這是十月的下午264Please respect copyright.PENANA60qM58wD6B
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一個風和日麗的午後,蔚藍的天空本應令人感到舒心才對264Please respect copyright.PENANAVdtNmNnxMw
可是,對焌文來說,美好的天氣不能令他感到一絲雀躍264Please respect copyright.PENANAgrZwoQDowu
每年只有這一天,他可以沉點不語一整天264Please respect copyright.PENANAbn3tbo3uYf
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平時總是喜滋滋的他,會於放學後和大家留在新聞室做功課,或是哈拉些有的沒的264Please respect copyright.PENANAy7L1f98x99
有時,他會和眾高人在球場上打球,無論如何,他都會於學校關門時才離開264Please respect copyright.PENANAtWCXekP68n
不過,只有今天,他會準時三時半離開264Please respect copyright.PENANAArJawlPKwN
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「西米露,晏啲我哋不如....」雪兒見到他整整一天都面無表情,本來打算請他吃甜品的,可是焌文一聲不響,就從雪兒身邊走過264Please respect copyright.PENANANfP6DcHmhQ
「佢無事呀嘛!成日一句聲都無出過,平時唔係咁架?」她對着舒雯他們說264Please respect copyright.PENANAL5aG0DKF51
「無計啦,今日對佢嚟講,係一個無法忘記嘅日子」回答的是焌文的死黨-男神264Please respect copyright.PENANAfcMCgPLyEW
「見到佢咁,我都無法子幫到佢,唯有係身邊陪佢」怕醜仔說264Please respect copyright.PENANAOFIPZoQGQl
「講開又講,佢食lunch,只係食咗半碟飯咋」吃午飯的時候,焌文一點胃口都沒有,經舒雯多番勸告後,才勉強的吃下幾口飯264Please respect copyright.PENANAO8oaqqYZeH
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而焌文的青梅竹馬-舒雯,亦明白到焌文為何會這樣的反常,坐在課室內的她,正看着萬里無雲的天空264Please respect copyright.PENANAZ1FL0ll4QZ
「就算而家幾好天,佢個心,都係落緊大雨」264Please respect copyright.PENANADaejL9zpJg
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焌文少有的,要獨自走過,那條每天回家的路,去的不是回家,而是另外的目的地264Please respect copyright.PENANAwiZBjsspcj
路上有着各種各樣的人:264Please respect copyright.PENANAkWfGqywa5B
有趕快要跑回家看卡通的小學生、一對對的學生情侶甜蜜的在耳語着、264Please respect copyright.PENANAKlsUhSwfY3
還有一些拿着小提琴袋,書包等東西的外籍家傭,前面還有個快要虛脫的小孩264Please respect copyright.PENANAKhcpwIdr6w
可現在的他,連看一眼的心情都沒有264Please respect copyright.PENANAbTtIEtShAB
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雪兒和舒雯正於新聞室內聊天,房間中只有她們二人。高人們都有各種的忙:264Please respect copyright.PENANA4yMLKWwZbx
男神要到studio拍廣告、區長要到紅會教急救班、姚明就要衝rank、光洙跟大隻仔就要為學界比賽而加緊練習,而怕醜仔要幫舖頭焗曲奇264Please respect copyright.PENANAL6OyE6JVSk
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「究竟係咩日子,令到呢個多口怪變到咁?」此時的雪兒還未明白發生甚麼事264Please respect copyright.PENANAuEgUF6wJiK
「其實今日,係劉焌文老豆嘅死忌」舒雯回答道264Please respect copyright.PENANAIW2suk7P7q
「下?你唔早講?」264Please respect copyright.PENANAURje2ZCZLX
「唔同係佢面前講咩?佢都已經咁頹,仲講,佢咪更加hurt!」264Please respect copyright.PENANAoNA5KkrTSP
「佢個人,我哋有事,佢就即刻去關心、去安慰人,到咗有咩唔開心,就收收埋埋,留低自己面對264Please respect copyright.PENANA8sBNbUy21B
其實佢先係最需要人關心」舒雯知道,其實焌文不如表面的堅強,內心其實是脆弱得很264Please respect copyright.PENANA60QJz7UxvL
