志恆倦極入睡，醒來的時候已是凌晨一時許。家人早已睡覺，屋子裡靜悄悄的，大馬路的汽車聲格外刺耳。他下樓到快餐店買個漢堡餐，再到相熟的雜貨店買了三罐啤酒。填飽肚子，填飽時間，填飽空虛。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNERF1vvLuV
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有時候會幻想，若餘生都沒能找到馨儀的下落，他會怎麼樣？時間能否徹底消弭罪疚感，讓他正正常常活下去？不知道。生命充滿「可能性」。他可能在頃刻間得救，亦可能整輩子活在半死不活的狀態裡。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXtPn3T9Td
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回家，睡房裡。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zr2KV17SV
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沒有亮起房燈，僅靠透窗而入的自然光作照明。在異樣的光影合奏下，洶湧的陌生感來襲。他彷彿走進別人的房間，高架、漫畫、模型、書枱、床舖，全變了調。醉意來襲，狂性大發。他掃走書枱和高架上的一切。金屬筆筒叮咚作響，盤鍵啪啪甩脫，漫畫和模型以詭異的姿態在地面重逢……547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfmuFFVeAJ
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還有，那信封。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM12bho66xF
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志恆從地面拾起那白得發亮的信封。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3kSuNZ7yC
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看郵戳，一星期前寄來的。看地址，是馨儀的筆跡。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxB7ovz6paH
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志恆雙手震顫不已：生命果然充滿「可能性」。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrocGs0m1u6
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和馨儀相約在城東某偏遠小區碰面。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3kXDqyFfq
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為免被童黨跟蹤，志恆穿上志恆爸的衣服，戴上口罩和鴨舌帽；馨儀消瘦不少，剪了個爽利短髮，打扮老套，化濃妝，特意在左臉上點了兩顆小痣當偽裝，務求看來老成。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYF8iqT9TN
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二人相視怪笑：差點兒認不出對方。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHxtI2uwhK
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馨儀領志恆往她的新居。是一間廉租套房。三尖八角的間隔有點礙眼，但以相宜的價錢而言，那又何其合理。馨儀給志恆倒了一杯清水，抽出摺凳給志恆坐：「不好意思，將就一下。」547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1H81yIo53K
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「不要緊。」志恆看不慣馨儀的偽裝和新髮型，感覺不是味兒。「你要先卸妝嗎？化妝品對皮膚很不好。」他知道馨儀剛下班，疲累得很，需要好好放鬆。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgIPKKMKVh
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馨儀感到窩心，帶笑到浴室卸妝更衣。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnEdHnIZiZ
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她現於區內的麵包店當兼職收銀員，五天工作，偶爾於假日晚上在酒樓當樓面，賺取外快。日子十分充實，每天都累得要命。猶幸薪酬不俗，扣除租金和日常開支後仍有餘錢，生活不成問題。可恨心裡疑神疑鬼，怕自由日子不長久。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9XFGbzTdb
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卸妝過後，臉部回復清新，心情亦稍稍放鬆下來。唯一的凳已讓給志恆，她只好坐在床邊，像個普通小女生一樣，抱著枕頭與閨中密友聊心事。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldZaGnGQzu
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「『逃避』不能徹底解決問題。」志恆道出馨儀不欲面對的簡單道理。「想快快樂樂過日子，必先要正視問題。」說得輕鬆，但緊握陶瓷杯柄的右手已出賣了他的真實感受。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQDV1vtCo9
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「我明白你的意思，但……」馨儀急停唇邊的話。告訴他真相又如何？事情不會有轉機，志恆甚至因而更痛苦。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTho3kvI3Z
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志恆注視馨儀，期待她講下去。隨著時間分秒流逝，她的勇氣消失殆盡，沒能再交出片言隻字。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWHaBMSdow
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志恆難免氣餒：「你不相信我嗎？」547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjXlIQgkp4
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馨儀如夢初醒，重拾初心：「我相信你，不然怎會冒險主動聯絡你！」547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQbXkLKKD2
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她寄出信件前曾猶豫過好幾天。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWAJ5cNDEb
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若是單純的報平安，就無需寫下聯絡方法；若是需要協助，志恆並非首選求助對象；若是想打探消息，買張電話儲值咭致電予他，豈不更省時省力……為何偏要約他見面？547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kMhr6uXaj
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她想念志恆。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08N4rMOK7A
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不。她是想念志恆對她的愛寵！547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlCYoKF769
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明明知道那不是愛情，但她不捨放棄志恆。寵她的男生有很多，卻只有志恆是真誠的。在他身邊，馨儀會覺得自己裡裡外外都是值得被愛……547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahq2yo3444
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無恥！自私！賤格！547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgq9w0fAun
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馨儀打從心底鄙視自己。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KI5qLyklz
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她從不是清高的女生。認識志恆以前，她不也是利用男生們對她的愛慕佔便宜嗎？只是她看中志恆的單純無邪，容易操控，不會像其他男生那樣居心叵測。她收斂下來，一邊消費志恆的愛，一邊以「純情女生」的姿態騎牛搵馬，找個條件更好的男生。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOemfP5hBp
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「試問誰不想活得更好？人之常情！」547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnG6C9a2zIb
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她只能如此催眠自己……547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnImsnq4dfW
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馨儀沒多話，直接在志恆面前褪下衣褲，只餘內衣內褲在身。她湊近志恆，逼令他好好看清她的身體。「我寧願長期忍受痛楚，亦誓要守著那個秘密。」547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsF6VzWuqX
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慘不忍睹。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93CMFhKNCe
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胸脯以下至臀部的位置，全是嚴重灼傷的痕跡。每個傷痕密麻而細小，約菸蒂大小。像蛇鱗，片片分明，亂中有序，幾近密鋪圖案那樣天衣無縫。湊近細看，不是單純的灼傷，而是在傷處不停施虐，致使皮膚表面凹凸不平。新傷疊著舊患，痂皮脫落後，皮膚亦沒能回復平坦，留有永久的疤痕。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sH4aKz4Zq
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志恆近距離直視馨儀的身體，不自覺全身起滿雞皮疙瘩，卻又不敢別過臉，怕傷馨儀的心。他又痛心又氣憤又自責又迷惘。千思萬緒湧上心頭，引出眼淚。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaXWjKvSJ0
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馨儀後退回床邊，穿回衣褲。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c6udtox2j
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悸動。雖是她主動向志恆展露瘡疤。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzNVW4cYXY
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身上是永不磨滅的傷痕，但為了更重要、更美好的將來，她願意揭開更深更痛的傷口。547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJRC5S4hYG
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不惜一切！547Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g3YlGs9VE
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不出馨儀所料，剛剛的「真情剖白」令志恆對她更死心塌地。他乖乖交出手提電話，讓她親自決定影片的下場。
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