iy
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡql3rAfFnXF
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRGQak6OaE
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgg1xvOSm18
was an adult.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMDaCvRp7m
A knock came from a door529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpiJqG0I1o
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxod5mw9Lx
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZ8mflYlru
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ng3OOBmZ0
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroFrhGN85i
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdqkPsEQaa
being a bad boy.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLH2OCaiOh
That's why he didn't 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTlj5dP5aD
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09blvHxqs8
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWk5I0Qeuk
"D..david" the answer 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HFBPmBzlq
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfI5ybpogi
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxZOEJhq6A
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewp6HbYJ9J
The man put his hands on529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHd8wjw5hN
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBWO4apPb9
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnre7lUa7o
David meekly shook his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxkBAMX7KC
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOQBlxWykQ
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooCT1tSUw7
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoylPuMkRsK
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡty814kfS8e
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRyNVD4ejX
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xg21IoLWE
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJPvF3pBEi
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrNOSgIyc3
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRbGjmByC0
Davids body.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJxZZJjvot
Please don't. Came adult David's voice529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbcqXXjeED
Young David was scared; 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK3JZHGGuk
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPFTVkFT8wd
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCO73zhq0q
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqfyJpVlZ7
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZbT4WNfX5
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBZi5OJ4Fp
"Mummy, mummy!" David 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tn2ckc4UX
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2YHBawyiS
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1tr9mjz9y
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83Ro88zVXz
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa6sQBVBQi
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3ahSe69wA
David didn't even know 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGj67p4sN2
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVInU4bcHw
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmOdoLvElW
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XOLPn5Jmi
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfWPbYScNh
David could barely hear 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AMA3dkU7B
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt36PJXbCQ
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd1j3gbTJg
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNA9kUmndM
anger. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GgcWXcpZD
"There are more 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0W2QwR8hCQ
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWws01yGAv
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9TpzXAntP
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORIQcFyy2n
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5fbVS364K
"What else is there to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBaS71jmVU
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEkTlkP3ir
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlnIUJUYKJ
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCyTFUdQOL
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNGQvTz8br
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2pdQJZxa6
floor. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08MKOTeEoc
Even the pain didn't 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSw5y8bIzy
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1Ig4YgPyg
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuogTNeIBlu
everything would be gone.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipOIerrWbQ
~Just like that, give up529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W8OrO6lIS
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtBENuKtsy
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxaMxvSYUP
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcU9U4YHRD
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiCQ1fMiPs
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCXxCsYqXR
than this."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScr2ccDaCp
~STOP! ~ David dropped 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARqwPtIQHN
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp0TUoBq1k
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPf6nnDNzs
survive. Survive and live.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHChXcKNk64
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMryPZcIMfs
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkhGByNVKy
"Indeed." Jester 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJk4NF5h3N
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVq67U5jCq
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEyq33dkmh
like his own did.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ8gyvB8Ly
"Why did you try 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomfSeyNIae
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEK7Zw6mpv
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5EqAEcJEx
process the influx of memories.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2CGNLHBHG
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVaNYcSj7H
"You expect me to believe that?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6YTEimshB
"Believe what you want."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQgf0LWdX6
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1x9gU7vF9t
Jester chuckled. "All of529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jSRBd6Kv3
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDyOWR9hBa
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3vUNcIgD2
"That just 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2uTFU1x5J
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGYe51J0Ut
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2s634qmOCV
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKiU1ew4vp
David nodded. "Do it."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SX48xzVv7
Everything shifted. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DyEKV7dsF
David was cleaning his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiqCJRSFRw
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uyHGjW7zj
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5iwCS2GBh
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCbMwexA2n
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJqY9eP6L4
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTlAWH6wEG
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrn9yky2sfx
His last one was just 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4BYgcUO7k
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24zkNVQJBD
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6hQxDAstC
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGgKUswgnF
Undamaged goods she loved to say.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoyQegj6mo
Right on cue, David 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9hwG9ltCW
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFRO3HH3Bb
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI3g7YT6Jk
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MIO73inMY
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinrxFO9IPy
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrMSBE4nk3
Why was this his life? 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2OEWiHL88
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNZphKSlLz
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4HEENhiIB
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RG3CZUXRn
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwp1pcTFmmt
vein trying to get his eyes. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxv3CPXr10Y
~Enough David.~ A voice 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS0sC9ghvC
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIxBlenuGH
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmApFY1pTXB
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51xCwajGp6
and met resistance.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLubnJR2G6
The scratching and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzN4YZd8FH
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8U5lXRWnsL
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbdEQnko8o
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFh8bZ7wOS
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRu2YuPzu4
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjD3NvXEmpk
Oh god what did he do? 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA2QFCPlfE
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJujVytKCNU
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTaj1o14egR
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11o3p4PJEY
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XfEifR7gG
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpNU5Hv9N6
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFv8VrnsCW
blood.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1R8qAp6rz
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF00bctBSNK
There was a pause and everything quieted down.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUU136WKCg1
A boy named David just 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9ig9gxi8j
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRxpqdo890
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2HeNpWuXr
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyHwwetws5
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdTkzF0N7S
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIjFZ1wFFT
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡle3Pd08cL8
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV4g3EmLfM
silly of him.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYbWE5l7gm
Remembering his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X8gHfAQSN
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjKinIuTvM
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FhuDmsHrE
table preparing a meal. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGRG7h8YFp
"There you are David!" 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg1XyP9gyA
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXw15xFgpe
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlObxKrnAe
This isn't the truth.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmE8v5qYdH
David obligingly sat 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcohThxrcjM
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNAMoIau29
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkn4yY9d48
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrYYYf4OBS
A dream, nothing else.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxOYNOwEAK
They all thanked the 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzKrKyuWx8
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrLiJ28IvB
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVayBR2c6Y
this lie.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqtz67HBrS
A lie that has to end.529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9HrJVaQsU
David was standing at 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMf2pCjRceo
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMXQmQxSZK
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qjZbip1vI
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf4yorteMP
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHr9gO5ZR0
Either way David hated 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h1RIreLY9
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWukIULxh1
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYm6ZIOdDT
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcGMmfvGYT
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokkOdMlfvL
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fM0Yunoeg
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKUoP5E1d9
life this happy blissful life?529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOOKRV9vAa
The answer was so simple529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3ki4ZwwV8
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvH3Yy1xKu
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMI2PzAAZPe
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2bmaquteO
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhfpzhowwr
David decided to start 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmk2OiUhhZ
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdTEa0Wa2Z
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5Cw5zikR7
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNufsGBlNoe
mother. "No more mercy."529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNJhhoLuTj
With the last stab 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04vz22cwhW
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeHZAuTQ8l
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast529Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qasLcgD4L
emptiness.
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