「睇唔出佢會咁感性啵,仲認為佢冷血嘅」264Please respect copyright.PENANAkSgYOkNgnO
「你唔明佢架啦。男仔同女仔面對難題,應對方式係好唔同:264Please respect copyright.PENANAMLbfuG4Jq9
我哋女仔會搵人幫手,或者同姊妹傾,女仔會覺得有事搵人有咩唔岩,係正常不過嘅事264Please respect copyright.PENANAVQIuLm9EAN
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而男人就唔同,好多時會哩埋一面,自己背負住所有嘅事。佢哋嘅心態係,自已解決唔到事情,即係失敗者,係無能264Please respect copyright.PENANAFOwCCqXjOs
同埋佢哋會懷疑自己嘅能力,佢哋會用工作/貢獻嚟,証明自己嘅存在價值。264Please respect copyright.PENANADG4kWAbPWW
只要係男人,都會自我懷疑,而且如同心魔,會經常出現係佢哋嘅內心,令佢哋不安264Please respect copyright.PENANAwkoOsYEneb
一樣嘢,佢寧願用成日自己研究點解決個問題,而唔去用幾分鐘去問人。264Please respect copyright.PENANAt9pBrYSsnE
明知係用多咗時間架,但為咗可以証明自己有用,佢哋依然會照做。264Please respect copyright.PENANArXSUW8HTEj
所以啲人話啲男人渣車,唔識路係都唔問人,係幾咁無用。係佢內心,問個下分分鐘仲無用+自我肯定會受損264Please respect copyright.PENANAWUQkFJxOGu
因為係男人/仔嚟講,樽鹽,係佢哋生存嘅動力,亦係必需品264Please respect copyright.PENANAEa9c1SzUWA
作為身邊人,唔係怪佢硬頸、無用,咁做只會hurt到佢哋。最好就係話俾佢知,佢係有能力嘅,同埋鼓勵佢啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANA9tWBFfg2e4
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另一邊箱264Please respect copyright.PENANAmmYmDkuzhN
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焌文正跪著於父親的墳前,墓碑上刻了劉父的名字,還有生死的日期,264Please respect copyright.PENANA7aq6MJ4e1G
他仔細的用毛巾擦拭父親的墓碑,當擦到父親遺照的位置時,焌文停下手來264Please respect copyright.PENANAeqQxi3fI5z
「呀爸,對唔住呀,咁耐無嚟見你,最近點呀你?」說着的時候,焌文露出了這一天,第一次的微笑,為的是不想父親看到他傷心的模樣264Please respect copyright.PENANAQpggUQQTNP
「媽子佢就好好,係做嘢忙到好少見囉!同以前一樣,都係事業心好重」264Please respect copyright.PENANA57crWrqYiL
「而我呢,就識咗個大小姐啦,佢係mix嘅,初頭串過馬撚咁......264Please respect copyright.PENANAJFfzzkjXHK
忘落個樣是幾正,尤其對波」焌文在說着他身邊發生的事,還有向父親介紹了雪兒264Please respect copyright.PENANAfzSll7DK9B
「最衰你唔係度啦~如果唔係.......」到了這句,焌文心中的感情,終於再也忍不住264Please respect copyright.PENANAj94rpkSA4a
「就可以見下佢啦」笑着的他,一下子就流下了男子淚,哭着的他,後來也說不出話來,只是在墳前哭了許久,一次過將所有的感情舒發了264Please respect copyright.PENANAz0OZHKQMuq
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劇目《寶劍記》中有這麼一句話:男人有淚不輕彈,只因未到傷心處264Please respect copyright.PENANAR2V2mGbwXE
這句可以用以說明焌文:平時的他即使遇到多麼困難、難過的事情,都可以嬉皮笑臉的想方法解決,而沒有一點要哭的意思264Please respect copyright.PENANATgYSdUtspf
可到了家人去世的時候,他就不能自己了264Please respect copyright.PENANA2e7uFZfV0i
看着父親的墓碑,他想起了四年前的那天264Please respect copyright.PENANAsf5aDoRV36
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對於焌文一家來說,那一天是一個傷痛264Please respect copyright.PENANAXbtk5MELc3
本來在學校和同學打球的焌文,突然收到母親的電話264Please respect copyright.PENANAL4UDrzxOwd
「媽子,咩事?我係學校打緊波」264Please respect copyright.PENANAjbRM6T4GfY
