志恆倦極入睡，醒來的時候已是凌晨一時許。家人早已睡覺，屋子裡靜悄悄的，大馬路的汽車聲格外刺耳。他下樓到快餐店買個漢堡餐，再到相熟的雜貨店買了三罐啤酒。填飽肚子，填飽時間，填飽空虛。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYr38LRzwe
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有時候會幻想，若餘生都沒能找到馨儀的下落，他會怎麼樣？時間能否徹底消弭罪疚感，讓他正正常常活下去？不知道。生命充滿「可能性」。他可能在頃刻間得救，亦可能整輩子活在半死不活的狀態裡。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgs9WvqHC5
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回家，睡房裡。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOWbpyopZL6
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沒有亮起房燈，僅靠透窗而入的自然光作照明。在異樣的光影合奏下，洶湧的陌生感來襲。他彷彿走進別人的房間，高架、漫畫、模型、書枱、床舖，全變了調。醉意來襲，狂性大發。他掃走書枱和高架上的一切。金屬筆筒叮咚作響，盤鍵啪啪甩脫，漫畫和模型以詭異的姿態在地面重逢……465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7xaTCmJiz
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還有，那信封。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2lEY5nTQg
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志恆從地面拾起那白得發亮的信封。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDrcQej3aKA
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看郵戳，一星期前寄來的。看地址，是馨儀的筆跡。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS9LiARZKE
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志恆雙手震顫不已：生命果然充滿「可能性」。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4vBwi764N
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和馨儀相約在城東某偏遠小區碰面。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN91SKNzp9
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為免被童黨跟蹤，志恆穿上志恆爸的衣服，戴上口罩和鴨舌帽；馨儀消瘦不少，剪了個爽利短髮，打扮老套，化濃妝，特意在左臉上點了兩顆小痣當偽裝，務求看來老成。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfcerWbKyh
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二人相視怪笑：差點兒認不出對方。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwpQosLzKT
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馨儀領志恆往她的新居。是一間廉租套房。三尖八角的間隔有點礙眼，但以相宜的價錢而言，那又何其合理。馨儀給志恆倒了一杯清水，抽出摺凳給志恆坐：「不好意思，將就一下。」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsmkg2a5rx
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「不要緊。」志恆看不慣馨儀的偽裝和新髮型，感覺不是味兒。「你要先卸妝嗎？化妝品對皮膚很不好。」他知道馨儀剛下班，疲累得很，需要好好放鬆。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDu9pqcyT9h
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馨儀感到窩心，帶笑到浴室卸妝更衣。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sq5JQWXI6
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她現於區內的麵包店當兼職收銀員，五天工作，偶爾於假日晚上在酒樓當樓面，賺取外快。日子十分充實，每天都累得要命。猶幸薪酬不俗，扣除租金和日常開支後仍有餘錢，生活不成問題。可恨心裡疑神疑鬼，怕自由日子不長久。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhye290HLS
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卸妝過後，臉部回復清新，心情亦稍稍放鬆下來。唯一的凳已讓給志恆，她只好坐在床邊，像個普通小女生一樣，抱著枕頭與閨中密友聊心事。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04vn0MkPui
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「『逃避』不能徹底解決問題。」志恆道出馨儀不欲面對的簡單道理。「想快快樂樂過日子，必先要正視問題。」說得輕鬆，但緊握陶瓷杯柄的右手已出賣了他的真實感受。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNGKsqudGr
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「我明白你的意思，但……」馨儀急停唇邊的話。告訴他真相又如何？事情不會有轉機，志恆甚至因而更痛苦。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1oIF4olED
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志恆注視馨儀，期待她講下去。隨著時間分秒流逝，她的勇氣消失殆盡，沒能再交出片言隻字。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK3ceXhMLP
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志恆難免氣餒：「你不相信我嗎？」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCD4rPGNmi
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馨儀如夢初醒，重拾初心：「我相信你，不然怎會冒險主動聯絡你！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvlY3DsgvR
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她寄出信件前曾猶豫過好幾天。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYEHvM4k41
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若是單純的報平安，就無需寫下聯絡方法；若是需要協助，志恆並非首選求助對象；若是想打探消息，買張電話儲值咭致電予他，豈不更省時省力……為何偏要約他見面？465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnx5WRyI7RV
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她想念志恆。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS7TCzF6R0
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不。她是想念志恆對她的愛寵！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBzLHA4vdj
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明明知道那不是愛情，但她不捨放棄志恆。寵她的男生有很多，卻只有志恆是真誠的。在他身邊，馨儀會覺得自己裡裡外外都是值得被愛……465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGfTcsEvfO
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無恥！自私！賤格！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil3tc0TymC
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馨儀打從心底鄙視自己。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Qu4lBUplS
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她從不是清高的女生。認識志恆以前，她不也是利用男生們對她的愛慕佔便宜嗎？只是她看中志恆的單純無邪，容易操控，不會像其他男生那樣居心叵測。她收斂下來，一邊消費志恆的愛，一邊以「純情女生」的姿態騎牛搵馬，找個條件更好的男生。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlStBK58fT
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「試問誰不想活得更好？人之常情！」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq79nFZTzKd
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她只能如此催眠自己……465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnroYxDp7Dn
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馨儀沒多話，直接在志恆面前褪下衣褲，只餘內衣內褲在身。她湊近志恆，逼令他好好看清她的身體。「我寧願長期忍受痛楚，亦誓要守著那個秘密。」465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeJYFtAv1T
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慘不忍睹。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM5NjpLowZ
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胸脯以下至臀部的位置，全是嚴重灼傷的痕跡。每個傷痕密麻而細小，約菸蒂大小。像蛇鱗，片片分明，亂中有序，幾近密鋪圖案那樣天衣無縫。湊近細看，不是單純的灼傷，而是在傷處不停施虐，致使皮膚表面凹凸不平。新傷疊著舊患，痂皮脫落後，皮膚亦沒能回復平坦，留有永久的疤痕。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbudsoRFzOD
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志恆近距離直視馨儀的身體，不自覺全身起滿雞皮疙瘩，卻又不敢別過臉，怕傷馨儀的心。他又痛心又氣憤又自責又迷惘。千思萬緒湧上心頭，引出眼淚。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNGjrKYEi8
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馨儀後退回床邊，穿回衣褲。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8BV6Gt4sT
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悸動。雖是她主動向志恆展露瘡疤。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0NqOV4DIB
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身上是永不磨滅的傷痕，但為了更重要、更美好的將來，她願意揭開更深更痛的傷口。465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TPQwAaEJr
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不惜一切！465Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pXxMTSGha
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不出馨儀所料，剛剛的「真情剖白」令志恆對她更死心塌地。他乖乖交出手提電話，讓她親自決定影片的下場。
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