電話另一邊的婦人未有回答,可焌文聽到啜泣的聲音264Please respect copyright.PENANANGjUKoA6Bc
「婷姐,唔好嚇我呀,發生咗咩事!媽!」264Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZFdg52Tq7
「文呀,你聽我講」264Please respect copyright.PENANAGPlb0qlg3U
「係,你講呀」264Please respect copyright.PENANAfR4ccJbSlm
「你老豆......你呀爸走咗啦,文呀!」264Please respect copyright.PENANAZFQ6VnOrwT
「唔會嘅,婷姐老豆都無病無痛」264Please respect copyright.PENANAutfTMqo6PN
「唔係病發死架!佢係.....佢係中槍死架!」婦人哭得更加厲害,焌文在想着如何是好264Please respect copyright.PENANADG7MUcSH60
「冷靜啲先!你係邊呀?我而家過嚟搵你」雖然口中要翠婷冷靜,可焌文還是心急如焚264Please respect copyright.PENANASJdMWTVUkI
焌文急忙的拿起書包,他的面色看起來是非常焦急的264Please respect copyright.PENANAmdLbDpmHl1
「你去邊呀?走得咁趕嘅」看到焌文的行為,在後面看着眾男生的舒雯感到奇怪264Please respect copyright.PENANAr3SyhZLnzj
「我有啲事,走先」264Please respect copyright.PENANAYojD4Nkakn
「婷姐?你係機場?」264Please respect copyright.PENANAe6UAwjO5mu
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焌文的腦袋,此時變得一片空白,他唯一的想到的,就是盡快到機場和母親會合264Please respect copyright.PENANAahII7MCONC
從學校到機場,撘巴士經已是最快的方法了,話雖如此,還要用一小時才可到機場264Please respect copyright.PENANA11zQy4FzvP
在這一小時裡,焌文回憶起他和父親的回憶:父親教焌文踏單車的經過、父子第一次喝酒的經驗、劉父抽煙的煙味、還有最後的對話264Please respect copyright.PENANA0537vgNzk6
他想不到,往後沒有和父親相處的機會,對此他非常的痛心264Please respect copyright.PENANApAiY2rQJSI
然而,他抽煙的習慣,某程度是和父親有關264Please respect copyright.PENANA3x0A5Q5dGF
焌文一路上都想着:無事嘅,佢邊會死架,仲有機會嘅264Please respect copyright.PENANAeGBqv6A3ew
他不斷的想着父親還在生,不斷的、不停的想。或者可以這樣解釋:他不想承認事情已成事實264Please respect copyright.PENANAWdZIiEEYit
生死學者Kübler-Ross曾經提出如此的說法,人面對哀傷/災難,會經過五個的心理階段:否認、憤怒、討價還價、抑鬱、接受264Please respect copyright.PENANAjUFt2w2NTz
而焌文此時就處於否認的階段264Please respect copyright.PENANAPaNCC6mAc9
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可惜,事與願違,到了機場的焌文,只看到父親面色蒼白的,臥在楠木製的棺材上264Please respect copyright.PENANAMkkrzsSNuC
在棺材旁邊,是哭成淚人的母親,她跪著於棺材前,即使焌文如何請她站起來,她都堅持着要跪著264Please respect copyright.PENANADrRLFD6g3y
看到如此傷心的母親,焌文一下子想不到可以為她做什麼,他只有安靜的站在母親後,守望着264Please respect copyright.PENANAWOnY9vGsbJ
焌文一直強忍着,為的是不想母親看到他哭,而變得更難受264Please respect copyright.PENANA6bQZ9GzwJE
旁邊站立着的幾個西裝人,都是劉父的兄弟們,看到劉母如此的傷痛,他們感到更加自責264Please respect copyright.PENANA53otXM4MfJ
「對唔住,呀嫂,我哋無好好咁帶佢返嚟」264Please respect copyright.PENANAlWNCGWGng1
他們只能對劉母道歉,雖知是沒有多大作用,耐何,他們只能做到這些264Please respect copyright.PENANA0hWU30mwc4
這幕,在焌文的心中,是揮之不去的,因他都是首次看到這樣的媽媽,那個在哭天喊地的媽媽264Please respect copyright.PENANAiVV7wD3soJ
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「咁我點做好呀?」264Please respect copyright.PENANAr1tTGPzfUN
「自己諗下啦,我要走啦,你走未呀?」舒雯待會要到旺角上補習班,於是先走了264Please respect copyright.PENANAc0mOBR2tyU
「一齊呀」264Please respect copyright.PENANA52ye4Z8bXI
「你又諗返細個嘅事?」264Please respect copyright.PENANAwlvgf4DnrL
「係呀,好難唔記得」雪兒想起了自己的經歷,不禁神情哀傷起來,264Please respect copyright.PENANAhI7Q0ynauL
她心想:其實,我都唔係好得去邊264Please respect copyright.PENANACxm6tAeBgq
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雪兒小二時,她母親紫凝,當時因工作過勞,而引致心臟病發作264Please respect copyright.PENANA4Xem3U3ue8
小雪兒於這時失去了母親,對於一個只有七歲的女孩,是多麼難以承受的一件事264Please respect copyright.PENANAy2PKrwc3Ro
還好,舒雯的家人暫時照顧着她,直至在美國退休的外婆回來,因一個七歲的小朋友無家可歸,是一件多麼慘不忍睹的事264Please respect copyright.PENANAAnFUTflZ4O
外婆回到香港後,就一直打點着紫凝的身後事264Please respect copyright.PENANAIBWzpfPkbr
其實對外婆來說,因白頭人送黑頭人的緣故,她的傷痛可能會來得更深264Please respect copyright.PENANA5pz2flAccR
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那天,是雪兒母親出殯的日子,264Please respect copyright.PENANAqaoWH80VCx
靈堂上掛著紫凝的相片,相片中的她一張笑得開懷,是她年輕時拍的,面上沒有多少皺紋。用這照片的原因,是想他人記的是,她最美最快樂的樣子264Please respect copyright.PENANAMA9xIGrVSH
四週有着從四方的親朋致送的花牌264Please respect copyright.PENANAHy2ccrPhUY
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雪兒還記得當時是在進行破地獄264Please respect copyright.PENANArE2jTdjz3Q
靈堂內坐着的來賓,每人都流露了哀傷的神情,有些的紫凝的好姊妹更哭不成聲的哭泣264Please respect copyright.PENANAinY2dD0bFq
「媽媽,無事呀嘛?」一位與雪兒同年的男孩,看到母親的樣子,不禁擔心起來264Please respect copyright.PENANAidwMkOXOCP
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小雪兒她獨個兒捧著母親的遺照,當時的她腦袋一片空白,不明白身邊發生了甚麼事264Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3D2Ycb35K
此時雪兒最需要的,是父親在旁支持。偏偏朱父收到消息後,從未有關心過她,那怕連一個電話都沒有,264Please respect copyright.PENANAtnrDjvZKqr
對於一個小孩來說,是多麼哀傷的一回事,對於雪兒來說,她如同失去了雙親264Please respect copyright.PENANA9h6xmCmtQ4
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火球的溫度雖熱,可雪兒未有因此而感到溫暖,反而感到更加的沉痛264Please respect copyright.PENANAt02UHmakhB
她看着留了給父親的位置,一直都是空的,她開始哭了起來264Please respect copyright.PENANAQIzWSfzbIz
然而,坐得端正的她在靜靜哭着,想着的是她的母親,如何辛苦的養活她,還有相處的點滴264Please respect copyright.PENANACj7xfF6F0H
一個七歲的小孩,本應有快樂的童年,和父母親快樂的生活,可雪兒就沒有這福分了264Please respect copyright.PENANAsSzPL2VOIN
「媽媽!媽媽!」264Please respect copyright.PENANAvrYzGBN8es
在旁的外婆看到如此年紀的小孩,要面對生離死別,分外的心如刀割264Please respect copyright.PENANAmLgh7OhX6T
「放心啦!紫凝,你個女就交俾我照顧啦,我會好好養育佢成為一個好人。你安心上路啦,無使擔心我哋架啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANAdhU1cwfuJo
外婆對着前方的遺照,心中立下了如此的默許264Please respect copyright.PENANAKRPtyIt5rN
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完了所有的儀式後,眾人站了在大酒店的門內,準備乘的士離開264Please respect copyright.PENANAlOfUQQhOvc
小雪兒此時的表情變得木訥,她呆望着舒雯的媽媽,迷茫的她尤如墮五里霧中:不知往後的路,應該如何的走下去264Please respect copyright.PENANA9LyFT6S8gv
「唔該哂,你哋照顧咗雪兒咁耐,打搞哂啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANAVbW2ZLSpaH
「乜說話,我哋同紫凝係好姊妹,照顧佢係應該嘅」舒雯媽-碧君對外婆說264Please respect copyright.PENANAxdNI71osTT
「有你哋兩個好姊妹,係紫凝嘅福分,多謝你哋」外婆握住了翠婷和剛哭成淚人的碧君的手,由衷的對他們道謝264Please respect copyright.PENANAzUqefiT2yC
「真正照顧雪兒嘅,係佢。我都係有時間先叫文仔上嚟,同雪兒玩下咋」264Please respect copyright.PENANA8PABk5vCDS
「你忙呀嘛,做報館好辛苦,我明嘅。」264Please respect copyright.PENANAdpfaKagK4Q
「佰有......」264Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0jSg3faCU
「夜啦,你哋都早啲返去休息啦,由朝到晚,都幫咗好耐架啦。睇下,啲細路眼訓啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANARSEfz1i1Zm
「咁我哋都走啦,同雪兒講byebye啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANALB6o5fq1MO
「byebye啦,雪兒,遲啲見~」小舒雯無論何都想不到,下次一起上學,要過了十年才有機會264Please respect copyright.PENANAXO1hDvnrXr
「byebye」舒雯媽和舒雯都上了車,看到帶着眼鏡的好姊妹還未要走,就拉了她上車264Please respect copyright.PENANASWwcsuQLy1
「翠婷姐,上埋嚟啦!再見佰有」264Please respect copyright.PENANA9D37tuQJKo
看着載着好朋友的的士,從眼前離去,雪兒感到不安,安全感零的她這下,快要再哭了264Please respect copyright.PENANAKvHeE05n40
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雪兒整晚都沒吃過甚麼,無論如何都要想個辦法,令她吃一點東西264Please respect copyright.PENANA38IyQRtFDU
外婆見狀,就買了盒愉快動物餅給她吃264Please respect copyright.PENANAfZYNjLsnQp
老人雪兒還是一副要哭的樣子,就用她那皺巴巴的手摸着小雪兒的頭264Please respect copyright.PENANAjrkaUjX0M1
「雪兒,之後有我係你身邊,我唔會俾你獨自一人架,知嘛?」264Please respect copyright.PENANAhDog6gaEuw
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(不如打俾佢?)264Please respect copyright.PENANAbwVif0bw7i
雪兒打開了電話的通訊錄,按到焌文的名字時,她想了一下264Please respect copyright.PENANA7zDoObmTp8
(會唔會好怪架?)264Please respect copyright.PENANAZAANL2WP9i
她看着電話上顯示的名字,想起了儲物室發生的事情,她回憶起焌文抱着的感覺264Please respect copyright.PENANAVbj0TiviLC
那時溫暖的感覺,還有焌文的笑容、說話,在雪兒的心中迴盪着264Please respect copyright.PENANANVh9ZZCmxj
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「有咩傷心就搵我哋,we are always here,我哋會係你身邊,唔好收收埋埋。264Please respect copyright.PENANApnQBSbRSfA
就算係幾難,我哋都會幫你,做你同路人」264Please respect copyright.PENANA9zeuKbvSw2
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「有啲嘢唔係咁計嘅,佢咁慘,唔幫佢,都過唔到自己啦」264Please respect copyright.PENANA5E6C538nTi
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想到這個份上,少女不再猶豫,她鼓起了勇氣,致電給紅髮少年264Please respect copyright.PENANAswHCDCqoPq
(今次,就到我back up返你啦!)264Please respect copyright.PENANAvbn54PYAwn
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待續264Please respect copyright.PENANAbURZGsw82x